Take a Breath (Take 1) (19 page)

   “Steady there Ana.  Now why were you not interested in anyone?”  

 
  He starts the rhythm up again and by now my pussy must look like
it’s had ten rounds with Mike Tyson, red, swollen, waiting for his
cock.  “Do I have to spell it out?”  The sponge is there,
resting on my pulsating sex.  I try to wiggle myself closer to it
so I can get some release, but Jake pins me tighter to him. 
         “Where do you think you’re
going?  I want you to answer the question.”  

 
  He rubs a little then stops and rubs again then stops.  By
now I’m about to explode in agony.  “It was you, it was always
you.  Now are you happy?”  

    He pulls himself up to my ear and whispers “Yes,” before he lifts me and places me on top of his cock.  

 
  I scream out.  He grabs at my hips and pulls me up and down
and I try to regain my composure so I can take some control of the
situation and rock with him.  I finally manage it and I’m there
with him.

   “Ana, you have such a beautiful pussy, do you know that?  It’s so tight and warm and made for me.”  

 
  I moan and lean my head back against him as he cups and fondles
my breasts.  I can feel him kissing my neck and it’s that feeling
that eventually sends me into oblivion.  All these sensations with
his cock and my breasts and my neck, I can’t take it anymore.  I
scream out his name again. 

   “That’s right baby, come for me now.”  

 
  Again as with every time, I come apart as his command and the
orgasm explodes within me.  As if on cue with Jake, I can feel his
cock pulsating inside me also, as he grunts out and finds his own
release. 

I
rest my back on his chest and can feel the heavy rhythm of his beating
heart, as he tries to calm down from the beautiful onslaught of
sex.  I’ve never had it so good.  I close my eyes and I lay
there as our breathing calms.  I snuggle up to him and he strokes
my neck.  All the troubles of the day fade when I am with him and
I could stay like this with Jake forever.  He is my
forever.  

   “You know I won’t let anything happen to you don’t you Ana?”  

 
  I sigh and I realise I would give my life and soul to this
man.  “Yes, I know you would Jake.  I know.”  

   “And I shall speak to Tom about what you said.”  

 
  I shoot up and turn to face him, “No you won’t Jake, it doesn’t
matter does it?  He certainly knows I’m not now.  Besides,
he’ll know that I told you and I don’t want any bad air, I have to work
with the guy.” 

 
  He looks deeply into my eyes, “I just don’t like that people are
talking shit behind your back.  I hate people like that.  Tom
sometimes needs to be reined in.”  

 
  I lean over to kiss Jake lightly on the lips.  “I’m a big
girl Jake; I can take care of myself.  Don’t worry; Tom didn’t get
off lightly when he blurted that little gem out.”  

 
  He smiles, “I should hope not.  I knew that you didn’t have
anyone, not that I would have probably let you.  It sounds selfish
I know, but I think I would beat the living shit out of anyone who
touched you whether you’re mine or not.  That night you
disappeared and never came home I was frantic.  Your mother was
wondering why I was so worried about you considering you’re a grown
woman and can do what you please.  ‘Let her have her fun’ she
said.  I called around a few people and was eventually told you
left a bar with a guy.  I almost crushed the phone in my
hand.”  

    I look at him startled.  I knew he was pissed when I saw him the next day.  I remember it well. 

I
stumbled in the next morning and Jake and my mum were sat at the
kitchen isle.  Jake’s face was like thunder but my mum was smiling
from ear to ear.  

   “Have a good time did we?”  She said looking slightly amused.  

 
  I felt like shit.  I was hungover and angry at myself for
letting anything get as far as it did.  “I really can’t
remember.  I don’t feel very well.”  

    Jake looked panicked, “Where were you all night, are you hurt, who was you with?”  

    My head bangs as I look up at him, “I stayed round a friend’s house.  No biggie.”  

    He straightens his stance, “Who?”  

 
  My mum then decides to pipe in, “For goodness sake Jake, leave
the girl alone, she’s not 16, she can do what she likes.”  

    He stormed off at that point and we never spoke of it again. 

 
 “I found him you know.  I found out who you were with. 
I paid him a visit this John guy.  Told him that if he ever took
advantage of you like that again, I would make it so his life wasn’t
worth living.”  

 
  My jaw dropped.  I couldn’t believe he did that.  John
never said anything to me about this.  He was a little strange
with me at first but we did keep in touch.      He must
have seen my reaction, as he began to defend what he did, “Ana, you
were obviously drunk, how he could not have seen that is beyond
me.  Why on earth would a decent guy take someone that drunk back
home with them and take advantage of them like that? You must see the
logic in it?  Besides I fucking hated that someone else was lying
next you do, inside you.  I tried so hard not to hit the guy, as
that would have got me into trouble and it would have caused a shit
storm at work and at home.  I couldn’t let it be known how I
felt.”  

 
  Taking in his words, I finally managed to gather my
composure.  “Jake, my caveman, what am I going to do with
you?”  I should have been mad as hell at him but somehow I found
the whole thing rather amusing.  I smile at him and he relaxes at
my reaction.  I think he too thought I was going to
blow.  

   “Wow, of all the things to expect it wasn’t that.”  

 
  I place my hand on his chest and look at him, “Do you remember
what you got me to confess a little while ago under the Jake torture
chamber?”  He laughs and it is a lovely sound.  

   “Yes and it better stay that way as well.  You’re mine now Ana and you know it don’t you?”  

    I frown at him, “Well yes, but who do you belong to?”  

    He takes my hand and kisses it, “You have me my beautiful lady, I am yours.”  

    My knees tremble and I smile.  

 
 “Well, I think we have been in the bath long enough now, time for
bed but you stay here first whilst I get out and clean this mess
up.  I don’t want you slipping and hurting yourself.”  

 
  The Adonis rises from the water and I gasp.  What a sight,
I’m practically drooling over him.  Can he be any hotter?  I
smack his bum as he edges forward to get out.  I want to sink my
teeth into it, it’s so perky and so there for the biting. 

   “Hey, what did I say about who smacks who around here?”  

 
  I giggle, “I’m sorry Mr Bennett, I couldn’t help myself, it was
just too tempting not to.”  He gets out carefully and wraps a
towel around his hips.  I pout at the loss of the sight of
him.  

   “Ana, you’re not a child anymore, stop pouting.”  After his mocking he disappears.  

 
  I reach for the knob to turn off the Jacuzzi and set about
washing myself down.  I grab the sponge and soap and start to wash
everywhere.  

   “Fuck me what a sight to behold.”  

 
  I jump and Jake starts laughing.  I jump back on the water
and rinse off the soap whilst Jake mops the floor.  When he is
done he comes over with a towel.  I let the water go and jump up
ready to leave the bath.  I am helped out with the big strong arms
of Jake and he wraps the towel around me.  

   “You wouldn’t believe what time it was if I told you.”  

 
  I stumble a bit and manage to regain myself as I look at the
clock on the bedside in his room.  It reads 00.06hrs.
 “Jesus, we’ve been in the bath for over two hours?”  I can’t
believe how much time passes with Jake around. 

“Matthew will be back tomorrow.”  

 
  I look at him for a reaction.  I don’t know if he wants to
talk about this because of us.  I feel awkward.  “I know, I
guess this will have to be the last time I get to be in your bed for a
while.”  

 
  He looks deflated, “I don’t think I could do that.  It
would drive me crazy knowing you’re just across the hall and I can’t be
with you.”  

 
  I place my hand on his shoulder and sigh, “I think for Matthew’s
sake this is what we need to do, until we can figure something
out.  I don’t want it to be uncomfortable with Matthew.  We
get on so well and I don’t want anything to spoil that.”  He grabs
my hand and kisses it.  

 
 “I’m his father and you’re trying to be the sensible one.  I
think I may have to order you to sneak into my room every night, how
about that?”  

 
  I laugh and walk out of the bedroom, “Maybe you could convince
me.”  I turn round and give him a cheeky wink.  He runs
towards me and grabs me.  He growls in my ear and it makes me
breathless.  What is it that he does to me that makes me want him
so much?  

   “I’m sure I can,” he whispers in my ear, as he gently bites my earlobe.  

 
  I shudder and melt into his arms as he laughs.  He
obviously loves the way he makes me feel.  My body gives me away
every time.  He lets me go and grabs some boxer shorts to put on
and I watch in awe.  I snap out of it as he climbs into bed and
pats my side.  

   “Well Miss Sinclair, what are you waiting for?”  

 
  I quickly walk to the bathroom and towel myself down.  I
place the towel on the rail and walk back in the room.  I want him
to have free access to me all night, especially if this is the last
night we will be able to freely be together.  I climb in as
appreciative eyes watch my every move.  We both slide down into
the bed and soon we are spooning.  

   “You smell so good Ana, it's intoxicating.”  

 
  I bring his arms up that are interlocked with mine and nibble at
his knuckles.  “So do you Jake, so do you.”  We lay there for
a while each of our breathing becoming shallower, as we both fall into
a deep and wonderful sleep.

Chapter 17 

It’s
that smell again.  I want to vomit but nothing comes.  I
can’t move and it’s dark in here.  Where am I?  I can hear
heavy breathing and I try to open my eyes to see who it is.  My
only senses are my smell and my hearing and both are working
overtime.  I try to scream and nothing comes out.  What is
happening to me?  I try to move and I am pinned down.  Oh
god, please no.  Not again, please not this again.  I feel
the weight on top of me, feel the hardness pressed into my groin and I
cry out, ‘No, please don’t do this to me, please.  Please don’t
hurt me.”  I feel a hand squeezing my breast hard and a growling
noise from his whiskey infested throat.  I feel so sick, please, I
don’t want this.  I’d rather die.  I hear laughter and my
fear is heightened.  A hand moves to my mouth and another is
tugging at my panties.  I try to wriggle, try to scream, try to
kick, anything just to get him off me.  

 
 “You know you want me to do this Ana, you’re gagging for
it.  Always have.  Just accept me like the good little girl
you are.  You know you will love me fucking you.”  

    I scream out, “Nooooo,” as I wake up bolt upright screaming. 

 
 “Ana, Ana, it’s ok, you’re here with me.  Ana, it's Jake
please stop screaming you’re ok, you’re safe.  No one is going to
hurt you.”  

 
  I try to get my bearings and my breathing is harsh and
erratic.  I take deep breaths to try and calm down and the tears
are flowing.  Oh god, not again.  Not that dream again. 
Always the same.  When will he be gone and out of my head? 
Jake puts his arms around me and I sob.  I can’t help but get it
all out.  Twice in a row I’ve had this dream now and it's all
become too much to bare.  Is it really Alan doing all of
this?  I feel it’s him, but can’t see his face.  Is he that
sick he is killing girls that look like me?  Jake strokes the back
of my hair and we sit in silence for a moment.  Although I’ve
slept I felt exhausted and although I’m exhausted I don’t want to go
back to sleep, not if I’m going to have the same nightmare over and
over again like this.  It is then I realise that there is light
coming through the windows, so it must be morning already.  I turn
and look at the time.  It’s 10:30am.  Jake is staring at me
watching my reaction.  

 
 “I was downstairs getting some coffee.  I was going to bring
up some breakfast when I heard you screaming.  You gave me the
fright of my life.”  

 
  He strokes my arm and then wipes a tear from my eye. 
“Every time you’re not here in bed with me I have nightmares, so you
can’t ever leave me again when I sleep.”  

    He lets out a little laugh, “Well, I did say I wanted you in my bed, so that settles it then.”  

 
  I look into his startling green eyes and sigh, “We can’t do this
to Matthew, not so soon after, well, you know.”  I so want to be
with him deep down but I didn’t want to upset Matthew.