Obsession: Loving An Alpha Male (13 page)

Josh laughed at me. “Stanley…”

My eyes narrowed on him.

“Yes, that’s right, Stanley… do you remember Stanley? My ‘oh so hot neighbor’ with the spectacular body, yeah him.”

Josh’s eyes burned as he said to me, “You’re not going out with Stanley…”

“Yes, I am.”

“No, the fuck you’re not… First of all, I know for a fact he didn’t ask you.”

I folded my arms in front of me, “Oh yeah, why is that? You think I’m not attractive enough? You think he wouldn’t find me attractive. I’ll have you know he’s hit on me multiple times since he’s moved in, and you know, at first I told him no, thinking I had someone who really felt something for me, but I guess I’m mistaken so…”

I turned to leave when Josh shouted my name. Trying to look aloof and not completely turned on, I turned and looked at him.

“We need to talk,” he said very calmly, which surprised me

“I’m done talking,” I replied back.

At the same time, Paula called out to Josh.

Frustrated to no end, he looked at Paula and said to her, “First of all, I don’t need you saying shit else. Mind your fucking business…”

I added because, well, I needed to.

“Yeah, take your own advice…”

I cringed inwardly after I spoke. My comeback was weak but that was all I had.

To Paula’s defense though, she didn’t need me to say shit else as she said to him, “Look, clearly she wants to go, and I don’t understand why you just don’t let her go. It’s not like you’re lacking in replacements.”

My mouth dropped… that bitch…

Okay, so yes, I had enough. I didn’t want to hear them go back and forth, and as I said, he and I were done, so I moved toward the door again.

Josh growled… and yes, he literally growled at me and said, “Sweets, so help me, don’t you dare fucking move. Paula, get the fuck out of my apartment.”

Josh moved toward the door, opened it wide and met Paula’s deathly dark eyes.

“You’ve got to be joking,” she replied.

“No, I’m not. I didn’t ask you to come over here, but you did. If you have shit to say to me, you can say it at the office. Now I’m asking nicely, but best believe I won’t ask nice twice.”

Reluctantly, she started moving toward the door. Once she was through it, Josh simply closed and locked it then looked at me.

He walked to me, but I started walking around him and headed for his door. I wasn’t staying here a moment longer. I don’t know what I was thinking coming here dressed like this.

“Sweets…” He said my name as if pain rocked his body.

I stopped but didn’t turn around. I didn’t want to stop. I mean, I had my hand on the doorknob. But I don’t know, there was something about the way he said my name that caused me to stop.

I heard him sigh, but I still didn’t turn around to face him.

He said calmly, “Just give me a few minutes to say what I need to say and then after that, if you want to go, I won’t stop you.”

I said softly, “There’s nothing to say, Josh.”

I closed my eyes as I felt him close the gap between us.

My heart started to beat faster, and butterflies invaded my stomach the moment I felt his hand move to my hips. He softly caressed me from my hips to my stomach, then moved me closer to him. “I disagree,” he said, ever so softly.

This man was night and day.

Josh lightly kissed my shoulders, tickling me, sending my nerves into overdrive. I was getting weak. My resolve was dissolving with every sensual bite he would give me on my shoulder. He moved up my shoulder kissing me, sucking me, making me lose my mind. My knees were starting to shake, and I swear my g–string had evaporated from the moisture pooling between my legs.

I wanted to turn around. I wanted to feel his lips on mine… I wanted… shit… he was now kissing my neck, and of course, I involuntarily moved my head to the side to give him better access…. My body was abandoning me and giving in to the desires that I knew were starting to take over. Traitor…

I placed both my hands against the door to brace myself. My breath quickened with every touch from his lips, and the need for him was slowly taking over.
Keep it together, girl, you can do this
, I thought to myself trying to stay focused…

Josh said to me, “Are you really going on a date?”

“Mmmm–Hmmm,” was all I could say as my eyes rolled to the back of my head.

I bit my bottom lip to stop myself from moaning…

“With Stanley?” he asked close to my ear.

“Uh–huh.”

Josh put one hand on the door above me, and I felt his other hand travel down to my hips and move to go underneath my dress…

“You wore this dress for him then?”

“I uh… wore this dress for my date, yes.” I gasped suddenly as I felt his hand touch the front of my panties.

I knew he felt the garter belt I wore. I felt the sharp intake of his breath on my neck.

“So you wore this for me then…”

“No I…” I stopped talking the moment I felt his finger graze me. My hand instantly went to his wrist. “What are you doing, Josh?”

“So you didn’t wear this dress, this…” he snapped the strap holding my thigh high stockings in place. “…for me?”

“No,” I said with a quiver in my voice I knew I couldn’t hide.

“Huh… you know I don’t believe you. I think you wore this dress to seduce me. To make me lose my mind…” Josh kissed my ear and said softly, “turn around, Sweets…”

I didn’t move…

Josh moved his hand from under my dress and started to pull down my zipper. That caused me to turn around quickly.

“Again, what do you think you’re doing?” I asked him, eyes wide as saucers.

“Trying to seduce you…”

He moved closer to me, backing me up against the door. He leaned down and lightly kissed the side of my mouth.

He said softly, “Do you want me, Sweets?”

“Wh–wh…” I swallowed and cleared my throat. “What?” I managed to finally get out in between him kissing my neck, my face…

“I didn’t think I asked a trick question… It was a very simple question with a yes or no answer…” he said to me, stopping his lip assault and bringing his eyes to mine.

My words caught in my throat at the deep darkness in his eyes. The desire for me was shadowing him, draping him. It seemed to be consuming him, and I felt he was almost over the edge.

This was what I wanted, wasn’t it? I just… I didn’t want it because he thought I was going on a date with someone else.

I said to him, “I don’t think me wanting you is the right question.”

“It’s not? What is then?”

I took a deep breath and said as strong as I could, “Do you really want me?”

Josh smirked at me. “I think that’s evident, Sweets.”

I quickly shook my head and brought my hands to his chest, trying to create space between us.

“No, it isn’t really. You’re only doing this because I told you I was going out with someone else.”

“Do you really believe that?”

“Josh, you were planning to say goodbye to me tonight. Don’t deny that,” I said to him.

I tried to push him away from me, but he just moved closer to me and placed his hands along my face.

“Yeah, well, I changed my fucking mind the moment I opened my front door. And I’ll be damned if you think I’m going to let you go out with another man. You belong to me, Sweets, but it seems you’ve forgotten that…” Josh leaned in to me, bringing his lips inches from mine. He said, “I guess I have to show you, so there will no longer be any doubt.”

His kiss didn’t start out soft…no, it went straight to hard and possessive and down right mind blowing. I couldn’t do anything but wrap my arms around his neck and hold on for dear life as his tongue claimed my mouth, my soul…

The remaining parts of my thong were melting into me I was so soaked with need. I could feel a hard bulge pressing in my lower stomach, and I really wanted to find out just how blessed Josh was.

When he pulled apart from me his hands were still on my cheeks.

“Fuck, I’ve missed you,” he said to me.

I smiled. “I’ve missed you too.”

We stayed that way, his hands on the side of my face, thumb caressing my cheeks, and I had my hands resting on a well–defined lower back.

“Tell me you want me…”

I looked in his eyes, and I couldn’t lie to him… I didn’t care anymore if I make a fool out of myself… this was where I wanted to be, and he was who I wanted, so I nodded.

“I want you…” I said softly.

“Tell me you wore this dress for me…” Josh gripped my hair and pulled my head back.

His lips went to my throat, and I finally let out the moan I’ve been suppressing the moment his hands touched me.

“Yes… I wore this for you…” I admitted.

Josh looked at me. “You’re not going out with Stanley!”

I sighed. I know it wasn’t a question but more like a proclamation, but I still shook my head and said softly. “No.”

Josh smiled and again went for the zipper to my dress.

Josh didn’t waste time getting the zipper down, and I didn’t stop the dress from falling. Josh’s hands roamed down my arms to my back and cupped my butt. He pulled me flush up against him and then lifted. I got the hint and wrapped my legs around his waist, and he walked us to his bedroom.

As he kissed my neck, I felt like it was time to tell him what I tried to before, however, I need to approach it differently. When we got to his room, I unraveled myself from him, and he stepped back. His eyes raked over me from head to toe, and he shook his head.

“Sweets, you are so beautiful…”

I blushed, as usual, and turned my head.

He removed his t–shirt, and I finally got to see this phenomenal upper body I knew he kept hidden behind his clothes. Josh looked like his chest was carved by God himself. He was cut everywhere and his abs, oh my…

Josh walked up to me, or rather stalked, however way you want to say it, which made me back up until I felt my legs hit his bed. Josh’s hands then ran all over my body slowly and methodically as if he was memorizing every curve I had.

I said, while he was distracted touching me, “Josh, I have to tell you that I’m not as experienced as you’re probably used to.”

Josh looked in my eyes. “I know, baby.”

He couldn’t possibly understand, I knew, and I couldn’t let him go further until he did. Josh moved his hands to the back of my head and was bringing me to his lips when I slipped away from him.

“No, Josh, just let me say this.” I took a deep breath and said, “It’s not just that I’m not as experienced. I mean, I’m not experienced at all.”

Josh’s face frowned confusion etched on his face. “I’m sorry what?”

I sighed deeply. “Technically speaking, I have never been with a man, sexually.”

Josh, probably stunned into silence, sat down on his bed. He sort of looked through me instead of at me.

“Technically speaking?”

“Okay well, technically and officially,” I added.

Josh remained silent, which was making me extremely nervous.
Why in the hell did I say something? Because idiot, he would have found out on his own anyway.

I watched Josh run his hand over his face, and he sighed.

Trying not to sound panicked, I said softly, “Josh, please say something.”

He shook his head and looked at me. “I mean, what can I say? You’re telling me you’re a virgin, Sweets. You have to know that changes things.”

Oh no! Think, Summer.

I walked up to him said quickly, “No Josh, this doesn’t change anything. Okay look, this wasn’t by choice. I’ve tried to get rid of this burden… I mean, there was this one time in college…”

“Whoa, Sweets,” Josh said, quickly putting his hands up. “I really don’t need to hear about you and someone else right now or how about ever… I really don’t need that visual…”

I moved closer to him. “Okay well, what can I say to you, Josh? Because all I know is how happy I am that I get to experience this with you. You’re the one I want to give myself to, Josh. You’re the one I trust and no one else.” I ran my hands through his hair as he looked up at me. “You’re the only man I want to touch me; the only one I want to learn how to please. I want to be yours in every way. Please let me.”

Josh put his head down and then closed his eyes. I concentrated on the rise and fall of his chest as I tried not to let the anxiety creep up in me. When he looked back at me, I could see the sincerity as well as uncertainty in his eyes.

“Sweets, I’m flattered, really I am, you have no idea how much, but…”

“No, Josh, no buts.” I started pacing emphatically, waving my arms, hoping what I was about to say would convince him. “I don’t want to hear you tell me that we should wait, or that my first time should be special. To me, this is special. Being with you is what I want. I want you to be the first man to truly touch me in this way, and I want you to teach me how to please you. Don’t deny me this.”

I finally stopped in front of him when he didn’t respond to me. I met his eyes, and he intently focused on my face.

“Are you finished?” he admonished.

I nodded because quite frankly I was. I had nothing else to say to convince him. I was standing in front of him half naked, just like I was with Wayne before. If he doesn’t want me, then I’m doomed to be a virgin forever.

Josh moved me closer to him and positioned me between his legs. His hands traveled up my stocking leg to the guarder belt on my waist.

He unclipped the clasps.  “As I was saying before, Sweets, I am flattered beyond belief, but…” he looked up at me and held my eyes. He then reached down and removed each of my five and a half inch heels one by one. “Did you really think you being a virgin would stop me? I’ve been thinking about this moment for a long time, and there is no way I’m not exploring this fantastic body of yours.”

I started to say something, but he gave me a look that made me shut my mouth.

He then said, “When I said this changes things, I just meant my plans for your body will have to be altered this time.” He caressed my legs at the same time, bringing down my stocking on each leg and removing them. “I’m going to definitely make this night special for you.”

He kissed my chest with light feather movements that made me burn in between my legs.

“I plan to pleasure each and every part of your body slowly and thoroughly, making this night something you will never forget.”

Josh moved my legs so I would be able to straddle him, and he pulled me on his lap. He then got up and turned around and laid me flat on his bed. He positioned himself next to me and ran his hands from my neck down between my breasts to my stomach.

He then looked me in my eyes and said, “Because I’m not a complete ass, are you sure you’re ready for this? Because the way I’m feeling right now, once I get started I don’t think I’m going to be able to stop.”

I took the hand that was currently rubbing my stomach and moved it south to a part of me that’s been dying to feel his touch again.

When he started stroking me, I said softly, “I’m sure…”

I brought his face down to mine so I could do what had become my favorite past time. Our kiss was slow and methodical, and the dance our tongues were doing matched to the rhythm of his fingers on my sex.

He started off slowly, making slow circles of my clit. The feeling he was giving me was unbelievable and so good I needed to feel more. I started to crave the roughness he gave me before, so I started moving my hips, which brought on another sensation that, oh my goodness, was driving me crazy….

I called his name softly and moaned as he kept moving his finger around and around while he kissed down my neck.

When his finger entered me, his thumb continued its assault on my clit, and he claimed one of my taunt and ample nipples with his lips. I suddenly arched my body up as I felt a sensation starting to build within me. My body is screaming for him, my skin burned with anticipation for his lips to touch all of me.

“Oh God, Joshua… Josh…”

I felt it building. His finger moved faster and started applying pressure on my clit as he continued to move. I gripped his shoulder and his hair as a wave of pleasure fell over me.

“Holy mother of….!” I cried out with force of a dam braking.

“…Yes, baby…that’s it, give me what I’ve been waiting for! Shit, that was so fucking sexy…Do you want to come again?” he asked me, and I shook my head.

“I can’t… you can’t make me… Ohhhh Shit!” I screamed as another wave hit me instantly.

Damn, I didn’t know what he was doing to me with just two fingers, but I was losing my ever loving mind.

Josh pulled his hand from my panties and yanked down the garter and my thong and threw them somewhere behind him. He pushed open my legs and got in between them.

“I love watching you come. You look so fucking beautiful. I wonder if you taste as sweet as you look.”

“Josh.” I sighed as he started kissing down my stomach, then my inner thighs.

I started to squirm as the first lick gratified my clit. I shot up from the bed as a new sensation then attacked my body.

Josh lightly pushed me back down as his tongue moved around the lips of me, and I swear the moment he sucked on my most sensitive spot I started seeing stars. I mean, I thought his finger gave me an unyielding pleasure so strong, but I was wrong. A feeling or sensation brought on by this man’s tongue and mouth had me speaking in another language.

“Mmmm, just what I thought, sweet as candy, baby, so fucking good… Come for me again, baby, don’t hold back.”

He buried his face in between my thighs again and pulled me closer.

I grabbed anything I could as he continued to bring me to orgasm after orgasm after gut wrenching orgasm. I could do nothing but grab the sheets around me, the pillows, his hair, his shoulders. I swear I was digging my nails in his back, and he never stopped giving one of the most pleasurable feelings I had ever had.

And the things Josh was saying to me, telling me how good I tasted and how he can’t wait to be inside me added together with the deep penetrating voice he was using, and I came apart that very moment.

He said to me just as I came, “I can’t wait to bury my dick in your hot wet pussy baby. Are you ready for me?”

I honestly should have said hell no and ran away as fast as I could, but I didn’t. I wanted this, and I wanted him and the way he was making me feel now, I knew it was only going to get better.

Josh wiped his mouth on the side of my thigh and stood. I just realized he still had his pants on, but I could clearly see a very sizable hard on coming from the front of them.

I watched heavily sated already as he unzipped his pants and let them drop to the floor. My eyes bulged out of my face, and I started backing away from him… I mean, the size of that thing really had me not believing that this was going to turn out good for me.

I closed my eyes and felt the bed move slightly as he traveled up my body. He kissed my stomach and then moved to my already sensitive nipples. He fondled both breasts with his tongue before he moved up my collarbone to my neck.

By the time he got to my lips, I was hot and wanton for more of what he was doing to me.

He kissed me softly, and I wrapped my arms around his neck to bring him flushed up against me.

He pulled back slowly and propped himself up on his elbows. I felt him hard and long on my stomach, and I started to wiggle with anticipation.

Josh smiled at me for the first time all day, “Relax, baby, okay? The hard part is coming, but I promise it won’t last very long, and the pleasure after that will make the pain worth it.”

I nodded my head but didn’t say anything. I couldn’t. I was surprised I could think so I knew speaking was out of the question.

Josh asked, “Do you trust me?”

I nodded again, but he shook his head. He caressed my cheek with his knuckles.

“No, baby, I need to hear you say it.”

I cleared my throat and said softly still, “I trust you, Josh.”

Josh moved off me for a second, and I closed my eyes. I heard a drawer open then I heard rustling of a wrapper.

The next thing I knew he was back on top of me, and this time I felt the head of him at the mouth of my womanly goodness. This was it. I was about to be changed forev‒

“Oh my God!” I exclaimed loudly.

“I know, baby, just relax okay…”

I started moving back from him.

“No wait, Josh… Just… Fuckkkkkk!”

I felt him move in and out slowly, but he continued to push inside me. When I felt the breakthrough, I cried out again and brought my hands to my face.

“It’s almost over, baby, just hold on. It’ll get better,” he promised, and I nodded frantically shutting my eyes.

Josh didn’t move at first, allowing my body to stop fighting the intrusion and then finally he moved his hips away from me then slowly moved forward again. I felt fuller than I did before, and when I opened my eyes and looked down I saw he wasn’t even all the way in me.

“Joshua, please…” I begged, the throbbing and aching feeling was becoming more than I could handle.

“Fuck… okay, Sweets, just bear with me…”

He then bent down and started kissing me. I grabbed the side of his head as I felt him pull out almost completely, then back in again, inching closer and closer to filling me completely. Then he started a rhythm that started to sooth the soreness and created another sensation that was beginning to feel amazing.

I moaned, and Josh stopped kissing me and sat up a little.

“Does that feel better?”

I nodded. “Oh yess… please don’t stop don’t…” a wave hit me in that moment and I called out his name and started moving my hips frantically, trying to chase the overwhelming feeling that overcame me.

Josh was true to his word. He made everything feel amazing just by the touch of his hands on my body, his soft lips and tongue caressing my nipples. Everything was just amazing. I felt him pick up his pace, and I knew he had to be all the way in when I felt his balls starting to graze me.