Authors: Xanthe Walter
was nothing he could do to stop this. He was on
this roller coaster ride and there was no way off
until the end.
There was a sigh behind him, and then he
heard his new dom crouch down and lean over
him, ghosting a warm breath over his naked back.
"You," a voice whispered in his ear, and he
tensed up, waiting to hear his dom's instructions.
"Are a complete idiot."
Matt's eyes flew open, and he looked up to
see a pair of long legs encased in tight black
denim, a scarlet shirt hugging a broad body, a ring
shaped like a panther's head on a tanned thumb,
and, finally, Rick's face, leaning over him.
"What the hell are you doing here?" Matt
demanded.
"I could ask you the same thing."
"You're not…" Matt looked around wildly. "I
mean, you didn't… this isn't…?"
"Am I one of Fantasia's clients and was I
matched up to be your dom for the evening? No,
I'm damn well not," Rick said flatly. "Damn it,
look at you, Matt." He gestured at Matt's naked
body. "You do know this place has cameras, don't
you?"
"Yes, I do," Matt said defiantly. "But they
said they'd lock the tapes away and keep them
safe."
"Oh, did they?" Rick's voice dripped with
sarcasm. "Well, that's reassuring because I'd
certainly trust Mr. Fleece-you-for-all-you're-worth
Grable with footage of a TV star having sex, any
damn day of the week."
"So I strip naked and get fucked in front of the
cameras in here, or I do it next week in front of the
cameras at work - what the hell is the difference?"
Matt asked angrily, still reeling from this
unexpected turn of events.
Rick rocked back on his heels, shaking his
head. "That's what this is about? The stupid sex
scene?"
Matt flushed. "Yes. No. Look, it's none of
your business."
"Yes, it is. Now put on some damn clothes."
Rick strode over to the closet, pulled out a
bathrobe, and flung it at Matt. Then he went over
to one of the cameras, leaned up and yanked out the
electric cord, causing the red light to wink out. He
did the same with the other one, disabling them
both.
Matt pulled the bathrobe on quickly, feeling
stupid and embarrassed. "How the hell did you
even know I was here? Did you follow me?" he
demanded, trying to get back some of the moral
high ground.
"No - I stole your cell phone when you were
doing a scene earlier and read the text message
from this place that you've been looking at all
day."
"You stole my phone? You stole my fucking
phone?"
"Yeah. Thief remember," Rick said sourly.
"Sticky fingers." He held up his hand and waggled
them.
"How dare you! Who gave you that right?"
"I was worried about you! Everyone is
worried about you. You've been a pain to work
with, snapping people's heads off, and you've been
lying to me."
"I don't owe you any explanations."
Rick's eyes narrowed, and he rocked back on
his heels. "Maybe not, but I thought we were
friends."
"Friends don't steal your cell phone and spy
on you!"
"It's a good thing I did," Rick said flatly.
"See, I met your fantasy dom outside a few minutes
ago, and let's just say that I don't think he was the
good time you were hoping for tonight."
"Well, we won't know because I never got to
meet him!" Matt paused. "What did you do to
him?" he asked, curiously. Rick rubbed his
knuckles absently, and Matt saw they were
bruised. "Oh, that's just great," he snapped. "Thank
you so fucking much, Rick."
"Oh, he's fine! He got moody with me at first
when I told him I was here to spoil his evening, so
we had a little fight, that's all; it didn't take much to
scare him off." He shrugged.
Matt glared at him. "So you read my private
text and then you followed me here? Why didn't
you wait for me in my trailer and talk to me about
it if you're so damn worried about what I do in my
spare time?"
"Because I didn't really believe you'd do
something so stupid and out of character!" Rick
glared back. "So, I figured I'd follow you, to see if
you were really going to go through with it and to
make sure you were safe." He pressed his lips
together tightly, frowning. "When I got here, I
talked my way in and found the guy you were
supposed to be with tonight getting ready in that
little room over there." He jerked his thumb over
his shoulder. "He looked like a mean bastard."
"You don't know he was mean - that could
have just been how he looked!" Matt protested.
"Yeah, well, I told him I was new to this
place and asked whether it was any good and what
the subs were like, and he said - and I quote: 'Yup
- there's a subby piece of shit in the next room that
I'm gonna nail.' And he grabbed his cock and
grinned at me when he was talking, so if you
thought I was going to turn around and leave you to
him, then you have a very different definition of
friendship to me."
"It was still none of your damn business! It
was my mistake to make. It if went wrong, it was
down to me," Matt said defiantly.
Rick gave him a hard look. "Your fantasy
dom also knew who he was going to fuck tonight."
"What?" Matt blinked.
"He told me he was, and again I quote, 'gonna
go in there and fuck that stupid blond kid off the
TV show about collars'."
"What?" Matt repeated blankly.
"Now, I figure that not even you were stupid
enough to walk in here and give Grable your real
name."
"No. No I didn't." Matt wrapped his arms
around his body, feeling suddenly very stupid.
"How did he know?"
"Oh please, did you maybe wear a baseball
cap on your first visit and think Grable didn't
recognize you? You're on a big TV show, you
idiot!" Rick snorted. "Grable must have seen the
dollar signs flashing the minute you walked
through the door! I bet you hadn't even reached the
parking lot after your interview before he was
phoning around his clientele to see who'd pay him
the most for a night with Matthew Lake."
"But he said it was all anonymous," Matt
protested, his brain going into free-fall as he tried
to process this.
"Yeah well, newsflash, Matt - he lied."
"I don't… I can't… but he…" Matt found his
mouth opening and closing like a fish, unable to get
any words out.
"Not only that, but after tonight, Grable would
have had footage of Matthew Lake being brutally
fucked on film." Rick gestured to the now defunct
cameras. "You'd have been his sub-slut after that,
Matt. He'd either have used the footage to
blackmail you into giving him money, or he'd have
had you coming back here every week to service
any skeevy dom prepared to pay the price for a
night 'fucking that stupid blond kid from the TV
show about collars'."
Matt felt his legs start to give way, and he sat
down on the floor, the full extent of what had
almost happened finally sinking in. "Oh shit," he
whispered.
"Yeah. Oh shit." Rick crossed his arms over
his chest and glared down at him. "And it gets
worse. When I saw that text and realized you were
coming here tonight, I made some calls to see if
this place was safe. I spoke to a couple of my
friends from my youth." He gave Matt a meaningful
look. "And it turns out Grable pulled a similar
stunt in New York - which lost him his license by
the way, so technically he's not even allowed to
operate anymore."
"Damn it, I've really fucked up." Matt
wrapped his arms around his knees and hugged
them tightly to his chest.
"Yes, you have," Rick said bluntly.
At that moment there was a loud knocking at
the door. Rick went over there, opened it a tiny
crack, and peered through.
"There's something wrong with the cameras in
this suite," a voice called.
"There's something wrong with this shithole,
period," Rick retorted.
"I need to come in and fix…"
"Not gonna happen," Rick snapped. "Now go
back and tell your sleazy-assed boss that Rick
O'Shea will be up to see him soon. Then you can
have your lousy suite back."
Rick slammed the door shut and strode back
over to Matt. "Now, where were we? Oh yeah, you
fucking up. Let's talk about that some more, shall
we? See, I took this off your fantasy dom." Rick
held up a piece of paper that Matt recognized as
his Fantasia questionnaire. "You came in here
without a safeword, Matty? Really? You seriously
came here to hook up with a complete stranger,
and you were going to do it without a safeword?
Even if this place had been okay, you were still
taking one hell of a risk. "
"How is it any different to you picking up
some stranger in a club and taking them home and
fucking them?" Matt flung at him.
Rick's eyes flashed. "For one thing, I at least
get to see and speak to my potential partner before
deciding if I want to take them home and fuck them.
Any bad vibes, and I back off. For another, I'd
never play with any sub I'd only just met without
giving them a safeword. And thirdly, I've had years
of experience of this kind of thing. You don't."
"Well, maybe I wanted to change that," Matt
said defiantly.
"By going from 0 to 100 miles per hour in ten
seconds flat? There are ways to gradually ease
yourself into this kind of thing, and this isn't one of
them." Rick crouched down in front of him, gazing
at him thoughtfully. "Seriously, Matt - what's really
going on here?"
"I had to do something!" Matt said
desperately. "Something big that I couldn't back out
of or sabotage. Something I had to go through with
because I didn't have a choice."
"But why?" Rick looked completely baffled.
"Because!" Matt wrapped his arms even more
tightly around his body and gazed at his bare feet.
"Matt?" Rick asked, in a gentler tone.
Matt looked up miserably. "Because during
that rehearsal I saw myself as you see me: the
prissy little sub who keeps himself safe all the
time; the control freak sub who doesn't know how
to let go and enjoy his sexuality."
"That's not how -"
"It is! I saw the expression on your face when
you met my mom - I know how we looked to you.
All tightly locked up in our safe little world,
turning everyone else into an enemy we didn't want
to let in, and I realized I was suffocating, Rick. I
felt like I was trapped in a box, and I couldn't get
out."
"This isn't a way out," Rick said bluntly.
"There had to be a better way, Matt. Why choose
to do something this risky all of a sudden? I mean,
why -?"
"Because of you! Because of the spanking
sessions!" Matt blurted out.
Rick blinked. "What?"
"You showed me my sub-space, Rick. You
took me there, and it was so good that I had to have
more," Matt explained desperately. "I needed to
know what it was like to do it properly. Not just
spanking, but all of it."
They were silent for a long time, gazing at
each other.
Then, eventually, Rick spoke. "Why didn't
you ask me, Matt?" he asked quietly.
"Because we had a deal! We said it was a no
strings thing - that it wasn't anything more than
spanking. We both agreed on that. Besides, this
was my issue, not yours. I'm the one who's kept
myself locked up a box for all these years."
"You were just, you know, being sensible."
Rick stood up and waved his arm around vaguely
in the air.
"I was being a coward. Then that stupid plot
line came up, and I realized that Ben - sweet,
naïve, innocent Ben Harris - has more guts than
me! He was prepared to do something risky,
something way out and dangerous, in order to
experience his true self."
"He was about to do something really stupid!"