it was you. We used to laugh about it."
"I guess it stopped being funny."
Left with nothing to say to that, she stood there
and fumed in silence.
He continued in a calmer voice. "In any case, I
went away this weekend to reassess our relationship
--"
"Without even talking about it first? It never occurred
to you to invite me to go away and reassess it
with you?"
"I didn't see the point."
"So your mind was made up even before you went
to your precious cabin in the woods to reassess," she
said, hissing the word.
"No, Steffi. My mind was not made up. While I
was away, I looked at it from every angle and always
reached the same conclusion."
"That you wanted to dump me."
"Not--"
"Dump? What word would you use?"
"This is precisely the kind of scene I hoped to
avoid," he said, finally shouting over her. "Because I
knew you would argue. I knew you would beat it to
death as though you were in court pleading your case
to a jury. You would refute everything I said simply
for the sake of argument and not give an inch, because
with you every goddamn thing comes down to
a contest. Well, this isn't a competition, Steffi. And it
isn't a trial. It's our lives."
"Oh, God, spare me the melodrama."
He snuffled a short laugh. "That's just it. I need a
little melodrama. Our relationship is totally devoid of
melodrama. Melodrama is human. It's--"
"Hammond, what in the hell are you talking
about?"
"Everything in life can't be summed up in a brief.
All the answers aren't found in law books." Frustrated
with his own inability to explain, he swore beneath
his breath before making another stab at it.
"You're brilliant, but you never stop. The arguing, the
besting, they're constant. Incessant. There's no down
time with you."
"Forgive the pun, but I didn't know that being with
me had been such a trial for you."
"Look," he said curtly. "I'll spare you the melodrama
if you'll spare me the phony wounded-party
act. You're angry, but you're not hurt."
"Will you stop telling me what I am and what I am
not? You don't know what I'm feeling."
"I know it isn't love. You don't love me. Do you?
Given a choice right now, what would you take: Your
career? Or me?"
"What?" she cried. "I can't believe that you would
issue such a ridiculous and juvenile ultimatum.
'Given a choice'? What kind of sexist bullshit is that?
Why must I make a choice? You don't have to
choose. Why can't I have you and my career?"
"You can. But in order for it to work, it takes two
people who are willing to make a few sacrifices. Two
people who love each other very much and are dedicated
to the relationship and one another's happiness.
What we do together," he said, pointing upstairs toward
the bedroom, "isn't love. It's recreation."
"Well, we've gotten to be damn good at keeping
each other entertained."
"I don't deny that. But entertainment is all it ever
was, and it's pointless to suspect it was something
else." He paused to catch his breath. She continued to
stare at him stormily.
He moved to the table, picked up his beer, and
took a long drink. Finally he looked over at her.
"Don't pretend that you disagree. I know you agree."
"We get along so well."
"We did. We do. We had some great times. No
one's to blame for this. There's no right side or wrong
side. It's simply a matter of our wanting different futures."
She thought on that for a moment. "I made no secret
of what I wanted, Hammond. If I had wanted
hearth and home, I would have stayed in my hometown,
obeyed my father, and married immediately
after high school--if not before--and started having
babies like my sisters did. I would have spared myself
their scorn and his sermons. I wouldn't have
struggled to get where I am. I've still got a long way
to go to get where I want to be. From the beginning
you knew what my priorities were."
"I admire you for them."
"Correction. What my priorities are."
"I hope you surpass all the goals you've set for
yourself. I mean that sincerely. It's just that your personal
goals leave no room for anything else. They're
incompatible with the commitment I want from a life
partner."
"You really want a Holly Homemaker?"
"God, no," he said, laughing and shaking his head.
He stared into near space for a moment, then said,
"I'm not sure what I want."
"You're just sure you don't want me."
Again, he knew that she was more miffed than
hurt. Nevertheless, no woman liked being rejected.
He respected her enough to let her down gently. "It's
not you, Steffi. It's me. I want to be with someone
who's at least willing to compromise on a few
points."
"I never compromise."
Softly, he said, "You're slipping. You just made
my case for me."
"No, I gave you that one."
"Thanks, I'll take it."
Then they smiled at each other, because beyond
their physical attraction they had always admired one
another's shrewdness. She said, "You're very smart,
Hammond. I like smart and admire intellect. You
have a sharp wit. You're tough when toughness is
called for. You can even be mean when you have to
be, and mean really gets me off. You're indisputably
good-looking."
"Please. I'm blushing."
"Don't be coy. You know you set hearts aflutter
and jump-start hormones."
"Thank you."
"You're generous and thoughtful in bed, never
taking more than you give in return. In short, all the
things I desire in a man."
He placed his hand over his heart. "It would take
much longer for me to enumerate all the qualities that
I admire in you."
"I'm not fishing for compliments. I'll leave that
kind of feminine wiliness to the Davee Pettijohns of
the world."
He chuckled.
"What I am leading to is ..." She drew in a deep
breath. "I don't suppose you'd consider carrying on
as we have been until--"
He stopped her with a firm shake of his head. "That
wouldn't be good, or fair, for either of us."
"There's no option B?"
"I think a clean break would be best, don't you?"
She smiled sourly. "It's a little late to be soliciting
my opinion, Hammond. But yes, I suppose if that's
the way you feel, I don't want you sleeping with me
out of pity."
He gave a full-blown laugh then. "The very last
thing you are is an object of pity."
Placated, she said, "You'll miss me, you know."
"Very much."
Curling the tip of her tongue up to the center of her
upper lip, she opened her blouse. It didn't surprise
him that her nipples were tight and dark with arousal.
Steffi's biggest turn-on was an argument. Nothing
stimulated her better than a shouting match. Typically
their rowdiest sex had followed a confrontation of
one sort or another. He realized now that she had
guaranteed herself an ultimate win for every dispute.
His climax had always been her victory. That, if nothing
else, validated his decision.
She flashed him a mischievous grin. "One last
time? For old times' sake? Or are you too high-minded
and principled to fuck a woman you've just
dumped?"
"Not exactly a romantic lead-in, Steffi."
"So now you want melodrama and romance?
What's got into you, Hammond?"
He was tempted to take her up on her offer, not because
he had any desire for her, but because sleeping
with her might help blur the clear and sweetly painful
memory of last night. To have another woman now
might ease the weighty sense of loss.
While still considering it, his telephone rang.
Steffi laughed without humor as she closed her
blouse and rebuttoned it. "You lucky bastard. Fortune
just continues to smile on you, Hammond. You've
been saved by the bell." She turned on her heel and
went into the living room to retrieve her things.
Hammond reached for the telephone. "Hello?"
"It's Monroe."
Not that County Solicitor Monroe Mason needed
to identify himself. He knew only one pitch of voice,
and that was booming. The man's vocal cords
seemed to have come equipped with a built-in mega
phone. Hammond immediately adjusted the volume
on the telephone receiver.
"Hey, Monroe, what gives? I spend one night
away from Charleston and all hell breaks loose."
"So you've heard?"
"Steffi told me."
"I understand she's already in the thick of it."
Hammond glanced into the living room, where
Steffi was stepping into her shoes and tucking in her
blouse. Hammond put his back to the door and lowered
his voice. "She seems to think she's got the
case."
"Do you want her to have it?"
Hammond realized that his shirt was sticking to
his torso. When had he begun to sweat? He rubbed
his forehead, and discovered that it was damp, too.
There was a reason for this uncustomary perspiration:
He had met with Lute Pettijohn yesterday afternoon
in his suite at the Charles Towne Plaza.
Monroe Mason should know that. Now was the
time to tell him.
But why make an issue of it?
It didn't relate to Pettijohn's murder. Their meeting
had been brief. It had occurred before the estimated
time of death. Shortly before, but
nevertheless ...
He saw no reason to tell Mason about it, any more
than he had deemed it necessary to tell Steffi when
she broke the startling news of the homicide to him.
There was nothing to be gained by informing them of
this coincidence, and much to be lost.
Wiping his forehead on his shirtsleeve, he said, "7
want the case."
His mentor chuckled. "Well, you've got it, boy."
"Thank you."
"Don't thank me. You had it even before you
asked."
"I appreciate the vote of confidence."
"Stop sucking up, Hammond. I didn't make the
decision independently. You got the case because the
Widow Pettijohn has been calling me every hour on
the hour since about ten o'clock last night."
"What for?"
"She's requested--make that demanded--that you
be the one to put her husband's killer on trial."
"I'm grateful for her--"
"Cut the bullshit, Hammond. I can smell it a mile
off. Hell, I'm so goddamn old, I think I invented it.
Where was I?"
"The widow."
"Oh, yeah. Lute's dead, but it appears that Davee's
going to take over where he left off when it comes to
throwing weight around. She can make noise in this
county. So, to spare our office a lot of grief and bad
press, I agreed to assign you to the case."
This case would impact his career as no other case
could. A high-profile murder victim. Media saturation.
It had all the elements that cause ambitious prosecutors
to salivate. Of course, he would feel better if
Mason had assigned it to him without Davee's intervention,
but he wasn't going to dwell on a minor de
tail like that. No matter how it had come about, the
case was his.
He wanted it, needed it, and he was definitely the
man for the job. He had tried five murder cases before
and won convictions in all except one, when the
accused had plea-bargained. From the day he had
joined the prosecuting side of the law, he had been
preparing himself for a case of this magnitude. He
had the appetite for it, and he had the know-how to
come out the winner. The Lute Pettijohn murder trial
was going to catapult his career right where he
wanted it to go ... the County Solicitor's Office.
Since he already had the case, the confidence of
his superior, and the backing of the widow, he reconsidered
telling Mason about his meeting with Pettijohn.
He hated to go into a project of this caliber with
even the slightest disadvantage. A negligible ambiguity
like this could become critically damaging if discovered
later rather than sooner.
"Monroe?"
"Don't thank me, boy. You're in for a lot of sleepless
nights."
"I welcome the challenge. It's something else.
I..."
"What?"
Following the small hesitation, he said, "Nothing.
Nothing, Monroe. I can't wait to get started."
"Fine, fine," he said, then launched into his next
point. "You'll be working with Rory Smilow. Is that
gonna be a problem?"
"No."
"Liar."
"We don't have to swap spit. All I want is a guarantee
that he'll cooperate with our office."
"He drew first blood."
"What does that mean?"
"I got a call from Chief Crane this afternoon.
Smilow lobbied for Steffi Mundell to prosecute the
case. But I told Crane about the widow's preference."
"And?"
He chuckled. Monroe Mason thrived on politics