Love Will Lead You Back (15 page)

“I miss you, babe.” I sent a message to Chase’s phone. We hadn’t slept together since it happened, and I wanted to surprise him tonight. Plus, this baby had me extra horny. Whenever I would coach myself into having sex, I saw the gun pointed at my head and him raping me. The counselor said not to rush it, and I would know when I was ready, and tonight was the night.

“I miss you, too. You want me to pick you up?” He sent back in a text. I told him I was riding home with my sister. The day went by slow, and it was probably because I was horny and reminiscing about the way Chase and I made each other feel.

“What’s up sis? You feel like hanging out with me this weekend?” Burgundy said as she walked in my office.

“Sure. Where we going?”

“Some club down in Lakewood. It’s an older crowd.”

“Ok.” We spoke about clients, and then, shut everything down to go home. I knew it was going to be some shit, because Chase was outside the house talking to Monty and Hitta. I was grabbing my stuff and noticed the truck still running.

“Come on, B.” I saw her wipe a few tears and shake her head no.

“Text me when he leaves. I don’t feel like arguing.” She backed out the driveway and left me standing there to answer the questions they were about to hit me with alone.

“Hey sexy.” Chase kissed my cheek. Hitta and Monty spoke and gave me a hug.

“Yo, why she leave like that?” Monty shook his head and got into the car to leave. I sent her a text message to tell her she could come back. Hitta and Chase came inside with me and ordered food. Hitta and B stayed cracking jokes all night; it was good to see her smile. Chase came in the room and took a shower with me.

“I’m going to grab a water; you want something?”

“No thanks, babe.” He left the room, and I grabbed the two candles I had on my big dresser and lit them. I turned some music on and turned all the lights off. He came back in, shut the door, and locked it.

“You look sexy as hell naked with my baby in you.”

“Chase, you have been so patient, and I love you for it, but I miss you making love to me.” I kissed his lips, then his neck and made my way to his man down low who was waiting for me.

“Shit, Spring, I’m about to cum. Fuck, baby.” I let him cum in my mouth.

“It’s been a minute, baby, but you can guarantee I’m going to be in that pussy much longer now that I got that out the way.” He turned me around, opened me up, and went in headfirst. The way his tongue felt on my pussy while he finger fucked my ass had me screaming.

“Whose it is baby?”

“Yours. Oh God, it’s always going to be yours.” He had me streaming juices down my leg.

“Can I ride you?”

“Of course you can, baby. Go down slow so you don’t hurt my baby.” I grinded slowly, up and down just the way he liked it. I went faster, and his head went back on the headboard.

“Oooh shit, girl. This feels good.”

“Say my name.” I had been asking him after he asked me, and he wouldn’t say it. I figured I would catch him first. He didn’t say it. I got on my feet, grabbed the headboard, and went down harder and faster. “Say my name.”

“Spring, shit Spring, I’m cumming. Fuckkkkk.” I smiled, because I finally heard him say it.

“I love you girl.”

“I love you, too.”

“You finally got me to say it, huh?” He asked moving my hair out my face.

“It’s about time.”

“Spring, I always call your name during sex; you just don’t hear me.”

“You must be whispering.”

“Nah, I say it in my head. I can’t let you think you fucking the hell out me.”

“But I am.”

“Yes, you are baby. Yes, you are. Let’s go a few more rounds.” He smacked my ass, and we gave each other pleasure all night.

Burgundy

After Chase and Spring went upstairs, Hitta and I stayed up drinking and smoking on the back porch. Hitta was that low-key dude that was always lurking in the distance. He was dark-skinned with a low-cut Caesar; he had sideburns and a goatee. His body was perfect, and the way he licked his lips after he passed me the blunt had me weak.

“I didn’t know you smoked trees.”

“I do sometimes. I’m more of a hookah person.” I lifted it up and started smoking it. I leaned over to grab my drink and almost fell over.

“Be careful, Ma. You’re about to hurt yourself.”

“Yea, it’s time for me to go inside.” He helped me up, and I fell on the ground dragging him with me. He landed on top of me, and our lips were almost touching. We both just stared at one another; not knowing what to do next. He had a girl, and Monty was his boy. We both got up off the ground and wiped ourselves off when he pushed me up against the side of the house and engaged in a tongue fight with me. We were feeling all over each other; it was probably all the liquor and weed but neither one of us stopped.

“Shit B, this is wrong.” He said, kissing on my neck and putting his hands in my jeans.

“I know. Maybe we should stop.” I was grinding on his fingers that were now inside of me touching my g-spot. His mouth was on my breast sucking the hell out of them.

“Fuck, I’m about to cum, Hitta.” He flickered faster on my clit, and I ruptured all over his hands. He caught me from falling.

I unbuckled his jeans and stepped out of mine. He was hard and big; I knew I was about to enjoy this ride. I wrapped my legs around him and let him guide me down slow. I came as soon as I hit the bottom. This was the first time I had sex since I had my daughter, and it felt so good.

“B, this pussy is good as hell. No wonder that nigga was going crazy over you.”

“Fuck him.”

“Shit B, you got that wet, wet.” We kissed each other hungrily, as he pumped harder inside me.

“Hitta, it feels so good.”

“Cum all over this dick.” I had to put my face in his neck to keep from screaming. He sat back on the lounge chair and asked me to ride him.

“Damn, Burgundy, you riding the hell out my dick. Shit, keep going.”

“Same my name again.”
              “Burgundy. Damn B. I’ll say your name all day to keep this feeling you’re giving me. I clenched my pussy muscles together and squeezed his dick.

“Oh shit, baby girl, I’m about to cum. Fuck, shit…” I jumped off just in time; I had to really stop doing that shit. We were both sitting there breathing hard as hell when reality kicked in of what we just did.

“This can never happen again, B. I ain’t never did no shit like this to my boy.”

“I know Hitta. We fucked up.” I saw him rub his hand down his face and shake his head.

“You can’t mention this to anyone. Not even your sister.”

“I’m not.” I put my arms around his neck and kissed him. He returned the kiss, and we ended up fucking again in my room that night. He didn’t leave until after four in the morning. I made sure my sister and Chase were asleep, and when I went to open the front door, Monty was standing there getting ready to knock. I shut the door in his face and pushed Hitta out the back.

“What Monty?” I asked opening the door back. He stepped inside looking high and drunk. I left his ass sitting right there and went to get my daughter.

“So you just going to fuck that nigga in the house with my daughter?” I froze when he said that.

“What I do in my house is my business, just like what you do in your house is your business. Don’t come over here questioning shit I do when every bitch from the neighborhood and others run through your house.”

“How was he?” I just finished feeding my daughter and changing her diaper. I put her in the crib and went to take a shower. “You going to ignore me?” He stood there watching me. I turned the water off when I finished and saw the two hickeys on my neck.

“Yea, I see them too. Back to the question; how was he?”

“Monty, I will never discuss any sexual encounters I had with another man with you.” I snatched the sheets off my bed to replace them with clean ones.

“Ok. I see we on this tit for tat shit.”

“What are you talking about?” I turned around to face him with my arms folded.

“I fuck Amber, you fuck Hitta.”

“Ain’t nobody fuck, Hitta. He wouldn’t even do any shit like that to you, and neither would I.”

“Mmm, hmm. That’s your story, and you sticking to it?”

“Monty, why are you here?”

“B, I know I fucked up when I messed with Carolyn, but did you really have to fuck my boy? Carolyn was just someone you were sleeping with, but Hitta, that’s been my boy for a minute.”

“Why do you keep saying I slept with him?” He sat with his hands on his knees.

“You see, I came back not too long after I left. Chase told me you were here alone, and if I wanted to talk to you, now would be the time. Imagine my surprise when I see my boy’s dick going in and out your pussy. I get the one-time thing, but here it is after four, and he’s just leaving. I know that, because his car was here when I got here, and now it’s not.”

“What do you want me to say Monty? We were both fucked up, I kissed him, and we fucked. Will I ever do it again? No. Do we both regret it? Yea? But all it was, was a fuck. No foreplay nothing. Are you happy? Is that what you needed to hear?”

“Yea, I think I needed to hear it so I could feel better about fucking his girl tonight.”

“Monty, you didn’t.” He showed me a photo of her sucking his dick and him hitting it from the back.

“Why not? He was fucking my girl.”

“That’s the difference. I’m not your girl. What you did is just as foul, but you over here trying to make me feel bad.” I plopped down on the bed next to him.

“How long did you fuck her?” He shrugged his shoulders. These are the type of questions we would ask one another when we were friends.

“A little over and hour.”

“Did you go down on her?”

“Nah, no woman will ever get that but you.”

“Did you go down on him?”

“No. I feel the same, and I wouldn’t allow him to please me that way either. He asked a few times, but I couldn’t do it.” He shook his head, and I just fell back.

“What have we become?”

“I don’t know, Ma, but I’m tired.”

“Go make sure you locked the door, because I’m not going back down there.” He turned everything off and got in bed with me. He pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around me.

“You’re going to take that abortion pill in the morning. There’s no way in hell you’re having a kid by him.” He whispered in my ear.

“I love you Monty.”

“I love you, too, B.”

Monty

Burgundy was gone when I got up this morning but left me a note saying she left me breakfast in the microwave. I let the shower beat down on me as I thought about the shit B and I got going on. These last four months not only had me missing her, but had me thinking about what it would be like to be in a relationship without cheating. I've had tons of bitches, but none of them have me like B. Was it fucked up what her and Hitta did? Yea, but I slept with his girl, too; so I guess we can say we even.

"What up, bro? I didn't expect to see you this morning." Chase sat across from me after he heated his food up. I told him what happened last night, and he couldn't believe Hitta would do no shit like that.

"Man, I can't imagine walking in on Spring fucking someone."

"I know man; it tore me up, but she caught me with Carolyn. I'm sure she felt the same way I'm feeling."

"What's up with Hitta, tho?  Has he called you?"

"Yea, I'm about to go meet up with him now."

"I'm rolling; I do not need you killing him when we're about to get this other nigga."

He and I got in the car and drove over to Hitta’s house. His girl opened the door with a smirk on her face. Chase just shook his head and stepped in behind me. Hitta was outside in his backyard with one of his kids.

"What up Hitta?" He turned around and nodded his head, then told his son to go inside. We sat down at one of the tables, and Hitta sparked up a blunt.

"What's up, Hitta? Why did you want me to come here?" I wanted to see if he was a real nigga and tell me what he did.

"Listen, last night I was drinking and shit over your girl’s house and… Fuck it, to make a long story short, we slept together." I just nodded and took a pull.

"Let me ask you this. You know who she was and I get that y'all were drinking, but what would make you continue? Why didn't you stop yourself?"

"Keeping it one hundred with you; I don't even know. I guess we were both horny and caught up in the moment."

"Caught up in the moment, huh? Well, keeping it one hundred, I fucked your girl last night too."

"I know."

"You know." Chase asked surprised by his answer.

"Yea, you know I got cameras everywhere. I saw the time he got here which was after I slept with B the first time, so I figured he knew. I can't be mad. It is what it is."

"You're ok with that?"