An Unplanned Life (Unplanned Series) (2 page)

Chapter 2

Nicole

The past…

It was the summer before my senior year in high school and I felt like I had it all. I was the captain of the cheerleading squad. I had the greatest best friend that anyone could ask for and I was going out with Jonathan Caldwell, quarterback of the football team. Jonathan was the guy that all of the girls wanted to date, but he was only interested in me. Jonathan was a year older than I was and he was headed off to Boston University in the fall. Every time I would stress about what would happen to our relationship once he left, he would always reassure me that we would be together forever. Being seventeen and
thinking
that you were in love for the very first time, you tend to believe some pretty crazy things and that just happened to be one of them. Jonathan and I hadn’t officially gone “all the way.” In fact, I had never gone “all the way” with any guy. My parents were strict Catholics and it was instilled into my brain that those things were only supposed be done after you were married. Despite my parent’s warnings, I was beginning to feel the pressure from Jonathan and knew that it was inevitable.

Jonathan came to my house to pick me up. We were going to the movies. I wanted to spend as much time as possible with him. He was leaving in two weeks and I wouldn’t be seeing him until Thanksgiving.

I stuck my head in the living room where my mom, dad, and younger brother Justin were engrossed in a movie.

“See ya later
, guys!”

“Nicole
, I want you home by eleven,” my dad said.

“Okay,” I responded.

“Bye kids; have fun!” my mother shouted as we walked out the door.

We got into Jonathan’s
Mustang and he took my hand. “My parents are at a wedding tonight and are going to be out until late. I say we skip the movies and go back to my house.”

“Okay, we can get a movie on-demand.”

He smirked at me and nodded. “Yeah, sure.” Within minutes, we were pulling into the driveway of Jonathan’s mini mansion. Mr. Caldwell, Jonathan’s dad, was one of the biggest real estate developers around. My dad, who owned his own construction company, worshipped him. Jonathan was an only child and I often wondered why on earth they needed a house that big. I walked into the house and was immediately greeted by Chauncey, Jonathan’s German Shepherd. “Hey, pretty girl,” I said as I pet her on the head. Jonathan took my hand and led me up the stairs. “Jonathan, I thought we were going to watch a movie.”

“We will, later.”

We walked into his bedroom and sat down on his bed. I knew that the inevitable was just about to happen. He began to kiss me and pushed me down on the bed. “Jonathan, I’m scared.”

“Don’t be
, Nicole. It will be fine.” His hands ran up my shirt and down my shorts. He stuck his finger inside of me and I gasped. His tongue continued to move around in my mouth while he moved his finger in and out of me. I wasn’t sure if this was supposed to feel good or not, but I was leaning more towards – not so good.

He wasted no time taking my shorts and underwear off while removing his own.

I stared at him as he stood up and exposed himself. I had never seen him completely naked and I was now getting really nervous, realizing that this was actually going to happen. “Put it in your mouth, Nicole.”

“What?” I asked as I looked at him nervously.

“I want you to give me a blow job.”

I bit my lip, not knowing what to do
, mentally or literally. “I-I don’t know what to do.”

He lifted me up so I was sitting on the bed and moved closer to me. “Just wrap your lips around it and move it in and out of your mouth.” I looked up at him nervously before taking him in my mouth. “Watch your teeth!” he shouted.

“Sorry,” I said with my mouth full. I began to slide it in and out of my mouth. The whole time, I was thinking that my parents would kill me if they could see me right now. A million thoughts began to go through my head.
What was I supposed to do if he came? There was no way in hell that I was going to swallow that!

He began to move himself in and out of my mouth
. I started to gag, but it didn’t stop him. He finally stopped and pushed me down on the bed. “Nicole, I want to have sex with you.”

I didn’t want to
, but I knew I had to if I wanted to keep him as my boyfriend. “Jonathan, I don’t know if I’m ready for this. This is a big step for me.”

“
Nicole, I love you and I thought you loved me too. We’ve been together for two months and the furthest you’ve let me go is touching your tits. I’m leaving in two weeks.”

“I know, but –” He put his lips on mine to stop me from talking. My body tensed up and I took a deep breath as I watched him get ready to enter me. “Jonathan, do you have a condom?”

“Ah, come on, Nicole, I don’t need to wear one. You can’t get pregnant your first time.”

“Says who?” I laughed nervously.

“Nicole, trust me. You can’t.” He didn’t even wait for my response before he was shoving himself into me.
Two thoughts ran through my head. The first was that this wasn't how I had pictured my first time, and the second was that even though I could have said no at any point, I was actually allowing this to happen.

“Ouch, it hurts,” I cried.

“Nicole, just relax. It will be fine.”

I closed my eyes, trying to dull the pain. It felt like I was being torn in half. I didn’t get why everyone made such a big deal over sex
; so far, I thought it was horrible! He moved around inside of me for a few minutes before he let out a loud groan. He quickly pulled himself out of me and came on my stomach. I felt the tears beginning to form in my eyes. I felt so horrible. I couldn’t stop thinking about how disappointed my parents would be if they had known what I just did. He handed me a towel to wipe my stomach. “That was great, Nicole. Thanks.” He bent down and kissed me on the cheek. I was silent. I quickly dressed and went into the bathroom. I couldn’t hold back the tears when I looked down and saw my underwear stained in blood. This whole sex thing was not at all what it was cracked up to be – I hated it! I finished up and walked down the stairs to find Jonathan in the kitchen, eating a bowl of ice cream. “Hey, babe, you want some?” I shook my head.

“Can you please just take me home
? I’m not feeling so good.”

“Yeah, okay.”

The car ride home was mostly silent, before I finally spoke up. “Jonathan, did you pull out in time?”

“Yes, Nicole! It’s fine.” He sounded like he was annoyed.

“I’m sorry, but you know my parents would freak if –”

“Well, they’re not going to freak, because you’re not!”

We pulled up to my house and I couldn’t get out of the car fast enough. Jonathan leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. “Thanks again, Nicole.”
Really, why was he thanking me for having sex with him? I found that to be a little weird. Was that something people did after they had sex?

I walked into my house, trying to get to my bedroom as fast as I could. I just couldn’t face my parents. “Nicole, what are
you doing home so early? I thought you were going to the movies?” my dad shouted from the living room.

I walked
toward him, feeling self-conscious like he knew right away that his little girl had done the nasty. “Yeah, I’m not feeling so great. I think I may have eaten too much popcorn.”
Okay, now on top of feeling like a whore, I was now a liar.
“I’m just going to go lie down.”

“Yeah, you
r mom’s not feeling so great either. Maybe there’s something going around.”

I shrugged my shoulders. He stood up to give me a kiss. “Good night. Feel better.”

“Thanks, Dad. Love you.”

“Love you too,
pumpkin.”

I took the stairs two at time, finally making it into my bedroom. I couldn’t tear my clothes off fast enough and get in
to the shower to wash away my guilt.

The weeks passed
. Jonathan was off to college and I had begun my senior year. I hadn’t heard much from him since he had left. I tried to tell myself that he was just busy with classes. But even the few times that I had called him, it took him days to return the call. I was just finishing up with cheerleading practice and waiting for my little brother Justin to get done with his football practice so I could drive him home. My best friend Donna was sitting on the bleachers with me while I waited for him. It was now mid-September and I was eight days late with my period. I tried my best not to stress about it, telling myself that it was normal to be a little late every now and then. I finally couldn’t keep it to myself anymore.

“Donna, my period is late
.”

Donna’s eyes widened.
“How late?”

“
Eight days.”

“Nicole, why didn’t you make him
use something?”

“I-I don’t know. He told me that you couldn’t get pregnant the first time and he even pulled out.”
          “Nicole, did you sleep all through health class? You can absolutely get pregnant the first time! And pulling out doesn’t mean anything. You need to take a pregnancy test!”

“What! I can’t buy one of those!”

“Well, that’s the only way you’re going to know for sure. I’ll go buy it. Come over to my house after you drop Justin off and we could do it there. My mother is working late, so there’s no one home.” I took a deep breath. I had a sick feeling in my stomach as I handed Donna the money to make the purchase. “Okay, I’ll see you in a little bit,” Donna said as she made her way down the bleachers. My brother was just finishing up and was being swarmed by a bunch of freshman girls. I headed down the bleachers to hurry him along so I could get to Donna’s and find out my fate.

“Hey, Nicole!”
one of my brother’s many female admirers said.

“Hi,” I responded, not much in the mood to make conversation with anyone.

“Are you ready, Justin?”

“Yeah,” he said, finally tearing himself away from the girls.

Justin was fourteen and he and I were super close. He would sometimes get angry at me for being the overprotective big sister, but I couldn’t help myself. I always felt this overwhelming need to watch out for him, whether he liked it or not. I always wished that I could have had that same type of relationship with my sister, but she and I were like fire and gasoline. Renee, my sister, was five years older than I was. She had graduated from college in May, got engaged over the summer, and was now planning out her big, elaborate wedding, not caring that it was going to put my parents in the poor house to pay for it. As long as she was happy, that’s all she cared about. My parents catered to her every whim. My mom, who was a stay-at-home mom her whole life, took a part time job just to help fund Renee’s big fancy shindig that she was planning in the spring. I laughed to myself when she asked me to be the maid of honor. I knew full well that there wasn’t an ounce of sincerity to it. She was only doing it because she felt obligated, since I was her sister. Little did she know, I could have cared less if she had asked someone else.

“Justin, just tell Mom I have to run to Donna’s. She took my history book home with her by accident and I need to get it
,” I said as we pulled into the driveway.

“Okay, but you better be home in time for dinner or she’ll freak.”

“I know. I will be.”

I floored it out of the driveway, driving to Donna’s a little faster than I should have. Donna was waiting for me with the front door open as I entered. We wasted no time going into the bathroom. Donna explained to me what I needed to do. I stared at the test strip as it processed, not really knowing what I was supposed be seeing. “Donna what does two lines mean?”

I watched as Donna scoured over the instructions and a look of alarm washed over her face. “Nicole, you’re pregnant.”

Chapter 3

Nicole

I stared down at Ella a little longer before I quietl
y tiptoed out of her room. I poked my head into Ryan’s room, where he was still fast asleep as well.

I crawled back into my nice comfy bed, unable to resist giving my sexy husband
, who was also sound asleep, a kiss on the cheek. He slowly opened his eyes at the touch of my lips, looking like he was trying to get his bearings straight. He flashed me his sexy, crooked smile once he was coherent enough to familiarize himself with his surroundings.

“Ella and Ryan are still asleep,” I said.

He sat up on his elbows and looked at the clock with the same look of alarm that I had, just a few short minutes ago. “She’s fine; I just checked on her,” I said.

“Well, then it looks like we have time for a little you
-know-what,” he said with a smile.

I smiled back as Dailan hovered over top of me and pulled the covers over our head
s. Dailan and I had a great sex life, but since Ella came along, our time together had dwindled down. We took turns tending to her at night. She was up basically every two hours in the night and by the time we had any opportunity in the bedroom, it was for sleep, not sex. I was hoping that now that she was getting a little bigger, she would be sleeping for longer periods of time. I was keeping my fingers crossed that last night was a sign of things to come. Working full-time and raising two kids was a lot easier said than done. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. My life was perfect.

Ella’s whimpering came over the baby monitor right on cue, just as Dailan and I had finished making love
. “Perfect timing,” I said as I started to get up.

“I got her,” Dailan said as
he jumped out of bed.

  I smiled as I listened to him talking to her through the baby monitor
. “Aww, I shoulda let your mommy come in here for this one,” he said. No doubt, he was referring to a situation in her diaper. She began to giggle, something she always did when Dailan was around. There was no doubt that she loved her daddy and vice versa. She was definitely the light of his life.

I finally got up when I could no longer ignore the sound of Dailan gagging through the baby monitor
. He was just finishing up with her diaper change when I walked into the bedroom.

“Need some help?”

“Nope, I got it.” He picked up Ella and gave her a kiss on the cheek. She squealed in delight. “How could something so adorable produce something that smells so bad?”

I shook my head and laughed
. He carried her out of the room as I followed him out the door.

Ella sat in her high chair
, drinking her bottle and patiently waiting for her cereal to be done. Ryan came walking down the steps with his eyes half closed and major bed head.

“Well, it’s about time
,” Dailan teased as he took Ella’s cereal out of the microwave.

I had to do a double take; Ryan looked like he had grown overnight
. He was getting so tall and it was hard to believe that he would be ten years old in four days.

Dailan handed me the bowl of cereal
and I began to feed Ella. Ryan sat down next to me. “Can I do it?” he asked.

“Sure,” I said
, handing him the bowl and spoon. Ryan was the perfect big brother and also a tremendous help. I was thankful that Dailan’s new promotion didn’t have him traveling nearly as much as before. But there were still times when he did have to go away on business and those times Ryan would take right over and help out like a pro. I sat and watched as he fed his little sister. It was clear that he loved her very much and she absolutely adored him as well. I was saddened to think that I had missed out on this part of Ryan’s life, but was so grateful that I had found him and wouldn’t be missing out on anymore. The day that he had first referred to me as “Mom” was one of the happiest days of my life. Even though I wasn’t there for him for the first eight years of his life, I still felt that special mother-child bond with him that could never be taken away. Dailan and Ryan were inseparable. Ryan was starting to get involved in every sport imaginable and Dailan was enjoying every single minute of it.

I
t was the Friday before Memorial Day weekend. School was closed for the day and I was planning on finally getting around to using my Mother’s Day gift. I was spending the morning getting a facial and pedicure. Dailan had taken the day off as well. We were celebrating Ryan’s birthday tomorrow and we had some last minute things to do.

I placed a plateful of waffles that I had just taken out of the
toaster oven in front of Ryan and took over feeding Ella, who was more interested in what Ryan was doing than eating. She began to babble as I tried my best to try and pry another spoonful of cereal into her mouth. I finally gave up. She had eaten half the bowl and if she got hungry later, I knew she would let me know. I moved her high chair closer to Ryan so she could watch what he was doing.

I decided to
take a quick shower. Dailan was coming down the steps. His brown wavy hair was still damp from the shower. He pulled his gray t-shirt over his head as I gave him a hug. “Would you mind keeping an eye on Ella so I can take a shower?”

“No problem.”

“Thank you for giving me a ‘me day’ today.”

“You deserve it,” he said as he pulled me toward him and kissed me.

“Well, maybe later on tonight, I will give you what you deserve.”

He raised his eyebrow at me and smiled. “How about if Ryan watches Ella and I get back in the shower with you so you can give it to me now,” he joked.

“Dailan O’Maley, good things come to those who wait,” I said as I kissed him softly on the lips.

“Yuk!” Ryan said as
he came from the kitchen and saw us kissing.

“Ah
, Ryan don’t be jealous. Just because you want to kiss Katy Carmichael like this,” Dailan teased.

Ryan looked at Dailan and started blushing. “I do not!
Big mouth!”

“Ryan
, you didn’t tell me that you had a crush on Katy Carmichael.”

“Well, it was supposed to be a secret
, but since
some
people can’t keep them!”

“Well, don’t worry about me
. I won’t tell,” I said, sensing his frustration.

“Ella needs her diaper changed
; she smells really bad!” Ryan said.

“Again?”
Dailan groaned

“See ya!” I laughed
as I kissed Dailan on the lips and ran up the steps.

“Serves you right for blabbing you
r mouth!” I heard Ryan say to Dailan as I reached the top of the steps. I laughed at the two of them and the unbreakable bond that they shared.