Authors: Katharine Kerr
still see the forest, the trees so close, if he could only reach them.
and he clutched his spirit-bag in one hand and prayed for the
chance.
The axeman, he learned, was named Tagh. Tagh made it clear
by heatings and gestures that he now belonged to him, his slave,
but Cat refused to submit to being owned. He made himself
force down the meat they gave him mis time, and again in the
morning when he was untied, to give him strength. He watched
and he waited with the patience of a stalking cat, and when he
thought their eyes weren't on him, he broke and ran for the
safety of the trees, knowing he could disappear if he could make
it into the forest, knowing they could never find him there. But
he'd underestimated his weakness, the pain in his broken ribs
slowed him down, and one of the loggers tackled him, brought
him to me ground. Then Tagh stormed up, furious, snatched up
a stick and beat him until it was broken, while Cat lay curled up
on the ground trying to protect his broken side from the hardest
blows.
From then on, his feet were tied, although the leather thongs
cut into this ankles, tripped him and made him clumsy at his
work. Tagh beat him well and kicked him up to his feet again to
make him keep working- Some of the others advised him to kill
this slave, that he was more trouble than he was worth, but the
axeman was stubborn. Cat understood this without knowing their
words.
But he was stubborn, too, and when he found a broken arrow-
head, he hid it in his belt, saved it till night to saw cautiously at
his bonds. He didn't dare try to bolt, not with the ribs that
stabbed him with pain at every step. Stealth it would have to be,
to crawl unseen and unheard from the loggers' camp, to steal
like a shadow into the trees, and away. Stealth like a cat's, and
he prayed again to his spirit-brother for a cat's silent feet.
But Cat hadn't known that the woodcutters were posting a
watch around their camp now at night, to guard against another
attack from the forest tribes. He was close, so painfully close to
the trees when the sentry spotted him, gave the alarm.
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Tagh cursed when he saw the severed bonds, and then he spot-
ted the catskin sack around Cat's neck, tore it off, although Cat
screamed and fought for it, even with the loggers holding his
arms behind his back. Tagh spilled the teeth and claws on the
ground, then tossed the sack into the fire, and Cat felt the loss as
if it was his heart being ripped open, his protection gone, his
spirit-brother lost to him. It was a worse pain than the beating,
and the beating was hard, Tagh grimly smiling this time as he
brought the stick down on his slave's back, knowing that he'd
stripped away his spirit-power.
Not many days later, though, the woodcutters packed up their
camp and deserted it, leaving the fallen logs stacked on the bare,
dry, ash-covered ground. Cat stumbled under the weight of a
pack, his ankles still tied, in growing despair as each step took
him farther and farther from the forest, from the only world he
knew. The sun overhead glared down like a malevolent spirit of
heat, with a single burning eye. The distant horizon made him
reel with vertigo. So much empty land, all cleared of trees! Why
so much mindless destruction, with such effort?
But after a while he could see that there was a purpose to it,
that the cleared lands were full of tall, waving grasses and other
lush strands of vegetation, men and women at work in them, bent
over the crops. Dark-skinned men and women like the woodcut-
ters, who greeted them cheerfully, as if they were returning from
a long hunt, laden with game.
There was no glad welcome for Cat, only stares of misgiving,
though he was given food, at least, by the women of Tagh's
house. It was fear that made him run that night, fear of spending
his life in such a place. But he was caught again, and dragged
back, and Tagh beat him again, grimly, relentlessly, until the
blood ran down his back and legs.
When are you going to leam? Or do I have to kill you first?
Cat understood the question from the tone more than the
words. He shook his head weakly. They were both stubborn men.
He's too wild, like a forest animal! What use is he as a slave
if you have to beat him half-dead every time he runs? That was
Tagh's wife, arguing with him.
The priest will tame him for me.
The woman held her tongue, but her doubt was visible in her
eyes as she cleaned the blood from Cat's back and poulticed it
with a salve that stung like nettles.
The next day, Tagh took Cat to a house in the village that was
darker inside than the rest, and filled with the scents of smoke
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and burning herbs. Cat struggled when they bore him down to
the ground, thinking this meant more than just another beating,
that they were going to hamstring him or geld him like the oxen
he'd seen in the fields. Tagh had threatened as much. / won't run
again, he wanted to beg, knowing it was a lie, his fear speaking.
But when the priest bent over him, his fear took a new form
and the protest froze in his throat, because this man's eyes were
wide-dilated, even for the darkness of the house, and Cat could
see the spirits looking out of them—spirits like the ones that pos-
sessed the shaman of his own tribe in a holy trance, or when a
spirit-dream came over a man and he spoke with their voice.
Those eyes took hold of his own and held them, and Cat was
powerless to resist, alone as he was, with his brother-spirit torn
away from him and lost.
What followed was like an evil spirit-dream, because Cat was
held helpless by the priest's eyes and by his voice. He couldn't
move or speak or even cry aloud when the priest took a knife
from the fire where it had been heating and put the white-hot tip
of the blade against his leg, just above the welts the thongs had
made, and slowly drew a mark there, branding it into his flesh.
Cat could feel the pain sear him in all its burning intensity, he
could smell the singeing of his hair and flesh, but he couldn't
pull away or even scream. Then the priest took another knife
from the fire and branded him again on his other leg.
The incantation suddenly ceased, releasing him, and Cat cried
out in reaction. But Tagh looked satisfied, and he thanked the
priest and his apprentice in respectful tones. Then he pulled his
slave to his feet and sent him out to the fields.
The work was hard. Cat had never known anything like the in-
cessant grinding toil under the sun, hacking at the weeds in the
fields, bending all day until he thought his back would break and
his head burst from the heat. But gradually his muscles grew ac-
customed to the work, his fair skin stopped blistering and turned
a darker brown, and he learned to plait a hat from grass to pro-.
tect his head. He discovered that he wasn't the only slave in the
village, not even the only one who was branded. But they had all
submitted to their condition, or had been bom to slavery, and that
frightened Cat, that he would grow to be like them, dull-eyed
and resigned.
He ran again, of course. Not the first day, or the second. He
meant to get his strength back this time, to wait till his broken
ribs had healed- Tagh wasn't ungenerous with his food, and Cat
wasn't tied at night any more. In fact, it almost seemed as if
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Tagh was watching him, waiting for him to make the attempt,
even eager.
Cat was wary, but he waited, he judged his time, and finally,
he ran. His escape would be easy, as he conceived it, for the
stream that ran past the margin of the village, fouled and
muddied by their animals, flowed from the north, out of the for-
est. All he had to do was follow it back. So he made his escape
on a moonlit night, following the streambed, but when dawn
came he saw with horror that he had run all night downstream,
in the wrong direction, and was now even further than ever from
where he wanted to be. Desperate, he tried to retrace his steps,
but he ran directly into the search party from Tagh's village, who
dragged him back.
"The sooner you leam you can't get away, the easier it'll be
on your hide," Tagh told him as he flogged his runaway slave
with a thick strap cut from the ox's harness. There was a distinct
tone of satisfaction in his voice. "You don't have your own
magic anymore, and the priest's is stronger."
"Pigheaded," his wife said, poulticing Cat's raw back, not too
gently either. He wasn't sure which one of them she meant, or
possibly both. "He'll run again, all right. He'll be thinking about
it as soon as the scabs heal. And you'll strap the skin off his
back again, and how much work will we get out of him then?"
"He may run, but he won't get anywhere," Tagh insisted. "His
feet will bring him back, no matter where he tries to go."
Could it be true? Cat rubbed the red brand marks above his
ankles, the symbol that the priest had burned into his flesh.
Memory of that ordeal made him shudder, and he reached in-
stinctively for his spirit-bag, but of course it was gone, and with
it his power to resist. He prayed, at night, for his spirit-brother
to return to him, to guide him from this place, but there was no
answer. The cat was a forest spirit, and there was no place for it
here.
He tried once again that fall to escape, at the harvest festival,
on the night when the priest called for blessings on the crops and
the whole village celebrated with beer they'd brewed from the
last season's grain. Tagh was soon reeling from the beer he'd
poured down his throat, and Cat took his chance. He ran all
night, guiding his steps by the moon and the stars in the sky
overhead, but in the morning he found he was still in sight of
Tagh's village, that he had run in circles all that time, like the ox
tethered to tread out the grain.
"He'll leam," Tagh said to his skeptical wife as she brought
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out her jar of poultice and waited with impatient resignation to
use it. "He's not stupid, just stubborn." Then he paused a mo-
ment, as if to rest his arm. "Aren't you, Khagt?"
But Cat kept his face turned away and made no reply.
"Pigheaded," the wife muttered.
Then came winter, the first snows fell, and the rhythm of work
in the village fell off. Cat wore a shin of wool now, instead of
his deerhide kilt. That was the incessant toil of the house's
women, to spin the coats of the sheep and goats into yam and
weave it into cloth. They were Tagh's wives and daughters, Cat
thought at first, but later he learned that the younger woman with
the covered hair of a wife was in fact Tagh's widowed daughter,
returned to her father's house under some kind of disgrace. And,
to Cat's surprise, the smallest brown-skinned girl was also a
slave. But Margha, the wife, beat her no more or more often than
the rest.
With the approach of spring, though, half the village uprooted
itself, packed up its possessions, and hauled them north to the
land cleared out of the forest the summer before. The ashes were
already spread pver the earth, the logs stacked, seasoned and
ready for building.
Now Cat began to realize the true scale of a farmer's labor,
from the earliest light of dawn to dusk, clearing and planting the
land, constructing shelter for men and animals—unceasing, wea-
rying toil that left him at night almost too exhausted to eat. Why
did men wish to live this way when there was the forest, with
game to hunt and food to gather freely from the ground and the
trees?
There was no moment of the day now when he couldn't look
up from his work and see the forest, cool and dark-green, beyond
the boundaries of the new village. The air held the cool, familiar
scent of the trees. At night, when the ache in his overworked
muscles kept him from sleeping, he thought he could hear the
voice of the forest calling to him, the rustle of the breeze through
its leaves. He would close his eyes and try to dream, hoping for
a vision of a striped cat who would speak to him and lead him
away, but the dream never came. Their spirit-bond had been bro-
ken, and the fading brands on his tegs, the magic of the terrible
old priest, kept the cat from coming to him.
"He'll run again," Margha warned her husband, scowling at
Cat. "It was a bad idea to bring him here. See how he stares off
into the woods whenever he thinks no one is looking?"
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"He may run, but he'll have to come back." Tagh said with
grim confidence, but he greased the harness leather strap with
pigfat, to keep it supple.
Cat did run, because the nearness of the forest was a constant
torment, a near-physical pain to see it every day, bent over a hoe
in a half-cleared field where the stumps sdll stood out in the