A Life Plan Without You. (83 page)

“Always and forever Michelle, I love you, baby, marry
me?”

“Umm, yes please, if I get that every night and as much as I
want hell yeah, I can’t wait to marry you Sam.” He sighed as he
held me tightly and protectively in his arms. I fell asleep with
him holding me close.

As I watch her sleep I can’t describe the feelings I have for
her, my need to protect her is primal she’s mine just mine, I have
never made love for as long or as nicely as that, stopping to feel
her to appreciate her and what she gave me, what she always gives
me unconditional love, I too ache from the amazing sex and as I
look at her I need her again, now I know its forever I feel alive
for the first time ever, with things to look forward to, damn whose
coming in and they are damned loud. I go down to see Jimmy as
pissed as a fart and Teddy oh hell he’s drunker than a skunk too,
they are falling around the floor laughing.

“Where’s my sister then, seeing as she isn’t my girlfriend,
you stole her away, Sam. Sam have you been doing naughty things
with Michelle your back is all scratchy! You have had sex haven’t
you? Don’t leave her Sam, please don’t.”

“Jimmy get up, no I am never leaving her, come on up and sit
down, where the hell have you been its like five in the
morning?”

“We were in a caravan park in a tent and drinking Guinness
and whiskey and I think Teddy is in love aren’t you
Edwardo?”

“I may have found my soul mate yes, she is called Jennifer
Smith, and she has the biggest green eyes I have ever seen and
black hair and is wonderful, my new cousin introduced her to me!
You have scratches on your back Sam. Where is my favourite
cousin?”

“She’s sleeping but the noise you two are making could wake
the dead!”

“You’ve killed her Sam?”

“No you idiot, she’s asleep and is safe and in Aunties
bed!”

“Hahaha, you have had sex, was it good did you do everything
on her list?”

“James, enough she is sleeping and shout louder and you will
wake her, where did Ellie disappear to?”

“Home, on her own in a taxi, she was a bloody nightmare and
she didn’t wanna kiss me either, fuck I’m screwed!”

“Not literally though?”

“Fuckkkk Off! I am going to bed you Edward can sleep on the
couch!” I laughed as they both raced for the bed I had a coffee and
went to see if Michelle was up for more…

When I
woke he was sitting on the bed, watching me he smiled and joined
me, leaning over he kissed me again.

“Are you all right Michelle?” I smiled, an embarrassing smile
at him, in that single moment I, knew I was never going to leave
him, the love I felt for him was hard to explain. I had a weird
ache in my heart, like I’d die if he left me and I’d kill to keep
him.

“You taste of coffee, yes angel and you are you all right,
with what we did? Was it okay for you? Was I all right?” He climbed
in bed at the side of me.

“You were wonderful, it was wonderful, really the best thing
ever. I loved you before but now. I need you again and I need you
now Michelle. I can’t believe I waited for this night for so long,
to do this with you baby.” He was on top of me and kissing my neck,
nibbling at my ear, kissing my mouth, he lowered himself into me
slowly. Oh my God, my body writhed in absolute pleasure again. He
was within me with every inch of my body feeling as if it was
complete, I was less tense, I'd enjoyed the last time, even if it
was painful, it was so exhilarating, it had brought us closer
together. This time I didn’t hurt as much, I hoped that this would
get easier every time. Slowly pulling a little out, I grabbed his
back with both hands raising my whole body to match him, to put it
back in.

His hands holding me gently at my hips and he moved his body,
slowly his body was moving inwards and outwards, a tidal wave of
strange emotions were running through my mind, my body moved with
his, responding to his gentle touches, he smiled down at me, as I
put my arms around his neck, he leant down kissing me, the passion
was out of this world.

“Baby,
your mine, relax wow this is fantastic, are you alright? Michelle
are you alright am I hurting you?”

“No, I’m fine it just feels strange.”

“Just fine? I’m offended.” He smiled as he kissed me, it was
beyond fine it was amazing, like no other feeling I’d had before.
Now, thrusting in and out a little quicker, and then he’d slow down
teasing me. I wanted him, needed him. I felt my whole body shudder,
a chill, and then a heat surged through my body. My feet are
resting on the back of his legs, holding him in me, as we worked up
to a sweaty mass he kissed me. This was getting better, the all new
sensations rushing throughout my body. We moved slowly together,
the tiny kisses the touches, and then he is a little harder with
the thrusting he carried on in and out. I was either dying or
coming again.

“Sam, argh please this is, oh hell please baby don’t stop
please don’t stop.” He quickened the pace, a lot harder and
quicker. He stopped and spoke softly his finger stroking my cheek,
I looked into his eyes he smiled kissed me gently.

“Baby girl, this is amazing I love you. I can’t believe I am
going to make love to you every single day of our lives.” He kissed
me, repeatedly. Biting my lip and letting it fall. The tears
slipped down my cheek as he told me he loved me, he kissed away the
tears. He started to move gently within me oh so slowly, making my
sex come alive, the passion in his bodies slow and rhythmical
movements within me were leading to a wondrous orgasm and as I
neared, grabbing at the sheets for some kind of tie to the bed, I
honestly thought I was going to float of the bed towards heaven,
and as I reached the point of no return I couldn’t stay quiet any
longer the subtle groans turned into loud instructions for the man
smiling, as he hovered above me!

“Oh hell, oh God, oh God-God-God help me. Sam please, don’t
stop baby don’t stop.” His lips gentle touch of my breasts
savoured, as he worked those kisses towards my sensitive nipples
and as he suckled each one in turn my body came alive and the
tingling sensation as my orgasm reached a fevered and body
shivering end, I begged for more. His lips touched mine and our
tongues danced their usual dance

Our skin when it met sounded like a gentle clapping, our
bodies were making music, the noises it made, combined with the
sound of our kisses, then hearing him groan and finally cry out my
name and telling me what he wanted me to do and asking what I
needed, was too much, I shuddered and came again and for a silent
minute, the only sound I could hear was the beating of my heart,
our heavenly sex sounds were silenced as Sam held me whilst I
shivered and shook below him and then the only sound that remained
was that of the pounding in my chest, I died for just one tiny
minute, that minute though felt like a lifetime, as I held Sam
tightly.

I recovered pretty quickly awakening from my sex coma, to the
cries of Sam saying he loved me over and over. All this made me
want more from him, grabbing his head and pulling his lips to mine
I began kissing him deeply, I felt a wetness between my legs and
the pain was now not painful, but pleasurable, a weird yet pleasing
and wild experience, one I hoped to feel again and again this was
an extreme high like nothing I had felt before.

The hair grabbing seemed to turn him on more and after those
final few hard strokes he came crying my name and shaking as he
collapsed, spent onto my chest, kissing me with his gentle kisses,
to my now sore lips.

“Oh hell Michelle, what have you done to me? I can’t get
enough of you baby, I never want this to end, the feelings I have
are like… Shit, I don’t know what they’re like? They are so
extraordinary Michelle, like you. I can’t explain just how
phenomenal I feel being here with you, your mine all mine and I
love you like I have never loved anyone before, oh hell baby thank
you.” He kissed my nose with a gentle peck. He lay on top of me
watching me, as I smiled up at him.

“Umm, shush. Trying to catch my breath you here Samuel, you’re
wearing me out, my poor lips are all kissed out and I ache in
places I didn’t think you could, plus I think you may have broken
my doodah.” He laughed.

“I am sorry for my crudeness there for a moment I don’t know
what came over me? Well I do and I want to express a little more
crudeness baby, if that is possible? But alas I fear I may have
broken my favourite toy, my poor little doodah is all broken but is
it beyond repair? I sincerely hope not because I quite like being
in your doodah baby, now I have been there and sealed the deal. Yep
so fucking crude I know, but I fucking love you Michelle Welles, I
really can’t believe I waited so long, I’m so sorry.” He pulled me
in for a head kiss and a cuddle.

“Having
sex makes you crude; you do know you dropped the F word in there a
few times angel?” He laughed and held me tightly.

I love after sex cuddles; he smells differently, his skin
smells of him, sex and my perfume. He pulled out slowly, shish that
hurt again. I moved to one side he filled the space at my side. My
sex was so tender and as he lay smiling I lay at his side worn out
and sore.

“Are you okay? Did I hurt you because I was as gentle as I
could be? Please tell me you’re okay?” I turned to face
him.

“I’m fine really my doodah is sore, but I’m fine I’m more than
fine in fact, I feel complete if that makes any sense? You have
something of mine which nobody else can ever have.” He smiled then
pulled me to him and kissed me.

“I need to know that this was all that you wanted, you did say
you wanted to be made love to all night and you wanted to ache,
when you gave me your list that night in the restaurant?” He
laughed and held me tighter. He’d done as I asked, I did ached and
my virginity was no more.

“Umm, well you did all that was in the brief and then some.
I’m sure we could get more practice in Sam. I love you so much and
I’m never leaving you, and for the record I asked when you were
going to fuck me, all night.” I got up leaving the very messy sheet
behind. “That’s going to take some explaining, if I can’t get it
clean.” I grabbed a shower and washed the night’s sex from me, wow
was I tender and sore, he was watching as I got back, the grin on
his face priceless.

“The whole virgin bit wasn’t a lie then? It’s just that Jimmy
said you’d had other boyfriends, and well you’re so good at the
other things you and that mouth of yours I sort of wondered… Sorry,
I know you don’t lie, he was just winding me up and we had only
been seeing each other two days.” I jumped on the bed wet through
and punched him.

“That hurt Michelle, but I’m happy you trusted me enough to
actually give yourself to me. Really Mi cielo, now get dressed, we
need to shop for a ring for that finger.” He smiled as he kissed me
again. “You’re all mine baby thank you, now get dressed we have a
man to impress and to ask if we can get married.”

“I don’t think I can bloody walk Sam? I ache really ache. I
can’t believe we finally did it.” He just laughed, I wasn’t joking
it hurt to walk. I put on the white dress, fresh underwear and
shoes as he went for a shower and changed. I stripped and re-made
the messy bed, the bedding I put in to wash with a ton of salt, I
hoped that it would all come out in the wash. I put on the kettle
and made us a drink. I sat in the front room with my feet up and
hugging my legs, grinning like a kid in a free sweet shop, I could
have all the Sam candy I could take, and he wouldn’t moan. I though
ached, feeling like I’d been on a horse all week.

Well I had been rode hard all night erg I really thought that
was funny? I laughed inwardly and sat hugging my knees smiling like
a fool. He came down smiling too and fresh from his shower looking
damn fine.

“Your first time has to be special, I wished it had been
somewhere nicer and I could have done the whole champagne and
rose’s thing. I wished it had been more romantic.” I smiled because
to me we could have been anywhere and it would have been good with
him and it certainly had been memorable, I ached for more of him,
and loved him more, was that even possible?

“I’m glad mine was with you and for the record you make me
feel really special all the time, last night was wonderful for me
thank you. I didn’t think we’d ever get there. Can I ask why you
changed your mind?” He smiled with the hugest of smiles, matched
only by mine.

“When that drunk, had his hands over you, I didn’t want anyone
to touch you, I needed to protect what was mine. I knew days ago,
after the Missy fit and a half you had at me over the Janet thing.
I knew, I just knew when you said it wasn’t just sex to you it was
giving yourself to me, that did it Mi cielo, that and how jealous I
was when you said you could get anyone in the disco to have you,
even both of my brothers. You were right and I was wrong. I knew
then you’d never hurt me not like she did, and I wanted you, all of
you. Nobody is ever having you but me Michelle. I wanted you from
the first minute, I laid eyes on you and keeping my hands of you
has been murder.

Do you know how many times in your warm and inviting bed, how
many nights lying in your arms, those same arms, which hold me when
you tell me you love me, the same arms that hold me when I cry, do
you know how many times, I had my soldier ready to take you? Every
single night Michelle, I fell so deeply in love with you, that I
couldn’t think straight. When I’m not with you, I miss you. When I
can’t hear you, smell you or touch you. I’m lost and alone. I love
you all those ways too Michelle. I’m never looking back baby,
because you are my future and like you, you’re the first thing I
think of and the last thing I think of every single day, you’re all
I think about all day. Now ring shopping for my
fiancée.”