Bittersweet Fate (2 page)

Today is the day I try to sort out my future and see if California holds it. I jump out of bed after one of the best sleeps I've ever had I really must have been jet lagged, I take a quick shower and head to my cloths I decide to dress comfortable as I'm going to be doing a lot of touring around today I choose a simple pair of short shorts and a crop top and my white ankle converse, for makeup witch I don't ware I just use a bit of mascara and some natural lip liner my signature look. My long dirty blonde hair is to my waist and it falls perfectly into waves to complete my yet simple but stylish look I add my favorite handbag and purse. After I lock up I leave my key into the front desk just in case I lost it, I walk out into blasting heat damn lucky I wore shorts I thought to myself. I take a stroll down the street next my my hotel just to get used to the street I'm practically living in my hotel Which is based on California beach, so I'm in the middle of everything which is so handy for me as it will save time and money. I decide to walk right which leads to all the local shops etc., I walk past some shops amazed the American culture is so much different to the Irish. I find a quite enough coffee shop and decide to grab a vanilla latte my weakness and I take a seat outside in the sun. While I flip through the local map even the time zones are so different I mean its 11am here at back home it is 4pm it's crazy if you actually think about it 5 hours in the difference. As I read threw the map I find the nearest university that appeals to me .I decide on California university how cliché huh. It only takes around 15 minutes to walk to so it's not the far from my hotel I thought to myself. I pack up my things to start on my little adventure to see if I even make it too the university! But I’m put on hold as I fall flat on my ass "did you just do that?" I practically yell looking into these big ass sunglasses. he bends down to help my up as he speaks in the most husky smooth delicious voice I've ever heard "I'm so sorry I'm trying to get away from everyone " confused by his answer I ask "um okay, but who are u trying to get away from? He blows out a heavy breathe like he's stressed "just people I got to sketch see ya around blue" he says it looking at me like I'm a firkin alien. "Blue???I tell after him “he smiles as he Jumps into a range rover "yeah blue see y'all around “he shouts the door and the jeep turns away. I huff to myself thinking asshole .and I start on my adventure for the second time!

After I viewed California university I felt like everything was going downhill, the subject I want to study is creative writing witch doesn't start until September and it's only may now 3 months without something to do ? Do I go home? Do I stay? I've so many decisions to make I enrolled for creative writing anyhow just in case I decide to stay...it's been a week since I came here and I loved every second of it. today though is another story I'm down I'm upset I'm missing home ,I feel alone . I decide to go to the beach and write I will be famous for what I do someday I smile to myself. when I get to the beach which is basically my front garden I put down a blanket take off my shoes leaving my feet touch the sand I'm sporting my new bikini that I bought from Victoria secret yesterday it might have cost a good buck but it was so worth it I even have boobs in it yay ! . I pop open my laptop put on my sunglasses and begin to write getting lost in my own world. The next thing I know I hear a bunch of girls screaming CODY CODY!! OVER HERE CODY! uh teenagers these days I think and I go back to writing ... ok they are getting closer what the fuck I close down my laptop and sit up to see what these damn girls are screaming at. "Cody Cody Cody” I say to myself in a mocking tone who the bloody he'll is this Cody guy? Ah I see him they are closer now and my world stops just like that. Cody is ... no it can't be coffee guy what am I thinking he pushed me over .I stand up and begin to pack my belongings when I feel someone behind me or should I say him behind me . "Blue?" I turn around facing coffee guy or should I say CODY FRICKKIN TELLER” um hi “I cover my self-feeling quite self-conscious in front of him. He turns to the two big body guards next to him "hey guys can you give me a sec “they grunt and move like 10 steps away oh you guys are so generous, “so blue where are you from?" I still here the screaming fans in my ear and there like 40 steps away never mind 10. "I'm from Ireland and you?" he gives me the best panty dropping smile I've ever seen considering iv only read about those in real life I never thought I'd actually see one. "Ah Ireland I've been there a few times I knew you were Irish by your accident but I just asked cause I wanted to hear you say Ireland, how long are you here for ? " I ignore is comment about my accident and reply "oh I'm here for 3 more weeks or maybe 3 days or 3 hours I'm not sure yet " " huh why so confused?" "Well college don't start until September I’ve no job and I certainly don't have enough money to last until September" I suck in a breath like he wants to say something but he holds himself back from saying it... "where are you staying?" oh well he's nosey I reply anyway "just there in the California inn" I'm beginning to get all panicky now I mean it's not every day a famous person comes up and talks to you live interrupts my thoughts " I've stayed there once it's cool hey I've never got your name blue or should I just call you blue?" I smile to myself what a charmer "it's Lily , Lily James " "Lily,Lily,Lily I like it !I better go lil Blue I hope to see you again if not good luck and I hope you find what you came here for " goodbye Cody". He looks at me funny with a knowingly smile and walks away. I have a feeling that won’t be the last ill see of Cody teller.

It's been three days since I last saw Cody well I've read articles online and on TV about him no I'm Not a stalker I'm just curious (yeah right) I've decided last night that I'm going to go home I'm running out of money and college don't start until September maybe I can come back then.. My door bell goes seriously its firkin 8am! I roll out of bed a through on my robe ,I answer to these big spray painted blue lily’s with a little note with them I look outside to see if I can see who left them only it could be one person about of the two people I know here. I bring them inside and set them on the counter. "There just so pretty" I say to myself. I take out the little note and read it "BLUE, BE OUTSIDE AT 7.30 -CODY x".Okay did he just order me to be outside at 7.30 or did he ask me? Nope he definitely ordered me. "Ahhhhhhhh" I scream in a good way and start dancing around my kitchen like a loser .how can u not dance though I mean Cody teller basically asked me out!! I need a dress shit I need to look good omg omg omg. I head to the mall around 30 minutes later to pick the perfect dress. After 2 hours of hard shopping I head home with my new dress and shoes ,hmm 5pm I suppose Is should start getting ready, I take a quick shower to freshen up and decide to curl my long hair that I refuse to cut. I apply a small bit of foundation and some blush and mascara and to top it off my signature red lips. I slip into my new dress it's obviously red because it's my favorite color but it seems whenever I go to buy a dress it's always red I guess I'm addicted. it’s a midi dress so it's just to my knees and is body con witch shows my figure off quite well if I must say so myself. And last but not least I slip on my knew sexy yet smart black stilettos. I look at the time and it reads 7.20 hmm maybe I should head down, I grab my black clutch and pop my phone and purse into it and head down to see Cody. I walk out into the evening feeling a tad bit nervous as I look around the parking lot to see if I spot Cody witch I do he's standing next to his car without body guards well there's something new. He is wearing that cheeky smile of his holding the door open for me I walk closer to him and my god he really is perfect his eyes are the color of nature all dark and mysterious they have flecks of gold in them like he has inner fire. The perfect jaw line which would make girls weak his hair is longer on the top and shorter on the bottom he really is perfect to me. "Hey” I whisper softly. "Hey blue you are looking fine this evening " he takes my hand in his I feel electricity shoot threw my body this is it I thought Cody he is it for me even though I barely no him. He lightly kisses my hand and then let's it go I’m blushing I can feel it all over my body. “Hop in blue you are in for a romantic night" he smiles. "Is that so?" “As matter of fact it is my beauty." I smile and wave him off who knew Cody teller had this side to him huh? after around 10 minutes we pull up into this huge mansion the biggest house I’ve seen in my entire life ,I mean I'm only from Ireland how the shell am I in a car with Cody teller and going to his firkin mansion. "Uh Cody is this your home?" “Yes it is all mine ““oh it's amazing" "thank you Lily". Lily oh how he says my name in that American accent make me want to ask him to say it again. He jumps of of his car and goes around to my side and opens mine do people still do that? he takes my hand as I climb out but he doesn't let it go he holds it like I'm about to run away from him , I leave him hold it the cause it makes me feel safe for the first time since I got here. we walk out to his back patio it's all lit up with a table with dinner ready on it has a Jacuzzi and a hammock , a swing chair, the pool is all lit up too it's out of this word like the kind of place where little fairies should live." you like it ?" "He startled me pushing my thoughts out of the way "I love it, I mean it's out of the world I've never seeing anything like it before." “I’m glad you like it it's one of my favorite places" "I can see why". "Are you hungry?" "I'm starved!" "good cause I got a selection of stuff I wasn't sure what you liked " I look at him like he has 10 heads "uh I eat everything and anything don't worry " "ah that's nice to hear from a girl " what do you mean" I asked confused. "Well, most girls are all oh I only eat rabbit food it's nice to see a girl that loves to eat, you’re like a breath of fresh air to me”. I look at him atlas just smile because it's all the little things he says and dose makes me like him that bit more. He really did order a lot of food I settled on the steak witch he was amazed by I just laughed at his weirdness, I mean who the hell doesn’t like steak? When I'm done eating I decide to ask questions " so Cody why me?" he answers straight away "because blue your different you didn't even know who I was do you know how good it felt?" "Well yeah...you do know I'm leaving right?" he has a pained look on his face "when?" I look at home with sad eyes and say "tomorrow" .something passes between us I'm not sure what to call it, "Ne me quitee pas" he says softly. "What does that mean" I ask. “you’ll figure it out" he gives me a sad smile. He decides to change the subject "so tell me all the little things" "little things?" "Yeah like your favorite color, favorite animal, I want to know it all ". I smile no one ever asked me that before. "My favorite color is red as you can see, my favorite animal is dogs but I also love monkey’s emm let's see.... I always wanted to visit America witch I'm doing right now, I want to be an author". "An author that's a good choice what would you write about?" I simply reply "my life". what about you tell me everything "well ... my favorite color is white, I also love dogs too, and I'm already a singer so ya"" hmm interesting". We talk about our wants and needs for another hour it's already 11.30pm “hey Cody I should get going I'm going to call a taxi “a taxi?" yeah or should I say a cab?" "Oh a cab no way you’re getting one of those I'll drop you back ". “Um okay thanks" the drive back was quite an awkward I'm not sure why maybe because I'm leaving... We pull up outside my hotel and I jump out he comes around to me and takes a deep breath "so this is it?" I look at him take another step closer and say "so this is it”. He grabs me and gives me the best kiss of my life so unexpected but with every emoticon and the things we can't say go into that kiss. Our first and last. he turns to leave and says those 4 words "ne me quitee pas".my eyes fill up with tears "thank you Cody for everything you made me feel like I'm home when I'm with you. I’ll never forget that " his eyes are glistening as he speaks "no thank you blue for making me feel normal, and maybe just maybe you are home" he turns and gets in his car and just like that he's gone like I never met him.

Those four words changed everything

"Ne me quitee pas”.

Don’t leave me.

CODY.

That girl she makes me want tobe a better person
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her eyes will haunt me for as long as I live there like the ocean so clear that I could see into her soul falling flyingjust for her she's my blue
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when she said she was leaving my heart felt like it was being ripped right out of my chest. The one girl I was actually falling for I've never felt like this before she makes me feel real like I can be the real me nobody else can see. she sucked me right in with every little thing that she dose ,like the way she bites her lip when she's thinking or the way she stares at me like she knows all my secrets. I can't leave her go because I will regret it for the rest of my life if I do. After three encounters with this little Irish girl she may have captured my heart. I can't let this pass I can't let her leave I have to stop her before it's too late.

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Home. Home. Home.

I’m going home I’m leaving California I should be excited but I’m not I’m miserable last night with Cody was I guess you could say.. Strange. He’s different to what I thought he would be I mean been famous and all. But no he’s not he’s perfect. But it was only a kiss we don’t have to complicate it right? oh what the hell am I thinking it was more way more but how can I feel like this I’ve only seen him three times .and kissed him once. He’s the reason I didn’t sleep last night I was up thinking if I’m doing the right thing by leaving. But then again what makes me think Cody would give an actual chance, he’s famous I’m ordinary. Just plain old me .I’m pulled out of my imagination by my flight been called out. I get out and grab my handbag ready to board I hand the flight attendant my ticket. But I don’t give it to her I’m walking away, away from my only way home or am I home? I explain to the customer services desk that I’ll need my bag back and he tells me that I can pick it up the following day. I’m outside the airport what the heck am I doing! I’ve $50 dollars left how do I plan to stay here on $50 firkin dollars I decide to walk the 15 minutes to the beach since I can’t afford to spend money  on a cab .I decide to go get a latte in a little coffee shop called 'coffee haven ' on the beach cute name I thought . I stop as I walk towards the door and read the sign - part time staff wanted ASAP ask at counter for more info. that sign gave me hope I grab it and walk inside there’s an old woman standing behind the counter she smiles at me as she speaks '' hey doll I see u saw the sign'' she nods towards it in my hand . ‘‘Hi yes I have I’m really interested'' she asks me what I would like to drink I say a vanilla latte 'good choice' she reply’s she motions for me to sit down at a table. '' So dear where are you from?'' I’m from Ireland'' '' well aren’t you a long way from home'' yes ma’am am but I’m starting to think this could be my home .she nods like she understands. ‘Well ...can u start Monday?'' I look at her in shock '' you mean I got the job but...but I didn’t even do an interview '' she nods her head her grey hair moving as she does so.'' that was it my love, I have fate in you and you need a job and I need help I’m getting a little old to be running this place by myself'' I get up and grab her in a hug as I cry on her shoulder she pats my back and tells me it will work out for me. Somehow that woman called Lucy gave me hope, fate that maybe just maybe this is it for me. Here.at home.