Authors: Joyce Carol Oates
They were telling him his mother was not dead but alive.
His father was dead. His father had been murdered.
His mother had been severely injured, yet was not dead but alive.
Do you think that your mother is dead, Bart? Why do you think that your mother is dead?
Stammering
Thatâthat's what you told me. You told meâoh Godâmy p-parents were dead. Butâ
No, Bart. Your mother is not dead. Your mother is in a coma.
C-Coma
. . .
But before she lost consciousness she named you, Bart. Your mother named you as the person who had attacked her and had murdered your father, that's you, Bart.
This, Bart truly could not comprehend. This had to be totally impossible, the cops were lying to him.
In someplace confusing to him he was sittingâthe strength had drained out of his knees, he'd had to sit down. He saw how the police officers who were plainclothes were flanking him, one to his right, one to his left, and the lead detective, whose name he'd immediately forgotten, was questioning him like he already knew every answer Bart could give. This wasâsuch a shock! His heart was pounding like a fist against his rib cage, he was hyperventilating and the cops didn't give a damn, didn't even noticeâhis mom would have noticed, and tried to comfort him.
They were sayingâwhat? His mother was in a coma. His mother
was not dead.
See, Bart: she named you. Your mother named you as the assailant. When the medics came to your house and the first police officers arrived your mother was still conscious though she'd lost a lot of blood, and so she was asked by one of our officers
Do you know who did this to you, Mrs. Hansen?
and though she couldn't speak she was able to nod her head, yes; and she was asked, “Was the assailant someone in your family?” and she was able to nod her head, yes; and she was asked, “Was the assailant your son?”â(the officer was guessing, your parents would have at least one son)âand she seemed to be nodding, yes. And she passed out then and they took her away.
They were arresting him! Hadn't come to the Delta Sigma house to break the terrible news of his parents' deaths but were callously
arresting him.
The Delt-Sigs were looking on as Bart was half-led, half-carried out to the PD cruiserâall the guys, astonished.
What the fuck? What is this? What're they doing to Bart?
And out on the front walk gaping like he's a freak show asshole, Theta Pis from next door, and two girlsâgorgeous girlsâfrom the Chi Omega house, Oh Christ!âall gaping at
him.
That night, 10
p.m
. DeMarco Pizza delivery van rolls up, doorbell rings and it's eight large pizzas for the Delt-Sigsâthis is all that Bart had gotten around to ordering but a nice surprise for his frat brothers, after this nightmare day that has left them stunnedâ“freaked”âand there's local TV news footage of the shabby exterior of the Delt-Sig house and guys on the front stoop shouting obscenities and giving reporters the fingerânot such a great image for the fraternity.
Deekman, Davis. His dad's golf-club friend who was the kind of lawyer Bart needed: criminal defense.
Not that Dad had ever been a really close friend of Deekman, he'd complained that Deekman cheated at golf when he could get away with it. But Davis Deekman was the only name Bart knew, and Deekman would know
him.
As it turned out, Deekman was a terrific choice.
One of the first things Deekman did was arrange for Bart's Explorer to be driven back to East Rensselaer, for safekeeping.
And he'd tried to get Bart out of the crummy detention facility, tried to arrange for bail, but even an exorbitant bail was denied for Bart Hansen was considered a
flight risk.
It was like a terrible joke, Bart would protest to friends. He's devastated his parents have been murdered and all the cops and the judge can think of isâhe's a
fucking flight risk.
Swiftly too much was happening. Great stretches of Bart's life so F U C K I N G B O R I N G it was like he'd been crawling on hands and knees through the Sahara Desert in slow-motion but now suddenly, when he's weak, and emotionally fragile, everything is speeded-up likeâlike the world is on crystal meth and he's the only sane one.
His mind
goes blank
. Starts to think of the situation he's in and the terrible fact that his parents are dead. . . . The realization hits him in the gut like he's been kicked, his insides are churning with a need to use the toilet, fastânobody gives a damn how sick he is, how clammy-cold his skin isâthat he's having a full-fledged panic attack and could die.
One good thing: he'd decided better not look for his father's wallet in the bedroom, remove bills and credit cards like the Visa Platinum the way a burglar would. For now the cops would've discovered Laurence Hansen's credit cards in Bart's possession and how'd Bart explain
that?
Relatives come to see him in the Rensselaer County Detention Center where he's in “isolation” and he tells them that it is not trueâit is a lieâthat his mother
identified him
as the assailant: “That is just not possible. I was not there!” He has no idea who killed his parentsâthat is, his fatherâhe guesses it had to have been a break-in, a “home invasion”âlike that one in Connecticut a couple of years agoâand his father had defied the intruders, and was killed for his courage. And his mother . . .
Well, the fact isâBart has to keep reminding himselfâhis mother is
alive.
Bart's mother is not dead like his father but
in a coma.
The relatives are praying for Louisa. Neighbors, friends. All are praying for Louisa Hansen to recover from her terrible injuries.
Bart, too. Of course, Bart is praying, too. Tearful Bart asks to be allowed to visit his mother in the Rensselaer hospital but his request is denied.
Bart tells anyone who will listen that he knows nothing about the ax attack. He'd been at the frat house in Syracuse all that nightâhis frat brothers will vouch for him. In fact, he'd been in Syracuse for all of that week. He'd talked with his parents only a few days before and there had been “no sign” of anything wrong, he was sure.
His dad had enemies, he believed. Business enemies. And the house on Juniper Drive is “kind of a âconspicuous consumption' house”â(he'd gotten this fancy term from his S.U. economics prof)âsomebody'd be led to think whoever lived there had
money.
Rensselaer County prosecutors were suggesting that the ax attack had been perpetrated for motives of money: the son, deeply in debt, having forged his father's signature on a $28,000 check the previous December to pay for a new SUV, and in arrears with his fraternity, was counting on life-insurance money coming to him, as well as his parents' estateâestimated at approximately three million dollars.
Three million! Bart had had the idea that his parents were worth a lot more than thatâten million at least. The way the old man
hinted
and
boasted.
What about the property in Bolton Landing? Bart's father's family had owned it for, like, generationsâa sprawling old Adirondack lodge on three acres overlooking Lake George. Wasn't that worth a couple million dollars, at least?
The life-insurance policies weren't great but OK: two hundred thousand on Laurence's life, sixty thousand on Louisa's life. You had to figure the mother's life was worth less because she didn't have an income like the father.
Bart finds it difficult to comprehend, he isn't going to receive this money. He is his parents' beneficiary but only if both are deceased; the situation being what it is, and Louisa still alive, she is Laurence's beneficiary and twenty-year-old Bart doesn't get a dime.
Rensselaer County prosecutors had confiscated both the Hansens' personal computers as well as Bart's personal computer and were concocting a narrative of
vengeful, calculating, murderous son
on the spurious evidence of e-mail communications between parents and son over a period of eighteen months, the forged check for the down payment on the Explorer, e-mail exchanges with the Sigma Nu Corporation, and reported conversations with friends of the defendant.
In the face of this
mounting suspicion,
as the media described it, Deekman was cool and efficient. He didn't waste words and didn't allow his client to waste words either. Often when Bart began to speak to him in a loud aggrieved voice he lifted a hand to signal
No more.
(Their meetings were held in an allegedly soundproof room at the detention center. But anyone who believed that the prosecution wasn't spying on them, Deekman said, didn't need a lawyer but a psychiatrist.)
When Bart started to explain to him another time how he'd been at the Delt-Sig house all that night when his parents were killed Deekman lifted his hand saying curtly
Understood.
Yet, despite Deekman's efforts, they'd indicted Bart Hansen. The Rensselaer prosecutors who seemed to have no one to vent their spite upon, no object or target for their vituperation except the bereft son of murdered parentsâ(that is, one murdered parent and the other comatose)âtriumphed in the courthouse and in the local media.
rensselaer youth, 20, indicted in murder of father
attempted murder of mother
mother identifies son before lapsing into coma
In all of upstate New York TV news and newspapersâand onlineâit was repeated again and againâagainâthat the
severely injured mother had managed to identify her son before lapsing into a coma;
and the issue was, would such an accusation be allowed in a trial, if there was a trial? If the mother did not wake from the coma, to repeat her statement in court, orâif the mother died . . .
Deekman was adamant: if there was a trial it could not be held in Rensselaer County or anywhere near. Nowhere in this part of New York State where the media have shamelessly exploited his client's personal tragedy.
In the Rensselaer hospital, Louisa Hansen remains
in a comatose state, on life-support machines.
In the Rensselaer County detention facility, Bart Hansen remains in custody awaiting trial, kept apart from other inmates.
In Bart's lower gut there is a ceaseless churning of anxiety, misery. Gas pains like knife stabs coming one-two-three so he practically faints sometimes. Yet, he has not lost weight in this terrible environmentâhe has actually gained weight around his middle, flabby-doughy flesh the hue of Wonder Bread. Made to walk aroundâ“exercise”âin what passes for a gym in the dank interior of the facilityâhe becomes quickly short of breath.
Why Bart is kept isolated from other inmates in the detention center he isn't certain. Not just the color of his skinâthere are a few other white men in the facility he has noticed, or what you'd describe as “white.”
Mostly dark-skinned men and boys staring at him as he's led past their cells to his own at the far end of a corridor. Lucky they can't get close to him, all they can do is bare their teeth at him
Hey white boy. Yo fuckin fag you kill you momma asshole?
Even the guards are disdainful of Bart Hansen. White guys, dark-skinned. Never call him by any name except
you
or maybe, if he's slow to move,
You, Ha'sen.
Alone, Bart watches TV. Crummy small-screen TV and no cable. His jaws clench, his back teeth grind. He is incredulous! Can't believe his frat-brothers testified
against him
at the grand jury hearing.
The “identification” of Bart his mother allegedly made, prominently featured in all media accounts of the ax attack, Bart scarcely considers at all. First, he can't and won't believe it for he knows that his mother adores him and though she might be pissed with him sometimes, she'd never wish to seriously harm
him;
the cop must've tricked her into nodding her head or the cop made it all upânone of it had happened. Deekman is fighting to exclude the “so-called identification” from evidence to be presented at the trial; particularly, he is adamant that the “hearsay evidence” provided by the medics at the scene will be excluded.
All this whileâweeks, months!âbriefs are being filed. Petitions to the court. Deekman is demanding a change of venue. Bart's relatives have ceased to visit him. His dad's older brother, his aunt Sheila who's a high school teacher in Elmiraâthey'd seemed sympathetic with Bart at the start, now less so. The Delt-Sigs he'd been closest to have never come to visit himânot once.
The soberng fact isâexcept for his mother nobody gives a damn whether Bart Hansen lives or dies.
If he'd had a girlfriend. A loyal girlfriend to have faith in him and visit him in detention; to come to his trial and sit conspicuously behind him, for the gawkers to seeâthat would impress the jury.
Sometimes, a juror will fall in love with a defendant. Bart seems to recall that that happened with Ted Bundy the notorious serial killer, when he was defending himself in a Florida courtroom, and maybe with Robert Chambers, the “preppy” murderer in New York City.
His father's life-insurance policy will pay $200,000 to Louisa Hansen, not to Bart; for Bart is not the “surviving” son and can make no claim so long as his mother is alive. And his father's “estate”âwhatever that includesâcontinues to belong to his mother, so long as she is alive. Bart asks Deekman could he take out a loan against the life insurance and/or the estate he will inheritâ(he assumes he will inherit, he has not actually seen his parents' wills)âand Deekman counsels him no, this is probably not a good idea for Bart must keep in mind that he has had a “negative” press and people are “prejudiced” against him, that's the problem.