A Child of a Crackhead (4 page)

“Twenty-one, do you have a

boyfriend?”

“No, why do you want to be my

boyfriend?”

“No.” Black Ice said. Rachel looked at him with shock. “But, I do want to be your man.” He pulled her to him and kissed her on the lips.

After that day, they were inseparable.

Rachel fell head over heels in love with Black Ice. He bought her brand new clothes, but made her keep them at his apartment. He gave her money and anything that she needed or wanted. Black Ice thought this was his opportunity to mold Rachel into the perfect woman for himself.

With Rachel being so young and innocent, he would be her first at everything.

A month after they had been together, Rachel was in Black Ice’s apartment counting his drug money for him and putting it neatly into stacks for him. Black Ice grabbed her hands and led her into the bedroom. They kissed long and

passionately. He took off her shirt and took off her bra to let her young firm breasts free.

He slowly started sucking her nipples and licked around them. His had moved down to take off her jeans. Rachel got scared.

They had fooled around before, but they never went all the way. She was still a virgin. “Black Ice, stop please.” She said.

“Listen, Rachel, don’t I take care of you? Now, if you want to continue to be my girl. You have to grow up and go through with this.”

“But, I’m scared”.

“There’s nothing to be scared of I’ll go slow” Black Ice again began to kiss her again and slowly pulled her jeans off her.

He grabbed her ass and squeezed. He laid her down on the bed. As he removed his clothing until he was standing there naked, Rachel watched her man trusting every move he was going to make. He looked down at Rachel with his dick in his hand knowing that he was going to be taking Rachel’s virginity. Her first like he wanted.

He climbed on the bed and on top of Rachel. He sucked her tits one by one and slid her panties off of her as he kissed and licked her thighs. He spread her legs as Rachel nervously opened up for him. He rubbed his dick on her pussy and gently tried to push his dick insider her. “Aaawww, it’s too big. It won’t fit.” Rachel gasped.

“Hold on, baby” Black Ice got off the bed and went into the bathroom and returned with a bottle of baby oil. He poured a handful of the oil into his hand and rubbed it on to his dick making it nice and oily. He rubbed some on Rachel’s pussy with his fingers. He climbed back into the bed and got on top of Rachel.

Rachel spread her legs again thinking he wasn’t going to be able to get inside her.

He was just too big for her virgin pussy.

Black Ice leaned down and kissed her on the mouth and with one push slide into her. “Oh my God!” Rachel screamed.

“Relax and let me do me, ok,” Black Ice said feeling Rachel’s virgin pussy tight around his dick. She shook her head up and down nodding yes. Black Ice began to hump and grind in and out of her tight pussy.

Rachel wrapped her arms around his back because it hurt with every stroke he made doing the best she could to take her mind off the pain. Black Ice kept humping and pumping away turning each stroke of pain into pleasure. She scratched into Black Ice’s back while starting to enjoy the sweet sensation she was feeling inside of her. The penetration went deeper and deeper and then harder and harder. “Oh my god, oh my god”

she yells as her body quivered

uncontrollably as she came feeling like she was coming out of her body. Black Ice humped her as hard as he could and came inside of Rachel and collapsed on top of her.

“Damn, that pussy is good girl.”

Black Ice pulled out to see that his dick was covered with blood and cum.

“Oh my god, is that supposed to be there? Am I supposed to bleed like that?”

Rachel asked.

“Yes, baby, it’s okay. It’s supposed to be there when it’s your first time.”

“It hurt at first, but started to feel good.” Rachel told him.

They changed the sheets on the bed and jumped into the shower together.

After that day, Rachel was hooked to Black Ice. She would sneak out of momma’s house at all times of the night, just to get some of Black Ice’s sweet loving.

One morning, Rachel started throwing up. Every time she tried to eat something, she couldn’t keep anything down. Rachel was so scared. She didn’t know what to do or what was wrong with her. She walked to the hospital to get checked out. They took a urine sample and a blood test. She waited in the waiting room for the results.

“Miss Rachel.” A doctor called her name out.

“Yes, that’s me.” Rachel said as she stood up and walked towards him. She followed him through the door and into a patient room. “Please, have a seat young lady.” He said.

Rachel sat down in the chair. “Am I going to die?” she asked the doctor. She was scared she might have AIDS or an STD

like she had heard people talk about. She and Black Ice were having unprotected sex for a while now.

“No Miss Rachel. You’re not going to die, but you are going to be a mother.

“What?” Rachel exclaimed in a high pitched voice.

“You are six weeks pregnant. Now, I can’t tell you what to do as far as to keep the baby or not, but I can provide you with information at make sure you have a healthy baby.”

The doctor gave Rachel the pamphlets and information. She got up and left the hospital. She started crying thinking she was only fifteen years old. How could she be a good mother? What was Black Ice going to say? What if he doesn’t want the baby or her, then what? Rachel sat on the front porch stairs of momma’s house and cried hysterically. She was supposed to meet Black Ice at this place, but didn’t go.

When Rachel wasn’t showing up at Black Ice’s apartment, he got up and went out to look for Rachel. He knew it wasn’t like her to not come when he told her to. He found Rachel sitting on the front porch stair’s crying. “What’s wrong, boo? Why didn’t you come to my place when I asked you to do so? He asked Rachel.

Rachel didn’t say anything. She just sat there and cried even harder. “Listen, talk to me. If there’s a problem, we can fix it.”

Black Ice had started falling in love with Rachel. She would be the perfect wife for him in his eyes, because he had the chance to raise her and she did whatever he asked her to do.

“I didn’t come to your place; because I was afraid you would hate me or leave me.” Rachel said in tears.

“Rachel, I will never leave you and you will never leave me.”

“Michael!” Rachel said aloud. Black Ice knew it was serious because Rachel never called him by his real name. He warned her never to do so. The streets know him as Black Ice and he couldn’t afford for anyone on the streets to know his real name, just in case they wanted to start talking to the police about the things he did and things people thought he did, but nobody had any proof to prove it.

“Michael, I’m pregnant.” Rachel finally let out.

A smile spread across his face. “I’m going to be a daddy?” Black Ice asked.

Rachel nodded. He knew now he would have Rachel for life. Rachel was surprised at how well Black Ice took the news. He took her shopping and bought baby clothes, baby furniture, anything that they needed for their baby to come. He fixed up one of the bedrooms into a nursery with baby things and a crib. He fed Rachel with her favorite foods, rubbed her belly and oiled it down for her. Rachel was falling deeply in love with him. Rachel felt like the luckiest woman alive. She still lived at momma’s house, but once her grandmother found out that she was pregnant she’d kick her out, like she did with her own kids. Rachel knew she’d go and live with Black Ice and that would make her really happy. He already wanted her to stay with him, but she wanted to leave things with momma on a good note.

Rachel was sleeping in a nightgown and rubbed her belly in the room that she had to share with one of her girl cousins that was thirteen. Momma’s youngest son, Brian was twenty-one years old; he was sitting on the floor naked in the closet waiting for the girls to go to sleep. Once he was sure they were asleep, he would creep out and slowly get on top of Rachel. Rachel felt a hand on her mouth and the weight of a man on top of her. When she opened her eyes, she was shocked to see her uncle naked on top of her with a knife to her neck. “What are you doing?” Rachel asked. He threw his hand over her mouth to keep her quiet. “Shut the fuck up! If you say another fucking word, I swear I’ll cut you!” Briand said as he looked her in her eyes. With Brian’s free hand, he lifted up her nightgown and ripped her panties off of her. He stuck his two fingers inside of her. Tears started to roll down Rachel’s face. She couldn’t believe what was happening to her. Out of all the people in the world, she was being raped by her own uncle. “Stop!” Rachel screamed.

Brian forced his hand down on her mouth as hard as he could and cut her on the side of the neck. “Didn’t I tell you to shut the fuck up, bitch?” Rachel screamed in pain from the cut on her neck, but the hand that covered her mouth let no sound escape for anyone to hear. Brian shoved his dick inside of Rachel.

“You bitch!” he said as he started to fuck her. “Give me this pussy. I hear you out there fucking. It’s about time I get a piece of this ass!”

All Rachel could do was just lie there and cry as her uncle’s dick went in and out of her. She wanted to scream for help, but was too scared that he would kill her. She felt the sharp knife up against her neck. She felt the blood running down her neck from where he cut her.

“Yes, yes, bitch. You’re lucky I have been fucking your other cousin. I have been waiting to get your ass, but you’re always sneaking out to that nigga's crib.” He said as he was squeezing Rachel’s sore breasts.

He pulled up her nightgown even higher and sucked on her nipples. “Mmm, yes, yes”

Brian was feeling the nut building up. So he pounded and pounded away holding on to Rachel’s mouth. Rachel turned her head.

She didn’t want to look him in his eyes or see his face. The tears kept coming down from her eyes. She glanced at her little cousin in the other bed, who was fast asleep not hearing a sound that was happening in the same room.

Her cousin, Janet, wasn’t sleeping.

She was lying down on the pillow, but with her eyes wide open crying. She watched her uncle hump her cousin Rachel as he was moaning on top of her.

When Brian came, he climbed off Rachel. “If you open your mouth about this, bitch, I will do more than just cut you. I’ll put this knife up your pussy.” Brian said and meant every word. He walked his naked body out of the bedroom. Rachel started to cry uncontrollably. She couldn’t understand why this was happening to her.

Her younger cousin got out of her bed and came over to hug Rachel. “Rachel, don’t cry. He’s a monster. De does this to all of us.”

“What?” Rachel asked. “Did he rape you too?

“Yes,” Janet answered with tears coming down her face. “He does much worse things to me. He’s done this to every girl in this house, our ten year old cousin and even the eight year old. I tried to tell Momma, but she won’t believe me. He found out I told Momma and came in here on one of those nights you sneaked out to see Black Ice and he put his penis in my butt and took that knife he always carries, and put it inside of me” Janet said while crying.

“What do you mean he put it inside of you?” Rachel asked.

“He will do what he told you he’d do, if you tell anyone. He rammed it into my pussy cutting me up. I bled for two weeks.

Momma thought I was out there messing around with some boy and said it was my own fault.”

Rachel stopped crying and sat up on her bed and held her cousin. Rachel’s pain felt little compared to what her little cousin had been through. Both girls cried the night away in each other’s arms.

It was five o’clock in the morning; Rachel was still up holding her cousin in her arms who was fast asleep. Rachel carefully moved her arms and laid her cousin down on the pillow. Rachel got up and got dressed and walked out of the house. She headed over to Black Ice’s apartment.

She knocked on the door. Black Ice heard the knocking at this door and wondered who the hell would be knocking at his door so early. He grabbed his 44

calico-revolver from the nightstand drawer and went to open the door to see Rachel.

Rachel looked at Black Ice with nothing on, but his boxer’s and a gun in his hand.

“Girl, what’s wrong with you

knocking on my door so early. I thought you were a stick up or the cops.” Rachel didn’t say anything. Black Ice saw the tears still in her eyes. Then he saw how red her face was and could tell she had been crying for a long time. “Baby, what’s wrong?

Come in.” He said as he led her through the door. She sat down on the couch with tears again starting to roll down her face. Black Ice sat down next to her and noticed the cut on her neck. “Yo, who did that to you?”

Black Ice asked with anger in his voice.

Rachel wiped her tears off her face.

“My, my uncle raped me tonight and cut me with a knife. He said that he’d do worse to me if I told somebody.”

“What?” Black Ice said with anger and frustration coming over his face. He quickly got dressed and put the 44 calico-revolver in his waistband. “Yo, does he ever leave the house?”

“Yes, he leaves at six in the morning every day to go to the store to buy a pack of cigarettes.”

“Come on, Rachel” He said as he grabbed her hands.

“Where are we going?” she asked.

“I want you to point him out to me.”

“Why? You can’t do anything to him.

He will hurt me and my little cousins more than he has already. He told me not to tell anyone or he would do worse than he has already.”

A few minutes later, Rachel and Black Ice were on the corner of Saratoga Avenue sitting in the car. “If he goes to the store, he will have to pass by this corner. The store is on the next block.” Black Ice said to aloud to no one in particular. Black Ice and Rachel patiently waited on the corner of the block. She couldn’t understand why they were there though. No sooner that she that thought crossed her mind, she saw her Uncle Brian walking towards them. “That’s him.”

Rachel said pointing towards him.