Finding Solace (29 page)

 
"I
don't know how to be anything else, but you’re welcome."

 
We pulled apart
and he pecked my lips. I got in my car and went home.

CHAPTER
29

 
I
was exhausted after the hell day I had yesterday at work. I swear
,
the holidays were going to kill me. I glanced over at the
clock and it said it was only eight a.m. I rolled over away from the light
coming through the window and tried to fall back asleep. At least it was my day
off. I planned to stay in bed all day. Well, that was my plan, until Heather
threw open my bedroom door causing it to hit the wall and probably made a hole
from the handle. I was so startled by her that I jumped a good three feet.

 
"Get
up!"

 
"What
the hell is your problem? You knew I was asleep. There isn't a nicer way to do
this?"

 
Heather
turned around and walked back out and then came back in slowly. Then she said,
"I just thought you would like to know crazy Liz had the baby."

 
I shot
straight up.

 
"Really?
Holy shit! So what are they saying? Is it his?
Is Mike the dad? Wait. What is it even?"

 
"First,
it’s a boy. She named him Talon. She tried to give him the Harrison name
without permission but Mike's lawyers put a stop to that. Second, she had the
baby two fucking days ago and didn’t tell anyone. Good thing Mike is who he is.
His manager has been keeping tabs on Liz because she is a walking PR nightmare.
He was notified when she checked into the hospital apparently. The DNA test was
run as soon as the baby was cleared of any problems. Mike's lawyer called him
this morning to inform him, it is his."

 
"Oh my God, Heather!
I slapped the mother of Mike's
child. Have you talked to Mike yet? Is he okay? Where is he? I need to call him
and say sorry and congratulations all in the same conversation. This is great
and awful. How is Jason? Or the family for......."

 
"Okay,
stop! I've had enough. I thought it would be fun but you just kept going and
going...."

 
"Alright,
now you stop. What would be fun? Did you make all that up? I will kick your ass
if you woke me up for nothing."

 
"Oh no,
Liz really did have the baby. All of that is true. It's just not Mike’s."

 
I jumped up
and grabbed her hugging her to death. What great fucking news!

 
We all got
together at ‘51’ to celebrate Mike not being a dad. His lawyers even tried to
talk him into going after her for slander or entrapment. Mike told them he was
just happy to be done with it and to leave it alone. Tony couldn't make it
because of work again, but Dave, Bryan, Shawn, Geoff, Angie, Ashlee, Jason,
Heather, Colt and I were all there to support him. It ended up being fairly
laid back. We were all just happy for Mike. He told me at one point in the
night that he was shocked by his own reaction to the news. He said a part of
him was bummed. That having a son could have been
cool,
it would just have to be by another mother. That actually made sense to me. How
could he not, on some level, accept that he could possibly be the
dad.
By eleven o'clock everyone was heading out but I wanted
to wait for Colt. I kissed and hugged all of them goodbye and then I sat down
at the bar. He was working until close, which left me a couple more hours to
sit.
Hours, to sit and drink.
I didn't plan on it but
I was a sloppy drunk by the end of the night. He ended up carrying me out to
his car, completely not necessary by the way, and went back in to lock up. He
was taking entirely too long and I was about to fall asleep when finally I saw
him walking back out. When he opened the car door I said," I can give you
a night you will never forget.
$100 for an hour.
$50 if you just want the blow job, but swallowing will cost you
another $25."

 
He sat down
in the driver seat, turned and looked at me putting his hands on the wheel.

 
"Oh,
now we're into role play. I think I can go with this."

 
"No,
I'm dead serious. I want money if you want anything. I am in this for profit
now."

 
"I
think I like you better drunk"

 
We both
started just laughing our asses off.

 
Eventually,
Colt started the car and we headed back to his house. He was using his left
hand to drive, so I grabbed his right hand and placed it on my inner thigh. It
didn’t hurt that I had a skirt on. When we pulled into his parking lot, my
seatbelt was off and within seconds I was straddling him. I wanted him, badly.
I was trying to undo his pants but he convinced me finally to get out of the
car. When we made it upstairs, I couldn't wait. I mauled him, stripping his
clothes as well as my own. He picked my naked body up and carried me to his
room. I was rocking into him showing him how ready I was. By the time my back
hit the mattress, he was already inside. This was not sweet love making. This
was hard,
fast,
strong thrusts and I begged him for
more. My nails were digging into his skin. I was almost there. I was climbing
higher and higher. Just another minute and I... I heard him moan. Like the moan
you only hear when... and then... he was out of the game.

 
"Are
you kidding me?"

 
"I'm so
sorry."

 
"No way!
No way, Colt! I was right there. You couldn't
have held on just five more seconds."

 
"I
couldn't take it. It felt so good. It’s not like I have ever done that
before."

 
My whole
body was wound so tight, I felt like I was going to explode, but couldn't.

 
"You
are so not done. You will fix this problem, right?"

 
And let me
tell you, he didn't finish until I was satisfied, twice. Now you understand why
I love this man?

 
Christmas
was here and that meant as we all know, that most of the guys went back home
for break again. I am lucky that my best friend lives here because spending
Christmas without Colt was awful. I was staying at my parents’ of course, and
the tradition was we spend Christmas Eve at Heather’s parents’ house. We were
supposed to be there a half hour ago, but if we were keeping with tradition, we
were always late. My mom was still in the kitchen finishing her apple pie while
my dad complained about not being able to eat it when I walked in.

 
"Why do
you gripe at her so much, Dad? She made one that stays home."

 
"Don't
come in here barking at me, Sadie girl. Your Mom knows how I get about that
pie."

 
"Ridiculous
is what you get." My mom always cracked me up.

 
"Well,
hurry up, both of you. We are already late as it is." I walked over to the
kitchen table and sat down. My mom grabbed the pie warmer and said, “We are
waiting on you." Nice try. We walked over listening to dad bitch about the
roast Heathers mom cooks every year. It was awful. When we got there, Heather
opened the door with Jason standing behind her. We all gave hugs and kisses and
wished each other Merry Christmas. Jason offered to take our coats. After he
walked down the hallway to set them in the back room, my mom went on and on
about what a gentleman Jason was. It only made Nancy blush more that she had
another reason to brag about her soon to be son in law. Nancy is Heather’s mom
and boy, does she love Jason. Her dad, Gary, isn't as big of a fan but that's
only because Heather is his one and only princess just like I am to my dad. I
don't think my dad would ever approve of any man I brought home. Speaking of dads,
I had asked Colt if he wanted to join us for Christmas when he still planned on
being in town. He avoided the question. Then he found out Jamie was not going
to be taking Maddie to her grandma’s house that lived out of town after all. So
he flew home two days ago. I talked to him earlier today. He and Maddie were
hanging out while Jamie went shopping. I don’t know if it’s because of the
holidays, or just the fact that I am surrounded by my family and friends, but
what he has when he goes back home is really starting to set in. Whether he and
Jamie could make it work or not, Colt has a little girl who needs him. The time
that he got to have here, it is probably like a dream world for him. Where
there are no responsibilities, nobody counting on him, where he can do whatever
he wants to do because he knows when he wakes up, he will be forced back to
reality and his dream world is over. Maybe that is what he has been trying to
get me to understand. I wonder if there will ever be a time when his dream
world and reality collide. Would I ever get to meet Maddie?

 
"What
in the hell are you thinking about over there?" Grandma Shirley just
screamed at me. It is obvious she does not have her hearing aid in, lovely.
This is going to be a fun night.

"Just stuff, Grandma."
She is Heather’s gran, but she makes me call her grandma as well.

 
"Don't
lie to an old lady, Sadie. We know better. Who's the boy?"

 
"What
boy?" My dad heard the word boy and instantly he wanted part in the
conversation.

 
"There
is no boy. Why would you ask that?"

 
"Because I know love trouble when I see it."

 
"Alright,
I am grabbing a beer. Sadie, do you want one?" Of course my dad went and
left me there with Shirley.

 
"More
like need, Dad, and can you tell Heather to come here, please? Like now."

 
My dad just
laughed as he walked away.

 
"You
can try to fool me all you want, but I see a broken heart. You need to leave
this one alone and find a new one that isn't broken." What was she psychic
now? Where the hell was Heather? I was about to just excuse myself, when Jason
walked in the room.

 
 
"Jason, come talk to me. How is your
family?" He looked at me like I was sprouting another head. That wasn’t a
weird question, so what’s with the look? Is everyone going crazy or what?

 
"Really, that good, huh?
Well, it was nice chatting
with you both, but I need a drink.” Just then my dad walked in with a beer and
handed it to me.
Awkward.

 
"Sadie
girl, Heather told me to tell you that you've lost your mind and she sent Jason
instead." How flipping obvious can he
be
,
seriously? Then he walked back out of the room. I needed an escape, now.

 
"Hey Jason.
What is your family doing tomorrow for
Christmas?" He just looked at me funny again. I give up.

 
"What
in the hell are you thinking about over there?" Not again. I stood up and
said, "Jason, she is talking to you. Be nice and answer her." and
then I ran from the room. When I caught Heather spying and laughing her ass off,
I hit her, hard.

 
"You so
suck!"

 
"That
was some of the funniest shit I have ever seen."

 
"Well,
I left Jason so he can have her for a while."

 
"Oh no,
Jason totally knows how to work grandma. He will be fine."

 
I glance
back into the room and Jason was giving her the same weird look he gave me, but
this time Shirley was laughing hysterically. He really did have the touch with
her.

 
"Dinner
time", my mother and Nancy called. Thank God for small favors.

 
At the
dinner table we all said grace. Then it was time to pretend the roast was good.
My parents and I have subjected ourselves to this nasty meal for the last
couple of years. When it comes down to it though, it is the company that you
keep that matters, not what you eat. I told myself that but I knew I would just
get my fill on pie later, like I did every year. Dinner conversation was mainly
about the wedding. Like that was a surprise. We still have almost two years,
people. When the meal was over, my family excused themselves so that Heather’s
could exchange presents. We all gave out hugs and kisses. When we were walking
out the door, Jason stopped me.

 
"Hey
Sadie, I forgot to give you something." He handed me a small box.

 
"Colt
asked me to make sure you got that." I looked down at the wrapped gift and
smiled. "Thank you, Jason. Merry Christmas" I gave him a hug and then
followed my parent’s home.

 
I said good
night to my parents and went up to my childhood room. They never changed a
thing when I left. It is as if they are just waiting for their little girl to
come back home. It’s sad in a way. No one wants to leave, but we all have to
move on at some point. I sat down on my bed and just stared at the box. It
didn't feel right opening it without him here, so I texted him to see if he was
still awake.