Authors: Charles Wright
Zone Journals (2 page)
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How sweet to think that Nature is solvency,
that something empirically true
Lies just under the dead leaves
That will make us anchorites in the dark
Chambers of some celestial perpetuity-
nice to think that,
Given the bleak alternative,
Though it hasn't proved so before,
and won't now
No matter what things we scrape asideâ
God is an abstract noun.
that something empirically true
Lies just under the dead leaves
That will make us anchorites in the dark
Chambers of some celestial perpetuity-
nice to think that,
Given the bleak alternative,
Though it hasn't proved so before,
and won't now
No matter what things we scrape asideâ
God is an abstract noun.
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âFlashback: a late September Sunday,
the V & A courtyard,
Holly and I at one end,
Bronze Buddha under some falling leaves at the other:
Weightlessness of the world's skin
undulating like a balloon
Losing its air around us, down drifting down
Through the faint hiss of eternity
Emptying somewhere else
O emptying elsewhere
This afternoon, skin
That recovers me and slides me in like a hand
As I unclench and spread
finger by finger inside the Buddha's eye â¦
the V & A courtyard,
Holly and I at one end,
Bronze Buddha under some falling leaves at the other:
Weightlessness of the world's skin
undulating like a balloon
Losing its air around us, down drifting down
Through the faint hiss of eternity
Emptying somewhere else
O emptying elsewhere
This afternoon, skin
That recovers me and slides me in like a hand
As I unclench and spread
finger by finger inside the Buddha's eye â¦
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âLondon 1983
âAfter the Rapture comes, and everyone goes away
Quicker than cream in a cat's mouth,
all of them gone
In an endless slipknot down the sky
and its pink tongue
Into the black hole of Somewhere Else,
Quicker than cream in a cat's mouth,
all of them gone
In an endless slipknot down the sky
and its pink tongue
Into the black hole of Somewhere Else,
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What will we do, left with the empty spaces of our lives
Intact,
the radio frequencies still unchanged,
The same houses up for sale,
Same books unread,
all comfort gone and its comforting â¦
Intact,
the radio frequencies still unchanged,
The same houses up for sale,
Same books unread,
all comfort gone and its comforting â¦
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For us, the earth is a turbulent rest,
a different bed
Altogether, and kinder than thatâ
After the first death is the second,
A little fire in the afterglow,
somewhere to warm your hands.
a different bed
Altogether, and kinder than thatâ
After the first death is the second,
A little fire in the afterglow,
somewhere to warm your hands.
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âThe clean, clear line, incised, unbleeding,
Sharp and declarative as a cut
the instant before the blood wells out â¦
Sharp and declarative as a cut
the instant before the blood wells out â¦
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âMarch Blues
The insides were blue, the color of Power Putty,
When Luke dissected the dogfish,
a plastic blue
In the whey
sharkskin infenestrated:
Its severed tailfin bobbed like a wing nut in another pan
As he explained the dye job
and what connected with what,
Its pursed lips skewed and pointed straight-lined at the ceiling,
The insides so blue, so blue â¦
The insides were blue, the color of Power Putty,
When Luke dissected the dogfish,
a plastic blue
In the whey
sharkskin infenestrated:
Its severed tailfin bobbed like a wing nut in another pan
As he explained the dye job
and what connected with what,
Its pursed lips skewed and pointed straight-lined at the ceiling,
The insides so blue, so blue â¦
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March gets its second wind,
starlings high shine in the trees
As dread puts its left foot down and then the other.
Buds hold their breaths and sit tight.
The weeping cherries
lower their languorous necks and nibble the grass
Sprout ends that jump headfirst from the ground,
Magnolia drums blue weight
next door when the sun is right.
starlings high shine in the trees
As dread puts its left foot down and then the other.
Buds hold their breaths and sit tight.
The weeping cherries
lower their languorous necks and nibble the grass
Sprout ends that jump headfirst from the ground,
Magnolia drums blue weight
next door when the sun is right.
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âRhythm comes from the roots of the world,
rehearsed and expandable.
rehearsed and expandable.
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âAfter the ice storm a shower of crystal down from the trees
Shattering over the ground
like cut glass twirling its rainbows,
Sunlight in flushed layers under the clouds,
Twirling and disappearing into the clenched March grass.
Shattering over the ground
like cut glass twirling its rainbows,
Sunlight in flushed layers under the clouds,
Twirling and disappearing into the clenched March grass.
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âStructure is binary, intent on a resolution,
Its parts tight but the whole loose
and endlessly repetitious.
Its parts tight but the whole loose
and endlessly repetitious.
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âAnd here we stand, caught
In the crucifixal noon
with its bled, attendant bells,
And nothing to answer back with.
Forsythia purrs in its burning shell,
Jonquils, like Dante's angels, appear from their blue shoots.
In the crucifixal noon
with its bled, attendant bells,
And nothing to answer back with.
Forsythia purrs in its burning shell,
Jonquils, like Dante's angels, appear from their blue shoots.
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How can we think to know of another's desire for darkness,
That low coo like a dove's
insistent outside the heart's window?
How can we think to think this?
How can we sit here, crossing out line after line,
Such five-finger exercises
up and down, learning our scales,
That low coo like a dove's
insistent outside the heart's window?
How can we think to think this?
How can we sit here, crossing out line after line,
Such five-finger exercises
up and down, learning our scales,
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And say that all quartets are eschatological
Heuristically
when the willows swim like medusas through the trees,
Their skins beginning to blister into a 1000 green welts?
How can we think to know these things,
Clouds like full suds in the sky
keeping away, keeping away?
Heuristically
when the willows swim like medusas through the trees,
Their skins beginning to blister into a 1000 green welts?
How can we think to know these things,
Clouds like full suds in the sky
keeping away, keeping away?
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âForm is finite, an undestroyable hush over all things.
âPower rigs drift like lights out past the breakwater,
white, and fluorescent white,
The sea moving them up and down
In the burgeoning dawn,
up and down,
White as they drift and flicker over the salmon run,
white, and fluorescent white,
The sea moving them up and down
In the burgeoning dawn,
up and down,
White as they drift and flicker over the salmon run,
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Engines cut, or cut back,
Trolling herring bait or flasher lures,
the sea moving them up and down,
The day's great hand unfolding
Its palm as the boats drift with the tide's drift:
Trolling herring bait or flasher lures,
the sea moving them up and down,
The day's great hand unfolding
Its palm as the boats drift with the tide's drift:
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All morning we slipped among them,
Ray at the boat's wheel
Maneuvering, baiting the double hooks, tying and cutting,
Getting the depth right,
Mark and I
Watching the rods as their almost-invisible lines
Ray at the boat's wheel
Maneuvering, baiting the double hooks, tying and cutting,
Getting the depth right,
Mark and I
Watching the rods as their almost-invisible lines
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Trailed through the boat's wake,
waiting for each to dip:
And when it came
We set the drag and played him,
the salmon jumping and silver,
Then settled like quick foil in the net's green â¦
Later, ground zero, the Straits of Juan de Fuca
sliding the fog out
Uncharacteristically, sunlight letting its lines down
For a last run,
glint from the water like flecked scales,
Everything easing away, away,
waiting for each to dip:
And when it came
We set the drag and played him,
the salmon jumping and silver,
Then settled like quick foil in the net's green â¦
Later, ground zero, the Straits of Juan de Fuca
sliding the fog out
Uncharacteristically, sunlight letting its lines down
For a last run,
glint from the water like flecked scales,
Everything easing away, away,
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Waves, and the sea-slack, sunset,
Tide's bolt shot and turned for the night,
The dark coming in,
dark like the dogfish coming in
Under the island's eyelid, under and down.
Tide's bolt shot and turned for the night,
The dark coming in,
dark like the dogfish coming in
Under the island's eyelid, under and down.
â15 July 1984
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âLashed to the syllable and noun,
the strict Armageddon of the verb,
I lolled for seventeen years
Above this bay with its antimacassars of foam
On the rocks, the white, triangular tears
sailboats poke through the sea's spun sheet,
Houses like wads of paper dropped in the moss clumps of the trees,
Fog in its dress whites at ease along the horizon,
Trying to get the description right.
If nothing else,
It showed me that what you see
both is and is not there,
The unseen bulking in from the edges of all things,
Changing the frame with its nothingness.
the strict Armageddon of the verb,
I lolled for seventeen years
Above this bay with its antimacassars of foam
On the rocks, the white, triangular tears
sailboats poke through the sea's spun sheet,
Houses like wads of paper dropped in the moss clumps of the trees,
Fog in its dress whites at ease along the horizon,
Trying to get the description right.
If nothing else,
It showed me that what you see
both is and is not there,
The unseen bulking in from the edges of all things,
Changing the frame with its nothingness.
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Its blue immensity taught me about subtraction,
Those luminous fingerprints
left by the dark, their whorls
Locked in the stations of the pilgrim sun.
It taught me to underlook.
Turkey buzzards turn in their widening spins
over the flint
Ridged, flake-dried ground and kelp beds,
Sway-winged and shadowless in the climbing air.
Palm trees postcard the shoreline.
Something is added as the birds disappear,
something quite small
And indistinct and palpable as a stain
of saint light on a choir stall.
Those luminous fingerprints
left by the dark, their whorls
Locked in the stations of the pilgrim sun.
It taught me to underlook.
Turkey buzzards turn in their widening spins
over the flint
Ridged, flake-dried ground and kelp beds,
Sway-winged and shadowless in the climbing air.
Palm trees postcard the shoreline.
Something is added as the birds disappear,
something quite small
And indistinct and palpable as a stain
of saint light on a choir stall.
â6 August 1984
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âI can write a simple, declarative English sentence,
Mancini said,
drinking a stinger and leaning back
In his green chair above the Arno.
And not many can say that,
He added, running the peppermint taste
Around on his tongue.
Out on the river,
Down below Prato, the sun was lowering its burned body
Into the shadows.
Happy birthday, Lieutenant,
He quipped, and ordered another round.
Mancini said,
drinking a stinger and leaning back
In his green chair above the Arno.
And not many can say that,
He added, running the peppermint taste
Around on his tongue.
Out on the river,
Down below Prato, the sun was lowering its burned body
Into the shadows.
Happy birthday, Lieutenant,
He quipped, and ordered another round.
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Twenty-four years ago, and dog days, indeed, Fortunatus.
Six months later
(flash-forward across the Aegean),
Tell Laura I Love Her
PA'ed the ship's lounge, the Captain's arm
Around my shoulders, full moonlight and Jesus
everything in the sky
Was beautiful â¦
I ducked out and turned back down to 2nd Class,
His sweet invective lotioning my right ear.
And stingers that night as well, for hours out of Piraeus,
Mancini grinning like Ungaretti,
And then he said,
What?
Six months later
(flash-forward across the Aegean),
Tell Laura I Love Her
PA'ed the ship's lounge, the Captain's arm
Around my shoulders, full moonlight and Jesus
everything in the sky
Was beautiful â¦
I ducked out and turned back down to 2nd Class,
His sweet invective lotioning my right ear.
And stingers that night as well, for hours out of Piraeus,
Mancini grinning like Ungaretti,
And then he said,
What?
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The stars are fastening their big buckles
and flashy night shoes,
Thunder chases its own tail down the sky,
My forty-ninth year, and all my Southern senses called to horn,
August night hanging like cobwebs around my shoulders:
How existential it all is, really,
the starting point always the starting point
And what's-to-come still being the What's-to-Come.
Some friends, like George, lurk in the memory like locusts,
while others, flat one-sided fish
Looking up, handle themselves like sweet stuff:
look out for them, look out for them.
and flashy night shoes,
Thunder chases its own tail down the sky,
My forty-ninth year, and all my Southern senses called to horn,
August night hanging like cobwebs around my shoulders:
How existential it all is, really,
the starting point always the starting point
And what's-to-come still being the What's-to-Come.
Some friends, like George, lurk in the memory like locusts,
while others, flat one-sided fish
Looking up, handle themselves like sweet stuff:
look out for them, look out for them.
â25 August 1984
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âCicadas wind up their one note to a breaking point.
The sunlight, like fine thread, opens and closes us.
The wind, its voice like grasshoppers' wings,
rises and falls.
Sadness is truer than happiness.
The sunlight, like fine thread, opens and closes us.
The wind, its voice like grasshoppers' wings,
rises and falls.
Sadness is truer than happiness.
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Walking tonight through the dwarf orchard,
The fruit trees seem etched like a Dürer woodcut against the sky,
The odd fruit
burined in bas-relief,
The moon with its one foot out of the clouds,
All twenty-one trees growing darker in a deepening dark.
The fruit trees seem etched like a Dürer woodcut against the sky,
The odd fruit
burined in bas-relief,
The moon with its one foot out of the clouds,
All twenty-one trees growing darker in a deepening dark.
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When the right words are found I will take them in and be filled
through with joy.
My mouth will be precious then,
as your mouth is precious.
If you want to hear me, you'll have to listen again.
You'll have to listen to what the wind says,
whatever its next direction.
through with joy.
My mouth will be precious then,
as your mouth is precious.
If you want to hear me, you'll have to listen again.
You'll have to listen to what the wind says,
whatever its next direction.
â9 September 1984
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âIt's all such a matter of abstractsâ
love with its mouth wide open,
Affection holding its hand out,
Impalpable to the impalpableâ
No one can separate the light from the light.
love with its mouth wide open,
Affection holding its hand out,
Impalpable to the impalpableâ
No one can separate the light from the light.
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They say that he comes with clouds,
The faithful witness,
the first-begotten of the dead.
And his feet are like fine brass,
His voice the perpetual sound of many waters.
The faithful witness,
the first-begotten of the dead.
And his feet are like fine brass,
His voice the perpetual sound of many waters.
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The night sky is darker than the world below the world,
The stars medieval cathedral slits from a long way.
This is the dark of the
Metamorphoses
When sparks from the horses' hooves
showed us Persephone
And the Prince's car in its slash and plunge toward Hell.
Seventy-four years ago today,
Dino Campana, on the way back
From his pilgrimage on foot
To the holy chill of La Verna inside the Apennines
To kiss the rock where St. Francis received the stigmata,
The stars medieval cathedral slits from a long way.
This is the dark of the
Metamorphoses
When sparks from the horses' hooves
showed us Persephone
And the Prince's car in its slash and plunge toward Hell.
Seventy-four years ago today,
Dino Campana, on the way back
From his pilgrimage on foot
To the holy chill of La Verna inside the Apennines
To kiss the rock where St. Francis received the stigmata,
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Stopped in a small inn at Monte Filetto
And sat on a balcony all day
staring out at the countryside,
The hawks circling like lost angels against the painted paradise of
the sky,
The slope below him
a golden painting hung from the walnut tree:
And sat on a balcony all day
staring out at the countryside,
The hawks circling like lost angels against the painted paradise of
the sky,
The slope below him
a golden painting hung from the walnut tree:
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The new line will be like the first line,
spacial and self-contained,
Firm to the touch
But intimate, carved, as though whispered into the ear.
spacial and self-contained,
Firm to the touch
But intimate, carved, as though whispered into the ear.
â25 September 1984
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âThe dragon maple is shedding its scales and wet sides,
Scuffs of cloud bump past the Blue Ridge
looking for home,
Some nowhere that's somewhere for them,
The iris teeter and poke on their clubbed feet:
October settles its whole weight in a blue study.
Scuffs of cloud bump past the Blue Ridge
looking for home,
Some nowhere that's somewhere for them,
The iris teeter and poke on their clubbed feet:
October settles its whole weight in a blue study.
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I think of the great painters in light like this,
Morandi's line
Drawn on the unredemptive air, Picasso's cut
Like a laser into the dark hard of the mystery,
Cézanne with his cross-tooth brush and hook,
And sad, immaculate Rothko,
whose line was no line at all,
Morandi's line
Drawn on the unredemptive air, Picasso's cut
Like a laser into the dark hard of the mystery,
Cézanne with his cross-tooth brush and hook,
And sad, immaculate Rothko,
whose line was no line at all,
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His last light crusted and weighed down,
holes within holes,
This canvas filled with an emptiness, this one half full â¦
Like the sky over Locust Avenue. Like the grass.
holes within holes,
This canvas filled with an emptiness, this one half full â¦
Like the sky over Locust Avenue. Like the grass.
â5 October 1984
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âWhat disappears is what stays â¦
O'Grady stories abound.
Born one day later than I was, my alter ego,
He points at me constantly
Across the years
from via dei Giubbonari in Rome, spring 1965,
Asking me where the cadence is,
Dolce vitaed and nimbus-haired,
where's the measure we talked about?
His finger blurs in my eye.
Outside the picture,
the Largo looms in the bleached distance behind his back.
O'Grady stories abound.
Born one day later than I was, my alter ego,
He points at me constantly
Across the years
from via dei Giubbonari in Rome, spring 1965,
Asking me where the cadence is,
Dolce vitaed and nimbus-haired,
where's the measure we talked about?
His finger blurs in my eye.
Outside the picture,
the Largo looms in the bleached distance behind his back.
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I look for it, Desmond, I look for it constantly
In the long, musical shape of the afternoon,
in the slice of sunlight pulled
Through the bulge of the ash trees
Opening like a lanced ache in the front yard,
In the sure line the mockingbird takes
down from the privet hedge
And over the lawn where the early shade
Puddles like bass chords under the oak,
In the tangent of 4 p.m., in the uncut grass,
in the tangle and tongue-tie it smooths there â¦
In the long, musical shape of the afternoon,
in the slice of sunlight pulled
Through the bulge of the ash trees
Opening like a lanced ache in the front yard,
In the sure line the mockingbird takes
down from the privet hedge
And over the lawn where the early shade
Puddles like bass chords under the oak,
In the tangent of 4 p.m., in the uncut grass,
in the tangle and tongue-tie it smooths there â¦
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But our lines seem such sad notes for the most part,
Pinned like reliquaries and stopgaps
to the cloth effigy of some saint
Laid out in the public niche
Of a mission or monasteryâ
St. Xavier, hear me,
St. Xavier, hear my heart,
Give my life meaning, heal me and take me in,
The dust like a golden net from the daylight outside
Over everything,
candles chewing away at the darkness with their numb teeth.
Pinned like reliquaries and stopgaps
to the cloth effigy of some saint
Laid out in the public niche
Of a mission or monasteryâ
St. Xavier, hear me,
St. Xavier, hear my heart,
Give my life meaning, heal me and take me in,
The dust like a golden net from the daylight outside
Over everything,
candles chewing away at the darkness with their numb teeth.
â19 October 1984
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âAccording to Freud, Leonardo da Vinci made up a wax paste
For his walks from which
he fashioned delicate animal figurines,
Hollow and filled with air.
When he breathed into them, they floated
Like small balloons, twisting and turning,
released by the air
Like Li Po's poems downriver, downwind
To the undergrowth and the sunlight's dissembling balm.
What Freud certainly made of this
Is one thing.
What does it mean to you,
Amber menagerie swept from his sun-struck and amber hands?
Giorgio Vasari told it first,
and told us this one as well:
A wine grower from Belvedere
Found an uncommon lizard and gave it to Leonardo
Who made wings for it out of the skins
Of other lizards,
and filled the wings with mercury
Which caused them to wave and quiver
Whenever the lizard moved.
He made eyes, a beard and two homs
In the same way, tamed it, and kept it in a large box
To terrify his friends.
His games were the pure games of children,
Asking for nothing but artifice, beauty and fear.
For his walks from which
he fashioned delicate animal figurines,
Hollow and filled with air.
When he breathed into them, they floated
Like small balloons, twisting and turning,
released by the air
Like Li Po's poems downriver, downwind
To the undergrowth and the sunlight's dissembling balm.
What Freud certainly made of this
Is one thing.
What does it mean to you,
Amber menagerie swept from his sun-struck and amber hands?
Giorgio Vasari told it first,
and told us this one as well:
A wine grower from Belvedere
Found an uncommon lizard and gave it to Leonardo
Who made wings for it out of the skins
Of other lizards,
and filled the wings with mercury
Which caused them to wave and quiver
Whenever the lizard moved.
He made eyes, a beard and two homs
In the same way, tamed it, and kept it in a large box
To terrify his friends.
His games were the pure games of children,
Asking for nothing but artifice, beauty and fear.
â20 October 1984
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âFunction is form, form function back here where the fruit trees
Strip to November's music,
And the black cat and the tortoiseshell cat
crouch and slink,
Crouch and slink toward something I can't see
But hear the occasional fateful rustlings of,
Where the last tomatoes seep
from their red skins through the red dirt,
And sweet woodruff holds up its smooth gray sticks
Like a room full of boys
all wanting to be excused at the same time:
Strip to November's music,
And the black cat and the tortoiseshell cat
crouch and slink,
Crouch and slink toward something I can't see
But hear the occasional fateful rustlings of,
Where the last tomatoes seep
from their red skins through the red dirt,
And sweet woodruff holds up its smooth gray sticks
Like a room full of boys
all wanting to be excused at the same time:
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The song of white lights and power boats,
the sails of August and late July devolve
To simple description in the end,
Something about a dark suture
Across the lawn,
something about the way the day snips
It open and closes it
When what-comes-out has come out
and burns hard in its vacancy,
Emerging elsewhere restructured and restrung,
Like a tall cloud that all the rain has fallen out of.
the sails of August and late July devolve
To simple description in the end,
Something about a dark suture
Across the lawn,
something about the way the day snips
It open and closes it
When what-comes-out has come out
and burns hard in its vacancy,
Emerging elsewhere restructured and restrung,
Like a tall cloud that all the rain has fallen out of.
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The last warm wind of summer
shines in the dogwood trees
Across the street, flamingoing berries and cupped leaves
That wait to be cracked like lice
Between winter's fingernails.
The season rusts to these odd stains
And melodramatic stutterings
In the bare spots of the yard, in the gutter angles
Brimming with crisp leftovers,
and gulled blooms in the rhododendrons,
Veneer, like a hard wax, of nothing on everything.
shines in the dogwood trees
Across the street, flamingoing berries and cupped leaves
That wait to be cracked like lice
Between winter's fingernails.
The season rusts to these odd stains
And melodramatic stutterings
In the bare spots of the yard, in the gutter angles
Brimming with crisp leftovers,
and gulled blooms in the rhododendrons,
Veneer, like a hard wax, of nothing on everything.
â3 November 1984
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