Beautifully Destroyed (11 page)

Chapter Twenty-Five

Toria

When I saw Jeb talking to Sean, the same odd feeling came over me that had the day before when I first ‘met’ him. Something was off about him, but I wasn’t sure what to think. Was it just the fact that I sort of remembered him from before my accident, or was there so much more to it? Either way, I didn’t trust him.

“Toria?”

I turned around at the mention of my name, to see the girl who had been standing with Sean coming my way.

“Yes?”

“Hi, I’m Maddie, and Barb is one of my best friends. Do you know you were the one that ruined their engagement?”

I looked at her, confused. I had no idea what she was talking about. “I have no idea who Barb is.”

“That’s because you are Whoria Toria. Yeah, Sean told me all about you. How you threw yourself at him all those years ago. Even though he was older than you. I also know about how you are a hard core drug addict. Oh, and homeless. I hope you like living it up in the fast lane. But even your parents hate you. They’re the ones that kicked you out, because you were nothing but a druggie whore. Why don’t you do everyone a favor and runaway and do more crack? Maybe it will kill you this time. But leave Jeb alone. He is spoken for.”

I was shocked at what I was hearing. Was this true? Was I a whore? “Maddie, thank you, sweets.” I looked over to see a blonde, and there was something familiar about her. I wondered if it was the Barb woman she spoke of. “Yeah, why don’t you run away and destroy your life more?”

I started to back away, and I looked around for the exits. That’s when I tripped over someone and fell to the ground. Then it was like I had a flash and a person’s face popped in my head. He was a black guy. Oh no, was he one of the drug dealers? I got up and I heard Jeb calling my name. People around me were whispering, and some were even laughing. I started to walk faster. All I wanted to do was get the fuck out of there. When the night air hit my face, the tears spilled. I looked around and I had no idea where to go. I started to walk, but I heard my name being called.

Jeb grabbed my arm and he spun me around. “What happened?”             

“Homeless, really? I am a homeless whore?”

He looked shocked. “Toria, let me explain.”

“Why? So you can beat around the bush even more? So you can lie to me? All I want to know is who I am, who I was before I was bashed in the head. Is that really too much to ask?

He pulled me into a hug. “I will explain everything. Please come home with me.”

“Promise? I really need this. Please help me.”

He went to get his car, so I sat on the bench to wait. When his car pulled up, he got out and helped me get in. We began to drive. I just watched the city lights pass us by. When we pulled up to his place, my mouth opened in shock. He lived in a beautiful condo. When we walked in, I just stood there not knowing what to do. Jeb walked over and grabbed my hand.

“Make yourself at home.”

I took off my shoes and followed him into the living room. It was so white and bright. I noticed in the corner was a guitar. “Do you play?”

“I used to.”

I turned to face him. “You will have to play for me one day.”

He chuckled. “I promise you I will. So please sit and let me explain to you what is going on.”

He told me everything that he knew. About my parents kicking me out, about me dropping out of school. That explained why I didn’t wear the dress to the prom. He told me about being homeless, and that Vanessa helped me get the job. Thinking about her, I really wanted to see her. He told me about what happened the night I ran away. About how Barb was. Thinking about all this mad me sad. To know that I could be summed up so easily … I was a homeless girl who was addicted to drugs. That was who Toria Jacobs was.

“Earlier when I fell, I had a flash of a black man. Do you know who he is?”

“That sounds like Mitch. He took care of you for years.”

I smiled. I wanted to meet him. “Can I meet him?”

“Yes, tomorrow I will take you to him. But you must know, he isn’t doing well. He was also a drug addict. He is going through withdrawals just like you are.”

“At least he is getting clean.”

We talked for a while, and he answered all my questions. I was upset with my rents, and I didn’t want to go back to that place. I really wanted to stay with Jeb. He made me a sandwich and told me I could wear one of his shirts. When I was done changing, I walked out to the living room and he was playing his guitar. He had a magnificent voice.

“Don’t stop. I love listening to you.”

He sat down the guitar and walked over to me and slammed his lips to mine. He backed me up against the wall. I deepened the kiss and moaned in his mouth. He stopped kissing me and placed his forehead against mine.

“What are you doing to me?”

“What do you mean?”

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. “I lose control when I am with you. I just want to touch you, feel you, be inside you.”

“Then do it. Lose control, feel me, touch me, and take control of me. I want that more than you know.”

His lips were back on mine in a flash. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He started to walk toward the steps. We stopped kissing so we could get up to his room. He slammed me against the wall and I let out a loud moan. I could feel his large erection pressing against my sex. He turned me around and laid me on the bed.

“I want to taste you.”

He started to kiss my leg, and once he got up to my inner thighs, I moaned louder.

“Please taste me.”

He helped get my underwear off, and I felt his tongue against my folds. He started to lick slowly, and when he made it to my clit, his tongue circled around it.

“Oh Jeb, I want to come. Please make me come.”

He slid in a finger and I started to ride it. He continued to lick and suck my clit and finger-fuck me. I started to shake and I came so hard that my heart felt as if it would bust out of me.

“I want to be inside you, baby.”

He got up and grabbed a condom and rolled it on. He pulled me up and on top of him. I grabbed his hard erection and I slowly pushed it into me. Once he was all the way in me, I pulled his shirt off and he started to lick and suck on my nipples as I rode him. We moaned and groaned together until we both met our orgasm. Once we both came, I fell on top of him.

He ran his hands in my hair. “You are so beautiful.”

“Do you really think so? Even after all that you’ve heard about me?”

“We are all human, and we make choices that we are not proud of.”

“I know, but I wish I knew why I started using drugs. I wish I could remember.”

He brought my face to his and kissed my forehead. “Baby, we will get you to remember.”

“I am glad I have you.” I said before a soft kiss. “Can I get a shower?”

“Only if I can join you.”

I climb off him, sore from our ministrations. Both of us got into the shower, and he washed my body. As he was rinsing me, he would kiss every inch. He really knew how to make a girl happy. After we were done, we got out. We went to lay back down in the bed together. He held me in his arms. This was the perfect moment, and there was no way in hell I was going to let this moment go.

Chapter Twenty-Six

Jeb

I woke up and Toria was curled up in a ball. I just looked at her as she slept. She looked so peaceful, but also broken. My heart suddenly broke for her. I began to kiss her shoulders and her arms.

“I like being woken up like this.”

I smiled to myself as I flipped her over. I got on top of her and started to tickle her. She started to laugh. “Please stop! You are going to make me pee myself.”

I stopped and placed my lips to hers. Her kisses made my heart skip a beat. “Toria, I’m falling in love with you.”

He eyes went big and she smiled. “I am falling in love with you as well. You have been by my side and haven’t given up on me.”             

“I could never do that to you.”

“Thank you.”

“Now, let’s get ready so I can take you to see Mitch.”

She sat up and looked at me. “I have no clothes here, and I really don’t want to go back to my house.”

“We will go and get you some clothes before we go see him. Hey, would it be cool if we invite Vanessa? She really wants to see you.”

“I would love to see her. It seems like she was the only true girlfriend I had. Even though I just met her. “

We got up and got ready. I gave her some of my clothes to wear for the time being. Where I was taking her was right around the corner. She felt really silly because she had to wear her heels. My sweats were so big on her, but she looked adorable. I got her some new jeans, shirts, dresses, skirts, shorts, shoes, and undergarments. She was a wonderful shopper; she shopped conservatively and cheap. I could tell she was excited to be shopping. Once she figured out what she wanted to wear, we headed to visit Mitch.

“Thank you, Jeb. You didn’t have to do this.”

I grabbed her hand. “Get used to it. I am going to spoil you so much.”

“Oh, please don’t.”

“No fighting with me.”

We both laughed.

I pulled into Tony’s driveway and saw that Vanessa was there already. We got out and Toria just stood there looking at the trailer.

“You okay?”

“Yeah, this place seems familiar to me.”

I looked toward the place and back to her. “That’s a good thing. Maybe you are remembering stuff.” We walked in, and when we got inside, something incredible happened. Toria looked at Mitch and ran into his arms.

“Mitch, I remember you! You took care of me. I am remembering. Jeb, I remember him.”

“Toria, I have been so worried about you.”

The reunion kind of made me jealous, because she remembered him yet not me. But deep down, I was so happy that she was remembering. I sat on the couch and we all talked. Mitch would not let go of her. You could see how much he loved her. How much she meant to him. My phone rang, and I got up and walked outside. It was Sean.

“Hey man, what’s going on?”

“Not much. But good news, I think Toria is gaining some of her memory back.”

He was silent for a moment. “Oh really. How cool is that?”

“I know. So what’s up?”

He took a deep breath. “Listen, Barb really needs to see you. She said she wants to give back the engagement ring.”

“Tell her to mail it to me.”

“Come on, man. She just wants to be civil.”

“Whatever. I will give her a call. So anything else?”

He sighed. “Maddie is making dinner tonight and wanted to know if you and Toria would like to come over.”

“Sure, we will be over about five.”

We hung up and I sat down on the porch. The door opened up and Vanessa sat down beside me. “What’s going on, boss?”

“Not much. Don’t get me wrong; I am happy she remembered Mitch, but deep down, I wish that was me she remembered.”

She squeezed my arm. “I know, but this is good process. That means she is starting to remember things. Before you know it, she will remember everything.”

“Yeah. She found out last night that she is homeless and her parents kicked her out.”

She looked at me, surprised. “How in the hell did she find out about that?”

“Barb was at the gala and confronted her about it.”

Vanessa rolled her eyes and stood up. “That bitch is crazy. I think she needs to be locked up.”

We laughed, and then I stood up with her. We both went back inside. I knew Vanessa was right. This was good progress for Toria. She remembered the one person that took care of her when she had no one else.

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Toria

It was a very overwhelming day. When I saw Mitch’s face, I remembered him instantly. I remembered the times he held me as I cried, the times I was going through my withdrawal when I had no drugs. He was there for me, and I also remembered looking up to him as a father. He was telling me how he stopped the drugs cold turkey. That made me cry with happiness. He was still having his issues, but he was getting better. I didn’t remember Tony or Vanessa yet, but I was hoping that would change soon. Vanessa was the sweetest person I knew, and I was debating if I should go live with her for a while or stay with Jeb. I was torn. I really wanted to go back to work, and I planned on talking to Jeb about that right away.

I looked at the time, and it was almost four-thirty. Jeb told me we were going to Sean and Maddie’s for dinner. I was not looking forward to that. I didn’t tell him that Maddie started it all at the gala; Jeb thought it was all Barb. I just didn’t want to start anything between Sean and him. They were best friends.

“Okay, everyone, Jeb and I have to get going. Vanessa, now that you have my cell number, text or call me anytime. Maybe you and I could have a girls’ day.”

She came over and gave me a hug. “Yes, we both need that. Remember, if you need anything, please call. I will drop everything I am doing to get you.”

“Thank you so much.” I gave her a tight squeeze.

After saying goodbye to Mitch and Tony, Jeb and I headed out. We got in the car and started toward hell. Otherwise known as Sean and Maddie’s house. We pulled up to a huge house and pulled around back to what looked like a guest house. It, too, was also huge. He grabbed my hand as we walked to the house.

When we got to the door, Maddie opened it and gave me a smug smile. “Welcome to our temporary home.”

We walked in, and as Sean came into the room, the hair on my neck stood up. There was something off about this guy. It was like I knew him, but I couldn’t remember how. “Glad you guys could make it. Maddie here has been cooking all day.”

“That I have, sweetie. Please, you two make yourselves at home. I just need to finish up in the kitchen. Dinner will be served in about twenty minutes.”

I watched her walk out of the room. “So Toria, I heard you remembered some stuff.”

I looked over to Sean and smiled. “Yes, I did. I am very glad I did. I just can’t wait to remember everything.”

“No need to rush things. It will all come to you. So Jeb, there is a game Sunday. Do you want to go with me?”

“Sure.” He looked over at me and gave me a questionable look. “Will that be cool?”

“Dude, do you really need to her permission?

Wow, this guy was a tool. “I don’t care. I will just hang with Vanessa.” He leaned over and kissed my cheek. I noticed Sean was watching us like a hawk.

Just then, Maddie walked out to announce dinner was ready. She had made a feast of meatloaf, potatoes, corn bread, stuffing, green beans, and there was also a cheesecake for dessert. I also noticed there was an extra place setting. My heart started to beat and I started to sweat. My anxiety started to rise as I wondered who that plate was for.

“Wow, Toria, you look like you are about to pass out. Is that because you need drugs?”

“MADDIE! Enough!” Sean yelled.

“Sorry, I was just stating the facts.”

“Sean, it’s okay. I have my moments, but it will pass. Maddie, this all looks great.”

Maddie gave me another stupid smile. I swear I wanted to hit that bitch. She was a stuck up bitch that needed to be put in her place. We started to eat, and that was when the unexpected guest showed up.

“Sorry I am late; traffic was a pain in the ass,” Barb said. “Well, hello Jeb, Toria. So glad to see you both.”

My heart sank, and Jeb’s face began to turn a bright shade of red. “Why are you here?”

“Well duh, Maddie and Sean invited me.” I suddenly lost my appetite. “Oh, and we need to talk.”

“I have nothing to say to you.”

She smiled at me and turned to Jeb. “We have unfinished business.”

I touched his arm. “Go ahead. I will wait for you right here.”

He got up, and Barb followed him outside. I just awkwardly sat there. “You know, Toria, Barb always gets what she wants. And right now, I bet she is really getting what she wants.”

Sean laughed.

“Is it okay if I sit in the living room?”

Maddie got up and started toward the kitchen. “Yeah sure, just don’t steal anything.”

I got up and walked to the living room. I had no idea how long I was sitting there when I decided to go find Jeb. I walked out the front door, and I heard them talking. I started to walk toward them and it got quiet. When I rounded the corner, my heart dropped. She was topless and they were kissing. Her eyes flew open and she saw me. I backed up and took off running. I had no idea where I could go. All I knew was my legs couldn’t move fast enough. I was almost at the end of the driveway when I saw Sean standing there.

“So I guess you got a peek of the show, huh?”

“Please, just leave me alone.”

I tried to walk past him, but he grabbed my arm.

“Leave him alone. He doesn’t need to be with a drug whore like you.”

Then I got a flash in my mind.

“You’re nothing but a whore. I made you who you are today. I am the one who made you a drug addict.” Sean laughed at me. “Run along, Whoria Toria. And suck more dick for your drugs.”

“Ouch! You are hurting me,” I said to present day Sean. “Please let me go.”

“If you remember anything about me and you run your mouth to anyone, a bashed head won’t be all you receive.”

He pushed me so hard, I hit the ground. My head bounced off the hard soil. I crawled to a tree across the road and hid behind it. I didn’t want anyone to find me, especially not Jeb. My vision became very fuzzy and I started to get a headache. I leaned my head up against the tree to try and calm the nausea that suddenly took over. I pulled out my phone and called Vanessa.

“Hey girl.”

I began to cry. “Please come and get me.”

“Oh my god, are you okay?”

“No, I remembered some things about Sean, and Jeb was basically having sex with Barb. I think tonight was them all getting together to humiliate me.”

“Can you tell me what road you are on?”

I got up and stumbled over to the street sign, and told her what it said. She told me to stay behind the tree and she would flash her lights when she was close. It took her about fifteen minutes to get there. She must had sped to get there, because I knew it was a longer trip than that. Once in the car, I looked back and I saw Jeb running up the driveway. I just hoped that he didn’t see me.