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OUT OF
SHADOWS
Jason Wallace
Holiday House / New York
Acknowledgments

For the priceless help, insight, belief, support, and hard work given during the writing of this book, my heartfelt thanks to: my agent, Carolyn Whitaker; my editor, Charlie Sheppard, and all at Andersen Press; and Margaret Barton.

Holiday House thanks Norman Khumalo for writing the historical note in this book's back matter.

Copyright © Jason Wallace, 2010

The right of Jason Wallace to be identified as the author of this work has been
asserted by him in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act, 1988.
First published in 2010 by Andersen Press Limited, 20 Vauxhall Bridge Road,
London SW1V 2SA.

Historical note © Norman Khumalo, 2011

First published in the United States by Holiday House, Inc. in 2011.

All Rights Reserved

HOLIDAY HOUSE is registered in the U.S. Patent and Trademark Office.

Printed and Bound in February 2011 at Maple Vail, York, PA, USA.

www.holidayhouse.com

First American Edition

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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Wallace, Jason.

Out of shadows / by Jason Wallace. — 1st American ed.

p. cm.

Summary: In 1983, at an elite boys' boarding school in Zimbabwe, thirteen-year-old English lad Robert Jacklin finds himself torn between his black roommate and the white bullies still bitter over losing power through the recent civil war.

ISBN 978-0-8234-2342-2 (hardcover)

1. Zimbabwe—History—1980—Juvenile fiction. [1. Zimbabwe—History—1980— Fiction. 2. Conduct of life—Fiction. 3. Race relations—Fiction. 4. Bullies—Fiction. 5. British—Zimbabwe—Fiction. 6. Boarding schools—Fiction. 7. Schools—Fiction.]
I. Title.

PZ7.W15655Out 2011

[Fic]—dc22

2010024372

For my mother, June, and my stepfather, Richard,
who took us on an adventure

And for Katharine

Zimbabwe
1983
ONE

Go ahead, shoot
, I thought, because I was thirteen and desperate and anything, absolutely anything, was better than the fate to which my parents were leading me.

The policeman sat astride his growling motorbike, one hand on his holster, anonymous behind shades. He was one of the outriders for the new prime minister's motorcade, signaling for cars to get off the road. If drivers didn't stop quickly enough he was entitled to shoot. If they didn't move right off the tarmac, he could shoot. If they
did
stop but the policeman thought the passengers inside looked shifty or saw them messing around, he'd shoot. He was nothing like the policemen back home.

Home
, I thought. An old ache swelled in my stomach. England. Britain. So far away. For me, this Africa was another world, and as we sat there watching the rider watch us, Britain felt farther away than ever.

I sighed.

My father completely misinterpreted it and tutted as he showed me his watch against a sunburned wrist.

“We've plenty of time; I made sure you wouldn't be late on your first day,” he said.

And instantly the fear came charging back. It was here: The day I'd prayed would never come. Any hope that my father might have a change of heart and take us back to our own country flickered and finally died.

The policeman didn't move. With sweat glistening on his black-brown skin, he just glared at my mother and father and me as we sat rigidly in silence. It was getting hotter and hotter now that the air wasn't rushing through the open windows. Beyond the car, insects clicked and buzzed in the dry grass. We were miles from anywhere. Anywhere but here.

A moment later the motorcade rushed by at a million miles an hour, the cars all secretive and dark. I didn't know which one was the prime minister's because you couldn't see behind the tinted glass, though I guessed it was the biggest and sleekest Mercedes in the middle with the flags.

“You see that?” My father spoke with the look of a child gazing through a toy-shop window. “There goes a great, great man. He's given the people freedom—what could be a greater achievement than that?”

He caught my confused look in the rearview mirror.

“Didn't you read the book I gave you?”

I nodded, lying, but he knew perfectly well I hated history.

“For generations, Europeans have treated Africa like a playground. We've carved it up among ourselves, stolen its riches, and not given a damn about the poor people who live here.”

My mother sighed, but my father was in full swing now.

“Britain claimed
this
land and called it Rhodesia, but the black Africans have fought back at last and tipped the balance of power, son. White minority rule is over, thank goodness. Rhodesia no longer exists. This is Zimbabwe. And, now that
the fighting has finally finished, that man there's going to do tremendous things for this country, you mark my words. He's a hero.”

I nodded subserviently while inside I was chewing over his words:
tipped the balance of power
. It seemed a strange expression to me because it gave me an image of a seesaw, and when one end was up the other was always down. It was never actually balanced.

The tail of the motorcade whooshed by, followed by yet more policemen on motorbikes, sirens wailing. Our man joined them and left us in a cloud of red dust that filled the car and made a mess of everything.

“Yes, indeed, a hero. Do you know something, darling?” My father spoke to my mother. “If I could meet him, just to be in the same room as him, I would consider it the greatest moment of my life.”

And he made a silly laughing sound as if it were something that might actually happen.

He never did meet Mr. Mugabe. For me, it was to be a very different story.

TWO

We pulled off the main road
and between huge stone pillars that bore Haven School's name. Up a willow-lined drive, then down and around to where the boardinghouses were. A jostle of vehicles had already filled the small parking lot, a reassuring reminder of life beyond the grounds. The baking January sun glinted off windshields.

My father stopped the engine and sat a moment without speaking, looking up at Selous House—my house—like it was a monument or something.

“Named after Frederick Courteney Selous, one of Rhodesia's founding figures,” he said at last, as if we hadn't stopped talking about it. “All five boardinghouses in the school are named after Rhodesian founders. Giving names of important people to buildings and places is just one way the white government asserted power.”

He gave me a meaningful nod.

“But that's in the past now. Colonialism is an outdated ideal that was never going to work. It doesn't matter who you are, you can't simply plant a flag and claim rights over someone
else's land. This is Africa, for Africans. And black people had every right to rise up and use aggression.”

Even though most of the other parents and boys around us were white, I started to feel even more nervous about being here, and I wondered if he knew how he was making me feel. I opened my mouth to speak.

“So was that what the war was about?” I asked. “Land?”


This
is what it was about,” he replied, finding and pointing to a black family standing isolated on the grass. The boy was small and looking at his shoes while his parents tried to appear relaxed. “The winds of change. Opportunity for all. Boys like him wouldn't have been allowed in a school like this before independence. But you can't suppress people because of the color of their skin. Or at all, for that matter. Do you think it was right?”

“No,” I said.

“It was utterly, utterly wrong.” I wasn't sure my father had heard me. “White people should be ashamed.”

He climbed out and walked enthusiastically toward the family. Soon, the three grown-ups laughed, and I noticed some of the white parents glancing and shaking their heads.

My mother sat silently in the front fanning her face. She'd cried almost the whole way here.

“It won't be so bad,” she said, a line she'd fed me on and off all through Christmas—I'd felt safe then, despite the weirdness of unwrapping presents in the heat, as though the start of the school year might never find me. But it had. “You'll make lots of new friends. You won't have time to be sad.”

We sat and watched my father. Two tall senior boys greeted him politely as they passed. My father puffed himself up and stroked his beard, and responded in the voice he saved for the telephone. He looked strange today, wrapped in one of his London suits as if he was on business. All the other fathers were in short-sleeved shirts, shorts, desert boots, and
long socks. Their wives wore floral-print dresses like ones I'd seen on old British TV programs.

“You mustn't blame your father,” my mother spoke again. “He has a very different sort of background. His parents never had money. He feels very strongly that you should take the opportunities he never had.”

She dabbed her nostrils with a tissue.

“The Embassy has been very kind in offering to pay the fees. We could certainly never afford a school like this on your father's salary.”

“He could get another job.” I spoke petulantly into my tie knot. “In England. He acts like a stupid history teacher most of the time, he could be one of those.”

“Now, now. Don't be rude,” my mother told me, but with her face pointing the other way.

She blew her nose.

“This country is our home for the time being,” she went on dutifully. I could tell she was forcing her mouth into a smile. “It'll be better this time. I believe that, I really do. Back at home your father's old department just didn't appreciate his . . . 
skills
, but I think he'll finally find his feet with this new job. He's running a whole office. Things will be different.”

“But I don't really know anything about this country,” I said, a plea as I eyed the small boy over on the grass who now appeared to be looking right back at me. “What if they don't like me?”

She turned around again.

“Then we
will
go back, one way or another. I promise. It's where we belong. We can go and live with Granny while we settle back. She says we're always welcome. She misses us so much since we left.”

Now her smile was real.

“But you have to promise you'll at least try. If you can do that then I'll see what I can do. Your father does listen to me
sometimes, he does care. Maybe he can put in for a transfer—I'm sure the Civil Service does that sort of thing all the time. Deal?”

I nodded quickly up and down, knowing I could believe her optimism, and my mother leaned into the back to give me a hug. Beyond, my father waved me out with impatience.

“You're at grown-up school now, Robert. You don't want the other boys seeing that,” he said as I went to him. Until that point I'd always been Bobby. It seemed Bobby had been left at home and I wished I was there with him.

I lowered my head and pulled on the oversized blue blazer that itched my skin.

“We've found you a new friend,” my father went on, pointing to the small black boy. “He's starting today, too. This is Nelson. Nelson, this is Robert. You two are going to be best friends.”

Nelson's father smiled and agreed. Nelson himself didn't move until his father gave him a nudge, and he nodded a silent hello. His eyes cried out that he was in fact having the same kind of day as me, and we laughed anxiously together. It wasn't a sound we would make many times that first term.

“Nelson can give you a hand with your trunk, if you ask nicely,” my father added.

My head went down again and he folded his arms. His shirt had dark blots all over it and was tight across his stomach.

“Come on, stop that. You're thirteen years of age,” I was told as if it were news.

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