Blue Love (15 page)

“
Tessa we are almost done,” she said. “Lie back please.”

Tessa laid back and tears flooded her eyes. She saw the nurse grab the clamp thing and she put a headlight on her head,
holy fuck what was she going to do now she thought
, she grabbed the side of the bed and dug her nails into the hard plastic and she began to cry. The nurse slowly put the cold object in her and Tessa heard a click sound and a very painful pressure and pinch. She took what looked like a large Q-tip and rubbed it around inside her. She placed it in a petri dish. Tessa could not imagine what was next. She didn’t want to know, she closed her eyes as the tears continued flowing down her cheeks. Tessa heard a click and the pressure was gone, and the clamp was removed.

The nurse saw her tears,
“You can sit up now Tessa.” She handed her a tissue and sat in her stool and put away the Vagatron's cold metal legs. “Everything looks good Tessa, the only issue is your uterus is slightly tipped but that is not a big deal, okay?” she asked. “Do you have any questions?”

Tessa took a few deep breaths and wiped her tears.
“Am I still a virgin?” she said and began to cry again.

She stood up and hugged her.
“Of course you are, there is a thin layer of skin further up in the vagina, still intact and will be until you have sex or there is heavy manual stimulation,” she sat back down.

“
Tessa I can sense that you and your mother are having issues, I want you to take my number and call me if you ever need anything, okay? But she is a good woman, I have known her for years, and she loves you.”

“
If she loved me she wouldn’t have done this to me,” Tessa cried, “I don’t want him back in here, can’t you just finish this up I want to go home. I don’t want her back in here either; she can go get the car… can you tell her that please.”

“
Sure Tessa, I am going to leave and I will be back with paperwork for you, your mom will have her own okay, there is a box of tissues for you to clean up with right there. You may have some bleeding so there’s a pad if you want to use it,” she smiled and left the room.

Tessa got dressed and sat and waited for the nurse practitioner to return. She gave Tessa information on STD
’s, lots of information. She handed her three packs of birth control pills and a bunch of condoms and explained how to use them. She handed her a card with her office information on the front and she wrote her cell number on the back. She gave her crutches to use for two weeks, which she explained would help her heal better the less she put weight on it which met no running or practice until she was seen again in two weeks.

~

She used the crutches as she walked out of the ER. Her mom got out and opened the door for her. She glared at her and opened the back door and got in. Her book bag was still on the bus, “Damn it,” she said.

“
Tessa, your mouth,” Maggie snapped.

“
My mouth Mom, what about my vagina? How does it feel to sit outside a room knowing someone is in there fucking raping me on a hospital bed?” Tessa yelled at her.

“
It was time for you to have an exam Tessa, it’s a routine exam that all women have once a year once there sexually active and you better not speak like that again,” Maggie said trying to stop her voice from quivering.

“
Your boyfriend Dr. Feel Good and you make that decision together Mom, you two have a lengthy conversation about my vagina?” Tessa asked rudely.

“
Tessa that’s enough,” Maggie said softly.

“
No it’s not! What the hell makes you think that any part of that was okay?” Tessa screamed.

“
Your actions Tessa, you’re kissing that boy at the end of every game, and the way you sat on his lap, and he was holding you today Tessa, that’s what made it necessary,” Maggie yelled back at her.

“
So you get to decide who penetrates me first?” Tessa screamed and tears started flooding down her face. “I hate you Mom and want you to know you literally opened that box, so now its game on!”

Tess
a’s mom started towards her house, “Not a chance, I want to go home,” Tessa insisted and her mom took her home.

~

They pulled in and she saw Jade was there.
Thank God she thought
. She got out of the car “Oh no Tessa are you okay?” Jade asked.

“
I am fine, but want to tell the story only once so can we go inside please,” Tessa asked drying her face.

Her mom followed them in the house and opened the cupboard and grabbed a glass of water and handed Tessa a pain pill,
“Take this it’ll help with the pain,” she said. Tessa swallowed the pill and sat at the table, her dad warmed up dinner and she sat pushing it around her plate.

“
Tessa has a small hairline fracture on her ankle bone. She will have to be seen in two weeks to be released for PE and Hockey then. Her bruises are pretty severe and she is going to hurt a lot more in the morning. She can have a pain pill every 6 hours but it will make her drowsy and loopy so she should stay home from school tomorrow,” Maggie said as if giving a report at work.

“
I will stay with her for a few hours,” Jade offered.

“
Jade honey you need to go to school. John what is your schedule tomorrow, I have to work until three.” She said.

“
I have a delivery in the morning, I will be home by noon,” John answered.

“
So Jade it is,” Tessa smiled.

“
That’s up to her father Tessa,” John said. “Is that all Maggie?”

Maggie answered,
“Yes” and she kissed Alex and Tessa on the head, she walked upstairs and kissed the little ones and left. She walked to the car, pulled out and began to sob.

Tessa started laughing,
“What’s wrong Tessa,” John asked.

“
Everything and nothing, I am feeling loopy,” Tessa said, “And I am one dirty girl.”

Jade drew
a bath for her and Tessa got in. She washed her hair and sat until the water was cooling and she got out. Jade had left to get an overnight bag and things for school. She returned and sat on the couch with Tessa who was high as a kite. “Luke hasn’t called has he?” she tried to sit up but couldn’t she started to laugh. Jade laughed and got up and grabbed her bag, there were seven missed calls and ten text messages. Tessa was staring at the phone and it rang, his picture popped up “There he is,” she said and laughed. Jade took the phone and pushed the button answering his call.

“
Hey Luke it’s Jade,” she said.

“
She left her bag on the bus I brought it up so she would have it when she got home and she just got out of the bath and is stoned out of her mind on pain pills,” she laughed. “I guess you could try,” she handed the phone to Tessa.

“
Hello,” she said slowly.

“
I am alright,” she answered.

“
I would love that Luke,” she laughed.

“
Can Jade tell you because I am falling…” Tessa dropped the phone.

“
Hey Luke, no I am staying with her tonight and hanging out here in the morning. Her Dad has a delivery he is leaving at six in the morning. Well her ankle is fractured and she is badly bruised, and as you already know she is on some pain pills for the next few days. Okay see you then. I will tell her. Talk to you soon,” she said and hung up. She looked over and Tessa was fast asleep.

She grabbed her phone and sent a text to Tommy

-Hey hot stuff, I am going to stay with Tessa tonight, she has a fractured ankle and I will be late for school tomorrow, I am going to miss you…J

-Hey pretty girl, oh no on both issues, I am going to miss you…T

-Luke is coming here in the morning if you ride with him we could hang out UNSUPERVISED for a little bit :)…J

-Sounds like a plan…a really good plan…T

-Sweet dreams hot stuff…J

-As long as you
’re in them…T

-I better be…by the way your ex was a bitch today…J

-Really?? That’s unusual, do you think it was a competitive thing?...T

-No I think it was a Tommy thing, and you better not cave , man…get it cave man…oh the thought of you dragging me into a cave by hair…weird but I think I might like it…J

-Listen naughty girl we have discussed this…revisit in six months right, oh and don’t talk that way or I will bring my club in the morning ….T

-Threat or promise?!?!?!?... J

-Okay revisit in 3 months, your killing me Jade…T

-Goodnight future lover…J

-Your bad…T

-I want to be…J

-Done Pretty girl goodnight…T

-Makes me sad…J

-Two months final answer….T

-If I keep pushing will it go down again?...J

-Nothing about this conversation is making anything go down Jade, goodnight!...T

Jade was smiling ear to ear as she jumped up and ran upstairs and grabbed blankets and pillows. She laid Tessa down on the overstuffed couch and covered her up
, Tessa said Luke’s name in her sleep and she laughed. She took the loveseat and fell asleep dreaming of November.

Jade woke up to Tessa trying to stand up, she helped her in the bathroom and she was bleeding a lot.
“Tessa it’s not your week,” she said. Tessa started crying and told her the whole story, about Dr. Feel Good, about her fight with her mom, about the Vagatron; she cried and told her about every painful moment. How she felt like she had been raped and how she hated her mom.

Jade began to cry with her,
“I am so sorry Tessa,” she said. She ran the bath and helped Tessa in. She grabbed her pain pills off of the counter and gave her one and a cup of water. The bathroom door was opened as she left to get Tessa’s clothes

“
Jade please grab me Luke’s sweatshirt off of my bed and some grandma panties,” she laughed.

“
Of course Tessa” she said wiping her eyes and closing the door behind her. She turned and saw Tommy and Luke standing with a brown bag in the living room looking horrified.

~

Tommy smiled weakly “We brought breakfast,” he said and held the bag up.

“
SHHH” Jade said to them and walked closer, “She is going to die when she founds out you were here.”

“
Not before my mother does,” Alex said his voice coming from behind Jade.

Jade looked down and she was in underwear and a tank top, her face turned red and she ran up the stairs. She came down holding Tessa
’s clothes. She kissed Tommy, “Hey pretty girl, I am moving that back to a six month revisit,” Tommy said looking terrified.

“
I agree,” she said walking into the bathroom.

“
I feel better,” Tessa laughed.

“
The pills kicked in hu,” Jade said.

“
Yep, I think I could go for a run, on these babies,” Tessa said. “Awe Jade you got my sweatshirt, help me put it on” she said, “no not the bra I want my boobies touching it,” she laughed “might want to grab two pads,” she laughed.

“
Tessa the boys are out there so try to be quiet,” Jade whispered.

“
What?” she yelled.

They walked out a few minutes later and they had set breakfast on the coffee table. Jade came out first and Tessa hobbled out on her crutches.

Alex looked at her, “What did Mom do to you Tessa?” burst out of his lips.

“
Alex,” Tessa said and tears formed in her eyes, “Not now.”

“
Hi Luke, hi Tommy,” she said and sat down, they stared at her, “It’s not as bad as it looks, most people don’t even know they have a fracture when it’s this small, but the bruising hurts and I have really good pain meds.” It was still quiet, “So breakfast looks wonderful,” she said. “How about we eat,” Jade went and grabbed plates and napkins. She started laughing. “It is far too quiet,” her head started to wobble. “You guys should try one of those pills, they make you feel funky.” She ate half of the bagel and drank the juice.

Tessa started to lie down and Luke grabbed her pillow and put it behind her. He sat on the couch and lifted her legs and sat them on his lap
, he cringed when he say the purple and yellow bruise that went from the top of her foot up to almost her knee.

“
I am so sorry baby,” he said and kissed her leg from toe to knee.

“
Luke you didn’t beat me with a hockey stick, and there are other places that,” she started.

“
Tessa go to sleep,” he interrupted and threw a blanket over her face and she giggled as her eyes closed and she fell asleep.

“
Alex, don’t you dare talk to your mom about what you heard until you have talked to Tessa, she didn’t think you guys were out here. God willing she won’t remember,” Jade said to him. “And that goes for both of you too, she was sharing that with me in confidence got it!”