No Apologies (11 page)

   Is this motherfucker crazy? “I’m sorry” is all that she can say. What the fuck! I’m convinced she has lost her fucking marbles. Leaning backwards on the island that Jasmine and I had just previously had sex; where the remnants of her still lingered on the counter top, hearing her voice call my name, feeling her legs wrapped my damn waist and letting my tongue explore her sweet pussy. As pissed off as I am, the very thought of Jasmine has brought a calm over me like a calming sea after the storm.

   “You know what I’m going to make this shit as painless for you as possible. I found out your little bullshit ass secret from Indigo so since you and her want to talk about the size of my dick. Fuck you both. I got a woman and don’t want neither one of you busted up ass bitches!” The louder I screamed, the more she flinched. I knew she was a done deal, she had the look of gratitude for not killing her ass adorned all over her face. She made her way to her feet and leaned up against the wall. Still trying to catch her breath, her face was indeed busted up, big ass welts on her face, busted lip, swollen eye and busted nose. I wanted to crush her fucking brain.

   “Curtis, I am truly sorry. I know you must have a lot of questions. I fucking lunged into her I was ready to choke her ass again. What the fuck I have to ask her besides the questions that I already asked her ass? I hope like hell she don’t think she about to try and run a sentimental story on me like I truly give two fucks.

   “Bitch! I don’t want to know shit other than, why did you feel it was safe for you to keep this to yourself? You had to know this was gonna cause problems for you.” “I hid it because I really wanted you and I don’t identify with that part of me anymore. It’s been ten years since I decided to have the operation, this is who I am Curtis. If you look closely, you can tell it is a made pussy, and not something I was born with.”

   “I don’t give a fuck about this being who you are. You could have been you and still not even look my way. I can’t believe this shit Alexis. Shit! Just gather whatever shit you got around here and get the fuck out. Please forget you ever knew me because you are already forgotten!” I was breathing hard; furious ready to take her ass down. Gritting my teeth as I spoke, all I hear is her crying and sniffing and shit. I left the room until I heard her leave the house. All I could do was pour me a shot of Hennessy. I am getting rid of everything she used in this motherfucker. Oh! I got a trick for that bitch Indigo as well. Let me call her ass right now, she gonna pass out when she hear this shit.
Ring…
Ring…

   “Look Curtis don’t get mad at me cause you fucking a nigga!” This bitch got jokes I see. “Nawl, that is not why I’m calling, but it’s all good. I took care of that shit, but check it out. Since you spilling secrets and shit, I may as well tell you that the only reason I started fucking with you in the first place, was to let you know yet again, you are fucking another man, who fucking and in love with Jasmine.” “What?” “No need to repeat all of it, just the facts. I am in love with Jasmine Kincaid, the same person who you lost Goldie to. So sweet heart, you didn’t only lose once but you lost twice. So keep your tired ass away from me, from here on out we done.”

   Pressing the end button and threw the phone on the bed. Coming out of my room and looked at the destruction I’ve caused in my house, is minor. Considering I was hell bent on taking her ass out of her misery in a body bag. Jasmine and I don’t have secrets. I have known about her and her three ring circus with Indigo and Goldie from the beginning. I still for the life of me, don’t understand what the fuck she see in him and still fucking me every chance she gets. That nigga think he all that and maybe in the streets he is, but when it comes to Jasmine, he has no idea that she is my woman!

Chanta’ 18

Well looks like his ass is going get a phone call, I wanted to just fuck up shit with Goldie and Jasmine. I’m still gonna tell him that she is a no nothing ass just like him, I guess that’s why they are made for each other. I made the mistake of falling for a man who I knew damn well was not on the market and couldn’t stay faithful if you paid him to. Then falling for Derwin I’m still falling over him everything about him exudes sex appeal from the way he dresses, the cars he drives and lawd the way he fucks me. I would have loved to met him under better circumstances cause watching the man you love go coo-coo over another woman has ran its course with me.

Loving men that is not mines has always been an issue for me. Being alone can have a person seeking out unattainable people, I am just ready to move on from this shit. My original plan was to confront him, have sex with him and let Jasmine know. Hell she know he a cheating ass nigga so that really wouldn’t be a surprise to her. The next best thing would be to let him know that Jasmine is the one who is cheating and has been for years. Now that shit would crush his ass; how they deal with if after the news is out, it’s their business. I would be long gone from this bullshit ass city I have had enough of the niggas and the bitches. Sitting on my living room floor trying to figure out how to tell Goldie about Jasmine. I wanted to go over there but I don’t want to risk her being there. The best thing for me is to call his ass and hope he answers or don’t send my ass to voice mail.

                 Ring…

                 Ring…

              “What  up.”

              “Hey Goldie, it’s Chanta’.”

Damn I can’t believe I am somewhat nervous.

                “Okay.”

                “Well since you wanna act all nonchalant about me calling, fuck it. Jasmine skank ass is fucking this nigga named Curtis Walker and has been for years off and on. So if you really think you are her man you better second guess that shit.”

Blurting that shit out I was very satisfied. I didn’t give a shit how he felt now. He always trying to act like don’t shit phase his ass but I bet this shit will phase his ass, knowing that his precious little Jasmine a hoe like his self. Whatever the outcome is, I’m done with all of them as well as Derwin ass, well at least until Derwin ass is over Jasmine.

Derwin 19

 
I can’t believe I broke down and told Jasmine I was stalking her house for about two weeks. Every time I saw that she was seemingly getting panicked with her playing mommy. I didn’t want to scare her to damn bad. My thoughts of walking up to her door, forcing my way in and taking my pussy back just didn’t have the same affect on me like it did in the beginning of this operation. Chanta’ has let me know that she was done with the game playing. She didn’t want to have anything else to do with it unless I was done with dreaming of Jasmine.

I was shocked when I got a call from Jasmine, I didn’t know what the hell to think when I got her phone call. Until I called her phone, I haven’t heard from her since I left her house that miserable ass night that she let me go.  When Jasmine called, she asked me to meet her at home which for the life of me I cannot understand why but here I am standing on the outside of her door. I’m not worried about her man cause if she thought it was going to be an issue, I wouldn’t be here.

Fuck I see her walking to the door after I have rang the doorbell. Lawd help me, I hope this is not no fuckery type shit she trying to pull.

  “Finally you made it, took you long enough.”

Was her only response when she opened the door with a royal blue lace mini dress on, with what appears to be a royal blue thong. Her nipples are hard as rocks, she is looking fucking mesmerizing. What the fuck did I just get myself into? I see she either playing with my emotions or she about to play with my dick.

  “Other than you looking fucking amazing standing here in see through clothes and what not. Jasmine what the fuck is this about?”

  Jasmine stood to the side to let me in. I couldn’t believe I was in her home, a fucking beautiful home from what I see. Hardwood floors as far as my eyes can see, glass table top tables in the living room, pictures of them and a baby decorate the walls and plush furniture. All I could do is shake my head approving of her new way of living. She has definitely up graded but she damn sho wasn’t doing bad before. 

  “Look Derwin I know I hurt you and I haven’t stopped thinking of you and what I did. Every since you left my house that  night and I know how much you really wanted to be with me and build a life with me, but I was in a situation that love had prevailed.”

  Jasmine spoke as she walked me down a hall that had black art on the walls into her bedroom. I was skeptical but watching her walk in front of me with all that ass saying hello to me was inviting, how the hell could I resist the ass of Jasmine Kincaid.

  “Well welcome to my room and this is where I want to apologize for treating you like I did. I hope you enjoy me as much as I know I’m going to enjoy you.

  After softly speaking those words she kissed me on the lips, paying special attention to top and bottom lip flicking her tongue on my lips. she dimmed the lights and turned to light the large scented candle on the nightstand. She walked behind me rubbing her hand across my chest as she kissed my neck before speaking again.

  “Baby I’m going to take care of you like never before. I want you to know that I have never stopped thinking about you and I wish we could be together but because I am with Goldie we can’t, but I would love to please you whenever you want me to.”

  What the fuck did she just say? What the fuck is going on here? Damn she just made me the happiest man in the fucking world. I wasn’t expecting her to say any of this. I damn sho won’t be turning anything that she wants to give me down. Hell no, I may have to share her but I be damn if I can help it to be without her. I am ready for her more than she could ever know.

  “You like that baby, damn you smell good Derwin. Baby…please start unbuttoning your pants my mouth is watering just thinking about sucking your dick from the back.”

  Before she could finish her last word, I was dropping pants and draws to the floor. My dick bounced up and down in excitement, the mere thought of her sucking my shit from the back is about to have ready to explode. Oh shit I feel her lowering her body down, sliding her hands down the sides of my legs. Trailing her tongue down the crack of my ass nice and slow, pushing her tongue further and further, until I feel her tongue on my asshole flicking her tongue. Her hands creep up the back of my legs up to my ass seductively, separating my ass cheeks. That shit was making me sweat, every time she did that I clenched my ass cheeks together. I can’t believe she doing this shit to me.

  I feel her lower her head as I separate my legs she gently rubs her tongue across my balls and take each of them one by one into her mouth. She reached her hand up to my dick and pulled my dick in her direction, looking down seeing my dick disappear between my legs I must have been in heaven. Slowly she began to suck on the head teasing the head, flicking her tongue across the head. I grabbed her head to help balance her when she started deep throating me. Every time the head of my dick touched her tonsils I leaned my head back in pleasure. She was gagging, slurping on my dick making my damn toes curl, this fucking girl got skills like a porn star.

  Shit she start adding speed, my knees begin to buckle. I grab a fist full of hair as I pushed her head down further. She gagged loudly while I shot hot cum down her throat.

  “Ahhh…..Shit Jasmine!”

  Not letting her head go until I felt all of my babies enter her mouth, my damn insides was burning up. This woman brought all kinds of emotions up out of my body, love, anger, relief, you name it she did it.

  Jasmine released my dick from her mouth. She had a death grip on me as she kissed the back of my thighs, each ass cheek and for good measure licked my asshole one more time, before her lips were planting soft kisses all over my neck. She walked in front of me, kissed my lips so sexual and sucked each one of my lips so succulent, that it filled like a thousand watts of electricity was running through my fucking body. Now here I am almost out of breath and I’m ready to fuck, but she had other plans.

  “Damn Jasmine baby l’m gonna need some of that pussy, damn that pussy is sweet and tight baby.”

Practically holding my dick in one hand and holding her around her waist with the other. The look she had, told me she never stopped wanting me but she had to make the choice of a new future or stay where her heart was currently at.

  “No baby no pussy right now, I just wanted you to know that I’m still here for you and I haven’t left. I just had to make things seem the way he thought they would turn out. I just want you to know that we’re going to have more of this. Tonight was just a teaser to let you know we are unofficially-n official.”

  Walking back to the door, I felt like I was floating instead of walking. She let me out, walking onto the porch, I don’t give a fuck I feel like a pimp right now. I just got head from the woman I love in the same fucking house she shares with her man.  Shit don’t get no better than that.

Jasmine 20

  This niggas got me all fucked up. The last time I saw Derwin was a week ago. Goldie ass been MIA for a couple weeks off and on. Poor little Curtis think somehow we’re going to have a relationship with his ass and especially not after I heard his ass been fucking a woman who was born a man. Shit if they ass ain’t crazy, I don’t know who is. Goldie is my fucking my heart but at this stage of our lives that’s all he will ever be. I can’t say for sure if he not fucking someone right this minute but I know him and I know how he moves and to pass up on some pussy new, old, or otherwise just ain’t how he roll.