A Great Unrecorded History: A New Life of E. M. Forster (62 page)

161
“an understanding rather than an agreement”:
EMF to FB, July 18, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:262.

161
“Dearest Florence, R. Has been parted with”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 8, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:274. The day of “parting with Respectability” was Oct 5.

161
“The half moon,”:
EMF to FB, Aug. 25, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:268–69.

162
“would otherwise be ours”:
EMF to FB, Sept. 13, 1917, KCC.

162
“It’s absurd”:
EMF to FB, March 23, 1918, KCC.

162
“to be a spy”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 8, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:270.

162
“Do you not think”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 11, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:274; “Words Spoken,” in Mohammed el Adl Notebook, KCC.

163
“it felt like the fall of a curtain”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 11, 1917, KCC.

163
“You called out my name”:
EMF, Mohammed el Adl Notebook, KCC.

163
“Everything seems breaking here”:
EMF to FB, Sept. 30, 1917, KCC.

163
His pool of friends:
EMF to FB, Aug. 25, 1917, KCC.

164
“whatever that means”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 8, 1917, KCC.

164
“stupidity and deadness”:
EMF to Lily, Nov. 26, 1917, KCC.

164
“It is very sweet of you”:
EMF to FB, Aug. 25, 1917, KCC.

164
“reliability cleanliness, intellectual detachment”:
EMF to GLD, Aug. 31, 1917, KCC.

164
“Your good friend, Mrs. Barger”:
EC to EMF, March 13, 1918, KCC.

165
“I want to put a few things on record”:
EMF to FB, Jan. 6, 1918, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:280.

165
“proof of something larger”:
EMF to FB, misdated April 3, 1918 (probably May 3), KCC.

166
“How does anything end?”:
EMF to GLD, June 25, 1917, KCC.

166
“nothing in my life”:
EMF, Mohammed el Adl Notebook, KCC.

166
And this view:
EMF to Plomer, Nov. 20, 1963, Durham.

166
“I never did find”:
EMF to GLD, Oct. 9, 1916, KCC.

166
“He is unfortunately black”:
EMF to FB, Sept. 13, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:271. “His other . . . suit—besides his uniform—is a long and rather unpleasing nightgown over which you button a sort of frock coat: bare feet in clogs. Thus attired he may walk with me in the neighborhood of his room, but not elsewhere. He always wears a fez.”

167
“Taking me by the sleeve”:
EMF to FB, Aug. 25, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:268.

167
“The whole ending of
Maurice
”:
EMF to FB, Feb. 18, 1918, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:287.

168
“I have known in a way”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 8, 1917, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:274.

168
“Oh Florence, what a mean”:
EMF to FB, misdated April 3, 1918 (probably May 3), KCC.

168
“he went to hospital”:
EMF to FB, March [n.d.] 1918, KCC.

168
“shovels [Egyptians] around like dirt”:
EMF to FB, March 23, 1918, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:288.

168
“make an effort over A”:
EMF to FB, March [n.d.] 1918, KCC.

168
“obliged to tell him”:
EMF to FB, May [n.d.] 1918, KCC.

169
“as Maurice and Clive sat”:
EMF to FB, May 14, 1918, KCC.

169
“two days have passed”:
EMF, “Words Spoken,” in Mohammed el Adl Notebook, KCC.

169
“some lovely cloud”:
EMF to FB, May 14, 1918, KCC.

169
“Your new arrangement isn’t possible”:
EMF to FB, May 27, 1918, KCC.

169
“He strikes me as more fully attached”:
EMF to FB, June 25, 1918, KCC.

169
“chucked that infernal job”:
EMF to GLD, May 31, 1918, KCC.

169
“received a wire from Tanta”:
MEA to EMF, June [n.d.] 1918, KCC.

169
“Griefs never come”:
MEA to EMF, June 27, 1918, KCC.

169
“He was a good swimmer”:
EMF to FB, July 16, 1918, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:290.

170
“seldom touched [the muddy floor]”:
Ibid., I:290, 291.

170
“Mr. Ganda and all”:
MEA to EMF, July 23, 1918, KCC.

170
“I am rather in favour”:
EMF to FB, July 16, 1918, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:291.

170
“I theorised to him”:
Ibid.

170
“All is exceptions in men”:
EMF, “Words Spoken,” in Mohammed el Adl Notebook, KCC.

170
“Sick of” Mansourah:
MEA to EMF, July [n.d.] 1918, KCC.

171
“bathing and sprawling”:
EMF to FB, Aug. 5, 1918, KCC.

171
“more romantic”:
Ibid.

171
“I think A’s [Adl’s] must be the saddest”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 2, 1918, KCC.

171
“I have just been writing”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 7, 1918, KCC.

172
“was scarcely in the world”:
EMF to FB, Oct. [n.d.] 1918, KCC.

172
“She is like some tame”:
EMF to FB, Nov. [n.d.] 1918, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:297.

172
“Why not take them”:
Ibid.

177
To Mohammed el Adl:
EMF, Mohammed el Adl Memoir, KCC.

177
“I am sure that I could have lived”:
EMF to FB, Feb. 25, 1922, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:23.

178
“with my present freedom”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Dec. 31, 1919, KCC.

178
“I see my middle age”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Aug. 12, 1919, KCC.

178
“I don’t see what it is”:
Ibid.

178
“the outward nonsense of England”:
EMF to Seigfried Sassoon, March 28, 1919; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:300.

178
“[a] couple of sly references”:
EMF to FB, Jan. [n.d.] 1919, KCC.

178
“very unwise as it puts me”:
EMF, Locked Diary, April 24, 1919, KCC.

179
“The Trouble in Egypt”:
EMF, Letter to the Editor,
Manchester Guardian
, March 29, 1919.

179
“I wish you was American”:
MEA to EMF, Oct. 3, 1919, KCC.

179
“I found in my dictionary”:
MEA to EMF, Nov. 4, 1919, KCC.

179
“In Egypt the native”:
EMF, Letter to the Editor,
Daily Herald
, May 30, 1919.

180
“going as Prime minister”:
EMF to Forrest Reid, Feb. 17, 1921, KCC.

180
Mohammed surprised him:
EMF to FB, March 17, 1921, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:2.

180
“a great coat and blue”:
EMF to FB, March 17, 1921, May 20, 1921, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:7.

181
“I wish he used”:
EMF to FB, May 20, 1921, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:8.

181
“He was a charming creature”:
Forster, “Three Countries,”
The Hill of Devi
, 297.

181
“finish it—it is stuck”:
EMF to ACF, March 19, 1916, KCC.

181
“[P]anic and cruelty”:
Malcolm Darling to EMF, July 11, 1919, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:61.

182
“In his social life”:
EMF to FB, May 20, 1921, KCC.

182
“You would weep at”:
EMF to ACF, April 1, 1921, KCC.

182
“For acres around the soil”:
Ibid.

183
“The least I can do”:
EMF, Kanaya ms., KCC. The Kanaya ms. has no date. It was typed much later by JRA; the original is likely dated to Forster’s 1921 travels to India.

183
“I think you know”:
Ibid.

183
Morgan recorded the conversation:
Ibid.

183
“kind of saint”:
Forster, “Three Countries,”
The Hill of Devi
, 297.

184
“I resumed sexual intercourse”:
EMF, Kanaya ms., KCC.

184
“It is difficult to find”:
Ibid.

184
“Do ‘fondness’ and ‘love’”:
EMF to GLD, Aug. 6, 1921, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:10.

185
“I was struck with the remoteness”:
EMF to GLD, April 14, 1921, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:4.

185
“intelligent and forthcoming”:
EMF to GLD, Sept. 17, 1921, KCC.

186
“Today . . . began exquisitely”:
EMF to GLD, Sept. 28, 1921, KCC.

186
“across the slender sphinx”:
EMF to GLD, Sept. 17, 1921, KCC.

186
“Why can’t we be friends”:
Forster,
A Passage to India
, 312.

187
“Mohammed collapsed under consumption”:
EMF to FB, Jan. 28, 1922, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:21.

187
“an unhappy time”:
Ibid.

187
“all the traditional symptoms”:
EMF to GLD, Jan. 28, 1922, KCC.

187
“radiant spirits”:
EMF to FB, Feb. 25, 1922, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:23.

187
“Mohammed was well enough”:
Ibid.

188
“depressed to the verge”: The Diaries of Virginia Woolf
, II:171, March 12, 1922.

188
“[t]he wrong channel”:
EMF, Locked Diary, April 8, 1922, KCC.