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“Wow. You mean the Secret Squirrel Society extends outside
of the city?” She caused them all to laugh. “Thanks, Jesse. I appreciate this
and everything.” She touched the light she was already wearing around her neck.
“I’ll be back before you guys even know I’m gone.”

“Somehow,” he leaned closer so only she could hear him, “I
don’t think you believe that any more than I do.” He glanced pointedly at
Shane. “Just make sure you come back.”

Shane had stepped back to let Alyssa say her goodbyes. He
was lost in thought when she closed the door behind them. “Hey, McKade, you in
there?” she snapped more harshly than she intended.

“Sorry.” He clearly wondered what she was mad at this time.
“Do you want me to take you home?” She looked startled by his question. “I
mean, you’re more than welcome to stay. I just thought… Are you done packing?”

“I’m all set. What’s with you? You’re not going to get weird
on me now, are you?” She didn’t know what she was feeling and that uncertainty
made her angry. “I kind of expected some sex tonight but if you’re not up for
it…” She let the implication hang.

Shane stood tensely, unsure of what to say. “Please,
Campini, I don’t want to fight with you tonight. Can’t we spend our last night
together in peace? I’m not going to see you for a month or more and I’d like to
be able to think about tonight fondly.”

“What the hell is that supposed to mean? You sound like
there’s something between us.” She was startled by the hope his words set off
in her mind.

“I thought there was. I don’t know when it changed but our
time together is about more than just sex for me. I’ve been thinking of you as
my very exquisite, passionate lover all week and I want tonight to be memorable
if not special.”

Alyssa just stared. He wasn’t really saying this! No way!
She had to take control of this conversation before it turned even more
bizarre. “Good one, McKade.” She laughed like he had just made some sort of
joke. “You almost had me going there. Let me tell you, though, that I’m on to
you so you can cut the bullshit. It was pretty good but you may want to save it
for that career woman of yours.”

Shane sighed. Maybe he had misunderstood the signals he
thought she’d been sending him. “Yeah, you caught me. Too bad, it seemed to be
working.”

“Yeah, well,” she shrugged, “it’ll be more effective with
someone who doesn’t already know we’re only in this for the sex. Why don’t we
stick to what we’re so good at? Come on, McKade, I expect you to indulge me
many times between now and the time we have to leave for the airport.”

“Your wish is my command, Pixie Queen.” At least he could
tell the Kid he’d tried. Maybe he’d wait until she was well satisfied and try
again. “What’s your pleasure?” He grinned wickedly, knowing she would take this
question exactly as he intended.

“Oh my, I do like a willing man.” She echoed his grin. This
was more like it. “For starters, you have entirely too many clothes on. Take
them off, now.”

“Yes ma’am.” Shane stripped. “What about you?”

“In a minute. I think I want to admire you first.” Slowly,
she circled him, touching here and there randomly. “I must admit that your bod
is spectacular. If I’d known you were hiding this last year I might not have
tried so hard to ignore you when you kept showing up to lecture me.” She paused
behind him to run her hands down his back, settling them on his cheeks,
kneading while she placed tiny kisses on his shoulder. “I like the way you
taste too.” She moved around to face him. “Very nice,” she muttered as she
lowered her gaze. “Look at you. I think you like being on display.”

Shane was so hard with anticipation that he could barely
keep from grabbing her. “Only when you’re my audience. I’m not accustomed to
standing around naked. Or at least not when I’m the only one naked.”

“Patience, McKade. I’m not done admiring you yet.” She
trailed her hands up his arms and down his chest. “Very nice,” she said again
as her hand closed over his erection. Stroking him lightly, she flicked his
nipples with her tongue. “You like this, don’t you?”

“Yes,” he sounded as if he couldn’t take much more.

“Good. So do I.” She moved her hand more firmly over his
cock. “You are so hot, so hard. My fingers barely reach around you.” She kissed
along his collarbone as he groaned. “Something wrong, McKade?” She knew exactly
what she was doing to him.

“No.”

“Want me to stop?”

“No.”

“Want me to do more?” She slid her other hand around him to
fondle his ass.

“Only if you want to,” he said through his gritted teeth.

“Do you want me to?”

“Yes.”

“Hmm, maybe you’d like this?” She dropped to her knees and
twirled her tongue around his cock head. Shane’s only answer was a gasp. “Does
that mean yes or no? If you don’t answer, I’ll take it as a no and stop.”

“Yes. Please. Don’t stop.”

“Much better.” She licked his length. “How’s this?”

“Incredible.”

There was something decidedly wicked and powerful about
tormenting him. “Perhaps you’d like this even more?” She drew him into her
mouth, sucking his throbbing cock in as deeply as she could.

“Oh God, Pix.” Shane couldn’t keep from thrusting his hips
toward her.

“Hmm,” she hummed around him before using her hand to
replace her mouth so she could talk. “Yes, I’d say you do like this.” She
surprised him by rubbing his shaft against the softness of her cheek. When he
moaned, she chuckled. “I see you like that too.”

“Please,” he begged.

“Please what, stud? Please suck on you until you come or
please stop?”

“Please suck on me.” Shane seemed almost desperate.

“The rest,” she demanded, slowing her hand and loosening her
grip.

He begged as if afraid she wouldn’t continue. “Please suck
my cock until I come.”

She clasped him tightly and ran her tongue fully over him.
“What do I get in return?”

“Anything,” he promised quickly. “Anything at all. Whatever
you want.”

Her mouth was so close he could feel her hot breath when she
spoke, “Like I said, I do like a willing man.” Deciding that she’d teased him
long enough, Alyssa slid her mouth over his hard-on. She sucked in his entire
length, caressing his cock with her tongue as she went. Her hands cupped his
sac, kneading it in time with the rhythm she set with her lips. When she drew
her head away, she closed one hand around the base of his shaft, squeezing and
stroking as her mouth focused on his crown. She licked, sucked, kissed until
his cock pulsed in pleasure.

When she finished cleaning him with her tongue, she stood
and let him pull her into his arms. “How’s that for memorable?”

“Perfect, absolutely perfect.” Shane tipped her chin and
kissed her softly, licking his essence from her lips as his mouth thanked her
for the experience. “Can I please take your clothes off now, Pixie Queen? I’d
like to return the attention I just got while you decide what you want.”

“I think that would be an excellent way to start,” she
purred as he stripped her. She expected him to take her to the bed. Instead, he
dropped to his knees as she had. “I’m not sure I can stand while you do that,”
she whispered as his tongue slid into her pussy with no preliminaries.

“I’ll hold you. I won’t let you fall,” he assured her as he
held her open with one hand. “I knew it. You’re wet from doing that to me.”

Alyssa tried to answer since she had demanded that he did.
“Can you blame me? I said I liked your bod, McKade. I meant all of it. Oh
yeah,” she moaned when he slid a finger into her and began to tongue her clit.
“I’m going to fall.”

“Hold onto my shoulders. I’ve got you. Come for me, Pix.
Then we’ll do whatever you want.” He returned his mouth to her, nipping gently,
sucking firmly and flicking rapidly. “Come, Pix. I know you’re close. Let go,”
he urged with his tongue again. When he felt her begin to tremble, he replaced
his tongue with his thumb so he could watch her face. Her knees were weak and
she sagged against him as the waves of pleasure rolled through her. “That will
always be the most beautiful sight in the world.” He stood, holding her tightly
against him until she regained her balance. “The look on your face just made
tonight more special than you can imagine.” He kissed her before she could
protest. When he felt her response turn demanding, he scooped her into his arms
and carried her to the bedroom, his lips never leaving hers. “Make love with
me,” he whispered as he let his hands roam, touching all the places he knew
would excite her but avoiding the few she ached for.

“McKade,” she panted, frustrated by his making her wait.

“Soon, Pix, soon,” he promised between kisses. “I want you
to remember this while you’re away. Think about how good we are together. Think
about how we feel when we do this.” He nudged her thighs apart, positioned the
tip of his cock at her core and entered her slowly. “No one else, Pix.” He kept
his strokes controlled, sliding fully in and almost completely out. When Alyssa
tried to push him to move faster, he resisted. “No one but me can make you feel
this much. You can try anyone you want but only I know how to make you soar.”
He pumped harder, holding her eyes with his intent gaze as he adjusted the
angle of his strokes to hit her sweet spot every time. “It’ll be a waste of
your time and it might kill me but if you need to test yourself, do. Just don’t
forget that I’m here. I’ll be here until you accept that and come back to me.”
He lifted her legs over his shoulders so he could plunge even deeper. “Pix,
come back to me. I can’t stand the thought of being without you. I need you in
my life. Please, Pix, don’t leave me forever.”

Alyssa’s mind was whirling. She had to be hallucinating.
Shane wasn’t really saying all these things. They were having fun. That’s all.
He couldn’t possibly be telling her that he thought they had some kind of
future together. That was impossible! The sensations were turning her brain
into mush, to be imagining his words. What she was fantasizing that he was
saying wasn’t what she wanted at all so why did her heart feel like it was
about to burst?

Shane caught the flash of disbelief that crossed her face
and knew she was fighting his claims. Hopefully, she’d think about what he’d
just said while she was gone and come back, willing to spend time with him
again. The idea of another man touching her was enough to make him howl in a
jealous rage but he knew that she wasn’t one to give in without a fight. It was
so hard to remember that just a few hours earlier he was protesting loudly when
Brett tried to make him face his feelings for her. Now he could barely hold
them back. He loved her completely but was positive she’d go screaming right
out of his life forever if he told her now. Instead, he’d use his body to show
her and hope that would be enough to keep her.

Was this how his brother had felt the first time he met her
cousin? Suddenly, he could understand the way Jordan had insisted that Kiley
was his future. Fortunately, Kiley was as in love with him so the two of them
joined their lives in what the rest of the world considered to be a shockingly
short amount of time. It all made sense to him now. He would give anything to
be married to Alyssa, to be planning their future together, building a life, a
family with her. He wanted that so badly but knew he had to keep it to himself.
How was he going to survive her absence, filled with worry that the storm
chasers she would be travelling with would make a mistake and he’d never see
her again? Shane felt her telltale shudder as she began to explode around him,
clutching him and forcing him over the top with her. When he would have pulled
away from her, he rolled to his back, holding her to his chest, wanting to stay
inside her so they were intimately connected as long as she would let him.

“McKade?”

“Sh, let me hold you for a minute. I need the feel of you
surrounding me to last a month or maybe more.” He kissed her tenderly when she
turned her surprised eyes toward him.

“But my back’s getting cold,” she finally said, trying to
squirm away from him.

Shane managed to kick the covers high enough that he could
reach them without disturbing them. “Please, Pix. Don’t make me let go yet. We
fit so perfectly and you sprawled on my chest feels right.”

Alyssa’s heart flipped again. She let herself relax against
him as she decided he was right. It did feel perfect lying on top of him. Just
like it felt perfect when he had cuddled her on his lap. What the hell was she
going to do now? She was hopelessly in love with her cousin’s brother-in-law
and scared to death. He couldn’t actually mean the things he’d said. That was
just the sex talking. She’d go on her assignment and he’d get back to his life and
realize that he hadn’t really felt anything for her. She’d call and give him
the information about her return flight and let herself get all excited at the
thought of seeing him again. Then, when she got to the airport, it would be
Kiley waiting to drive her home. There was no way she was going to let him hurt
her like that. There was no way she’d ever tell him that she knew she’d carry
him in her heart forever. Somehow, she’d find a way to get on with her life and
make it through the family gatherings her cousin was sure to have.

Maybe it was time for her to relocate. No, damn it! She
liked it there. She liked being near Kiley and he wasn’t going to force her
away. If he was too uncomfortable, running into her after the callous way he
was going to treat her, then he could move. She was staying! How dare he make
it so sweet and tender between them this time! If she’d heard him right, he had
been encouraging her to sleep with other men while she was away. She would and
not because he gave her permission. As if she needed his permission to live her
life. Arrogant bastard! He was surely intending to have other lovers as soon as
she left. A man with his kind of sexual energy would never go without for the
amount of time she would be away. Why then, did the thought make her feel such
a sense of loss? Why didn’t he want her to wait for him to share this again?
Why was it that the one man she could picture herself sharing her life with
didn’t want her to?