Breaking Kate: The Acceptance Series (18 page)

Just like that we’re back to being boys, but for some odd reason I have an unsettled feeling in my stomach, like a premonition of bad things to come.

Chapter 12 – Kate

This was the best weekend I’ve had in years, maybe in my entire life. Jess wanted to spend the day with Connor so she actually let me drive her baby home. I’ve spent the last few hours doing laundry so that I can actually have something clean to wear to school tomorrow, and of course, catching up on homework. Unfortunately, whenever I start getting bored with what I’m reading, instead of being able to refocus like I usually do, my mind drifts to the five exceptional orgasms that Daniel gave me last night. FIVE ORGASMS. I’m blissfully happy with each and every one of them, too. Sex was always the same with me and Michael. Either I was on top or he was. Don’t get me wrong, it was good, especially because so much love poured out of each of us every single time, but it was nothing like last night. Daniel’s sexy and erotic, he makes me feel desired… wanted.

Even though we just met, there was trust between us, enough trust to let him take me and make me his again and again. My body is a slave to his, but I know he felt the same way; he was so responsive to me. With every touch, and sometimes with just a look, he was hard. I just hope he didn’t hear me say I might love him already. I’m sure if he did it would have scared him away already. I can’t help that I feel that way, but I think from his actions that he may feel the same way, too.
My boyfriend, Daniel McCormick. I love the way that sounds. This is my first adult relationship, and now I understand why grown women tell young girls they have no idea how good sex can really be until they become women. For the first time ever, I’m grateful that Michael and I broke up so that I’m able to experience all of this with Daniel. I guess, eventually, good
does
always come from bad, even though it took a long time for me to get here. I think what surprises me most is that I trust him so much. I didn’t think I would ever trust anyone again after Michael, and it’s a relief. Maybe I’m not as screwed up as I thought.

The
day passes quickly and still no word from Daniel. I’m happy he’s spending some time with Mike, but I hope he calls soon. I’m having withdrawals, if that’s even possible. Jess struts in the front door around eight with a smile on her face bigger than the Cheshire cat.

“Looks like
someone
had a good day.” Jess flops down on the couch with a big sigh.

“I had a wonderful day and a wonderful sex-filled weekend. But even better than that, YOU had a wonderful sex filled-weekend. I had a great weekend with a boy that makes me weak in the knees; the sex may just be
the
best sex I’ve ever had in my life. I think I love him, but since I’ve never really been
in
love I’m going to hold off on making that final determination. We like each other a lot. We’re spending the weekend together next weekend so you and Daniel can have the house to yourselves. Life is good. Now, since we didn’t talk much at all this weekend, I want you to fill me in on every single detail of how things were for you last night, what your feelings are, and how much you’ve been reflecting on Michael and your past versus Daniel and your future.”  There’s no beating around the bush with Jess; she cuts me to the quick every single time.

“Okay, last question first. I’ve actually thought a lot about Michael this weekend. I realize I’m grateful to him for leaving so I could meet Daniel and be with him freely. We have a pull between us that can’t be ignored, and I think even if I
was
still with Michael I would
still
feel that pull and may hurt him to be with Daniel. Sex with Daniel is
way
different then sex with Michael, both were good, but Michael was gentle, new, loving and romantic. Daniel is erotic, passionate, mind blowing to the point of five orgasms in one night...”

Jess cuts me off fast, “Did you say
five
orgasms in
one
night? Holy shit, Kate, that man has skills! I don’t think I’ve ever had more than
four
in one night, and that’s saying something because I have sex
way
more often than you do. Maybe you just had a backlog built up and needed to get those five out. It might not be like that every time, but it’s still way impressive.”

I roll my eyes at her. “Maybe you’re right or maybe my
boyfriend
just has mad skills”

“Holy crap, your
what
???? Did you say your
boyfriend
? When did
that
happen? Hell yeah! Boyfriends the same weekend, and with best friends, too! This is going to be
so
much fun!”

Laughing at Jess, I finish filling her in, “Boyfriend since last night. He really wanted a commitment before we had sex; it was sweet and thoughtful, really.”

“I bet you were super glad Connor thought to pick up those lambskin condoms for you.” I blush from head to toe and Jess raises one eyebrow, questioning my reaction.

“Um, yeah, about that, we didn’t exactly
use
them. I feel safe with him, Jess. I don’t know how to explain it without sounding crazy, but think about past life theories and soul mates finding each other in each life. Daniel found me, here and now, and we have a connection that is unlike any other.  Since I know he gets tested and I’m on the pill, I just wanted to feel him, all of him, and before you go getting all crazy on me, he tried to talk me out of it. We talked about all the things that could go wrong with it but I still wanted it with no condoms and he agreed.”

Jess envelopes me in a huge hug. “You must really like him then. It’s not like you to be careless, but if you’re happy then I’m happy.”

“Oh, Jess, you have no
idea
how happy I am. We talked and talked and talked, we have so much in common. I feel like Thursday is never going to come quick enough. I hate that he lives two hours away. You’ll get to see Connor at least a few times a week, but my only time with Daniel will be on the weekends when he isn’t working.”

“Well you know what they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder, or maybe in your case, the orgasms stronger.”

  We both laugh at that as I continue to fill her in on the details of our conversations and a little about the sex itself. Finally, I tell her what I said as I was falling asleep.

“You told him you think you might
love
him? Kate, oh no! What did he say?”

“He didn’t say anything so I’m hoping he just didn’t hear me. I mean, it would have scared him, right?”

Jess taps her fingers on the couch as she thinks. “Well, maybe, or maybe he feels the same way and is glad that you came out and said it first. Or maybe he chalked it up to you falling asleep and thought you were just talking in your sleep, or he didn’t even hear it. I wouldn’t worry, Kate. Regardless of what he did or didn’t hear, that boy is head over heels for you. I could tell when you came downstairs this morning; he had the look in his eyes of a man that only wants
you
. You guys had such a familiarity about you. I kept trying to put my finger on it today and couldn’t. Maybe you’re right about that past life thing because you two just seem to fit. If I had walked up and didn’t know you, I would have thought you guys had been together for years. It’s a good thing. I’m so glad it’s working out and you’re happy. You’ve been too sad for way too long and I really love seeing the smile on your face that you have right now. I’m going to go take a shower, call Connor, and go to bed. I didn’t sleep much this weekend and my first class is at eight tomorrow. How about you?”

I look at the clock; it’s nine thirty already. “I’m going to go get ready for bed. Daniel was supposed to call earlier but Mike came by. I guess he needed to talk so Daniel said he’ll call me when he leaves. I don’t want to seem desperate, so I guess I’ll just put the phone by my bed and if he calls, he calls. I don’t have class until ten so I’m not worried about him waking me up.” Jess gives me another hug and heads upstairs. I clean up my mess, grab my phone and head upstairs, too.

As soon as I finish changing and hit the bed, I get a text message. When I see
*your boyfriend*
light up on the screen, I smile.

*Mike got drunk and poured out his heart and soul finally! I think I helped him I hope I did at least. It may be awhile before he passes out can I call you tomorrow?*

I’m glad he’s there for his friend, but I’m disappointed I won’t hear from him until tomorrow. I don’t want to seem clingy, though.

*Love that you are such a good friend. Take care of Mike. I look forward to talking to you tomorrow. P.S. Jess said she’s staying at Connor’s this weekend so we have the place to ourselves. Maybe I can make you scream my name this time*

I sit back and smile at myself. At least if I can’t talk to him I can tease him.

*Sweetheart, I thought it was just your sounds and your touch, but even your words in print make me hard. I can’t wait till Thursday*

Since Daniel isn’t going to call tonight, I get ready for bed, and before I know it I’m out like a light. Somewhere in my dreams I hear a ringing, but I’m too far into a deep sleep to wake up and check my phone. I wake up at seven to sunlight streaming through my blinds; I guess I forgot to close them last night. The message light is flashing on my phone and I vaguely remember hearing it ring last night. It must have been Daniel. I can’t think of anyone else who would have called that late.

The display on my screen says I have one missed call at two thirty in the morning from Daniel. I listen to the message, but have to listen to it again three times to make sure I heard it correctly.

“Hi, sweetheart. Sorry to call so late but I really wanted to hear your voice. I can’t sleep and I blame you and your last text for that. Also, spending the night with Mike, hearing him finally open up about stuff really put things in perspective for me. I started thinking that since we didn’t talk today, you might be worried about something you said. I just wanted you to know that I think I’m falling in love with you, too. Goodnight, gumdrop.”

I jump up out of bed and run my phone to Jess; she’s already up getting ready for class.

“It’s too early for you to be up and looking this excited. What happened?” Jess is staring at me like I’ve lost my mind. I put my phone on speaker and have her listen to the message. She jumps up and down with me like we’re little girls again and gives me a big hug. “OH MY GOD! Kate, I’m so happy for you and so jealous! What a message to wake up to! I can’t believe he called you and you were asleep!”

“Well, he texted me and told me he wasn’t going to call because Mike was drunk and was going to crash at his place, so I figured it was safe to go to bed. I thought I heard my phone, but you know when you’re dreaming and noises integrate themselves into your dreams? That’s what happened, but I’m sort of glad because I wonder if I had answered the phone if he would have said those things.” 

“I don’t know, maybe. You’re right, though, maybe it
is
a good thing you didn’t answer. I made some coffee if you want some. I have to get out of here or I’m going to be late to class. I’ll see you tonight. Maybe then you can explain to me why he calls you gumdrop.” I laugh and shake my head at her
No way am I telling that story.

I lie back down and decide to text Daniel since I don’t know what time he goes to work in the morning. I assume since he works construction it’s probably the butt crack of dawn.

*Good morning, boyfriend, sorry I missed your call. I loved your message, and yes, I remember saying that and was hoping I didn’t scare you away. I’m so glad I didn’t because I miss you already. I wasn’t sure when you start work so I didn’t want to call. I go to school at 10 today. Hope you have a great day*

*P.S. I think I love yo
u
*

I guess I’m up now, time for coffee. I’m halfway down the stairs when I get a text.

*Good morning, girlfriend. Don’t be sorry, I’m glad you got to sleep. I had a hard time falling asleep without you in my arms. I’m usually at work by 6 and off by 6. Can I call you tonight?*

I sit down on the stairs and text him back.

*Absolutely. I need to hear your voice, although I can keep replaying your message if I want to hear the magic words. I missed being in your arms, too. It feels like home there*

About ten minutes later, I’m drinking my coffee and toasting a bagel when my phone rings. It’s Daniel and I’m surprised.

“Hey, sexy.”

“Sweetheart, that should be
my
line, but it doesn’t matter, I just had to hear your voice. I really missed you last night.”

“Me, too.
I loved your message; it was the best wakeup call I could have ever gotten, thank you.”

“No thanks necessary, gumdrop, I should be thanking
you
. You do things to me I didn’t think were possible. I can’t tell you how disappointed I was we didn’t get to talk last night. Mike really needed a friend, and I’m so glad he finally confided in me. His timing was great, too, because now that I have you I was able to give him a real open perspective about relationships that I wouldn’t have been able to give him before this weekend.”

“I would have liked to talk to you, too, and I can’t say I wasn’t disappointed, but I’m happy because now I know that you’re not the kind of guy to ditch your friends for a girl. That’s the way it
should
be. I would
never
want to come between you and your friends. I’m assuming you told him about us?”