Lord of the Far Island (7 page)

llen, I fancy youe rather pleased with life.

know just how Cinderella felt when she went to the ball.

must make a delightful Prince Charming.

e rescued her from the ashes. Youe rescued me from Cousin Agatha and the Honorable Mrs. Oman Lemming, who are far more deadly.

emember it, Ellen. I shall remind you over the next fifty years.

nd after that?

shall have brought you to such a state of gratitude that you will never need to be reminded. Thatl take care of the next twenty years.

ow odd to think of us old.

fate to which we all must come, even my divine Ellen.

h, Philip, I happy. Life is going to be so amusing, isn it?

ust imagine us together with no Nanny Grange hovering to observe decorum and silly little Esmeralda trailing on.

on be unkind to Esmeralda. Youe fond of her really, and she is very dear to me. Don forget she lost a bridegroom tonight.

hey couldn have been serious about that.

hy not? They wanted her married. Your parents evidently wanted you married. Two families governed by financial wizards! What could be better than a merger? And you have spoilt it all by preferring the Poor Relation.

oue the one who spoilt it. Who could look at Esmeralda with you around?

When the waltz was over he took me to my seat and Philip talked about the future, but I was too absorbed in the glorious present to think very much about it. And when we went in to supper, Mr. Carrington made the announcement to the company. He said how pleased he was to tell them all that this was a very special occasion for his family because his son Philip had confided in him that he had asked for the hand of a young lady who had promised to be his wife. He wanted everyone to drink to the health and future happiness of Miss Ellen Kellaway and his son Philip.

What a hush there was in the dining room, where the great table was so expertly dressed by Wilton and his minions, laden with cold salmon, meats of all descriptions, salads and desserts, and the black-gowned white-capped-and-aproned staff stood at intervals like sentries waiting to serve. All eyes were on me. I knew that some of the stern dowagers were thinking: But it was to be Esmeralda, and if not Esmeralda, were not their own daughters far more eligible than Agatha Loring Poor Relation?

And there was I in my simple black gown made beautiful by Philip orchid, just as I was made attractive because I was the chosen one. I knew my eyes were shining, my cheeks faintly flushed; and I sensed that Philip was proud of me. He gripped my hand firmly. Yes, I was happy as I had rarely been. It was a miracle. Mrs. Oman Lemming faded away as a nightmare does by day. She and her establishment were just an evil dream. No more humiliation. It was ironical. I, the despised, was to be one of the Carringtons. And there was Philip beside me, metaphorically fitting the glass slipper on my foot and proclaiming me as the one he had chosen.

Lady Emily wafted up to me and kissed me on the ear. I think she had meant it to be my cheek but she always missed the point; then Mr. Carrington took my hand and kissed it and his smile was warm and welcoming. Esmeralda came up and threw her arms about me. Dear Esmeralda! Even though she had not wanted to marry Philip she might have felt a little piqued to be passed over. Not she! She could see that I was happy, and she was contented too.

Philip and I sat together with his parents. Cousin Agatha and Cousin William Loring eventually joined us with Esmeralda. It was a kind of ritualhe two families together to celebrate the happy event. Cousin Agatha tried bravely to hide the fury in her heart and I had to admit she contrived to do so very well. But when I met her gaze once it was quite venomous.

Mr. Carrington said he thought there should be no unnecessary delay. Once two people had made up their minds and there was no reason why they should hesitate, they should marry.

When I said good night to Philip he said he would call next day. We had so many plans to make and he agreed with his father that there should be no delay.

I went to my room. I took off my serviceable ball gown. I would always keep it, I promised myself, even when I had magnificent Carrington ball gowns. I laughed to myself remembering the awe in which this household had always held that name. And now it was to be mine.

While combing my hair the door opened and Cousin Agatha came in. She was breathing deeply and was clearly holding her emotions in check.

She looked magnificent in her wayassive bosom heaving and her jewels glittering. She ought to have had a bowl of poison in one hand, a dagger in the other, and asked me to choose. It was her eyes which were daggers; her voice from which the poison dripped.

ell,she said, ou have made a fine fool of us all.

I was in my petticoats, my hair about my shoulders.

?I cried. I could not resist adding a little maliciously: hy, I thought you would be pleased. It gets me off your hands!

ou have suddenly grown innocent. I will admit you have done very well for yourself. You must have known all this time, and poor Esmeralda has been thinking that it would be her wedding which would be announced.

don think she is disappointed.

ngratitude! Not that you have ever shown anything else. From the moment you entered this house you caused trouble. You are wicked and I am sorry for the Carringtons.

Why did I always want to incense her even further than I already had? But I did, and now I felt secure. I thought, Il tell Philip about this. And then I was exultant because in the future I would have him to share things with. And I knew for the first time how very alone I had felt before.

ou have always led me to believe that the Carringtons are the most important family in London,I said. scarcely think they will want your pity.

hey do not seem to realize the the

iper you have been nursing in your bosom?I suggested, rather insolently I afraid, but I was intoxicated with my success.

ray do not try me too far. You have betrayed our trust in you.

know such a marriage was not what you intended for me,I said. nd to be governess for the Oman Lemming children was not what I wanted for myself. Fate has intervened, and has raised me from the status of Poor Relation, which I can assure you, Cousin Agatha, has sometimes been hard to bear.

hen I think of all I did for you I took you into my home.

ecause you made a solemn promise to my grandmother.

ecause you were of the family.

hough the connection was not strong,I added.

She clenched her fists. She knew she was beaten. I was too flushed with victory that night.

She turned and said: ou are a schemer. I might have known it with such a mother!

And with that she went out, which was just as well, for if she had remained, heaven knew what I would have said to her.

How life had changed for me! I had laughed in the past about the importance of the Carringtons and had imagined that Cousin Agatha had admired them so because they were more wealthy than she was and the leaders of a social set into which she wished to climb. It was more than that. Josiah Carrington was not only a banker and financier of great standing in the City, he was also adviser to the government and a power in diplomatic circles. His eldest son Rollo was following in his footsteps close behind and Philip was limping along in the right direction. Lady Emily, the daughter of an earl, was most highly connected and had before her marriage had a place at Court. Cousin William Loring, although comfortably off, was small fry in comparison; it was for this reason that marriage into the family had been considered such an advantage and even the younger son Philip a very ripe and desirable plum.

That I, the outcast, the Poor Relation, should have won the prize was almost comical. Rose told me that belowstairs the staff were aughing their heads off.They were glad because they had never thought much of Cousin Agatha and they relished this mack in the eye,as they called it, which Master Philip had administered.

I marveled at the knowledge of those belowstairs; there was little of what went on above that they missed, as I had reason to know. It was amusing to me to have Rose as a go-between.

Philip was a great favorite, Rose told me. He always been full of fun and mischief. Mr. Rollo was different. Very cold and aloof he was; and since that mysterious marriage of his had been very touchy, Rose reckoned. Mr. Carrington was a good master. He was always off here and there, always pulling off this and that big deal. And Lady Emily, she was well liked but seemed to be always in a dream. Never knew the housemaid from the parlormaid and the cook swore she didn know the difference between her and the butler. Nevertheless, she was one of those mistresses who are not ill liked. You never find her poring over the household accounts or querying the price of this and that. Carringtonswas a good place to be in.

Philip and I would not be going into it, but we were going to have a house nearby and we would of course use the country mansion when we wanted it as all the family did.

There would be the fun of choosing the house and Philip said we would set about it right away. I had to keep assuring myself I hadn imagined the whole thing. There was I, who had never been sure of my room, with a house all my own! The news had quickly come out and because Philip was a Carrington we were photographed for the society papers.

I felt as if I were indeed dreaming. There was a big picture of me in the Tatler. iss Ellen Kellaway, who is to marry Mr. Philip Carrington. Miss Kellaway lives with her guardians, Mr. and Mrs. Loring of Knightsbridge, and Mr. Carrington is, of course, the second son of Mr. Josiah Carrington.

I had taken on new status. Esmeralda was delighted. She embraced me and said how happy she was, for she could see I was in my element.

f course,she said, t was obvious all the time. He always liked you. You two were always the allies. Philip thought I was silly.

e always really liked you,I said to comfort her.

e despises me,she retorted. f course I wasn adventurous like you. You two went so well together. You liked the same things. It right, I know, Ellen. Youl be ever so happy.

I kissed her. ou are a dear, Esmeralda. Are you sure you don really love Philip?

uite sure,she answered emphatically. was terrified that he would ask me to marry him and I have to say yes because that was what Mama wanted. And then it all turned out this way!

don think your mother is very pleased.

ell, I am,she said. h, Ellen, I was dreading it.

Cousin Agatha had got over the first shock and was swallowing her disappointment. I wondered whether she was consoling herself that even a Poor Relation link was better than none.

f course,she said, ou will have to have some clothes. We can have people saying that we kept you short.

I said: on worry, Cousin Agatha. Philip is not concerned in the least with my clothes and perhaps when I married hel buy some for me.

ou talk like an idiot. Don you realize that from now on you are going to be the cynosure of all eyes? People are going to try to discover what he sees in you.Her nose twitched to imply she could clearly not provide the answer to this conundrum. ou will have to be suitably clad. There will be functions dinner parties and then of course the bride dress.

e don want a lot of ceremony.

ou don want it. You forget you will be marrying into the Carrington family.Again that twitch of the nose. t true, he is only a younger son. But, of course, a Carrington. When you are married you will be required to mix in certain circles. I doubt not you will wish Esmeralda, who has been your companion since childhood, to stay with you now and then.

I felt suddenly powerful. It was a marvelous feeling. I couldn resist smiling benignly on Cousin Agatha and saying graciously that I hoped Esmeralda would be a frequent guest at my house.

I happy, I thought. I gloriously happy. Everything has changed. Talk about Cinderella! Fancy Philip being my fairy godmother! I suppose this is being in love.

couldn have people saying that we had not given you of the best,she went on. his strange thing has happened and unless Philip changes his mind it seems that you will marry into the family. You will always remember of course your amazing good luck and whence it came. No doubt you will feel gratitude towards those who cared for you and but for whom you would never have been presented with this golden opportunity.

I let her talk on. Happiness had made me more generous, and it seemed a small compensation for her disappointment. Fortunately I was never of a vindictive nature and could quickly forget the slights and indignities of my childhood.

afraid Tilly will not be capable of coping with what we shall need. She could make a housedress or so perhaps. Lady Emily may wish you to go to her couturiere. You will need a very elegant going-away dress and of course there is the wedding dress. I was speaking to your cousin Mr. Loring about it only a short while ago. He is willing to foot the bills so that you may step into your new life with grace. After all, as I said to him, it will reflect on us, and we have Esmeralda future to think of.

I was scarcely listening. So many exciting things were happening.

Philip was always calling at the house. We rode together in the Row. I had a new riding habit present from Mr. Loring, prodded no doubt by Cousin Agatha because riding in the Row made one very prominent. We were constantly being photographed.

hat a bore,said Philip. ho wants all this? I just want us to get away together.

He was very happy and it was wonderful to know that he was so much in love with me. He teased me and bantered with me just as he always had; and we were constantly engaged, it seemed, in our verbal battle, which was a delight to us both. I was nineteen, he was nearly twenty-one, and life seemed good to us. I don think he knew very much more of the world than I did, which was precious little. Sometimes, though, it is better to know little of what the future has in store.

It was pleasant to be welcomed by his family. Lady Emily vagueness was rather charming and she confided in me once that she was looking forward to the little babies we would have. She liked to talk a great deal in a rambling fashion. There had always been boys in the Carrington family, she told me. She had had Rollo a year after her marriage and then there was a long gap before Philip arrived. Two very different boys they were. ollo used to frighten me sometimes, my dear. He was so clever. Philip was not like that.