Blue Love (17 page)

“
Yes,” Tessa said.

“
Does he still?” she said tearing up.

“
I know he cared after you jumped me in the parking lot or he wouldn’t have gotten you out of there,” Tessa said softly.

“
Does that bother you?” she asked.

“
No, you two had a past Sadi,” she said softly.

“
We did,” she said, “I was pregnant,” she said in a whisper. “I had an abortion, I aborted our baby,” she said and she started crying.

Tessa put her arm around Sadi and pulled her into her shoulder, Sadi cried.

“Don’t you want to know why?” she asked.

“
It’s not any of my business Sadi, that’s between the two of you and God,” Tessa said.

“
He slept with the girls who attacked you and I wanted his game to be over, I couldn’t handle it I was scared, I didn’t want to have his baby and be connected to him forever. He hates me because of it and I hate me too,” she said sobbing.

“
Sadi, I cannot imagine what it must have been like to have to make that decision, I am so sorry,” Tessa said.

“
I hate you,” she said “and I don’t know why.”

“
I understand and I don’t know how,” Tessa said, “I do know that it’s hurting you to be so angry, you are stunning and young and although I have yet to see it, lovable.”

Sadi laughed and sat up.
“How do you do it? How do you not give in to him?”

Tessa shook her head,
“He told me he loves me and I love him, I want it to be right and have no regrets if it ends.”

“
Can I still hate you?” she said.

“
If you need to I guess but could you please stop trying to beat me up, that’s getting annoying!” Tessa said and smiled.

The bell rang,
“Got to get to class,” Tessa stood.

“
Good luck tonight,” Sadi yelled to her as she walked out the door.

They walked into the hall and smiled at each other. Jade, Becca
, Phoebe, Tommy, and Luke stood there waiting. Sadi looked at Luke, “I forgive you,” she said and walked away.

Tessa looked at him and turned away; he grabbed her hand and pulled her towards him,
“Are you ok?” he asked.

“
Yes I am,” Tessa replied.

“
Are you pissed at me?” he asked.

“
A little, you left out the part about fucking the three blondes before she aborted the baby?” Tessa whispered.

“
You told her you knew?” Luke snapped.

“
No Luke she asked me if you told me what happened with the two of you. I told her it was none of my business and she cried and told me what she had done, and then she told me why,” Tessa said firmly.

“
You hate me now?” he asked.

“
I told you and now her that I was not involved with you then. That was your past, as long as it stays there we are fine. I will let it go,” she said, “But Luke you have to tell her you forgive her and make yourself forgive her, she made a horrible decision on her own that was brought on by the pain you caused her, no it was not right but who are you to judge her?”

“
So I’m a piece of shit because of what she did?” he asked.

“
No Luke, but you hurt her. Regardless of what she did, you need to take some ownership in it and forgive her. Starting with saying you’re sorry that your head was wherever the dark place it went to when this all went down,” Tessa said.

“
Who are you?” he said and was angry. She looked at him confused, “Why do you think you get to tell me what to do?” Luke asked.

Tessa looked at him and shook her head,
“The person who loves you anyways,” tears filled her eyes and she walked in her classroom.

~

This was not good, she thought and she felt sick to her stomach and went to the bathroom and threw up.

“
You okay Tessa,” Jade asked as she pulled her hair back.

“
No Jade I’m not,” she said and threw up again.

-Tessa just went in the bathroom and threw up after fighting with your asshole friend…J

-By asshole friend can I safely assume you’re talking about Luke?...T

-let him know he sucks and if anything happens because her head is up her ass at the game I am going to beat him with a hockey stick…J

-anything for you pretty girl…T

~

The bell rang and Tessa walked to the locker room to get changed. The girls were in there waiting. They made her eat some crackers and drink some juice.

“
Head in the Game Ross,” Becca said.

“
Attention ladies this is your captain Phoebe speaking, it is going to be a rough flight but we are in for a smooth landing. The penalty box is to your right” she pointed “and to your left,” she pointed again. “In case of emergency please feel free to utilize them, but make it count,” she said and everyone laughed.

They ran out and passed the boys on their way to their field
.

Luke didn
’t even turn around, “go get them Tessa!” Alex yelled.

Tessa sat on the bench and coach V wrapped her ankle. She had gotten new shin guards and slid them on; she laced up her cleats and watched as the three
B’s walked towards the field.

“
Tessa you’re going to defend today,” Coach V said.

“
Not a chance,” Tessa said focused on her opponents.

“
I am the coach Ross you just got back you need to listen,” he lectured her.

“
You’re also human and competitive, would you want to be sitting in the back against a bunch of bitches that messed you up?” she asked.

He shook his head,
“Fine but the minute they start messing with you you’re going back, got it?”

“
I prefer to sit in the box over the bench, I will be fine,” she said and smiled at him.

He put her in the front line against B1,
“Back so soon? Guess we didn’t do that great of a job then hu?”

“
I am not into the three on one thing, actually never been asked, guess I am good enough all by myself, so right now it’s me and you so give me all you got girl,” Tessa said smiling .

“
You little bitch,” B1 snapped.

“
You want to start name calling, I can think of a few for you too,” Tessa smiled.

The ball was passed to Tessa, she grabbed it and in the blink of an eye, she had made a goal, B1 didn
’t even know it was coming.

Tessa walked over and smiled at her opponent. She heard a voice from the stands,
“Great shot Tessa,” she glanced and saw Luke’s Mom in the bleachers, she waved.

“
So you ready to play yet?” Tessa asked.

“
I came ready,” she stewed.

“
Hey you ever meet Luke’s Mom?” she asked, “I mean been to there house when she was there?”

“
Of course I have been there when she was home,” she snapped.

“
Oh so I wonder which one of us she is here to see?” Tessa asked ad B1 looked into the bleachers. She ran for the ball and past B1 before she even noticed she was gone.

“
You falling asleep on me B1,” she asked and Madison dropped her stick and lunged at her. She was on top and that quickly changed. Tessa was laughing when she hopped up, “Is that all you’ve got,” the umpire red carded her immediately.

Phoebe looked at her,
“Don’t you go stealing all the fun, I want to play to,” Tessa laughed and B2 stood in front of her which made her laugh even harder, pissing B2 off.

“
Hey nice seeing you again,” Tessa said doing a few jumps and twirled around. “All better, thanks for asking.”

B2 said nothing, oh boy Tessa thought.
“Are you going to play nice today?” Tessa asked.

B2 smiled,
“Not on your life.”

“
That’s what I thought that’s why the cops came today,” Tessa said nodding to the bleachers; the whistle blew as B2 turned away and she darted out and grabbed the ball and headed towards the goal. She passed to Becca.

She went back to face B2.
“Nice try Ross, no cops!”

“
Not yet” she smiled, “try me,” Tessa hissed, “Did you see Luke’s mom?”

“
What is she doing here,” she asked.

“
She’s here to watch me play, because her son loves me,” she smiled and she wondered if he still felt that way.

“
He told you that?” she asked shocked.

“
Every day,” Tessa said.

B2 swung the stick and Tessa ducked, she was Red carded as well.

Tessa took a deep breath and closed her eyes. Two down, one to go she thought, she looked over and the football practice had ended. A group of them were walking over, she saw her brother and Tommy but not Luke. She looked past them and saw Luke and Sadi talking, his head hung low. “And you thought you could change him?” she looked and it was B3.

“
That girl has been the only one he has turned me down for and look, things have not changed,” she said without an ounce of nasty in her voice.

“
So are you here to play or are you going to try to kick my ass again too,” Tessa asked with a defeated tone to her voice.

“
Looks like your ass just got kicked, let’s play,” she said and smiled.

The whistle blew and they both went for the ball, Carly got it first. Tessa snagged it back and headed down the field, and Carly got it back and passed it down the field, Phoebe stopped it and passed to Becca and Carly grabbed it again. Tessa ran back towards them and couldn
’t get it back. Carly shot at the goal and Jade caught it.

Jade hit it out and Carly took it back and made a goal.

Back at the line Tessa smiled, “Good shot,” and she glanced over towards Luke, Sadi was hugging him and he stood arms to his side.

Carly looked and saw to,
“You going to let it happen again?” she asked and raised her eyebrow and smiled.

“
Not a chance,” she said as the whistle blew. She took the ball and ran down for a goal. She hi fived her team mates and went back.

“
Good shot Tessa Ross,” she smiled. The whistle blew, it was half time. “Hey you going to be okay?” she asked.

“
Ya, I will be, and how about you?” Tessa asked.

“
As long as I stay sober there is nothing there, just got caught up in a dirty game that’s all,” she said smiling looking at the ground.

“
Did you know him when he was sober?” she asked.

“
A little, I am sure he’s ok. We are all fucked up and have shitty family lives, you know the broken family kids that fall in the cracks, we are emotionally disturbed as my shrink says,” Carly smiled.

“
My parents split a month ago, so I guess I am emotionally disturbed now as well,” Tessa said and they both laughed.

“
Hey Tessa, Carly,” Luke said from behind them.

“
Hi Luke,” Carly said. “How are you?” she asked.

“
I’m well. Are you three still trying to kick my girlfriend’s ass?” he said.

“
Well I’m good; the other two are red carded,” she said and laughed.

“
You okay baby?” he asked Tessa.

She looked down,
“Oh you’re mad at me? You asked me to apologize to her and I did,” he said.

“
Holy shit,” Carly said laughing, “Luke Links is in love.”

Luke laughed at her, and his face turned red,
“I am,” he said and pulled Tessa into his arms. “Sobriety and Tessa have been good for me,” he laughed and kissed Tessa’s head.

“
Well Luke I am happy for you, truly I am,” Carly said, “It’s a work in progress but I am getting there too.”

Tessa looked at her and smiled,
“I think you’re my favorite so far,” they laughed.

“
See you in a few minutes Ross, so I can kick your ass up and down this field,” she said walking away.

Tessa looked up at him,
“You’re not mad at me?”

Luke laughed,
“I didn’t say that,” and he kissed her.

“
Your Mom’s here,” she said beaming.

“
No shit Tessa, you are my little ray of sunshine,” they walked over and said hello to his mother.

The game ended 3-1, they all walked back to the school. Tessa and her team went in and showered and changed. So did the boys. They met in the parking lot and Tessa ran to Luke and jumped into his arms. She kissed him wildly.
“Slow down crazy girl,” he laughed.