Bittersweet Fate (3 page)

Cody.

She's gone. She’s’ not here. Where is she?

I’m in Ireland. And she’s not.

I got on my jet as soon as she left I wanted to beat her here to show her that I care .I wanted her to stay because I think she’s it for me . My imagination is running wild thinking about her, what happened to me though this girl has turned my world upside down and inside out. I met her parents Linda and David they are the most loving family I’ve ever seen Lily really looks like her mom. They knew who I was they said Lily told them about me. I wish I had a family like them hell I wish I had a family to begin with. It’s been a day and she's not here the only thing I can think of is she’s with a friend or she didn’t come home. On the second day I travel home to see if she stayed or me, for us for what we could have.

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Lily.

I’ve been to Cody’s house but nobody was there where could he be gone. I stayed for him and now he’s not even here smart move Lily. But on the upside I got a job which means I can stay here for college I’m so happy I decide to call my mom since I’ve like 20 missed calls from here but I just wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone I needed to think'' hi mom how are you?'' Lily!! you’re ok thank god I was so worried about you you flight was meant to come in last night but you weren’t on it and then the boy Cody you were telling me about showed up at our door looking for you!'' hold on a sec mom, you mean Cody was in Ireland?'' yes honey that poor boy came looking for you he was a mess I called you like 20 times to tell you'' my world stops. he came for me.'' oh my god mom I’m so sorry I didn’t pick up I just had a lot to think about and I got a job yesterday and I couldn’t leave Cody '' '' I know Hun I knew the second he knocked that you stayed.'' where is he now?'' he’s on his way back to California he went on his jet so he should be there in the next half hour '' thanks mom I got to go catch him before it’s too late'' go get him dear love you'' love you too ill call later’ ‘bye ''goodbye''.

I have no bloody idea where a private jet lands, I mean is it the airport or a private one that no one knows about I’ve no idea. Since I’ve no clue I decide on heading to Cody’s home and waiting there is my best option so I can see him face to face and explain what happened. Okay. It’s been 20 minutes and there is still no sign of him where the heck is he! He certainly didn’t go in or out because I’m sitting right outside his gate entrance …hang on a sec... Did that camera just move or was it just me it turns again and I jump up as if I’ve been stung by a bee or something. I walk over to where the camera is placed on the pillar next to the gate I look into the lenses don’t ask me why but I do, I start messing with it poking and moving it so see if anything happens ok it’s not just seeing things its moving right in front of me ! I stand back and the camera moves to face me what the actual fuck. the gates start to open okay this is some crazy shit someone is in there and I know I wasn’t seeing things .that’s when I see him walking towards me my word stops like literally it’s like seeing him for the first time again, I’m running, I’m in his arms, I’m been swung around, my legs are around his waist I’m with Cody my Cody. ’You stayed’’ he says so softly I barely here him. ’For you, I’m home’’ I whisper back. He grabs my face and kisses me with everything maybe this is right him,me,us,this now he pulls back and looks into my eyes I hear him say ‘’blue ‘’under his breathe.

‘’ne me quitee pas’’

I smile with a knowing smile.

‘’je suis a toi’’

I am yours.

4 days later

It’s been 4 days since I last saw Cody and decided on staying here it was my best hope for my future and it has been the best few days of my life I got to spend it with Cody, I even started my new job witch I love . I’ve been staying at my hotel still as I want to have something that’s mine you know... I don’t want to depend on him for everything I’m not like that I’m independent I’m me. He’s on tour at the moment for a week in los anlages California he asked me to go too but I don’t think that’s the life for me I don’t get being famous it’s stupid and it’s all about money . I even use a pen name when I write that’s how much I don’t want people to know about me or my personal life because with fame you don’t have that I’ve seen it with Cody he can’t even walk to the supermarket or been a normal adult and live his life the way he wants it’s all set out for him his whole life. Towards me I don’t know what I want in life all I know is I want to be a writer and have Cody by my side is that so much to ask for ?. I’m off work until Monday and today is only Friday and I’m bored off my head already what am I meant to do in a bloody hotel room on my own NOTING. I jump off my bed and root threw my stuff until I find my fortune cards I’ve missed these and maybe they might answer some of my questions like… is staying here right for me? Is Cody right for me? Will I get into college etc.? I shuffle them and then choose my nine cards I turn them over one by one. They say that I have a new love in my life witch I do … I also have money coming and a new home, my new jobs also shows up and there is a health scare I think about all my cards in my head and read the definitions to be clear, yep an health scare I’m not sick so I don’t know what that’s about yet maybe it’s noting maybe it’s something who knows… but for these cards to actually work you need to believe in them and use your mind and choose them write usually my cards are right I mean everything in my last reading is happening right now so maybe this health scare is to come and it didn’t happen yet but it’s there either way and I always trust these cards there like my guide in life I should lead right here right now. I open my laptop and begin writing.

I love the sound of a keypad typing it means I’m writing something that means everything, straight from my mind it’s a relief to get things typed down.

‘’Breathe in

Breathe out

Just breathe

And let it all out.’’

That’s my motto for writing I always say it over  and over when I’m writing it helps me for some reason I guess it just lets my mind run free just listing to myself breathe and nothing else in complete silence.

At the end of the day life is always about steps just take those steps and move forward not backwards your noting going that way.

Did you ever get into one of those trances and you just keep writing you just can’t seem stop even though you haven’t a clue what you writing about well yeah I just had one of those on this day since I’ve been alone it’s all I’ve done was write which is a good thing because I’ve been blocked the past couple of weeks. Maybe it’s because Cody is on tour and I’ve had alone time with this document either way I’m thrilled I’m over it I shut down my laptop after writing a few chapters as it was all I could seem to get out maybe tomorrow I will find inspiration to help me write more.I roll out of bed the next morning in search to find more inspiration for my next chapter. I take a quick shower and throw on a simple pair of jeans and a t-shirt I let my hair air dry even though it will just go into a big head of waves, I grab my laptop, keys and a bikini just in case then head out the door. I decide to sit on the beach as the sun is shining I take in the fresh air and my surroundings I look at the kids swimming in the sea so carefree while their parents are like lifeguard’s watching them can’t say I wouldn’t blame them. The water is clear blue today and it looks to good glistening in the sun I decide to change into my bikini and take a swim I walk slowly towards the sea feeling the sand between my toes it reminds me of home the beach I used to always go to the beach when I was blocked I don’t know why I didn’t think of it better later then never I suppose. I feel the water at my toes now and it’s so refreshing I savor it for a few seconds then I dive into the water its cold at first and I get a shiver down my spine but then it turns into complete bliss I’m lost in my thoughts until I feel strong hands around my waist I close my eyes and get a lump in my throat I want to cry tears of happiness as he kisses my neck he’s home finally. ’’Surprise’’ he mummers into my ear. I turn around to face him and he’s already looking at me with a big shit eating grin I laugh out loud and wrap my legs around his waist I’ve always wanted to be like this in the water wrapped around someone like people from movies. ’’Hey you ‘’I poke him. ’my last couple of shows were cancelled and I came straight back not that I could stay away from this much longer’’ I hide my smile’’hmm are you trying to say that you missed me? ’No I’m telling you that I’ve missed you’’ ‘’ well I missed you too’’ I look into his perfect eyes I see the truth in them and I know at that moment that he’s telling the truth. ‘’you’re like a wildflower out here just looking to be found’ ’he presses his lips to mine and I replay that sentence in my head again and again he really is unflawed. ’You found me’’ ‘’I guess I’m a lucky guy then’  .I think coming out here today was a success I sure got the inspiration I needed and a hell of a lot more I got Cody. After we get out of the water we dry off and head to my hotel room I take another shower and Cody does too. I lie on my bed and open my laptop and begin writing about today and what I learned Cody slides into bed with me it’s weird when his body guards aren’t around because right now he’s just like a normal 21 year old guy. ’’What are you writing about’’ he asks. I look at him a smile happy that he wants to know what I’m doing ‘’I’m writing about today about you’. This catches his attention because he sits up ‘’ oh really now you’re writing about me?’’ ‘’ya I mean I want to write a book someday so I write down everything that inspires me and I guess that’s you’’. He looks at me and then at my laptop and shuts it down he gets up and puts it on my night stand he comes back and slides into bed I roll my eyes at him and bite my lip ‘’ don’t roll those beautiful eyes ‘’he says and his voice is husky and smooth , it shuts out the bedside lamp and pulls me into the curve of his body I look up at him as he holds me studying his face he has a little freckle under his left eye that I never noticed ,he has the longest eyelashes I’ve ever seen on a guy before ‘’why are you looking at me like that?’’ he asks ‘’I’m painting a picture of you in my head so I can remember this moment’’ ‘’well let me paint one back’’ I smile and shake my head. After around 10 minutes of been stared at he looks me in the eye ‘’you *kiss*are*kiss*perfect*kiss’’.

Cody.

Remember tonight for it is the beginning of always

-Dante

She’s like a breath of fresh air to me.

I didn’t want to stop staring at her she’s lying in my arms right now I’m in awe with her, I remember every little detail about her face like the way she has freckles scattered across her nose I love those. Or the way her bottom lip is slightly bigger than the top but they are the most fascinating lips I’ve ever came across with another little freckle sitting above her top lip. And those eyes my favorite they sucked me right in it was like she knew all me secrets while looking at me they are the bluest I’ve ever seen but they always look sad like puppy eyes but that’s why I call her blue I guess because blue is a sad color but yet so bright. I suck in a breath as she touches my lip while biting hers damn she drives me crazy when she does that. I pull her closer not that there’s much closer she can come I kiss her hard thinking of all the things I could do with her right now. but tonight’s not that night and she’s to special I want it to be perfect just like her .she falls asleep in my arms and I watch her and whisper ‘’how did we get here blue’’. I hold her tight as I drift off to sleep thinking how did I get here, how did I get so lucky with her and how will I keep her.

This is the start of something new I can almost taste it. I wake up to the smell of pancakes and coffee I inhale and smile he walks in holding a tray with freshly made pancakes and coffee there’s even a Lily sitting on the tray can he be any sweeter I think to myself. ‘’good morning lil’’ he says as he puts the tray down next to me and he kisses me on the cheek ‘’what is all this ‘’ I ask ‘’noting, I was up early and I thought I’d make breakfast’’  ‘’you Cody teller making me breakfast I would have never guessed ‘’ ‘’haha well looks like you don’t know how charming I can be ‘’I laugh ‘’yeah your charming alright I thought I’d be the one making breakfast’’ ‘’ah ha you thought wrong blue’’ ‘’thank you though it looks delicious ‘’ ‘’don’t sit and stare at it just eat it and then get ready I’ve something special planned for today ‘’ I pick up a pancake and start eating thinking about what he just said ‘’hmm and what would that be ?’’ I say with my mouth full ‘’are you really talking to me with your mouth full?’’ he looks to be in shock I can’t help but laugh he looks so confused to why I’m laughing ..’’ are you laughing at me?’’ he crawls closer to me I take another bite of the pancakes and shake my head trying to hold in the laughter I start moving backwards as he moves forward then he leaps at me and holds me down on the bed and starts tickling me I end up spitting food all over the place I can’t stop laughing now and he’s laughing too , I love it when he’s laughs it’s just so carefree . I stop laughing ‘’ okay lets be serious now’’ he’s looking at me with one eyebrow perked up letting me know he hasn’t a notion what I’m on about ‘’what?’’ ‘’you go get a shower while I finish up my coffee and food so we can go on our first adventure’’ ‘’whatever you say little bird ‘, hey you want to join me? ‘’ he asks with a changeling look in his eyes. ‘’no thanks I’m good I’ll get one after you knew nick name huh?’’ sure thing and yeah I think it fits’ ’ he winks and shuts the door. I sit back and   think about how we can’t stop now that it’s already started, maybe it was fate that he ran into me that day just maybe. I here shower stop and I get ready to get in for when he’s done. I walks out with nothing but a cheeky smile and a towel on what an evil thing to do to a girl, two can play that game I get up and walk towards the bathroom I take a quick shower and change into my new underwear red lace my favorite I walk into the room Cody has his back turned to me ‘’I’ll be ready in 10 minuets’’ he turns around and his jaw drops I wish I had a camera to capture the look on his face right now. He examines me from head to toe and licks his lips ‘’damn, your such a tease’’ ‘’ and you’re not?’’ I say as I slip my dress over my head. He laughs as I walk back into the bathroom 10 minutes to be exact we are ready to leave. We head outside and hop into the same lack range rover I first saw him get into. Sometimes I forget that he’s famous because with me he’s just a normal guy. We pull up outside the airport I’m confused to why we are’’ um Cody, why are we at the airport?’’ ‘’I said I’ve a plan witch I do and it happens to include flying’ ’okay, but I haven’t packed anything and I’ve work on Monday’’ I’ve got it covered don’t worry about that, I just want you to enjoy yourself’ ’but...I don’t even know where we are going?’’ ‘’that’s the fun part you will have to wait and see’ ’Three hours later we get off Cody’s jet … I can’t believe what I’m seeing I take in my surroundings slowly inch by inch. I turn to Cody and he’s looking at me with this look I’ve never seen on him before I’ve no idea what kind out look to call it … ‘’new York?’’ ‘’it sure is baby what do you think?’’ ‘’what do I think …I’m thinking how the hell did I end up being here with Cody teller and why he’s with me’’ his body guard tucker walks up and whispers something in his ear ,when me walks away Cody turns to me…’’we are here to be together I thought it would give you some inspiration for your book what better place to come to other than new York ,I’m here with you because I want to be here being with you makes me feel wanted?’’ wanted I make him feel wanted I can feel  tears beginning to rise ’’You remembered...thank you Cody nobody has ever done something so kind for me before.’’ I wipe a tear away than walk over and give him a kiss on the cheek inhaling him while doing so this boy may have captured my heart. He holds me with his face in my hair kissing me ever so softly letting me know that he feels it too.