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Had he not been delirious, Abram would have seen that he was within sight of a village sheltered in the lee of a high hill. Soon one, then two, then before long half a dozen people came towards him and silently surrounded his semi-conscious body covered in the dirt of the ditch.

Abram struggled to open his eyes as the people around him shaded his face from the sun.

‘Brother,' said a tall and bearded man. ‘Who are you?'

And then darkness.

When Abram awoke it took him a few moments to realise that he had been laid under the shaded protection of an olive tree. His face was wet and he felt his skin itching. His head pounded. The nozzle of a water skin was pushed to his lips and he drank deeply. Around him were seven people, all looking at him with questions and concern in their eyes.

‘Why have you come to our village?' asked one of the men.

Abram could feel an unease in the villagers who stood before him. There was suspicion in their faces and in these days of Roman control, suspicion could quickly turn to hostility.

He tried to speak, but his voice rasped. He coughed, and whispered, ‘I'm travelling to Be'er Sheva.'

Despite his headache, the boy knew he had to be cautious. That was all Abram could, should, say, knowing that he had to keep from everybody the reason he was journeying to Jerusalem.

His answer didn't satisfy anybody. ‘Then why come along this road? Why did you come here? Why to us?' asked the man.

He had no answer.

A woman pushed forward through the crowd and said
harshly, ‘Abimelech, stop this nonsense. He is just a boy. He's exhausted and hungry. The poor child has collapsed. Look at him; he's suffering from the heat of the sun and thirst. How can you treat him like this?'

She reached over and held Abram by the arm. ‘I am Elisheva of the House of David. What is your name?'

‘Abram,' he said softly, his throat still hurting despite the water he had swallowed.

‘Come with me, brother Abram, and have some food. And a wash. You look as though you need both.'

As Elisheva helped him to his unsteady feet, supporting him to the house where she and her husband lived with their three children, the rest of the village stared after them. But then Abimelech, the Episcopus of the community and the one to whom others deferred, shrugged.

‘Let us hope that young Abram isn't a spy for the Romans. And let us pray, my brothers and sisters, in Jesus Christ our Lord's name, that he might see the light of our Lord, and become one of us . . .'

Inside the modest home, Elisheva sat Abram at a roughly hewn table and put a bowl of stew in front of him, fresh from the fire. She handed him a goblet of water, which he drank greedily.

‘Not too quickly, my child,' said Elisheva. ‘When you're so thirsty, you must drink slowly at first, or you'll become sick.'

Abram ate the stew ravenously. It was full of chunks of lamb and vegetables, of lentils and herbs. The smells of the food caused Abram to remember the meals his mother had prepared for Rabbi Shimon which he'd taken to his cave in the hills. And from that memory a great sadness descended on him, which Elisheva recognised.

‘What are you doing, Abram, wandering these roads alone? In these troubled times, my son, it's not safe.'

Abram looked at her, wondering whether to trust her. She had shown him kindness and Abram was aware of how easily he might have been left by the side of the road to die. Yet she was still a stranger and he could not ignore the instructions of the rabbi.

‘I'm going to visit my uncle in Be'er Sheva,' he lied.

She smiled, and reached over to hold his hand. ‘If that's your mission, then you'll need to eat and put on weight, because it's a long way from here into the Negev Desert. The roads, what roads there are, teem with bandits and men who you really don't want to meet.'

Abram frowned. ‘But I was told that the people in the desert were friendly and welcomed strangers.' It was a lie. He'd never discussed the people who lived in the desert. He hated lying. He hated stealing. Look what he'd become since he'd left his parents' home.

Elisheva shook her head. ‘Some of the desert people are friendly, others are dangerous. Those from ancient times who plied the caravan routes in their tents were hospitable. But for a long time now, another people, who call themselves A'raab, inhabit the desert with their camels and goats and sheep, and they are tribal and fierce. They have a saying:
I against my brother, my brothers and I against my cousin, and then my cousins and I against strangers.
We hear stories about travellers who disappear when they come across these tribes who wander the sand dunes of the desert.

‘No, Abram, the desert is not a safe place, and especially not for a young man like you, alone and far from his home.'

Abram looked down at his plate, his appetite sated. But Elisheva hadn't finished. ‘And there's always danger from the Romans. The Roman emperor has just died and we don't know what the new rulers in Rome will do to us. We hear stories that involve very terrible persecution against our people.'

‘But haven't the Romans always hated us Jews?' asked Abram.

Elisheva smiled and shook her head. ‘No, in the time of King Herod, we were friendly with the Romans. But now they are against the Jews, as well as against us, the Christians, the followers of Jesus of Nazareth.'

‘Who's Jesus of Nazareth?'

‘He's our Lord. The son of our God.'

Abram could not hold back a brash laugh. ‘God has a son?'

Elisheva nodded patiently but the look she gave Abram unsettled him.

‘Yes, the Lord God sent his son to earth to create the Kingdom of Heaven. He was crucified and he rose from the dead. He is our Messiah.'

Abram ate another spoonful of the stew while he considered what Elisheva had said.

‘My rabbi said there are many men who say they are sent by God. They all call themselves messiahs, from our word “to be sent”. My rabbi said I should ignore them as madmen. Was your Jesus one of them?'

Again, Elisheva remained patient and smiled. ‘Jesus is the only true Messiah, Abram. He is truly the son of God and we know this from the miracles He performed. You see, Jesus has done what no man before him has done. He rose from the dead and came back to us alive, three days after He was crucified.'

Abram shook his head. He didn't understand. ‘How can a dead man come alive again?'

‘He is not a man, my dear. He is our God, and we worship him.'

Abram pushed the empty bowl of stew away as if he were pushing away the bizarre logic.

Elisheva then poured Abram a cup of goat's milk and slid it towards him. Abram looked at the cup as if it were a foreign
object, not to be trusted. Jewish law forbade the drinking of milk after a person had eaten meat.

Elisheva saw Abram's reaction. Softly, she told him, ‘My son, Jesus told us, His followers, that we need no longer obey the rules about food that are written in the Book of the Levi and the Book of Deuteronomy. Jesus, our teacher and master, told the Apostle Mark that we need no longer follow the old ways. We are free of the restrictions of the priests of the temple, now that there is no longer a temple. This is a new world, Abram. Yes, it is controlled by the Romans, but as we grow, we will ascend and we will sweep away the old and replace it with the gift of Jesus and His teachings.'

‘You'll fight the Romans,' Abram said in astonishment.

Elisheva smiled. ‘Dear boy, we Christians don't fight. We are a peaceable people. Our weapons are those of love and fellowship. This is what Jesus and His Apostles taught us.'

‘What's an apostle?' asked Abram.

She reached over again and held his arm. ‘Oh, Abram, we have so much to teach you.'

Abram wasn't sure he liked the sound of that and he stood up from the table without drinking the milk. But as he did, his head swam and his knees buckled, causing him to stumble backwards. He caught himself by grabbing at the shoulder of Elisheva, who had stood quickly to assist him. But then his stomach pitched and yawed and he doubled over to vomit all over the floor, his partially digested stew spilling out in a liquid pool at his feet.

Then Abram passed out.

Every day since then, with the seal tucked inside his shirt, Abram had felt compelled to be on his way, to fulfil the task he had been set, and find his way to Jerusalem. But for some time he was too weak and too ill to leave the home of Elisheva and her husband Abimelech.

They fed him and washed his clothes and gave him a corner of a room in their small house with straw for a bed. They were generous and kind but Abram did not trust them. It wasn't just the warning of the rabbi to ‘
trust no one until the seal is returned
', but something else about the people who were caring for him that made Abram ill at ease.

For two weeks, as Abram recovered, Abimelech, who was the Episcopus of the local community, told him stories about a man called ‘Jesus of Nazareth'.

Abimelech was a leather maker with a workshop next to the house. But he seemed to have endless time to spend with Abram and talk. And the young man learned many things about this Jesus, whom the whole village seemed to believe was the son of God. For his part, Abram asked many questions and felt gratified that in the answers he sought he was treated like an adult.

Back in his village of Peki'in, the rabbis had treated him with love and friendship but never respected the questions he asked. Instead, intent on exploring the depths of their own mysticism, they treated his questions with bemusement, telling him that when he was older, he would understand.

But Abimelech appreciated every enquiry and often took great pains to fully consider the question and his answer. The answers were none the less often difficult to comprehend and seemed to conform to a logic that the pragmatic Abram found hard to grasp.

Abimelech told Abram of the crucifixion of Jesus. It surprised the boy, who said, ‘But I thought that only slaves and traitors were crucified by the Romans.'

Abimelech smiled and nodded. ‘That's how much they hated the son of God . . . that they would treat him like the greatest threat to themselves.'

He then told Abram how the Jewish priests had tried Jesus for heresy and taken him before the Roman governor Pontius Pilate, who condemned him to death. And from death, Jesus had risen again from the grave.

But to the ever-cautious and pragmatic Abram, the idea that God letting his son die should somehow change the fortunes for the Jewish people and make their lot better seemed strangely unconvincing. He had been around the whole village during his recovery and saw nothing of a life of ease. The people were still afraid of the Romans and eked out a bare living with brutally hard work that would never see them emerge from poverty.

Surely, if God had sent a messiah he would be able to do more to help his chosen people than simply offering up a sacrifice that, as far as Abram could tell, hadn't achieved very much. But he said nothing of his doubts to Abimelech.

The couple who were caring for him seemed intent on his wellbeing but also equally intent upon him believing what they believed and this was a puzzling idea for Abram.

More confusing still was the anger that Abimelech felt toward the priests, the rabbis and even his fellow Jews. It seems he hated them more than the Romans. He even singled out the High Priest from whom Abram had retrieved the seal many weeks ago.

‘Tzadik bar Caiaphas hates us and has sworn to destroy us, to destroy all Jews who follow the teaching of Jesus of Nazareth. He says that we're Jewish heretics, no better than the Zealots, and that we should be convicted by the Sanhedrin. He says all of us should be put to death. Thank Jesus that there is no longer a Sanhedrin, no Jewish court. Tzadik has become powerless as more and more Jews leave this land of Israel because of the Romans to live in other places, and more and more Jews are converting to the new Judaism, the Judaism of Jesus of Nazareth.'

The more Abimelech spoke of Tzadik, the angrier he became until Abram asked cautiously, ‘You hate him?'

‘I do.'

‘But didn't you say Jesus teaches us to love our neighbour?'

Abimelech's eyes narrowed and he didn't answer the question. Abram noticed a sudden twinkle in Elisheva's eyes.