Your Eyes in Stars (10 page)

T
HAT AFTERNOON MY
mother called up to us, “Jess? Elisa? The parade will be over! You’re going to miss Slater Carr’s solos! You heard Daddy at lunch, Jess—he’s very proud of that boy!”

Only Elisa could answer. “We will be down soon!”

My mother had no way of knowing that upstairs, under Slater Carr’s wanted poster, a drama was under way.

“Maybe this was the wrong time to tell you I am going home, but
Vater
announced it at lunch to my aunt,
Mutti
, and me. I go in January. I am still shaken,” Elisa said. I could see her hands trembling.

“There’s no right time for news that you’re going away,” I said. “When will you be back?”

“Soon.”

“A month? Two?”

“A month. Two.
Süsse
, you don’t know all that has happened before this day.”

“Whose fault is that? I thought we told each other everything.”

“I was too ashamed to tell you.”

“What would make you ashamed, Elisa?”

She sat beside me on my bed, atop the Bates bedspread. She held a hanky to her eyes.

“Remember the night we listened to Winchell and then I got the phone call?”

“Yes?”

“You asked me if it was my aunt, and I said it was. But it wasn’t.”

“Who was it?”

“Wolfgang. He called to tell me they had to rewrite a lot of
Anything Goes
since there was a shipwreck in it. Because of what happened to the
Morro Castle
, they had to cut that out. It would offend too many people. Then he said not to worry, though, because he could still go to Germany.”

“You never said he was going to Germany too.”

“That was the first I heard either one of us was going there! When he realized I knew nothing about a trip to Germany, he pretended only he was going to visit his grandfather. He said not to worry, he’d be right back.”

“I don’t understand. Get to what made you ashamed,” I said.

I could see our reflection in my bedroom mirror. What
a pair we were! We were dressed as escaped convicts, ankles shackled with leg irons. A month ago I had talked Daddy into getting two old uniforms from the prison basement, the kind with stripes and striped hats to match. At the Halloween parade Elisa and I planned to march in lockstep, the way prisoners were once required to do. Each man walked with arms locked under the man’s arms in front of him.

Elisa said, “I was right about Wolfgang paying a lot of attention to me at the party. His father had told him to make friends with me, as a favor to
Vater
.”

“Why?”

“Because
Vater
was planning to send
me
to Germany, to bring Omi back.
Vater
knew that as much as I love Omi, I would not want to go. Not even for a few weeks! I am tired of being yanked from schools to go to another place, and this time I did not want to leave because of our friendship.”

“I thought your mother was going over there to get her?”

“That was the plan. But
Mutti
hates it so here, my father was afraid she would get to Potsdam and not come back. Omi does not look forward to living here, either. But with
Mutti
still here, there would be a better chance of getting Omi to leave Germany.”

“And if Wolfgang Schwitter was traveling there too,” I
said, “you would not miss our friendship.”

“Please do not rub at it,” said Elisa.

“Rub it in,” I corrected her, and wished I hadn’t.

“
Vater
says all he did was see if Wolfgang planned to visit his grandfather, who is very old. But I know
Vater
talked Mr. Schwitter into sending Wolfgang at the same time I would go. January.
Vater
thought I would like to have a traveling companion.”

“Just you and Wolfgang will go?”

“Yes, that is the awful plan.”

We both were crying, but the more she talked, the more I wondered what she was really crying about. All right, we would be separated for a while, bad news for me, but she was obsessed with Wolfgang Schwitter. He was all she had been talking about for months.

“Elisa,” I said, “you like Wolfgang, don’t you? And aren’t you coming right back?”

She suddenly had fire in her eyes. “Wolfgang Schwitter has never paid any attention to me before! He never even called me up on the telephone to thank me for giving him Wurst! Remember at the church he forgot my name and called me Phyllis? I reminded him of that at their party. That was when he teased me by dedicating a song to Phyllis. Jessica, he flirted so with me!”

“Maybe he meant it.”

“He said that we were going to be a good team. You
see, he already knew then that I was going to Germany, and he would go then too to see his grandfather.”

“But the night of the party he didn’t try to date you, did he? Didn’t you think if he was so attracted to you, he would?”

“No. He was leaving for New York the next day. Before the
Morro Castle
shipwreck the musical would have opened a few weeks from today.”

I blew my nose and tried to ignore my mother calling again from downstairs.

I said, “Elisa, I doubt that Wolfgang needed much persuading. You are not like anyone else in Cayuta. You are beautiful, and you are sophisticated.”

“I had no friends until you,” she said. “I told you I have trouble making friends. And I am
not
beautiful! With my short fingers and arms? You just like me, the same as I like you. You think because I know a few languages that makes me sophisticated? You are naïve,
Süsse
. You saw Wolfgang at the film night. All he cared about was buying the pin Omi gave me. He did not look at me two times after that conversation.”

I couldn’t think of anything to say to make her feel better. It was just beginning to sink in that she was leaving.

“This is all a maneuver of my father’s!” Elisa said. “I am humiliated and ashamed to believe Wolfgang was captured
by me. I want nothing to do with anyone forced to like me. I have become suddenly a laughing spot!”

Stock, I said to myself silently.

“Elisa,” I said, “you have no reason to be ashamed.”

“I have every reason to be ashamed, and I wish I wasn’t going.
Vater
knew I would not want to go, not even with Wolfgang to sweeten the journey. Deep in his heart he knew how happy I had become here. That’s why
Vater
waited as long as he could to tell me.”

“Do you
have
to go?” I said. “Is it an order?”

“Yes, I have to go. That doesn’t mean I have to pay any attention to Wolfgang Schwitter! I won’t! I will not!”

“Isn’t Adolf Hitler supposed to be dangerous?”

“Only if you are Jewish. That’s what
Grossmutter
says. Omi says he is good for Germany! She says he is for Germany what Roosevelt is for America!”

“Oh, I hate you to go, Elisa.”

It was at that moment the prison sirens rang, louder than the whistle and more persistently. The sirens never rang unless there was a dire emergency.

Running down the stairs, we collided with my mother at the bottom step.

“What are you girls, crazy? Dressing up like that! Are you out of your minds?”

“Why is the prison siren sounding, Mother?” I asked. “Someone couldn’t have escaped!”

“No! Someone couldn’t have! That is an escape-proof prison now,” said my mother. “We haven’t had anyone break out up there since your father and I came here!”

The sirens persisted.

Elisa clapped her hands together. “What if it is him?”

“Who?” Mother asked.

“Him. Slater!”

“Elisa, he wouldn’t be in the prison with the parade in progress,” said my mother. “He’d be downtown.”

“Loose,” I said.

W
HAT WAS
M
R
. Joy doing? After Slater shoved the jacket of the Blues uniform into a trash can, he watched Joy mail a letter at the corner postbox.

That was news. He hadn’t expected him to be home. He was surprised too when Mr. Joy walked to the garage instead of going into the house. Wasn’t it late to be going to the parade? Would he have to wrestle him for the Buick?

Slater waited a moment before he followed him into the garage. Inside there was a small radio playing on a table beside an old leather chair with the springs popping.

Mr. Joy did not hear Slater behind him. Slater knew the song playing. “Blue Moon.” It was a sad song he had heard over the portable radio the warden had given him, to learn new songs for The Blues’ performances. It was about standing alone without a dream in your heart, without a love of your own. Without a car, too, Slater thought ironically. Where was the Buick? And
what was Mr. Joy, of all people, doing with two guns?

Never mind. Slater could use one of them. He waited while Mr. Joy sat down in the chair. Then he crept toward him and quickly got him in a headlock with his arm, saying, “Don’t move! Just don’t move, Mr. Joy!”

“Who’re you?” Joy grunted.

“The big bad wolf. How much money do you have?”

At first Slater thought Joy was choking, but he was laughing.

Slater said, “Don’t laugh if you want to live. Tell me how much money you can get your hands on!”

“What if I don’t want to live?” Joy managed to say.

Slater loosened his hold on the man slightly. “All the more reason to give me your money,” he told him.

“Where have I heard your voice before? I know your voice.”

“Don’t waste my time! I want money!”

“I’m in the process of declaring bankruptcy,” Joy said.

“How much loose money do you have?” Slater asked him.

“In my wallet there’s about twenty dollars. You’ve worked around here, haven’t you?”

“Don’t try to look back. Hand over the wallet.”

“I know you. You cut my lawn last week. You’re the Bugle Boy.”

While Mr. Joy reached behind to his back trousers
pocket, Slater lunged for the pistol. Joy reached up and caught the gun’s nose and the gun’s trigger, and there was the punch of a shot firing. While Joy’s body took the shock, his foot knocked the shotgun to the floor, and there was another explosion.

“What did you do?” Slater shouted.

He saw that somehow Joy had shot himself. Joy slumped over and fell to the garage floor. Then Slater saw blood soaking through the yellow sweater he was wearing, the sweater he had swiped from the warden’s back porch when he was doing away work there. He had always known he would wear it one day when he found a way out. He had put it on that morning under his Blues uniform.

Slater grabbed the towel Mr. Joy had been using to clean his guns. He wrapped it tightly around himself where the shotgun shot had blasted open his arm down to his elbow.

He had no choice but to leave Joy lying in his own blood on the garage floor near the shotgun and the pistol. Joy’s eyes were glazed over like the eyes of a fish at the end of a hook. He was clearly dead.

Slater never would have killed the man. He had actually liked him. Sometimes Joy would come out and work alongside him, weed, paint the trim, whatever he could do to keep himself busy. He hadn’t shown the kind of interest in Slater the warden had; he didn’t really give a damn for him, though he was probably grateful the boss had sent Slater
there some days to help out. But Joy would bring him a cold Coke on a hot afternoon, or a PopSicle from the icebox.

Why hadn’t the man just let Slater have the gun?

Why the struggle?

Slater went inside the house, where he had never been. He easily found the phone on the parlor table. The operator took a few moments to get him the number he wanted. It was beginning to get dark out.

“Sir?”

“Who is this?” Slater asked.

“It’s the operator, sir.”

“Where’s my party?”

“Sir? This is hard for me.”

“Who are you?”

“My name is Marlene Hellman, sir. I shouldn’t even tell a customer my name, but under the circumstances—sir?”

“What? Where’s my party?” He was shouting. He would not have any blood left soon. It was running from the towel down his hand, his arms, on his pants, his shoes, on the rug.

“I am sorry to tell you, sir, that your party is deceased.”

“No!”

“Yes, sir.”

“No! No!”

“I am sorry to say yes, she is deceased, sir. I am sorry.”

He hung up and stood there for a few seconds.

Where would the money be hidden in this house, jewelry, anything of value?

Upstairs, he thought. That was where people kept things, hid things.

He saw the winding staircase and took the steps by twos. He was winded and, he realized suddenly, very weak. At the top of the stairs was a huge master bedroom. He headed in there, his heart racing. His back began to ache suddenly, sharp, hard pains, and his gut. Then he had no feeling below his waist.

He fell across the bed.

Although he had never called her Purr to her face, he whispered to himself: “Purr, how could you be dead?”

He lay on his back, on the double bed, tears suddenly filling his eyes and streaming down his face.

She had always been there for him, even after he had gone to prison. The only mail he had ever received had been from her. She had been the only one who had ever loved him.

All he had wanted to do was see her one more time, play with The Georgia Peaches one more time, play “Lord, I’m Coming Home”…with feeling.

That was the instant the prison sirens began to wail.