A Long Distance Love Affair (9 page)

You are my complete passion and my inspiration.

I hope you have recovered from my last email...!! I'm off now to buy the oil in delicious anticipation of our next encounter whenever that might be.  When you're off shopping today for your shirts, look at the buttons and think of me undoing them in a state of wanton, abandoned desire and complete lust for you!!

Chariette

Dear Divine One

I have thrown resistance completely to the wind with you which I think you will have gathered by now and how glad I am of it.  In fact it was never in the picture...

With regard to pace, I am so dying for you I would like to be blown away in a passionate storm as the first move, then after a (short) rest, I would like to really take my time over you, really explore you with my hands and mouth and tongue and lips.  I want to leave my kisses all over you and drink you in with my mouth and savour the delicious touch of your naked flesh with my fingertips.  There's not an inch of you I want to leave untouched.  I marvel at your beautiful body and the lovely effect it has on me.  I am longing to entwine my fingers in yours and feel the warmth of your lovely square strong palms.

It is thinking about this and the exciting expectation of it all that thrills me with you too.

And I would very much like you to rub me all over with oil - I can assure you I would be extremely responsive to that. It would make me full of gesture and posture and demeanour and suggestion.... To feel your hands sliding over my breasts and between my legs is such a divine thought.  Then I would like you to rub 'you' up and down the length of my oiled spine and stroke my neck with 'yourself' and touch my ear.  Then I would love you to enter me from behind (this is what I wanted to say to you on the phone).  My hips would arch up to meet your movements and I would love to feel your hands clasping my waist and drawing me to you.  And all of this lovely and slowly...

Oh how I wish you were here....
Chariette

My most beautiful and favourite ‘et al’

I am glad you are still speaking to me after recent excesses...it’s your phone calls that stir my passions so much I just can’t help myself.

I’ve got the oil....and am interested also in the ‘other directions’ you mention, but I know if I were to ask you to elaborate you would tell me that I will ‘just have to wait...”  So I guess I’ll just have to rely on my already overworked imagination.  I have a great deal of fun with you that way... I so love to undress you both physically and in mind. I find that extremely exciting.  I love you to undress me too.  I’d like you to take off my shoes then take my ankle in your lovely hands and stretch up my leg so that you can kiss the back of my thighs...

When are you off to South America?  I haven’t got far in finding some good Spanish words for you. I’ve been too pressed at work to do anything the last few weeks but I’ll try to get onto it soon. (I’d like to get onto other things as well..one particular position just haunts me...) 

Thank you for your lovely email and beautiful phone call tonight and for reassuring me that I had nothing to worry about. You had better not give me too much licence here mind you as I have a very fertile imagination, and very fertile desires....

 You just thrill me and make me feel so alive! I love to talk with you and play with you.  I appreciate the time you give me.

Hasta la vista, mi vida!

Chariette

Dear Chariot

I thought I had better get in early tonight so as not to incur your wrath!

That was fun last night being in the system together.

I love this communication with you.  Your phone calls are wonderful.  They make me feel so plainly happy in the simplest sense of the word-pure unadulterated happiness if you know what I mean.  And your laughter is lovely, and you say nice things to me.  I still don’t feel quite as at ease with you on the phone as I do in my emails.  In my emails, ‘at ease’ doesn’t even make it on the radar I feel so relaxed and comfortable with you.  I guess it’s just that I can muse and reflect in emails and I’ve always been a quiet musing and reflecting type.

When we met up in Melbourne for the first time, you said that you thought I was ‘intriguing’....I wonder what you meant by this...

I still feel full of awe for you and still feel stunned with surprise at your interest in me and this makes me feel a bit tense and throbbing on the phone.  But at the same time I feel completely at ease and totally abandoned with you sexually and physically and feel I could say anything to you and really take my delight of you with no worries at all.  So there’s a bit of a paradox happening there.  I guess when you call me the first feelings tend to dominate and I probably sound a bit nervous and incoherent.  This is because I am so taken with you, my whole being feels just enveloped by you.  The way I seem to cope with this nervousness is for my sexual alter ego to emerge and ‘run the show’ and I can hide behind that and feel more at ease.  But I want you to understand that this alter ego is just a mask for the real me and that the real me is deeply sensitive, terribly romantic and very moved by life and the people in my life.  It’s this person I’d really like you to get to know if I can get her to relax a bit and make her presence felt more. This is the person who fell for you on first sight and has been just so swept away with you.

I know that this explanation is pretty convoluted, and reminds me of Byron asking Coleridge to ‘please explain his explanation’, but I’m hoping it will go some way to addressing the question of intrigue.  But I would still like to know what you meant....

The discovery of your divine body and of your deep sexual passions have only recently come to light for me and were not the drivers behind my early reactions for you, but were such a wonderful, divine, exciting, thrilling bonus.

And now that I come to think of these things I’m afraid I’ve completely lost control again....I would love to be sitting on you just now, looking down into your beautiful face (I so love your face), our arms extended and joined in a hand clasp with fingers intertwined and me moving onto you, really loving the feel of you filling me, and then slowly moving on you in ways to extend the delicious intimacy of it, until you can’t control yourself a moment longer...

Your Divine-ness

I have been thinking of you.  This activity is so much a part of my life now it’s equivalent to me saying ‘I have been breathing’.

I have very strong memories of you at meetings when we worked at the same place. Lots of lovely images of you flood back to me from those times – you walking into the room carrying your jacket and your case – and my heart pounding with pleasure at seeing you.  And the deliciousness of spending the next hour and a half listening to the sexy tones of your voice, secretly taking you in – every look, movement, gestures – I know the many different looks on your face so well you would be surprised! 

I love the way you walk and carry yourself.  I am just completely smitten with you!  My hands are longing to touch you and my lips are dying to connect with your cheeks your eyelids (‘the glittering eyelids of my soul’s desire’), your lips, the nape of your neck, your fingertips, your navel, your special bits, your beautiful thighs and calves and insteps and toes.

And then I would like you to turn over so I could start all over again!

Chariette

Dear Chariot

I survived my indulgent drinking bout last night with no hangover this morning. Champagne seems to be good with me that way. It's good with me in other ways too....

I am still reading Byron's Don Juan.  It's an epic poem the length of a novel and I've been too tired at night recently to finish it off. But I am just thrilled with it!  It has everything - left wing politics; utterly brilliant descriptions; very moving commentary on the devastation of war, and plenty of romance of course - what more could a girl want??!!

Well in my case there is one thing - he's about 6 foot tall (and has other very pleasing proportions...) eyes of bluish grey; a smile that just lights my soul; a voice as sonorous as the swells of the ocean; hands so beautifully shaped and strong and so expressive (the very thought of them makes me wish they were all over me...) and a sexual charisma that is completely irresistible.  Hmmm it would be so lovely to be interacting with this gorgeous creature right now.

But in his absence it's back to Byron....

Chariette

My lovely boy

I am just drowning in desire for you after your email. I will do my best to make this vision a reality for you when we are next together, because:

 "Being your slave, what should I do but tend

 Upon the hours and times of your desires?

 I have no precious time at all to spend

 Nor services to do, til you require."

How I would love to 'tend upon you' just now.  You inspire such tenderness in me.  The very thought of you warms me and fills me with such desire to touch you.  You make all my senses quiver and throb for you.  I think you are SO beautiful and SO desirable and SO sexy.

Chariette

(Sorry about the unsolicited test message earlier today..I thought it was you ringing me. I hope it wasn't awkward for you.  But you must admit I have been VERY restraining of myself in my contact with you so far!!)

Hola mon amigo especiale! 

I would really love to be calling you much more beautiful intimate things, but mon espagnole is too limited, but you know what I really feel anyway....

Hope you're enjoying Mehico. Thank you for your lovely call on Saturday (well Friday for you).  It was a wonderful surprise and I so appreciated you making the effort.  Your voice, as always, is just so sublime.  I'm looking forward to your return very passionately so that I can get to hear more of it.  I've been feeling full of feeling for you these last few days.  I wonder if I'll ever get over this!!  But this contact with you has made me so happy and I just dissolve with longing for you most of the time.  It's just as well you're not here or you'd be really knackered by me.... !!!   I could do with you just now... I could do with you every night really...Oh what I wouldn't do with you if I had the chance..and what I would!!

Oh how I long for

 "The gentle pressure, and the thrilling touch.