The Prague Orgy (7 page)

The waiter returns to take the order. Poached eggs for two— as pure a thing as life has to offer.

After my three cups of coffee, Olga orders me a Cuban cigar and, at 8:30 a.m. Central European Time, i, who smoke a cigar once every decade and afterwards always wonder why, oblige her and light up.

“
You must finish the cigar, Zuckerman. When freedom returns to Czechoslovakia, you will be made an honorary citizen for finishing that cigar. They will put a plaque outside this hotel about Zuckerman and his cigar.
”

“
I
’
ll finish the cigar,
”
I say, dropping my voice,
“
if you give me Sisovsky
’
s father
’
s stories. The stories in Yiddish that Sisovsky left behind. I met your husband in New York. He asked me to come here and get the stories.
”

“
Thai swine! That pig!
”

“
Olga, I didn
’
t want to spring it on you out of the blue, but I
’
ve been advised not to hang around this country much longer.
”

“
You met that monster in New York!
”

“
Yes.
”

“
And the aging
ingénue
? You have met her too? And did she tell you how much she suffers from all the men at her feet? Did he tell you how with her it is never boring love-making—with her it is always like rape! This is why you are here, not for Kafka but for
him
!”

“
Lower your voice. I
’
m taking those stories to America.
”

“
So he can make money out of his dead father—in New York? So he can buy jewelry for her now in New York too?
”

“
He wants to publish his father
’
s stories, in translation, in America.
”

“
What—out of love? Out of
devotion
?”

“
I don
’
t know.
”

“
I
know! I know! That
’
s why he left his mother, that
’
s why he left me, that
’
s why he left his child—because of all of this devoted love he has. Left us all for that whore they all rape. What
’
s
she
doing in New York? Still playing Nina in
The Seagull?
”

“
I wouldn
’
t think so.
”

“
Why not? She did here. Our leading Czech actress who ages but never grows up. Poor little star always in tears. And how much did he flatter you to make you believe that he was a man with love and devotion who cared only for the memory of his beloved father? How much did he flatter you about your books that you cannot see through what
both
of them are?
He
is why you come to Czechoslovakia—him? Because you took pity on two homeless Czechs? Take pity on
me.
I am at home,
and it is worse
’
”

“
I see that.
”

“
And of course he told you the story of his father
’
s death.
”

“
He did.
”

“‘
He shot my Jew, so I shot his.
’”

“
Yes.
”

“
Well, that is another lie. It happened to another writer, who didn
’
t even write in Yiddish. Who didn
’
t have a wife or have a child. Sisovsky
’
s father was killed in a bus accident. Sisovsky
’
s father hid in the bathroom of a Gentile friend, hid there through the war from the Nazis, and his friend brought him cigarettes and whores.
”

“
I find it hard believing that.
’
’

“
Of course—because it
’
s not as horrible a story! They all say their fathers were killed by the Nazis. By now even the sixteen-year-old girls know not to believe them. Only people like you, only a shallow, sentimental, American idiot Jew who thinks there is virtue in suffering!
”

“
You
’
ve got the wrong Jew—I think nothing of the sort. Let me have the manuscripts. What good do they do anybody here?
”

“
The good of not being there, doing good for him and that terrible actress! You cannot even
hear
her if you sit ten rows back. You could
never
hear her. She is a stinking actress who has ruined Chekhov for Prague for the last hundred years with all her stinking sensitive pauses, and now she will ruin Chekhov for New York. Nina? She should be playing Firs! He wants to live off of his father? The hell with him! Let him live off of his actress! If anybody can even hear her!
”

I wait for Hrobek on a long bench in the corridor outside the railway cafe. Either because the student has himself waited and lost hope and gone home or because he has been taken into custody or because he was not a student but a provocateur got up in a wispy chin beard and worn loden coat, he is nowhere to be seen.

On the chance that he has decided to wait inside rather than under the scrutiny of the plainclothes security agents patrolling the halls,
I
enter the cafe and look around: a big dingy room, a dirty, airless, oppressive place. Patched, fraying tablecloths set with mugs of beer, and clinging to the mugs, men with close-cropped hair wearing gray-black work clothes, swathed in cigarette smoke and saying little. Off the night shift somewhere, or maybe tanking up on their way
to
work. Their faces indicate that not everybody heard the president when he went on television for three hours to ask the people not to drink so much.

Two waiters in soiled white jackets attend the fifty or so tables, both of them elderly and in no hurry. Since half of the country, by Olga
’
s count, is employed in spying on the other half, chances are that one at least works for the police. (Am I getting drastically paranoid or am I getting the idea?) In German I order a cup of coffee.

The workmen at their beer remind me of Bolotka, a janitor in a museum now that he no longer runs his theater.
“
This,
”
Bolotka explains,
“
is the way we arrange things now. The menial work is done by the writers and the teachers and the construction engineers, and the construction is run by the drunks and the crooks. Half a million people have been fired from their jobs.
Everything
is run by the drunks and the crooks. They get along better with the Russians.
”
I
imagine Styron washing glasses in a Penn Station barroom, Susan Sontag wrapping buns at a Broadway bakery. Gore Vidal bicycling sa
l
amis to school lunchrooms in Queens—
I
look at the filthy floor and see myself sweeping it.

Someone stares at me from a nearby table while I continue sizing up the floor and with it the unforeseen consequences of art. I am remembering the actress Eva Kalinova and how they have used Anne Frank as a whip to drive her from the stage, how the ghost of the Jewish saint has returned to haunt her as a demon. Anne Frank as a curse and a stigma) No, there
’
s nothing that can
’
t be done to a book, no cause in which even the most innocent of all books cannot be enlisted, not only by
them,
but
by you and me. Had Eva Kalinova been
born
in New Jersey she
too would have wished that Anne Frank had never died as she did: but coming, like Anne Frank, from the wrong continent at
the wrong time, she could only wish that the Jewish girl and her
little diary had never even existed.

Mightier than the
sword?
This place is proof that a book isn
’
t
as mighty as the mind of its most benighted reader.

When I get up to go, the young workman who
’
d been staring
at me gets up and follows.

I board a trolley by the river, then jump off halfway to the
museum where Bolotka is expecting me to pay him a visit. On
foot, and with the help of a Prague map, I proceed to lose my
way but also to shake my escort. By the time I reach the museum
this seems to me a city that I
’
ve known all my life. The old-
time streetcars, the barren shops, the soot-blackened bridges,
the tunneled alleys and medieval streets, the people in a state of impervious heaviness, their faces shut down by solemnity, faces
that appear to be on strike against life—this is the city
I
imagined
during the war
’
s worst years, when, as a Hebrew-school student
of little more than nine. I went out after supper with my blue-
and-white collection can to solicit from the neighbors for the
Jewish National Fund. This is the city
I
imagined the Jews would
buy when they had accumulated enough money for a homeland.
I
knew about Palestine and the hearty Jewish teenagers there
reclaiming the desert and draining the swamps, but I also re
called, from our vague family chronicle, shadowy, cramped streets
where the innkeepers and distillery workers who were our Old
World forebears had dwelled apart, as strangers, from the no
torious Poles—and so, what I privately pictured the Jews able
to afford with the nickels and dimes I collected was a used city,
a broken city, a city so worn and grim that nobody else would
even put in a bid. It would go for a song, the owner delighted to be rid of it before it completely caved in. In this used city,
one would hear endless stories being told—on benches in the
park, in kitchens at night, while waiting your turn at the grocery
or over the clothesline in the yard, anxious tales of harassment
and flight, stories of fantastic endurance and pitiful collapse.
What was to betoken a Jewish homeland to an impressionable, emotional nine-year-o
l
d child, highly susceptible to the emblems
of pathos, was, first, the overpowering o
l
dness of the homes,
the centuries of deterioration that had made the property so cheap,
the leaky pipes and moldy walls and rotting timbers and smoking stoves and simmering cabbages souring the air of the semi
-
dark stairwells; second were the stories, all the telling and listening to be done, their infinite interest in their own existence, the fascination with their alarming plight, the mining and refining of
tons
of these stories—the national industry of the Jewish homeland, if not the sole means of production (if not the sole source of satisfaction), the construction of narrative out of the exertions of survival; third were the jokes—because beneath the ordeal of perpetual melancholia and the tremendous strain of just getting through, a joke is always lurking somewhere, a derisory portrait, a scathing crack, a joke which builds with subtle self-savaging to the uproarious punch line,
“
And this is what suffering does!
”
What you smell are centuries and what you hear are voices and what you see are Jews, wild with lament and rippling with amusement, their voices tremulous with rancor and vibrating with pain, a choral society proclaiming vehemently,
“
Do you believe it? Can you imagine it?
”
even as they affirm with every wizardry trick in the book, by a thousand acoustical fluctuations of tempo, tone, inflection, and pitch,
“
Yet this is exactly what happened!
”
That such things can happen—there
’
s the moral of the stories—that such things happen to me, to him, to her, to you, to us. That is the national anthem of the Jewish homeland. By all rights, when you hear someone there begin telling a story—when you see the Jewish faces mastering anxiety and feigning innocence and registering astonishment at their own fortitude—you ought to stand and put your hand to your heart.