Color Me Blind (A Divine Love Story Book 1) (31 page)

Inside the truck Blake punched the steering wheel.
 

Jasmine jumped. 

“Did you see how your mom looked at me like I disgusted her?” 

“Baby I know and
I’m sorry. I don’t know what to say.” 

“What did I ever do to her?
  What the hell is this bull about
tainting
her blood line?” 

“Baby
, I know how you feel but please don’t get so upset.” 

“How can I not be upset Jasmine
?” 

She was
hurt because she knew exactly what it felt like because his father had looked at her like that so many times. 

“Does she really have that much of a problem with white people that she would disown her own daughter because
you chose to be with me?” 

Jasmine
asked, “Why is this so hard?” 

Hearing the pain in her voice Blake realiz
ed that Jasmine was hurting too.  He realized what she would be giving up if she chose him. 

He reached over and pulled her
into his arms, “I’m sorry baby. I’m so sorry.” 

He loved Jasmine more than he wanted his next breath
but he didn’t want to ask her to choose between her mom and him.  It broke his heart to know they were so close to realizing their happiness.  To have it snatched away or put on indefinite hold was too much. 

He was so over everybody and their opinion about who he should love and who he should be with.  Why did they need anyone’s permission to love each
other?  He lifted Jasmine’s face to his and kissed her nose. 

He wiped her tears and
said, “Tell me now, are you in or out. I’m sorry that I’m asking you to choose, but Jaz I cannot give you up.  I just can’t.  I just need to know.” 

She stared at him and saw the fierce love for her in his eyes. 
How could she walk away from a man willing to love her like that?  She didn’t want to give him up either.  She had never been happier than she had been for the last 24 hours.  She had to be true to her heart.  She had her own life and she had to live it. 

She said, “I’m in baby.  Me and you against the world
, right?” 

“Right!
” 

He kissed her and pulled out of the driveway.  He held her
with one arm and drove with the other not wanting to be separated from her even for a moment.  He meant it when he said he would not let anyone or anything stand in the way of their happiness.  He knew exactly what he needed to do.

Five days later,
Blake and Jasmine were sitting on the side of the bed in a hotel room.  She was wearing a satin white night gown and he was wearing a t-shirt and boxers.  Jasmine was nervous and digging her toes into the plush carpet. 

She asked, “So do you have
protection?” 

“No, I don’t want there to be anything between us
tonight.” 

She nodded. 

He said, “I’ve actually never done this without protection, this will be the first time.” 

Her head popped up, “Are you serious?” 

He nodded. 

“Really, I mean even with Amber?” 

He put his right hand up, “I swear.” 

“Wow, well that’s interesting.” 

He asked, “What about you?” 

“Oh after that disaster of my first time I never left home without
it.” 

“
Are you on birth control?” 

She shook her head, “There was no point
once I chose to abstain.” 

She shrugged her shoulders. 

“So that means you could get pregnant tonight.”

She asked, “And how do you feel about that?” 

He grabbed her hand and ran his finger over the wedding band she now wore along with her engagement ring. 

“Well Jaz
you are my wife now and nothing would make me happier than to have a child with you.”

Jasmine and Blake had gone to Vegas for the weekend and eloped. 
The only people who knew were their roommates.  They were tired of letting other people’s feelings dictate their relationship or prevent them from the happiness they knew they deserved that could only be found with each other. 

Jasmine
asked, “So you really don’t care if I get pregnant.” 

“No I don’t, Jaz.
I told you I’m ready for this, all of this.  There is no way I’m using a condom with my wife on my wedding night.  So whatever happens let it happen.  I mean how cute would our kid be?  A little baby with my blue eyes and your wild curly hair and skin somewhere in between ours would be perfection. To know that our love created that would be the ultimate validation.” 

She smiled, “You never cease to amaze me.” 

He kissed her nose. 

She wondered, “Don’t you think it’s crazy that we know just about everything there is to know about
each other but we have no idea about this kinda stuff?” 

“Well there was never a need to know any of it.
” 

“
I have a confession to make. I’m nervous, like really nervous right now,” Jasmine said.

“Why?” 

“Why aren’t you?” 

“Well
, I mean, I have a few reservations but I’m not nervous anymore because I remembered I’m actually quite good at this.” 

She laughed, “My, aren’t we arrogant.” 

“I prefer the term confident.” 

She rolled her eyes.  He noticed her hand trembled slightly. 

He said, “Hey, you really are nervous.” 

“Uh didn’t I just say that?” 

He stood up, “Come here.” 

She stood. 

“Tell me why you’re nervous and be honest.” 

She hesitated and he gently lifted her chin to look her in the eyes. 

“Blake, I’m not the type of woman you’re into.  What if you don’t like what you see?” 

He relaxed,
“Oh is that what this is about?  Jaz, trust me when I tell you I have never wanted anyone more.  I’m looking forward to getting to know your body like I know your heart.  You are beautiful and I love all your curves.  I’m trying to figure out why it took me so long to appreciate them.” 

She tried to smile. 

He asked, “Do I have to kiss you all over your body like I did your nose to let you know that it’s perfect?” 

She laughed as he’d hoped she would. 

He pulled her into him, “Dance with me beautiful?” 

“But there’s no music.
” 

He laid her
head against his chest. 

“Just listen to my heart then
. It beats for you.” 

Jasmine closed her eyes as Blake swayed
them to the rhythm of his heartbeat.  He stroked her back and she started to relax.  She started to let all of her fears and worries dissipate as she enjoyed being in his arms.  After a while she felt herself being lifted and then Blake laid her on the bed.  She felt him slipping her out of her gown.  She couldn’t believe this moment was finally here.

Blake said, “Look at me
gorgeous.”               

She opened her eyes. 

He said, “I love you.” 

“I love you.”
 

He kissed her nose and then her lips.  She fisted her hands in his hair letting everything go except her husband and this moment.  Blake shifted his body and put his weight on Jasmine. 

He asked, “Are you ready?” 

“Yes.” 

He kissed her passionately.  When he joined their bodies they both gasped.  It seemed like time stopped.  They stared at each other frozen in the moment.  Jasmine had never felt anything like it and the tears spilled out from the pleasure. 

He whispered, “Am I hurting you?” 

She shook her head. 

“Am I too heavy for you?” 

She shook her head and said, “It’s a…” 

“
Perfect fit,” he finished her thought.

She nodded.  He kissed her again and began their first dance of love.

Blake took his precious time loving his new wife.  He wanted this to be a night they would never forget.  He explored everything he didn’t know about this woman that he loved so dearly.  As she experienced the dance Jasmine was drowning in the pleasure he gave her over and over and over again. 

Blake stared down at his wife and was rewarded by the
gratification on her face.  The glow of her skin was breathtaking.  He studied the contrast of their flesh and it didn’t bother him anymore. It was comforting to see it now as he let all of his reservations about it go. 

It felt so amazing to know she was his in every way a woman could belong to a man.  The mere thought that he got to spend the rest of his life with her, pleasing her, protecting her and making her happy made him feel favored by God himself.  He knew what a precious gift she was
and that this moment was priceless. The fulfillment she gave him was unlike anything he had ever experienced. 

Jasmine was astounded by
the connection she felt to her husband, mind, body and soul.  Nothing could separate them now.  Their dance felt like it had been divinely choreographed from the beginning of eternity.  She wanted him to feel what she felt. She wanted him to give himself to her in every way she had given herself to him.  She grabbed his face, his eyes bore into hers. 

She whispered, “I’ll always be yours
and no one else’s.” 

Her words were the perfect finale to the dance. 
Knowing and believing that he would never have to give her up made him lose the tiny grip he had on his control.  She ran her hand through his hair and kissed his temple gently causing goose bumps to saturate his flesh.  He buried his face in her neck and let go as her name gently danced off his lips.

Jasmine held on to Blake as tight as she could
while he trembled in her arms. She never wanted to let him go.  After his breathing slowed and he gained back control of his limbs he placed soft kisses all over her face and then shifted to lay behind her.  He kept his arms wrapped tightly around her. 

She asked, “Oh so you like to cuddle
huh?” 

“Uh, not really
.  I never did before.  You’re the only woman I’ve ever really wanted to hold.  I’m just not quite ready to let you go yet.” 

She smiled, “I know the feeling.”
 

“Jaz
, that was amazing.  I will never buy another condom again.” 

She chuckled,
“I know, I guess you have earned the right to be arrogant.  I feel so free and satisfied.” 

He
whispered in her ear, “Next time I’ll go for four.” 

She
smiled, “You were counting?” 

“I aim to
please. I need to keep my stats up.” 

“Boy you are so silly.”  

He stroked her belly. 

He said, “I’m really kind of hoping we made a baby tonight.
 

“Really, why is that?” 

“Every kid should be conceived out of this kind of love.  Though there is something that I’ve been thinking about since we had that talk with the guys.”

“What’s that baby?”

“What if we have a son and he looks like Damon then will I have to live with the fear you do every day for the men in your life?  Will I have to wonder if my kid is going to make it home?  How do I tell him that even though he’s my son when we walk down the street together people will judge me one way and him another?  Will he pull away from me because I don’t know what it’s like to be him?” 

Jasmine grabbed his face, “Baby
, the fact that you even considered that makes me love you even more.  We will just have to cross those bridges when we get there.  I tell you what though.  If you love your children with half the effort you love me they will never pull away from that kind of unconditional love no matter what the outside world is telling them.”

He smiled, appreciating her so much in that moment, “I love you baby.”

She grinned, “Blake I’m so unbelievably happy right now.” 

“It does seem like a dream doesn’t it?” 

“Too bad it will only last for a couple of days?” 

“I know.  What are we going to do about those parents of
ours?  They are going to freak.  My dad and your mom are probably going to disown us.  My mom and your dad will be eternally indignant because I think they wanted this more than we did.  They didn’t get to be a part of our wedding.” 

“Well yo
u know what, we can have a formal wedding when we get this all straightened out. I’ve been thinking about it and I think I have an idea.” 

“I am all ears.”

Jasmine said, “You remember when I went to hang out with my cousin Tameka in Tallahassee for homecoming a few years back.” 

“Yeah.” 

“Well, my cousin took me to her church.  I think it’s called Kingdom Builders or something.” 

“That’s when you decided to
give your life to Christ right?” 

“Yeah it was.  It was something about that church, something was different.  The first thing that drew me in was the music.  The songs were so powerful but I had never heard any of them before.  When I asked Tameka she said their minister of music, Seth, wrote almost all the songs they sang.  After church she introduced me to him so that I could tell him how one of his songs prompted me to give my life to Christ.” 

“Uh Jaz, what does church songs have to do with getting our parents to come to their senses.” 

She smiled
.

“Shhh.  I’m getting to that.  So when I met him I also met h
is wife.  Her name was Sheridan.  We got to talking and I asked her what she did.  She told me she was a psychologist.  That made me curious because I asked her did she include Christian principles in her counseling and she said yes, that her practice was faith based.” 

“Okay
, you want our parents to go see a church shrink.” 

“No I want all six of us to go and see a Christian counselor.” 

He stared at her for a long moment. 

“Why do you think we need to see a psych
ologist?” 

“
Because you told me yourself your dad said there was a reason why he was the way that he is but he wasn’t ready to deal with it.  Right before my surgery my dad said my mom had issues that she hadn’t dealt with.   I’ve been praying about this and I think those two have some deep rooted issues that go back to way before we were even a thought.  Until we get to the bottom of that we can’t have any real peace between us.”

He propped himsel
f up on his elbow.

“Okay, I’m not thrilled about going to see a shrink but how do you suppose we get my dad of all people to go see one.” 

“Okay, see that’s the part that will get a little tricky.  I’ve been thinking about this.  The only thing I think will work with absolutely no resistance is for us to threaten them.” 

He laughed
.

“Jasmine you’re funny.  So what are we going to
do, hold them at gunpoint and make them go?” 

She hit him.

“No.  We are going to tell them that we will no longer be a part of their lives unless they agree for all of us to get counseling.”