Chasing Love & Rainbows

A Novel by TT Dorsett

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Chasing Love and Rainbows

By TT Dorsett

Published by Daddy’s Girl Publishing House

Baltimore, Maryland 216021

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TT Dorsett all rights reserved

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A
cknowledgements

WOW! I can’t
b
elieve I finally did it!! I have been writing this book and on for the last two years. And after all this time, my dream has fina
l
ly become a reality. But, I never would have been able to do this without the help and grace of God. He gave me this gift to write and also su
p
plied me with the strength to see it through. 

             
There are many people I would like to thank for believing in me and taking this journey with me. First, I would like to thank my husband KD (Kendrick) who has put up with the late night clicking on the computer keys while he was asleep and had to be up at 5 am for work. Thank you for your abundance of support. I love you.

             
To my three children KJ, Keerti, and Kyle. I thank you for putting up with my busy and crazy schedule. I know sometimes I slacked on mommy duty because I was in the midst of writing, but just know that everything I do, I do for you three. Always remember one thing, I love you babies!

             
Thank you to the rest of my family who has always supported me. My sister Miah Gamati and brother John Green. My Aunts (Roz Cox), Uncles, and Cousins. So many to name…lol
 

             
Next I would like to thank my 3RW Online Book club. These people have been my rocks and support system throughout this journey. Amber Nickens, Reshemah Wright, Tamika Smith, and Shaqualia Burkett. You all are my sisters from another mother. Thank you so much for your support, advice, and kindness. It means so much to me to have you girls as my friends.
 

             
Thank you to the authors who have helped me along the way with a
d
vice and kindness. You have been my mentors as I have taken steps into the writing world. I thank you Loretta Walls, Iris Bolling, SW Frank, and Author SK.
 

             
Thank you my Naughty Angel Family for all your support and love!
 

             
To my besties, who have always encouraged me about my writing. You all made sure I actually finished what I started. I thank you all. If it weren’t for you I wouldn't be here writing this dedication. Thank you, Quan Smith, Lillie Robinson, Trumaine Sinclair, and Ann Marie Lucas.
 

             
To my second mother’s Terrie Carloss, Felecia Clark White, and Beverly Ellebe, thank you so much for your encouragement and love. You two keep me sane when I get frustrated. And you help me r
e
member to never give up. So I thank you both for stepping in being mother figures to me when I lost my mom in 95. You have treated me as if I’m your own daughter, and I love you both for it
.

             
Next, to My Ayinde family. Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. You guys are like a second family to me and I love each of you. You made me smile when I was down. You made me laugh when I had no laughter in me. You prayed for me and you kept me lifted. And I wouldn’t change anything about the love you give and show to me every day.
 

             
This thank you is for my sisters Raynele McKenzie, Sharelle Ja
s
per, and Tiffany Coleman. Thank you for being my support system. Thank you for your encouragement, prayers, love, and kindness. I know I can always lean on you in my time of need. I’m blessed to be able to call you three my friends.

             
Thank you to my Anarchy Family on Facebook for your loving support.
Andy
Durgin
& L. Lewis
, thank you for editing my book and looking over it.
I appreciate you!
 

             
Last but not least, I would like to thank Brenda Stokes Lee, my mentor. If it weren’t for you my book would still be sitting on my flash drive collecting dust! You pushed me to move forward with publishing my first book. No words can express how grateful I am to you. You made me step out on faith and take a hold of my dreams. You were with me every step of the way. Any questions I had, you provided
an answer
for. Thank you so much for your help. I’m truly honored to have you as my mentor.

             
I
f I left anyone out I’m sorry. I thank everyone who has ever su
p
ported me in my writing endeavors.

Dedication

This book is dedicated to Rainey Sutton (My mother), Cynthia Moore (God Mother), Lucille Davis (Aunt), Dora Sutton (Grandmother), and Ben Stewart (Cousin).
If I could go back and just see their beautiful faces I would. I know they are in a better place sitting high with God.
Th
ese individuals have touched a part of my l
ife that will live on forever.
My inspiration comes from them because they always had my back when it came to my dreams. So it’s only fair to dedicate my first book to them. They are my Angels looking down on me, cheering me on!
 

Chasing Love & Rainbows

A Novel by TT Dorsett

The Past…

Sitting in my car crying my eyes out, I came to a realization about my life. What I was about to do could change everything for my children. How can a parent tell her children that she may be dying of AIDS, and how can a parent tell her children that it was their father who gave her this disease? Will they hate their father, will they hate me, or will they suffer the way I was suffering?  The only conclusion

I came up with was killing their father and me.
Why should I let my children see me die and suffer from a disease that has no cure? I refused to let my children see me weak nor especially their weak ass father.

Patrick and I were high school sweethearts. I fell in love with him the first day we laid eyes on each other. He was a dark skinned, fine ass man with skin so smooth it looked like a baby’s ass. Patrick was a transferred student from the Atlanta, Georgia. All of the girls were really into him and I was one of them. I just knew he had to be mine, and I added fire to the pit by giving him the ass on the first date.

After dating most of our high school years I ended up pregnant with my first daughter Paris at 17. Four years later Porsche came and in another four Patrice followed. After more than a decade together, Patrick and I were never married.  Although he lived with us, a commitment was never his cup of tea. I have heard so many stories about him sleeping with other women that I refused to hear them. Hell, I figured since he was living with us and I had three of his children nothing could ever come between us.

Now after twenty years of this shit I had finally opened my eyes wide only to have them shut permanently.  I will never see my children grow into beautiful young ladies.  That was stripped from me the moment I found out I was going to die. I glanced over at my soon to be dead boyfriend when I saw the fear in his eyes.