A Great Unrecorded History: A New Life of E. M. Forster (63 page)

189
“although I know that”:
EMF, Mohammed el Adl Memoir, KCC.

189
“determined my life should”:
EMF, Locked Diary, May 3, 1922, KCC.

189
“Death destroys a man”:
Forster,
Howards End
, 236.

189
“The
mater
is a misfortune”:
EMF to FB, June 17, 1922, KCC.

190
“When I began the book”:
EMF to Masood, Sept. 27, 1922, KCC; quoted in Furbank, “Introduction” to
A Passage to India
(Everyman’s), xix–xx.

190
“Pathos, piety, courage”:
Forster,
A Passage to India
, 140.

190
“the only person to whom”:
EMF to Masood, May 23, 1923, KCC; quoted in Furbank, “Introduction” to
A Passage to India
(Everyman’s), xix–xx.

191
“he never possessed it”:
Forster, “West Hackhurst: A Surrey Ramble,” in Jeffrey M. Heath, ed.,
Creator as Critic
, 111.

191
“There was . . . no gas”:
Ibid.

191
“I have to visit”:
EMF to Carrington, June 27, 1924, HRC.

192
“The Hogarth Press are”:
EMF to FB, July 7, 1922, KCC.

192
“I have just written”:
Ibid.

192
“I may show it”:
Ibid.

192
“exactly what I want”:
EMF to Sassoon, Dec. 12, 1923, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:119.

193
“among the elect”:
TEL to EMF, Feb. 20, 1924, copy at KCC.

193
“I’d very much like”:
TEL to EMF, April 6, 1924, copy at KCC.

193
“one of the funniest things”:
TEL to EMF, April 30, 1924, copy at KCC.

193
“I am glad you wrote”:
EMF to TEL, May 3, 1924, KCC.

194
“I’ve put the last words”: The Diaries of Virginia Woolf
, II:289, Jan. 23, 1924.

194
“Talking of Proust”:
Ibid., II:269, Sept. 18, 1923.

194
“In the best love making”:
EMF, Sex Diary, n.d., c. 1935, KCC.

195
“I don’t see what”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Aug. 12, 1919, KCC.

195
“I am not at all”: The Diaries of Virginia Woolf
, II:268, Sept. 18, 1923.

195
Reviewers welcomed his novel:
Sylvia Lynd, “A Great Novel at Last,”
Time and Tide
, June 20, 1924, in Gardner,
Critical Heritage
, 215.

195
In India and in England:
EMF, Locked Diary, Aug. 31, 1934, KCC.

195
“Famous wealthy, miserable”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Jan. 2, 1925, KCC.

196
“Hearing him yet”:
J. R. Ackerley, “Ghosts,” quoted in Parker,
Ackerley
, 51. The poem was published in the
London Mercury
in April 1922.

196
“the horror, beauty, depth”:
EMF to JRA, April 26, 1922; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:24.

197
Like many survivors:
Ackerley,
My Father and Myself
, 74.

197
“guilty and frustrated”:
Ibid.

197
“I don’t quite like A.”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Oct. 14, 1923, KCC.

198
“It was like a return”:
EMF, Locked Diary, March 24, 1925, KCC.

198
“No personal relationships”:
EMF, Locked Diary, May 23, 1923, KCC.

198
“some black blood”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Oct. 2, 1924, KCC.

198
“She was a very nice woman”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 24, 1924, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:65.

199
“he learned some strange”:
EMF to JRA, n.d., early 1925, HRC.

199
“I had better have”:
EMF to FB, Oct. 2, 1924, KCC.

199
“a queer ending”:
EMF to JRA, Jan. 19, 1925, HRC.

199
“The visit was sticky”:
Ibid.

199
“mere social behaving”:
EMF to JRA, n.d., early 1925, HRC.

199
“Madame n’est pas sans soupçons”:
EMF to JRA, July 20,1925, HRC.

199
“when the women went”:
Welty, “The Life to Come,” 365.

200
“tatty pubs in Soho”:
Ackerley,
My Father and Myself
, 134.

200
“Women have got out of hand”: Gardner, ed.,
Commonplace Book
, n.d., c. 1930, 59–60.

200
“I have just discovered”:
EMF to JRA, Oct. 17, 1924, HRC.

201
Sprott was bright:
Carrington to Gerald Brenan, Dec. 18, 1921, in Garnett, ed.,
Carrington
, 199.

201
“voice shooting up”:
Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:118.

201
“I
knew
you were”:
Parker,
Ackerley
, 109.

201
“a dreary nowhere”:
EMF to Sprott, March 22, 1925, KCC.

202
“a statue of a Greek”:
Parker,
Ackerley
, 103.

202
“[I]n this négligé”:
Ackerley,
My Father and Myself
, 184.

202
“I do not think”:
de Jongh,
Not in Front of the Audience
, 25.

202
The problem play was:
Parker,
Ackerley
, 90.

203
“You see! Incest as well”:
de Jongh,
Not in Front of the Audience
, 25.

203
“start . . . upon a long quest”:
Ackerley,
My Father and Myself
, 123.

204
“I think you are”:
EMF to JRA, Oct. 25, 1924, HRC.

204
“Proust seems to think”:
EMF to JRA, Tuesday [n.d.], late Oct. 1924, HRC.

204
“It is curious”:
EMF to JRA, n.d., early 1925, HRC.

204
At the bottom:
Ibid.

204
“Hammersmith Broadway was the pleasure”:
Daley,
This Small Cloud
, 92, 21.

204
An aficionado, Harry had unusual:
Daley to Furbank, March 21, 1968.

205
“made him wonderfully loveable”:
Ibid.

205
“gay and all embracing”:
Daley,
This Small Cloud
, 135.

205
“purple suede shoes”:
Parker,
Ackerley
, 110.

205
“scraped and pinched”:
Daley,
This Small Cloud,
114.

206
“as part of the excitement”:
Ibid., 131.

206
“a billiard room”:
Ibid., 86.

206
“In this cramped world”:
Ibid., 90–91.

206
“laughed about as if [they were]”:
Ibid., 101.

206
“One policeman regularly hoisted”:
Ibid., 90.

206
A large, pudgy, and unprepossessing:
Ibid., 112.

207
Morgan was head over heels:
EMF to Sprott, Aug. 21, year obscured, KCC.

207
“steak and eggs and bacon”:
Daley,
This Small Cloud
, 90.

207
“except for a few coster’s barrows”:
Daley to Furbank, March 21, 1968.

207
“spoke my language”:
Ibid.

207
“Nothing but the best”:
Ibid.

207
“It is not my policy”:
EMF to JRA, Oct. 17, 1927, HRC.

208
“Vicary cannot take”:
EMF to FB, Sept. 19, 1924, KCC.

208
“heavenly . . . if heaven can be”:
EMF to JRA, June 4, 1926, HRC.

208
“Don’t let anyone ‘spoil’”:
EMF to JRA, Jan. 15, 1928, KCC.

208
“Tell Charles to arrive”:
EMF to Sprott, Feb. 28, 1928, KCC.

208
“I have written to Charles”:
EMF to Sprott, June 2, 1934, KCC.

208
“Do see that C. goes”:
EMF to Sprott, Oct. 14, 1929, KCC.

209
“elderly man’s love”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Dec. 31, 1927, KCC.

209
“solid” and “independent of mother”:
EMF, Locked Diary, July 12, 1926, KCC.

209
“an enormous boy”:
EMF to Sprott, Sept. 15, 1928, KCC.

209
“not to feel intact”:
EMF to Charles Mauron, April 6, 1930; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:91–92.

209
“O, [the] celebrated author”:
EMF to JRA, n.d., early 1925, HRC.

209
“could have an intellectual basis”:
Ibid.

209
“Morgan’s friends hushed their voices”:
Daley to Furbank, date obscured, March–April 1968.

209
“loom up on the reader”:
Forster, “Notes on
Maurice
,” in
Maurice
, 218.

210
“the knowledge that I couldn’t”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Dec. 31, 1927, KCC.

210
“Those tickets cost 4/9”:
EMF to Daley, July 18, 1926, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:141.

210
“Don’t worry, old Morgan’s got plenty”:
Daley to EMF, quoted ibid., 143.

211
“Don’t rebuke, don’t arguefy”:
EMF to JRA, April 9, 1928, HRC.

211
“decayed morale or the natural”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Dec. 31, 1928, KCC.

211
“in old age, looked after”:
EMF to JRA, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:159. The letter dates from 1929.

211
“Coarseness and tenderness”:
EMF, Locked Diary, March 24, 1925, KCC.

211
“superficial itch for intimacy”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Oct. 24, 1923, KCC.

211
“Is a lie necessary?”:
EMF to JRA, n.d., Monday [Nov. 1924], HRC.

212
“signs of fertility”:
EMF to JRA, June 22, 1926, HRC.

212
“1 Scotchman, 1 Colonial”:
EMF to JRA, Dec. 15, 1926, HRC.