ANTONIO: Diablos MC (10 page)

              Hearing all he was doing and being blindsided makes me laugh so hard.  It brings tears to my eyes. He gets angry and throws his beer bottle into the trash making glass shatter inside the thing.  Storming over to me he grabs my face between his hands, inches his face as close to mine as possible without making contact “Hearing me look for you and worry about you every god damn day is funny to you.”

              Shaking my head, no “Hearing that Tank lead you on a wild goose chase is though.”

              Letting go of me and plopping back down into his chair.  “Yeah well that fucker shouldn’t have stepped in my way.  He will learn.  And then we will see who is laughing then.”  Rubbing his hands over his face showing his annoyance and impatience.  “So what do you want from me?? Money?  Is that all I am going to be??  Someone you can throw Emma at just to get a quick buck.”

              Is he fucking serious.  I have never asked him for anything.  I haven’t even hinted that I want a fucking cent from him but yet here he is treating me like as if I came back for his fucking money.  Standing up I throw my beer bottle as hard as I can at him.  He ducks out of the way fast enough that it doesn’t hit him but shatters behind him on the patio.  I scream at the top of my lungs “You fucking piece of shit.  I don’t want anything from you.  I don’t want your money.  Honestly I don’t even want to be staying in this house for one night.  But I was going to try for my daughter because I want her to know her daddy.  But fuck you.  I don’t want anything from you.”  Walking away from him I yell “Matter a fact I don’t even want to waste your fucking time.  We are out of here.  Fuck you Toni.  You lying fucking prick.”  Storming through his house making my way to the room Emma is sleeping in.  Before I reach her door I feel hands wrap around my waist and hoist me up and over his shoulder.  Walking past Emma’s room Toni takes me into another room and throws me onto the bed. Crawling on top of me, he wraps his hands in my hair so I can’t move my head.  “God I missed you.” He says right before he crushes his lips hard onto mine.  I at first try to fight him.  Or at least I want to fight him.  But just like 4 years ago my mind says one thing but my damn body says another. 

              Pushing him away so he leans up and looks at me.  “I didn’t come back for your money.” 

              Crashing his lips back down on top of mine.  “I was just testing to see what you wanted from me.”  He says while kissing up and down my neck.

              “Toni I want you to be involved as much as you want to be.  But that doesn’t mean I want anything from you.  She is your daughter.”  Before I could finish my statement Toni leans up and places a finger over my lips. 

              “Tomorrow.  Tonight I just want to enjoy you.  We will talk tomorrow.”  He says looking me straight in the eyes.  Deciding everything else can wait until tomorrow I lean up and kiss him.  He takes that as my agreement and kisses me back.  While his hands work down my back and start to unzip my dress.  Once he has my zipper all the way down he slowly pulls my dress down my body.  To his surprise I went braless and am only wearing a black thong under my bridesmaid dress.  Taking in my naked state he growls a low throaty growl that sends a shiver down my body.  Before he fully stands up he hocks his fingers in my thong and slowly pulls them off of me.  Laying completely naked in front of him he gets off the bed, never taking his eyes off me and begins to undress himself.  “Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?”  He asks.

              Placing my hands over my face in embarrassment.  “Look at me!” He demands.  Moving my hands away I turn and look at him.  “Always beautiful.” 

              “Yeah stretch marks and all.”  I say rolling eyes.

              While stripping out of his clothes he says “That makes you a woman.  And that Haylee knowing you got them from carrying my child makes you sexier than any woman I have ever seen.” 

              I go to make a smart ass comment but he stops me.  “If you say one negative thing about you not being sexy I swear Haylee I will beat your ass so red you won’t be able to sit for days.”  I don’t say anything.  I just sit there and stare in amazement at how fucking hot Toni is.  I mean yeah I knew he was sexy but damn over these last years he has gotten more muscles than I remember him having and damn it makes my mouth water.  Soon he is standing in front of me completely naked.  His glorious cock standing at attention for me.  “God I can’t take it.  I have to be inside you right now.”  Grabbing a hold of my legs and throwing them over his shoulders. I stop him before he thrusts into me.  Looking down at me puzzled. 

              “Condoms Toni.”  I say quietly.

“Haylee I am clean.  And I never go bare with anyone.  Only you.”  He says looking at me with eyes pleading to let him make contact with me.

              “I am not on any birth control.  We got pregnant last time while I was on birth control.  So I think we for sure need a condom.” 

              Smiling down at me Toni thrusts his hips and slowly slides inside of me.  After a long groan he looks at me and says “Well looks like Emma will be getting a brother or sister than.”  He leans down and kisses me while picking up his speed.  It doesn’t take long before I am falling over the edge in pure ecstasy.  And it doesn’t take long before Toni is moaning my name and filling me with his seed.  Once we both come down and our breathing normalizes he flops down on the bed beside me.  Pulling me into his embrace.  “Haylee I love you.  I always have.  God I missed you so much.”  He says squeezing me closer to him and nuzzling his face in my neck. 

              Turning over I push him back onto the bed and straddle him.  Knowing he doesn’t really have any recovery time I grab his semi hard cock and sink down onto it.  Bringing it back to life inside me.  While riding him I look him lovingly in his eyes and tell him everything I have always held back “Toni I have always loved you.  I have never stopped loving you.” 

              Sitting up so we are face to face Toni asks “Marry me Haylee.” Hearing those words throw me over the edge.  I scream his name into his mouth while he claims my lips to silence my screams.  Seconds later I feel him expand and explode inside me.  Resting my forehead against his to calm down he repeats “I am seriously Haylee.  Marry me.” 

              Looking up to see if he is serious.  I see no joking, no worries, no stress.  All I see is pure love.  I know I want to say yes but I need to know why.  And that is what I ask him “Why?” 

              He laughs “Why am I asking you to marry me?”  I shake my head yes.  “Because I have lived 4 years without you and I can’t live one more day without you in my life.  I love you so much it hurts to be without you.  I thought I would never know what true love is but Haylee the moment I saw you that day at Mama’s I knew.  I instantly knew you were it for me.  Which is probably why it pissed me off so much when you blew me off.  I didn’t know what it was then but looking back now it is because I knew you were meant for me.  I love you, I need you and I want you every single day.  Marry me Haylee.” 

              “And you’re ok with being a dad.  You’re ok with Emma.”  I ask. 

              “I am more than ok with my beautiful baby girl Emma.  And if I am not mistaken I have twice now tonight tried to get your pregnant.  And I won’t stop until you are yet again carrying my child.  So yeah I think I am ok with being a dad.”  He says lightly laughing. After a couple of seconds, he stops dead in his tracks and looks at me with a stern face.  “I might be a really shitty dad but I promise I will do everything I can to make sure my kids are happy and safe.” 

              Grabbing his face between my hands “Making sure she is happy and safe makes you a great dad.  And I love you Toni.  I don’t want to spend one day away from you either.  Yes, I will marry you.” 

              Grabbing me by my hips Toni pick me up and takes me into the shower.  Where we make love for the third time that night.

CHAPTER 11

4 WEEKS LATER

TONI

             
If you would have met me a month ago you would say I was a very angry person.  You would say I hated life.  I was unhappy.  I didn’t even enjoy being around my brothers.  Most importantly you would have known I hated kids.  I really hated kids.  Honestly I still do.  When we would have family days at the club or days I knew kids where going to be around I would stay away.  I just couldn’t handle being around the brothers with their old lady’s and all their bratty spoiled loud ass kids.  And if I had to be around them I always made sure to scare the shit out of them so they stayed away.  I don’t know what it is but kids make me want to drive my bike off a cliff.  But all that changed within a matter of seconds. When I watched that beautiful little girl walk down the aisle at Tank’s wedding. I felt drawn to her.  I felt something deep inside that made me know she was special.  But it wasn’t until I picked Emma up in my arms I knew my life would be different for ever.  And my brothers knew it as well.  All those damn fuckers taking pictures of me holding her.  Yeah I would have done the same thing.  First time ever I picked up a kid instead of making it run away crying.  The second she raised her arms to me I had to pick her up.  I felt a need to protect like never before.  I wanted to hold her close and never let go.  I have never felt like I had something in my life that makes me want to be a better man.   And instantly I wanted to be better for her. I wanted to have my little girl with me 24/7. I knew instantly that she was mine.  No way can I deny her.  She is a Hernandez through and through.  But what is crazy is I want more kids.  I never thought I would want this life.  With how deep I hate kids and my shitty up bringing I always thought it was best to just never have them.  But holding Emma in my arms and having her look at me with those dark eyes knowing she is mine.  Something inside of me changed.  Tank always used to tell me it is different when it is yours.  Of course I never believed him. Thought he was full shit.  Having me never stopped my mom from being a whore and never stopped my dad from beating the shit out of me just for breathing. But when I held her in my arms I knew Tank was right.  I will never raise a hand to my own flesh and blood.  If anything I will kill anyone who ever tries to hurt my little girl.   Now I am not going to say I am going to be a perfect dad.  Hell can anyone be a perfect dad.  But I will do everything in my power to make sure she is happy and safe.  That is what Haylee says makes a good dad.  Making sure my kid is happy and safe.  And so far I have done a pretty good job at doing that. 

              Haylee is such a great mom.  So loving, caring and very attentive to Emma.  I knew the second I met her I knew she would turn my world upside down.  I knew that she was a good person.  She was then and still is a better person than I ever will be.  And I love that woman more and more every day.  And for some reason she loves me.

Thankfully she forgave me for lying about being married.  I knew the second she asked me if I was married it would come back to bite me in the ass if I didn’t tell her the truth.  But I also knew she was the type of person who wouldn’t be with a married man.  No matter how strong of a connection we had or how much she wanted me.  It just isn’t who she is.  Like I said.  Better person than I am.  But she understood why I hid Vera.  That skanky slut.  Funny thing was she actually made me show her my divorce decree so she knew for sure this time that I was divorced.  We also talked about her following Haylee and confronting her. Haylee admitted it freaked her out since the skank followed her out of state but luckily nothing happened.  I promised her that Vera was nothing to be concerned about anymore.  She is out of the picture.  Hell I haven’t seen or talked to that slut since the divorce was finalized.  But I didn’t tell Haylee that I am searching for that bitch.  I want to keep an eye on her.  If she confronted Haylee once I wouldn’t put it past her to do it again.  But of course just like last time she has disappeared.  I swear that woman is a totally different person than she was when I first met her.  Honestly if I had a time machine and could go back I would to make sure I never got involved with that woman. But since I can’t I am going to do what I can to keep her away from my family. 

I also forgave Haylee for not telling me about Emma.  Yeah I was pissed and I was hurt that I missed out on 4 years of my daughter’s life.   And yeah it still upsets me.  But I can’t really be to mad.  And I can’t really blame her for doing what she thought was best for our daughter.  Like I said before I fucking hate kids.  And yeah back when we first started dating I always said if she ever got pregnant I would drag her ass to get an abortion.  Yeah I am an asshole and I have made club whores get an abortion.  No way in hell am I having a kid raised by a whore.  Reminded me of my shitty upbringing.  But I don’t know if I would have done that with Haylee.  But she didn’t know either.  Now it is different.  I want Emma around all the time.  And I want more kids.  I can’t believe I do but I want a lot more kids.  I told Haylee that the first night we got back together and she thought I was joking but I am not.  And I told her the next morning while we ate breakfast.  I didn’t ask her I just told her.  She is moving back home, her and Emma are moving in with me, we are getting married and I am going to put as many babies in her as she will allow me.  Of course she joked and said we would have 20 kids.  But the look I gave her she knew I wasn’t joking.  So we agreed to just take it one kid at a time.  But hell I have tried every spare moment I have for the last 4 weeks to put another little one inside of her.