Love Inspired January 2014 - Bundle 2 of 2: Bayou Sweetheart\The Firefighter's New Family\Season of Redemption (44 page)

“Yeah. We'll see.” Ryan's gaze dropped to her hands. “You've got your car back.”

Kellie realized her keys dangled from her fingers. “Yep.”

“No more riding in the rain.” Was that disappointment she heard in his voice?

“No more riding in the rain.” Kellie shook her head. No more rides needed from Ryan. Then she laughed. “I thank God for the good weather we had after that day.”

He shifted his stance. “So, uh, would you be up for a cup of coffee somewhere?”

Kellie's stomach flipped. He wasn't really asking her out. Ryan wanted to process what he'd just gone through in group. He'd said she was easy to talk to. That's all it was. That's all it could be.

But that was enough to get her in trouble if she accepted. She shook her head. “I can't.”

“Yeah, I know.” He pulled a white envelope out of his pocket. “Look, I don't want this.”

Her eyes widened in panic. It was the fifty bucks she'd put in his mailbox. “Don't even think about it,” she hissed. “Don't you dare.”

He cocked his head like she'd gone crazy.

Kellie glanced down the hallway toward the group session room. Folks still mingled. She looked the other way and spotted Ginny watching them. Her breathing hitched.

Great
. Kellie inched away from the wall. “Okay then, nice to see you, Ryan.”

His eyes narrowed, but then he nodded like he'd gotten the message. “You, too.”

Kellie's heart beat madly in her ears as she watched Ryan walk away. She couldn't breathe right. Not yet. Not with Ginny coming toward her.

“Hey, Ginny.”

The woman's eyebrows lifted. “What was that?”

Kellie ignored the question and raised the text in her arms. “I forgot my book.”

“Come in a minute.” Ginny nodded toward her office.

Kellie's stomach sank to the soles of her boots, but she followed her mentor. Ignoring the itchy feeling that skittered up her spine when Ginny closed the door, Kellie asked, “What's up?”

“Be careful there, Kellie. Be very careful.”

Kellie couldn't play dumb. Her mentor would see right through it and think less of her for doing so. She rubbed her temples. “I know.”

“So, what's the deal with you and this guy?”

“Nothing. He was telling me how group went for him tonight. That's all.”

Kellie didn't dare admit to the rides Ryan had given her or that he'd asked her out for coffee. If Ginny blew her in to John, she could be fired. And that would be the end of her internship, and the chance for the Traverse City school counselor job.

“Keep it professional.”

“Absolutely.” Kellie breathed a little easier, but not much.

Ginny watched her too closely for comfort.

She knew
.

Kellie had to get out of there fast before she admitted to the attraction she felt for Ryan. Ginny had that kind of influence on people. She got them to reveal their inner most feelings with one look, but Kellie was in no mood for confessions. “I gotta run. See you tomorrow.”

“Remember what I said.” Ginny used her motherly tone, the one that brooked no argument.

“I will. Thanks.” Kellie stuffed her nervousness down deep with a roll of her shoulders and hightailed it out of there.

Was the draw she felt toward Ryan plain to see? If so, she had some work to do controlling her reactions.

Better yet, Kellie needed to stay far away from Ryan Marsh before she lost everything she'd worked hard for.

Chapter Four

K
ellie leaned over her seven-year-old niece's desk to check her coloring project. “Nice job, Gracie.”

Gracie, missing both front teeth, grinned up at her. “Thanks.”

Kellie scanned the second grade classroom where she worked as a teacher's assistant. The bulletin board was filled with colorful leaves cut from red, yellow and orange construction paper. Leaves also hung from the ceiling, but they should have been scattered on the floor to be accurate. A few days of strong winds had tossed most of the outside leaves from the trees. Something about the cluttered creativity of elementary schools warmed Kellie's heart, not to mention that kids were naturally open and honest.

Beth Ryken, the teacher she assisted at LeNaro Elementary, stepped close and smiled. “You're pretty special to have your aunt help out in the classroom.”

“Yup.” Gracie nodded as she used a green crayon to make grass around her drawing of yet another small house with flowers growing in the front yard.

Kellie was fortunate to have nabbed this part-time position at the end of the summer. It was the perfect way to work near her related field and earn some money while she interned. She was sick of slinging pizzas into the wee hours of the night and smelling like burnt cheese when she got home.

Beth cocked her head toward her desk. “Kellie, can I talk with you a minute?”

“Sure.” Kellie followed the tall blonde toward the back of the room. “What's up?”

“I got a call from the school in Traverse City. They're checking out your references, so that's got to be a good sign. I think you'll get a second interview.”

Kellie fought the urge to chew her fingernails, a habit she'd beaten long ago, but the temptation still reared its ugly head. She wanted this chance so badly. “So, what'd you say?”

Beth grinned and tossed her long blond hair over her shoulder. The woman was gorgeous but didn't seem to know it. A rare combo. “Only that you're great with kids because you really listen to them. I'm going to miss having you in my class.”

Kellie let loose a nervous laugh. Everything seemed to be coming together. Everything she'd worked so hard for. “I haven't gotten the job yet. Besides, I have to pass section fifty-one of the Michigan Test for Teacher Certification.”

“You will.”

“I hope so.” Kellie had been studying. Hard.

Saturday, she'd finally take the monstrous thing and in the nick of time, too. She didn't want to leave anything to chance and miss this job opportunity. Traverse City was the perfect location—close enough for her to be near her nieces, yet far enough away from her folks, who still lived in Grand Rapids.

Funny. Growing up, she'd pined for her parents' time and undivided attention. As an adult, she visited them when she had to for holidays and birthdays. Sure, she loved them, but she'd stopped depending on her mom and dad a long time ago.

“I'm done.” Gracie popped up out of her seat.

“Very good, Gracie. We'll collect your work when everyone's finished with theirs,” Beth said.

Gracie slipped back into her seat. “Aunt Kellie, are you coming to the house tonight?”

“I'm going to try.” Kellie hadn't been there the last couple of weeks because of studies for her upcoming test.

“She's really excited about their new home,” Beth said. “I'm sure you've noticed that houses take center stage in every one of her drawings, her collages, everything.”

“Oh, I've noticed.” Poor kid equated a real house with stability. Not bad for a seven-year-old.

Gracie's mom, Dorrie, had applied for and been accepted by a nonprofit group of churches that built homes for needy families that qualified. Dorrie did everything she could to give Gracie and her older sister Hannah a sense of security despite their many moves, and this new home promised stability. Something they'd been missing along with the fact that they never saw their father—her brother, Karl.

A twinge of guilt knotted in Kellie's stomach. A few weeks ago, Dorrie had told her that many of the summertime volunteers for the Church Hammers group had dropped off, leaving her house behind schedule on construction. Kellie still hadn't picked up the pace in helping out. She'd been too busy studying, both for the upcoming certification exam and teen group dynamics for her internship at LightHouse Center.

The bell rang announcing the end of the school day and kids bounded for their coats. Beth's instructions to leave their projects on their desks fell on deaf ears. Some gathered theirs up only to dump them on their teacher's desk and then race for their in-class cubby lockers.

After helping with the raucous mass exodus of second graders, Kellie returned to the classroom to help Beth straighten up and grade papers. She had plenty of time to make it to the construction site, work for a bit and then head home to study.

Kellie finally scooped up her purse. “Hey, I gotta run.”

“Yeah, I'm leaving, too. Thanks for your help. See you later in the week.” Beth gave her a wave.

Once in her car, Kellie rolled her shoulders. A few hours at Dorrie's might do her some good. She could concentrate on manual labor for a change. No brain exercises, no worries.

Kellie drove out of town, past her road and headed north toward Dorrie's building site. Church Hammers built homes every other year for a needy family. This year, Dorrie and her nieces were that needy family. Needy, like her. Casualties left in the wake of her brother's neglect and drug use.

Kellie parked on the side of the road where there were already a few cars and pickup trucks. One of them looked disturbingly familiar and her gut clenched.

No way. Not here. There's dozens of dark blue trucks in Northern Michigan.

Shaking off images of the man who consumed her thoughts enough lately, Kellie gathered up her work gloves and walked along the gravel driveway.

The newly sided house was a pretty little ranch on a large lot at the beginning of a quiet cul-de-sac. This struggling housing development lay smack in the middle of cherry country so the views were beautiful, especially in May when the cherry trees were in blossom. The builder who'd donated the lot must have needed a tax break since several other lots still sported rusty
For Sale
signs. Real estate, especially new builds, moved super slowly these days. If at all.

Scanning the darkening horizon, Kellie wondered if they were in for more rain. Thankfully the volunteers worked primarily inside. The house had been roughed in with the plumbing and electrical wiring completed. Opening the side door, Kellie stepped into the unfinished kitchen. Zipping sounds of electric drills and the tap-tap of staple guns greeted her.

“Aunt Kellie!” Gracie tore around the corner and launched into her arms.

“Hey, Gracie.” Kellie looked up as her older niece Hannah hobbled her way toward them.

“Hi, Aunt Kellie.” Hannah's recovery from a mowing accident that cut her Achilles tendon this past summer was slow but sure. She wore an air cast to her knee.

“How's the leg?”

Hannah shrugged. “It's okay. I have to go to physical therapy when the cast comes off.”

“Take it easy until then.” Kellie tugged on one of Hannah's pigtails. How would Dorrie manage that? Kellie would help where she could. “Where's your mom?”

“In the living room. They're hanging insulation.”

Kellie nodded and stepped forward holding Gracie's hand. But when she entered the living room, she sucked in a breath. Ryan, wearing a tool belt and looking too much like a permanent fixture, held a swath of pink insulation while Dorrie staple-gunned the sides in place.

“Mommy, Aunt Kellie's here,” Gracie announced.

Kellie heard Dorrie's greeting, but her gaze was fixed on Ryan. It appeared as though she couldn't escape this guy.

He turned and smiled. “Hey, Kellie.”

It was a devastatingly handsome smile. All traces of having gone through an emotional meltdown in group last week were gone. He looked healthy and strong. And good. Way too good.

Kellie felt like a deer blinded by headlights. “Hi.”

Dorrie looked from her to Ryan. “You guys know each other?”

“Yeah.” Again with the smile, like they shared a secret. “We've met.”

Kellie found her tongue. “Right. Okay, put me to work, Dorrie.”

“Ryan's your guy for directions.” Dorrie stepped down from the short ladder and whipped off her gloves to wipe her forehead. “I do what he tells me.”

Kellie's startled gaze locked back on Ryan.

“Might as well take a break. I've got to get more rolls of insulation from the trailer.” Ryan tucked his gloves into the back pocket of his jeans.

Dorrie nodded and gathered her daughters close. “Come on girls, I've got a job for you two.”

Kellie looked around. This was the last room to be insulated. A couple of men were working on laying the floor in the dining room. And a couple of women prepped the kitchen for the dinner that would be brought in by more volunteers. Not exactly a big group. More guilt washed through her.

Ryan stepped toward her. “So,
you're
Aunt Kellie. I never put the two together. I didn't think you had any family here.”

“Just Dorrie and the girls.” Kellie had moved here because of them. And because she could complete her master's at the regional location of Western Michigan University in Traverse City.

“Talk about a small world.”

Way too small. “What are you doing here?”

“Help me get the insulation?” He nodded toward the door.

She gestured for him to lead the way. They walked in silence through the front door outside into the crisp autumn evening. A huge builder's trailer sat parked on the grass beside the driveway.

Ryan lifted the trailer door and jumped up to grab some kind of metal cart. “This is where I'm putting in my community service hours.”

“Ah.” Now it made sense that he didn't want to announce that in front of the other volunteers. “Does Dorrie know?”

He leaned against the wall of the trailer. “Yeah. I figured she should because of her kids. She also happens to go to my brother's church.”

“How long have you been doing this?”

He shrugged. “A couple weeks. The builder that oversees the project signs off on my hours for the court.”

But Dorrie made it sound like he was somehow in charge. Did he have experience in construction, too? “I thought you worked for a research center that grew cherries.”

“And some other fruits, yeah. So?”

“You looked like you knew what you're doing in there.”

He smiled. “It's not rocket science. I finished up my own home project this summer. I know my way around the basics.”

“Oh.” Like he knew engines. Ryan Marsh was a pretty handy guy.

Clearly, Dorrie needed his expertise, and Kellie couldn't argue with Ryan's choice of community service. But something swished deep inside her gut like an unpleasant stirring of her defenses. Would Dorrie depend on Ryan for more than his construction help?

Kellie wouldn't blame her if she did. The woman shouldered so much on her own, and Kellie knew Hannah's accident had taken a heavy toll. Still, Kellie didn't like where her brain had gone. She didn't like the thought of Dorrie and Ryan together. But Kellie had no claim on Ryan. She couldn't have.

“Before I forget.” Ryan stepped down from the trailer to stand directly in front of her. “I won't take this.”

Kellie stared at the white envelope containing her fifty bucks.
Not again
. She looked up at him. “I need to repay you.”

“No, you don't.”

“Yes. I do.” Kellie tapped her chest. “For me, I do.”

“Why can't you accept it?” He stepped even closer and his voice softened and coaxed. “Sometimes it's more important for a person to receive.”

In her experience, receiving led to expectations that were eventually let down or crushed. But it was pretty hard to argue with him standing so close that she could smell his spicy scent that reminded her of a cedar forest. Hard to breathe normally, too, especially looking into those bittersweet eyes of his.

He leaned down and her heart beat madly. It might even hammer its way out of her chest if she weren't careful. He was so close she felt the warmth of his body that beckoned like a cozy fire. She'd almost leaned into him, but she froze when he stuffed that envelope into the front pocket of her jeans.

“Learn to receive, Kellie.”

She batted his arm away and backed up. A wrench of awareness hit her like a strong wave of heated water, pleasant at first, but frightening as the undertow threatened to pull her out into dangerous depths.

Ryan looked a little shaken, too, like he was caught up in an internal struggle of his own.

Keep it professional
. Ginny's advice screamed through her mind. Ha! The feelings running through her were a far cry from that.

Pulling it together, Kellie raised her chin. “Show me what needs to be taken inside.”

“Ah, yeah.” Ryan moved back and readjusted the ball cap he wore. “All these rolls of insulation can go in. They're big but not heavy.”

Kellie nodded and slipped on her gloves. She quickly looked around. Church ladies were bringing in food, but none of them seemed to notice what had happened between her and Ryan.

What had happened? Kellie wasn't exactly sure as she got to work carrying the pink bundles inside. All she knew was that she didn't dare let it happen again.

* * *

Ryan kicked himself as he watched Kellie walk away. What in the world had gotten into him? He'd been a heartbeat away from tugging her close and laying a good one on her. He'd actually wanted to kiss her.

He stacked pink insulation bundles on the metal cart with a vengeance. His attraction to this woman didn't make any sense. For starters, Kellie thought he was an alcoholic. And she wasn't anything like Sara, who'd been bubbly and engaging. Always cheerful.