Authors: Marita Conlon-McKenna
Over the next two days Maeve Dillon slipped further and further from them. They took it in turns to sit with her, as bit by bit she relaxed her grip on life, her lungs heavy, fighting for breath. Moya and Patrick had arrived with Fiona, Gavin and Danny. The three children were curious to meet their Aunt Romy and hear about her travels.
The nurses were discreet as each of them got a chance to be with her, peaceful and quiet, to say what they wanted to say. Fiona, a tall leggy version of her mother, hunched up her skinny knees and legs as she sat beside her grandmother telling her about the play she was doing in school, unembarrassed as she sang the song she performed: âScarborough Fair'. Patrick led in the two small boys, who pushed and shoved to get nearer their grandmother as they made their final farewells.
Molly had said little, only that this time she was going to read Granny a story before she fell asleep, half making up the words of âThe Gingerbread Man'.
Father Eamonn had read from his bible, anointed her with precious oils and sat simply holding her hand while Aunt Vonnie gently sponged her face with a wet facecloth.
In those final hours, the three of them decided to sit with their mother for the night. It was what she would have wanted.
âI know you're happy we're all here together,' said Kate slowly. Their mother appeared drowsy, drifting in and out of sleep, sometimes eyes open watching, other times eyes closed listening. âBack home.'
âLike when we were children.'
âYou're such a good mother,' smiled Moya, reaching for her hand, âloving us all.'
âPutting up with us! We're all so different.'
âMoya, the beauty! No matter what you put on you looked gorgeous and you got all the clothes and the shoes and the guys fancying you. While I was the sensible one, the clever one that got honours in her exams and nobody fancied.'
âAnd I was the wild one,' sighed Romy. âMaybe that's what made me crazy, who knows.'
âRomy, you don't know how many times I envied you, wished that I was brave enough or bold enough to take up a backpack and go off round the world, do something daring and different,' said Kate.
âAnd I wanted to be clever and bright like you, Kate,' confessed Moya. âI always felt I wasn't intelligent or interesting enough. That people only liked me for my style, my figure, my clothes.'
âMoya you are one of the nicest people I know,' admitted Kate. âThat's why Patrick fell in love with you all those years ago. You must know that!'
âAnd all I ever wanted was to be like the two of you,' said Romy, ruefully. âI looked like a stringy boy for most of my childhood and was a disaster at school and college! I guess being bold was my way of getting attention.'
âYou were such a tomboy when you were small, Romy. Daddy adored you.'
âTill Sean was born,' she said. âThat changed everything.'
âHe still loved you. But the consequences, one thing affects another,' said Kate.
âI blamed myself for not looking after him properly,' whispered Moya. âIt made me nervous when Danny was born.'
Silently they all considered the consequences of their childhood.
âThe thing is that despite all the differences, we're here,' insisted Kate, knowing that she had never felt closer to her sisters.
âTo think I wasn't going to come home,' sobbed Romy.
âBut you did. You've cared for Mammy. You're the one has been here every day with her. Romy, never forget that!'
Maeve Dillon's breathing had got heavier; her lungs sounded as if they were bags of water as she struggled to get air.
âMammy, don't be scared! We're all here with you.'
âTalking away. We're not going to leave you.'
They sat around, leaning across the bed, watching her, pulling the quilt over them as their mother's eyes closed and she slept, conscious a while later of the change in her breathing as almost with a single heaving sigh her life finally ended.
âIt's over,' Kate said, relieved that her mother was at peace and that the three of them had been together to witness her passing.
âShe's gone,' said Moya softly as Romy got off the
bed and walked across to the french windows. It was early morning, the sun barely up as she flung the doors open wide to the garden.
THE FUNERAL WAS
held in Rossmore's parish church. The pews were packed with family and friends and neighbours, the altar decorated with flowers from the garden. Father Glynn the parish priest co-celebrated the mass with Uncle Eamonn, who didn't trust himself not to break down when talking about his sister. Each of the grandchildren had carried up gifts to the altar, Molly bringing her picture of Granny's garden, Derry encouraging her when she got nervous.
Kate sighed. She didn't know what she would have done the past few days without him. He and Patrick had taken charge of all the arrangements, organizing the undertaker and the notices in the paper. Moya's children had cried and cried. Kate was relieved that Molly was too young to understand death and the concept of not seeing her granny again.
Standing outside in the churchyard Romy could not believe how many people welcomed her home when they came up to pay their respects. She was not surprised to discover her mother had been a much loved
and valued member of the local community. Her knees nearly buckled from under her when Brian O'Grady came forward to offer his condolences.
âI'm so sorry about your mother, Romy,' he said, taking her hand in his. âBut I'm glad to see you home. Perhaps we might meet up when this is all over.'
She'd nodded like an eejit, trying not to cry, and didn't know what to say. The electricity between them was still obvious and she wished she could be calm and composed like her sisters.
They had walked through the town to the graveyard where Uncle Eamonn led them in the prayers as her mother was finally laid to rest, then back to the Stone House for food and drinks.
It seemed strange to see the house filled with people and her mother not there to greet them. The gathering was subdued at first, but relaxed as drinks were served and people helped themselves to the buffet lunch they had helped Romy prepare.
For Molly it was a long day, and scooping her up in her arms like a monkey Kate held her while she talked to Uncle Pat and his wife, and her cousins who had travelled from Cork. Bill O'Hara and two others from the office came to say farewells before heading back to Dublin.
Those that had to travel began to head for home. Kate was relieved to get a chance to talk to Minnie before she left.
âWe're in no rush, so give me Molly,' pleaded her godmother. âI need to get a bit of practice.'
âPractice?'
âI'm getting one just like her,' beamed Minnie.
âWhat?'
âYes, I'm pregnant. Colm's thrilled to bits that he's going to be a dad.'
Kate looked over. Colm O'Halloran was the best thing that had ever happened to her friend. Quiet and thoughtful, he had calmed Minnie down. âI'm so glad for you both.' Kate hugged Minnie, passing her daughter over. Molly was already making a beeline for Minnie's fancy expensive Lulu Guinness handbag. Uncle Eamonn had aged, put on weight, and his hair was almost white. His sister's death had been a huge blow to him. Kate brought over a glass of wine and sat with him as they reminisced about her mother.
Two hours later only the family remained, Uncle Joe insisting Aunt Vonnie go home and put her feet up.
âShe's exhausted after the past few days. She and Maeve were so close I don't even know if it's hit her yet. She needs to sleep.'
âGo home, Vonnie,' pleaded Moya. âWe'll see you tomorrow.'
Kissing them all, their aunt and uncle made their departure.
After clearing away the dirty glasses and ashtrays they all sat around the kitchen table, Romy producing a huge lasagne and a tray of garlic bread. Everyone suddenly found they were hungry. Fiona and the boys tucked into the slices of creamy pasta and crunchy bread, complimenting their aunt on her prowess as a cook.
âI made it a few nights ago and put it in the freezer.'
âWhat's going to happen to Granny's house now?' asked Gavin.
No-one knew what to say.
âWe're not sure yet, pet,' replied his mother. âWe haven't discussed it.'
âWill we still be able to come here on holidays?' he pressed.
âA boy after my own heart,' murmured their uncle. âI've been coming almost every year since I was ordained.'
âIt depends,' interrupted Kate. âWe're presuming the house has been left between the three of us. If so, then we might decide to sell it.'
âProperty prices here are still buoyant,' added Patrick. âA house like this would be very much in demand. Once you had an approximate value it would be easy enough to calculate any taxes payable, and come out with a final figure after dividing it three ways.'
âPatrick, shut up!' retorted Moya. âThere's no point in calculating, because for the moment I have absolutely no intention of selling, unless Kate and Romy make me. Who knows, I might want to come back and live here myself some day!'
Patrick flushed, unsure of Moya's plans.
âI suppose I would have thought of selling,' admitted Kate, âbut now I'm not sure. With Mammy gone it's all we've left of her. It's like a bolt-hole, a place for me and Molly to escape to, but Romy, you might need the money or want to go back to America.'
Romy played with the salad on her plate, considering.
âThere's nothing that important for me to go back to,' she admitted honestly. âI guess everyone that's important to me right now is sitting around this table. I'd be happy to stay right here.'
âWould you move to Dublin?'
âI think I'm finally figuring it out.' She shrugged. âI'm a small-town girl. I like visiting cities but give me a place like here any day of the week.'
âYou could live here,' urged Moya. âMake and sell your jewellery and designs.'
âI've no plans, Moya, but I could be persuaded, so we'll just wait and see.'
Derry was sitting quiet, Molly beside him, her eyes closing.
âHey young lady, it's about time for bed.'
âCan I put her to bed?' pleaded Fiona, hopping up from the table. âPlease!'
Kate laughed. Her niece seemed to be very taken with her little cousin.
âCome on, Molly,' she coaxed. âI'm going to put you to bed.'
âDaddy and I will come up to kiss you later,' Kate promised.
âWe're going to play a game,' suggested Fiona, taking her hand. âYou're a baby and I'm . . .'
âI'm
not
a baby,' said Molly.
âOh all right then, you'll be a big girl.'
Kate laughed as she watched them go, helping Romy to clear the plates and pack the dishwasher as the boys said good-night also.
Derry slipped outside, Kate following him. It was a perfect night, and though she should be dead with exhaustion she was wide awake as they walked in the garden.
âI'll head back to Dublin in the morning, Kate, but
before I go I need to ask you something,' he said slowly.
Her heart dropped.
âYou know how precious Molly is to me,' he began.
âI know,' she said softly.
âWell the truth is there are only two women in my life that I love. One is three years old and the other is her . . .'
She took a breath. Why today of all days?
âAnd the other is you. I loved you from the minute you walked into Bushes bar and flung a pint over me, it's the truth. I wanted our few nights to last for ever but I just hadn't the guts to admit it. Being Molly's father is wonderful but it was never enough when it was you I was after.'
Kate stared at him incredulous. She had waited such a long time to hear him say it. âI love you,' he said, pulling her into his arms.
âYou have the worst timing ever,' she said, gulping back the tears, âthe crappest way of saying things.'
He wiped the tears from under her eyes with his thumbs.
âWill you marry me?' he asked.
âThe last time you asked me I had just given birth.'
âI know.'
âAnd now I've just buried my mother.'
âBirths, marriages and deaths. It does make you think, Kate.'
She sighed.
If he loves you, marry him, Kate! Her mother's words came back to her.
âI do love you,' he repeated. âAnd besides, I've got you a wedding present already.'
âYou what?'
Derry pulled a folded piece of drawing paper from his pocket. It was a sketch. A plan of a yacht.
âThey're building her up in Belfast. She's yours and should be ready to sail in about twelve weeks' time.'
âYou're mad!'
âI'm mad but . . .'
âYou're mad but I love you and I'm going to marry you!' she screamed, flinging herself at him, kissing him like crazy, knowing for sure and certain that Derry was the only man for her.
THE STONE HOUSE
began to empty as Moya and Patrick and the children packed up and returned to London, with promises to return during the coming school holidays.
âIt's so good to know the house will still be here for us,' confessed Moya, taking a last look around the tiled hall and wide stairway, âthough it won't be the same without Mammy.'
Kate and Derry had driven back to Dublin a few hours earlier. Romy had never seen her sister Kate so happy, making plans to marry Derry as soon as possible. Molly was all excited about being a flower girl at her parents' wedding.
Nervously Romy had asked her sisters if it was all right if she stayed on in Rossmore, to be told they were delighted to have someone in the house minding it for them all.
âI just couldn't imagine the place cold and empty,' shuddered Kate, hugging her. So now there was Uncle Eamonn, herself and the cat left.