Baggage & Buttons (38 page)

‘Sleep tight Gabe, I love you,’ I whispered.

There was no answer, he was already out for the count,
I lifted his hand and kissed his fingers and closed my eyes. My dad may hurt me
by not making me a priority in his life, but Gabe made me feel like I was the
most important thing in his and it meant everything.

I woke him up at 1 a.m. surprising him with a quick
blow job and we fell asleep again, with me clinging tightly to him.

Thursday

I felt the phone vibrating under my pillow and
silenced it and rolled over to look at Gabe, who was on his back with an arm
across his face. I carefully sat up and pulled the duvet back and just looked
at him naked, asleep in my bed and shook my head in amazement. I was still
stunned that someone this gorgeous was in my bed nearly every night. I lightly
ran my finger down his stomach and realised he actually had an eight pack, not
a six pack, which was even hotter, he was in seriously sensational shape. I
watched intrigued as he started to respond to my touch, even though he was
still asleep. I was trying to recall if I’d ever seen him properly soft before,
but by the time I’d decided no, he’d already swelled into the solid large
erection that I was used to seeing. I suddenly giggled, hoping Lexi wasn’t
hiding under the bed with her ruler.

Gabe’s thighs were parted and I carefully moved down
the bed and climbed over to kneel between his legs. I pulled my long hair back,
knotting it into a pony tail and leaned forward and ran my tongue up his thick shaft.
A low moan escaped his lips and his hips moved upwards, of their own accord. I
repeated the motion as I let my fingers gently run over his smooth balls and
this time he started to stir and moan a bit louder. I gripped the base of him
and took him as far as I could into my mouth and watched as he groaned, took
his arm off his face and propped himself up on his elbows to look at me through
sleepy eyes.

‘God Mia, woken up twice with a blow job, what are you
trying to do to me?’

I smiled as well as I could, given my mouth was so full
of him and he reached down with his left hand and ran it lightly down my pony
tail, hanging over my shoulder. I watched him put his head back as I continued
to move up and down his shaft with my hand and lips, and flicked my tongue over
his tip as I reached the top and began my descent again.

‘
Mia
,’ he moaned. I used my other fingers to
lightly stroke his balls and perineum and he began to thrust his hips. ‘O baby
don’t stop, keep doing what you’re doing.’

He looked back down into my eyes and I could see from
the fire in them that he was totally awake now, the look made me moan. I loved
seeing him like this, totally in my control and just desperate to come, desperate
to feel that sweet release. I sped up my assault on him and watched as his eyes
closed to almost shut, his chest heaving as his breathing got quicker and
quicker. He started to groan with every descent I made and I felt his balls
tighten and watched as his stomach sucked in and I knew he was on the verge of
coming before he even said it.

‘God Mia, I’m going to come, you’re so good, I … o fuck
I …’ his hips thrust up as his body started to shake. ‘I ... I love you,’ he
yelled as I felt his thick hot load hit the roof of my mouth. He stayed hard in
my mouth as I continued to swallow, where the hell did it all come from? Lexi
was right, it wasn’t the most pleasant of tastes when it lingered on your
tongue, but I didn’t actually care. I was the one putting that look of sheer
bliss and happiness on his face. I lifted myself off him and lay kisses along
his stomach and up his chest and he reached out to guide me up with his hands.
I lay into his side, my head on his shoulder as his arm caressed my back and
the other reached across to run his fingers over my lips and I kissed them as
they brushed past.

‘You’re so amazing, I promise to make it up to you,’
he whispered.

‘I know you will, but I like making you come Gabe, you
look so happy.’

‘So do you, that’s why I love doing it to you. Would
you like me to now?’

‘God so much,’ I sighed. Pleasuring him the last three
times had let me with a deep gnawing longing for him. ‘But if you want a shower
and breakfast you don’t have time.’ I kissed his chest.

‘I don’t want to leave you Mia, I can say I’m sick and
not go,’ he groaned, this time it was with frustration not pleasure. I sat up
quickly and gave him a look.

‘Gabe don’t you
dare
. Much as I’d love you to
stay for me, you promised, we promised that we’d still do the things we loved.
You can’t quit just like that and we can’t spend every waking hour together.
It’s two days, surely we can make it through two days?’

‘I barely made it through one night without you this
week,’ he said with a sulky pout.

‘Well you’re going to have to suck it up and do it.
Plus it’ll do you good to spend some alone time with Doug, he must miss you.
Now get that delicious arse of yours into that shower. I’ve mastered the art of
scrambled eggs and I’m going to make you breakfast in bed, so move it.’

‘You’re so sexy when you’re in control. Lots of eggs
for me please.’ He sat up, kissed me and jumped out of bed and walked to the
bathroom. I pulled on my long t-shirt and went to the kitchen and washed my
hands then knocked on Lexi’s door.

‘Lex, it’s half eight and we need to leave in just
under an hour. Do you want me to make you some scrambled eggs again?’ I called
through her door.

‘No thanks I feel really sick this morning. Can I just
have a coffee?’

‘Sure, coming up. I’ll bring it to you.’

I made the three of us a coffee and put the butter to
melt in the pan while I took our coffees to my room and put one on each bedside
table and then went and took Lexi’s into her, she was sitting up in bed.

‘Here you go.’

‘I’m not even going to ask what you did to him this
morning, I was woken up to hear him shouting “
I love you”
like his world
was ending. You ought to record him as your ring tone.’

‘Sorry Lex, can’t have him going off for two nights
totally unfulfilled can I? Just call me B.J. Wan Kenobi,’ I grinned.

‘You learned well my young padawan. Swallow or spit?’

‘Swallow of course and quickly, you were right it’s
damn salty.’

‘You know that’s why I don’t like to swim in the sea.’

‘Because I swallow when Gabe comes?’ I looked at her
frowning, confused.

‘No, because I heard blue whales ejaculate over 400
gallons of sperm each time, that’s probably why the sea’s salty right? I mean
who’d want to swim in that? Let’s face it, if some guy tossed off in the local
pool no one would get in would they? There’d be a national outcry.’

‘Lexi,’ I laughed, wondering where she got these ideas
from. ‘You have way too much time on your hands if you’re looking up whale
sperm facts, your time would be better spent studying. I’ve got to go, I’m
cooking him breakfast.’

I closed her door behind me and went back in to find
the butter sizzling, so quickly cracked four eggs and put two pieces of toast
in for him. I plated up, put it on a tray and went back into my room to find
him sitting up on the bed, on top of his towel sipping his coffee, with yet
another erection that made me clench at the thought of where it would hopefully
be going in a few days.

‘Cover him up quickly, before I change my mind and
call in sick for you,’ I said. He grinned and pulled the towel over his
privates, adjusting himself before I put the tray on his lap.

‘Wow, these actually look pretty decent.’

‘I did four eggs, as you said you need lots of protein.’

‘I don’t think even four will replace what I’ve
expelled with you last night and this morning. Hmmm you did well, these are
really good,’ he nodded as he ate. ‘Aren’t you having any?’

‘No, I feel a bit sick worrying about Lexi’s
appointment this morning,’ I said as I sat on the bed and picked up my coffee.

‘God, it can’t be an easy thing to do. I wish I could
be here for you both.’

‘Thanks. Can I ring you later?’

‘Ummmm,’ he nodded as he swallowed another mouthful.
‘Though I reckon after travelling and eating, it’ll be ten by the time we get
to our room. I’ll ring you.’

‘No it’s ok, I’ll ring you. Any cut off time?’ I was
dreading him asking what I was up to.

‘I probably won’t be able to sleep again, so you’re
fine up until midnight at least.’

‘It’ll be before then. So what about my bangle?’ I
smiled, pleased to have got away without disclosing where I was going and with
who. He’d definitely cancel his trip with that knowledge.

‘Shit, I need to pick it up on my way in this morning.
I need to move.’ He gulped down the rest of his breakfast and coffee and swung
out of bed and pulled on some clean boxers and his jeans. I picked up his tray
and took his plate and mug back to the kitchen and held onto the sink and shut
my eyes. I so wanted to beg him to stay with me and not go, but I knew I couldn’t.
When did I become this desperate and needy for a guy? I went and waited by the
front door and watched as he came out with his bag.

‘Got everything you need?’

‘Yes thanks, will you leave English to say goodbye to
me?’ he asked as he stroked the side of my face.

‘Try and stop me.’ I stood on tiptoes and kissed him
and felt his arms go around me and one hand reach under my t-shirt to grip my
bottom.

‘Fuck,’ he uttered as he put me down and picked up his
bag. ‘See you later.’

I had to close the door. I couldn’t face seeing him
walk down the stairs, I felt all emotional, like I was going to cry again. I
decided being in love sometimes definitely sucked. I shook it off and went and
got myself dressed. I tried on my black skinny jeans and they felt ok, so I
pulled on my timberland boots and put on my bra and my grey and black jumper
and some mascara.

‘Lex are you up and out of bed, we need to leave soon.’
I yelled.

‘Yes just getting dressed.’

I decided to pack my gym bag ready for later and put
in my lycra shorts and sports bra and red cropped sleeveless top and my
trainers. Remembering that I’d be heading straight out from the gym I threw in
a towel, toiletries, makeup and a change of clothes and made sure I’d plenty of
cash in my purse. Lexi came in dressed in her ripped jeans and a black slouch
jumper and her black biker boots.

‘Ok let’s go,’ I said as I grabbed my phone and purse
and shoved them in my jeans pockets.

We’d been walking for about twenty minutes when my
phone rang and I answered it as we walked, to find out that my STI test was
clear which was a relief.

‘Ok?’ asked Lexi.

‘Yes, sorry clinic saying my throat swab was clear.’

‘Bodes well for his results. You still on?’

‘Yes, but I think it’s a shorter one this month, after
loads of clots and bleeding there was hardly anything this morning. God I need
it to be over, I need sex again Lexi, so badly.’

‘Tell me about it,’ she sighed.

‘Are you really feeling ok about this appointment?
It’s not too late to change your mind.’

‘And do what? Keep it?’

‘If you wanted to yes, or I’m sure there are lots of
people out there desperate to adopt.’

‘Are you saying you think I’m making a mistake?’ she
asked, looking at me concerned.

‘I’m not saying anything Lex. It’s got to be your decision
and whatever feels right for you, don’t let anyone else influence you, not even
me. I just want you to know that I’ll be here for you whatever you decide to do
and that if you did want to change your mind it’s not too late, I’ll help you
either way.’

‘I know,’ she sighed. ‘Thank you. You know I always
believed people having abortions were selfish and it was a horrible thing to
do, but now I’m pregnant … I guess I just see it differently now I’m in this
situation. I’m not sure I could go through with a pregnancy, give birth and
then hand a baby,
my
baby, over to someone else. Then what would I do if
I had it and found I couldn’t give it up? I’m stuck with it and everything
changes and I’m not sure I’m ready for that either.’

‘I know it’s not going to be easy whatever you do Lex,
I just want you to be clear that I won’t be judgemental or critical whatever
decision you make ok? Just be sure it’s what
you
want. Listen today and
get as much advice as possible, you can still change your mind on the day even
if you decide to have it done.’

‘Thanks, you’re the best,’ she smiled and grabbed my
hand squeezing it tightly. ‘Ok according to my phone we should be nearly there.’

‘Well this is pretty much where Gabe and I came on
Tuesday for the tests.’

‘What’s the betting they’re part of the same building?
STI’s and unwanted pregnancies, sort of goes hand in hand.’ She was right, the
abortion clinic was the next door down to the GUM one. We stood outside for a
while, staring at the door and I felt my stomach churning for her, trying to
imagine what was going through her mind and squeezed her hand back. ‘Right
let’s do this,’ she said with a deep exhalation and we walked in.

She was called in straight away and jerked her head for
me to follow her. I listened carefully as the lady doctor asked why Lexi’d
arrived at this decision and then ran through the different types of abortion
available to her. I reached over to hold her hand again as she looked slightly baffled
at all the options. She agreed to undergo a scan and some STI & blood tests,
which I couldn’t accompany her for.