Baby (Black Rebel Riders' MC) (22 page)

If it weren't for him, I wouldn't be in this mess. If he had just left me alone, I might not have gotten pregnant. Trouble and I might have found our way to each other naturally and we might be together now. But there is no use in dwelling on things I can't change. I can only move forward and try to go on living for Colt. Trouble would want that. He wouldn't want to see me so depressed.

Foxie comes knocking on the door, if I thought she wouldn't find me completely odd I wouldn't allow her in to see him. The thought that she might see some of her son in his features terrifies me to no end. Everything leading up to this and Trouble dying would mean nothing if the truth came out. Not that I wouldn't shout it from the rooftops if it would give me back Trouble. 

Hell it isn't like Striker cares, we haven't spoken to each other since Trouble died. Not that I have given him the opportunity to get close enough to me. I avoid him at all cost.

**

I have been home from the hospital for a few weeks now and I now know what Sunshine meant about thinking things through. Since I have been home with Colt, I have not been able to put the little guy down. LL has come over with her kids, she just had her and Romeo's third child about two months ago, a daughter named Miracle.  A part of me thinks she is secretly here to make sure that Colt looks nothing like her kids. I know Romeo said she never found out and he and I have kept our distance from one another, but I can't help but wonder as LL studies his face.

"I think he is going to have your eyes Baby" she smiles and places him in the crib next to Miracle. Dawn and Jamie come running through the trailer asking if they can walk over to the Roadhouse for pizza.

"Will you take them Baby, I swear my feet are killing me, I'd almost give my left arm for a nap."  Both of the babies are sleeping and LL looks exhausted, so I give in and let her take a nap in the recliner in the nursery—Rumor's former room. Her and Rebel live in Slim and Foxie's old trailer the one I was sharing with Trouble.

It's
midday on Sunday so I know there won't be any activity that isn't kid friendly going on at the Roadhouse.  Everyone is probably hung-over, and Rumor is working in the kitchen today. I get the kids settled at a table the place is dead other than a few stragglers trying to cure their hangover with the hair of the dog. Rumor joins me at the bar while the food is baking in the oven. 

"Where's my adorable little nephew?"

"Home sleeping and he is not setting foot in this place until I am dead and gone."

"Yeah right," she snorts. "I seem to recall it wasn't that long ago that you were in here underage and up to no good."

"Who me," I question her pretending to glance around the room, like she can't possibly be referring to me. She smacks my arm and goes back into the kitchen to check on the food. I am getting hungry; pizza is starting to sound pretty damn good.

The hairs on the back of my neck stand up and I can feel him standing beside of me, but I am choosing not to acknowledge him–Striker. "Baby," he lays his hand over mine on the bar. Oh hell no, I try to keep my temper in check because I don't want to blow up at him in front of Dawn and Jamie.

I look at him menacingly from the corner of my eye and shit is he actually sober? I think he is. His hair has been cut, he has shaved and he smells like he has showered. "I want to see him."

"Who," I look at him as though I am clueless as to whom he is, when I know deep down he wants to see Colt. This is not good.

"You know who," he swallows hard, not sure if he is prepared to fight me on this quite yet or not.

"I would choose the next sentence that comes out of your mouth carefully." I stand from my stool and turn on my heel to walk away.

Striker grabs a hold of my wrist, I could break free he isn't digging into my skin or anything. I did not expect his touch to effect me at all, but it makes my chest constrict and I feel fevered under his touch.  "I deserve to see him," he looks at me with a sad far-off gaze and I can see that he is sincere but he doesn't get to tell me what he deserves.

"Don't get me started with what you deserve," I snap at him keeping my voice level so I don't alert anyone to our conversation.

"I don't expect anything Baby; I just want to see him once that's all."

"We'll see." He lets go of my arm just as Rumor brings out the kids' food.

"Everything okay here?" She senses the tension between us.

"
Great, but I think we will just take this back over to the house instead."

"Sure," she smiles weakly and takes the food back to the kitchen.

"Awe man, I wanted to play pool." Jamie pouts.

"You don't have to leave on my account, I'll go." Striker almost breaks me with the pain he is trying to mask with his fake smile, but he deserves to be sad. To ache like I have, to feel broken beyond repair.

"Nope, we're going, I'll call you and let you know a good time to stop by."

"Thank you," he whispers sounding grateful.
Yeah remember you told me you'd call me, let's see how you like to be the one left waiting for a call that never comes.

LL and the kids take off after devouring their pizza but not before making me promise to schedule play dates for Miracle and Colt in the future. After Colt finishes his bottle and falls back to sleep, I decide momma is need of a long hot bath. I take Trouble's Ipod into the bathroom and hit shuffle. 'I'm gonna' keep on lovin' you', plays and a tear slides down my face, because this song rings true for me on so many levels.

Colt is crying for another bottle and I want to cry too because I have no idea what in the hell I am going to do. I wasn't counting on this turn of events. I was not counting on Striker...

To be continued...

Releasing late 2014/early 2015

Striker

Book 4 Black Rebel Riders' MC

**Subject to change**

Have you ever made a choice that changed everything? A decision that set off a chain of events that you could not control. Have you ever been torn between wishing to go back and change one night if it could repair all of the lives you ruined or being glad that it happened because it brought you, the most precious gift life had to offer?

As long as I can remember, I have sworn to protect her, to give her everything she ever needed. I waited so long for her to put her faith in me to trust in me to cherish her and I failed her. Letting down the one person who mattered most to me broke me, letting her go about nearly killed me. I have traveled many roads, but riding the road to winning her heart is proving to be my greatest journey yet... My name is Striker Black and this is my story...

"Nothing brings me so much pain and pleasure, like her mouth."

The Diary Of Gypsy Red

A Black Rebel Riders' MC companion

novella

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A woman's heart holds an ocean of secrets; I suppose I can tell you some of mine...

Gypsy Red left behind many unanswered questions. Who was she? Where did she come from?  Whom did she truly love, if anyone? All of the answers you seek, the secrets she kept—the enigma of who she was will all be revealed in The Diary of Gypsy Red.

Glenna Maynard is the author of the bestselling romantic suspense novel I’m with You and the bestselling erotica Grim The beginning. A mother by day and writer by night, when Glenna isn't writing or spending time with family you can usually find her curled up reading a great book. She has a passion for romance and paranormal reads.

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