Authors: Katharine Kerr
of sculptures had been especially demanding. Like the Auschwilz
crossbeams, each piece incorporated a score of twisted faces, a
hundred twisted limbs. Drawing them out had exhausted me. I
could hardly stand to look at them.
The wood had come from Cambodian trees.
The gallery was full. Patrons had wineglasses in their hands as
they went from one piece to another. Sometimes an art opening
is noisy as a cocktail party. Mine tend to be subdued. This one
was silent.
Nina and the gallery owner had already seen the pieces, and I
was relieved to find, as I stood in the middle of the room with
them, that they, like me, were in the mood for something else.
anything else. We managed to hold a conversation in the middle
of the room, focusing on each other, ignoring the little wooden
hells that were all around us. And it worked. Before long we re-
ally did forget ourselves.
The gallery owner said something that struck me as funny. I
laughed. I put my head back and roared.
A woman wheeled from one of the sculptures and shouted,
"How can you laugh in here? How can you?"
It is easy for me to find the spot on the ridge where I had
found him. There's the stump of the pine tree that I felled while
he was still unconscious.
"Stand there," I say. "Right where I found you."
He doesn't move.
I wave the pistol and say, "Come on."
He looks at me, hesitates, then steps sideways to the spot.
"I don't know about you," I say. "I don't know how far gone
you might be, how you got started down this path."
"You won't—"
"Shut up," I say. "It doesn't matter whether I know or not. I
only have one answer. There's only one thing for me to do about
you and others like you."
I toss him the canvas bag. Catching it, he drops the box of
crackers.
"Open it up," I say, and he does. He takes out the sculpture of
the hand, and he doesn't know what to make of it until he turns
it the right way, can see the meaning of the outstretched fingers,
die unmistakable gesture.
Please. I'm hurt. I'm down. No more. Please.
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"I took it out of the tree," I tell him, nodding at the stump.
With his free hand, he touches his side where his ribs still
ache. His expression seems more angry than sad, more vengeful
than softened with wisdom. But who knows?
He opens his mouth, begins to form a word.
"No," I say. "It doesn't matter. We're finished already."
He looks at the boots on his feet. The boots strangers have
died of. When he looks up, I'm pointing the pistol at his chest
I watch his face. His expression is impossible to read-
1 turn away, begin to retrace my steps. I, too, wear boots. The
lustrous leather clings to my calves like a second skin, and melt-
ing snow beads up on the blackness to glint like the stars coming
out. One point of light. Then another. Then one more. Soon, they
will be numberless as the dead. And as cold.
The Clearing
by Lots Ti'kon
Lois Tiiton has recently completed her fourth novel. Ac-
cusations, set in the universe of the television series
Babylon 5. More than forty of her short stories have ap-
peared in magazines and anthologies featuring the genres
of science fiction, fantasy, and horror.
The forest's breath was cool and damp, with a scent of old, de-
caying leaves. Cat moved silently through sunlight-dappled
shale, soft-footed like the striped forest hunter he was named
for. Pigment streaked his bare arms, and two broad lines of it
across his cheekbones to below the comer of his eyes: a cat
mask.
There were others with him: his brothers, the men of his tribe,
all armed as he was with short bows carved from the striated
heartwood of the yew and stone-tipped arrows. Cat could see the
movement of his brother Leaping Hare through the trees ahead
of him on his right, and behind him the shadow of Wolf-the-
Hunter on his left. The rest, unseen and unheard, followed, intent
on their path.
Suddenly, as the breeze shifted slightly. Cat caught the scent,
halted, raised a hand to signal to the rest, and they all paused at
the thin, acrid taint of woodsmoke in the air: fire, which the
forest-dwellers always feared.
Now the faces of the men were grim as they advanced through
the dense, old-growth trees, and their bows were in their hands,
arrows ready to be nocked into the string, for Cat had warned
them what he'd seen. As they went forward, the smoke hung
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more thickly in the air, until it obscured vision and made the
hunters' eyes sting. There was a repeated sound also, like a
woodpecker's beak striking a tree. but dull and echoing. Then,
ahead of them, even though the smoke, the glare of bright sun-
light was visible, sunlight unfiltered through the translucent
leaves of the forest canopy, a light bare and raw and harsh to the
eyes.
Leaping Hare, closest to the clearing, spoke a curse of anger
and disbelief. And Cat, creeping forward, saw again what he had
seen before and clutched the catskin bag that hung around his
neck. It held the teeth and claws and polished bone of the striped
forest cat that had come to him in his naming-dream. It was his
most potent protection, for with it around his neck, the cat
walked with him, his spirit-brother: shadow-stealth, quick-
striking.
And he felt the need for protection now, for what he saw—
what he had brought the others to see with him—was an
enormity so great it passed all comprehension. A man might cut
a tree, for wood, to make a bow. A man would make a fire for
warmth in winter, and to cook his meat. But what kind of men
would lay a whole hillside bare so nothing was left but haggled
stumps and bare dead ground? What kind of men would heap the
hacked-off branches into a pile as high as their heads and light
a fire to send black smoke rolling up like stormclouds?
But they were men, of that there was no doubt—dark-skinned
men, their bare muscular backs gleaming with sweat as they
swung their axes into the trees still standing. That was the sound
the forest tribe heard now, the bite of axes into the living wood.
Chips and wedges of it flew, then one of the men gave a cry of
warning, and a great tree swayed, its fibers cracked and snapped,
and it fell to the ground like a crash of thunder.
But elsewhere on the hillside, other men continued their labor,
other axes chopped on, the sound of their blades striking wood
and ringing off the denuded slope. It made Cat shake inside to
see it.
The forest men were familiar with war, when one tribe would
encroach the hunting territory of another: quick raids, swift
strikes, sometimes an enemy's head to show as a trophy, some-
times widows scarring their faces in mourning. This, though, this
was war on the forest itself, killing it tree by tree, so no animal
could live, no hunter stalk, no woman gather the nuts that fell
from its branches.
None of them questioned what they must now do, so they
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withdrew to prepare, and Cat and Leaping Hare both took paint
and renewed the totem marks on each other's face and body.
Then each man went apart by himself, and Cat took the catskin
bag from around his neck and reverently laid each object out in
front of him on the ground, praying to the spirit of the cat: Walk
with me, brother—give me your quickness, give me your strength.
It would be his first war, the first time for him to face another
man with intent to kill. He was the youngest of them, only come
into his name this spring. If he died, his mother and sisters would
cut their faces with their skinning knives, but he had no wife to
bleed for him. He glanced through the trees to where his brother
was praying to his own spirit-brother. Leaping Hare had two small
daughters, tf he died tonight, it would be up to Cat to provide for
them, to move into the widow's tent, since he had no wife of his
own. Cat thought that it might be better if he were the one to die,
and he felt shame that he hoped it wouldn't be so. He almost
wished now that he'd never come to the edge of the forest, or
smelled me smoke, or seen the ax-blades flashing in the sun.
As dusk fell, the hunters gathered, looked down again on the
strange men, who had finally ceased their work of destruction
and gathered around a high, leaping fire. They had meat roasting
there—the scent of it made Cat's belly twitch.
They attacked from three directions, creeping silently toward
their enemies under the cover of darkness. Their arrows fell
on the woodcutters, who bellowed in rage and pain and snatched
up their axes to defend themselves, charging their enemies. The
two forces closed, and then there was no more room for bow-
work.
But the woodcutters had the advantage at close quarters with
their axes and their other weapons, great knives as long as a
man's forearm. Cat watched in horror as one of the blades
slashed across his brother's belly, and blood gushed and entrails
swelled out like a gutted deer's. Leaping Hare staggered, still on
his feet, arms clutching his life, until an ax took him from behind
and he went down- The enemy turned on Cat next—Cat, armed
with only his stone knife, and he couldn't make himself face that
terrible blade. He took the first step backward, then another, but
me axeman cut him off, swung his weapon, and the crushing
blow sent Cat to the ground.
When it was all over, they found him, still trying to crawl
back to the safety of the forest A hand wrenched his head back
by the hair, he felt a sharp blade at his throat, but someone
barked sounds that were words, and they dragged him back to
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their fire, tied him hand and foot, and left him to his agony
alone,
In the morning, they pulled him to his feet, struck him, tried
to make him stand, but he could not, and they left him again. All
that day he suffered, tied and staked under the naked, open sun.
His fair skin burned, his limbs had passed from torture to numb
lifelessness, and the effort of every breath cost his broken ribs
terrible pain. But the worst misery was the thirst, as me sun beat
down on his unprotected head, baked him like a fire, cracked his
lips. and dried his throat to ashes.
All throughout that day, the sound of the axes filled the hill-
side, blow after blow, bite after bite into the bleeding sapwood of
the trees, pounding, ringing, echoing against the ache in his head.
On and on and on, unceasing, relentless- When would they ever
stop? In his anguish, Cat felt the catskin bag still tied around bis
neck, and he prayed to his spirit-brother for help, for the strength
to break away, to escape into the cool familiar safety of the for-
est. to his tribe.
But when the sun fell low in the sky, me sound of die axes
ceased. Once again the loggers built up a roaring fire, so great
that Cat could feel the heat of it licking his sunburned skin. He
could smell flesh cooking, and he wondered if they meant to spit
mm over the fire like a deer and bum him alive, if that was why
they'd kept him tied all the long day, to save him for the ordeal.
Someone kicked him to make him move, but he couldn't, he
could only moan in his pain and thirst. He heard voices quarrel-
ing above him, opened his eyes enough to make out a man with
a long blade, gesturing with it, and Cat understood that he
wanted to cut his throat or gut him, like Leaping Hare had been
gutted. But another man, with an ax, struck his fist to his own
chest angrily as he argued back. A moment later he was back,
with water in a clay bowl. He splashed it onto Cat's head and
face and made him drink the rest. and soon after that. Cat could
lift his head and see what was happening.
They were throwing the bodies onto the fire- No, there were
two fires, and the bodies they were throwing onto the larger one
were the dead of his tribe. So many of them! Cat wept for his
brother and all the rest of them, killed so horribly and now de-
nied the burial rites to free their souls from the dead flesh. There
were corpses burning in the other fire, as well, dead limbs writh-
ing in the flames, but Cat could take no joy in the enemy's
losses, not in the face of his own,
They kept him tied again that night, but in the morning his
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bonds were cut, and when he could finally move, the man with
the ax threw him a chunk of meat, but Cat couldn't eat it, not
knowing what kind of flesh it was. The axeman swore at him,
then pushed him and gestured that he was to work, and he did,
all that day, hauling the brush to the fires that burned constant-
ly, fouling the air. When he stumbled, they beat him until he got
back to his feet But though the smoke stung his eyes, he could