Forever and Always (28 page)

“Come in” Melanie replied. As soon as Lucy’s head peeked around the door Melanie burst into tears.

“Aw Mel” Lucy said as she hurried to her friends bedside and wrapped her arms around her. “Sshh, don’t be getting yourself upset. It will all work out”.

“Lucy it’s such a fucking mess” Melanie managed to say in between the sobs. “I can’t do this to him. I can’t look him in the eyes and break his heart”.

“What other choice do you have” Lucy asked. “Stay with Simon and tell Sam it’s over. Because I really don’t think that’s what you want. You were miserable when you lost him before. When I see you together.....well you just belong. I don’t see that with Simon”.

“But I am going to crush Simon” Melanie sighs and rubs her tired eyes.”And I don’t know if I can do it. No I know I can’t do this”. Lucy didn’t reply instead she just watched her friend knowing her mind was working over time.

“I need to see Sam” Melanie suddenly announced knowing what she need to do. She quickly kicked back her duvet and leaped out of bed.

“Do you even know where he lives” Lucy asked.

“He said he is living in those new apartments down along the Quays” she said as she quickly got dressed. “I know which building; I’m just not sure which apartment. But I am sure his name will be on his buzzer”.

“Melanie, why don’t you call him” Lucy suggested. “I really don’t want you rambling along the Quays at this hour”.

“I won’t be walking along the Quay’s I told you which building” Melanie repeated as she sat down on the bed and put on her runners. “I will be fine”.

“Well at least let James drive you in” Lucy said. “You can’t drive, you’ve been drinking”.

“I’ll get a taxi” Melanie said picking up her bag and heading for the door.

“Melanie it’s after two in the morning” Lucy argued. “You are not going out in a cab or anywhere on your own. So either let James drive you or I am ringing your Dad”.

Melanie stared at Lucy. She knew she meant it when she said she would ring her Dad.

“Fine” she finally sighed.

When they when down into the kitchen James was there drinking a cup of tea. He looked at the two women in complete confusion.

“What’s going on” he asked as he put down his mug. He instinctively knew he wasn’t going to like the answer.

“I need you to give Mel a lift in as far are the Quay’s” Lucy said matter of factly.

“Where is she going” James asked surprised by his wife’s request.         

“To see Sam” Lucy replied.

“Oh” was all he said. He stood up grabbed the car keys from on top of the microwave where Lucy always left them. He led Melanie out to the car and Lucy hugged her and wished her good luck before they left.                         

They drove most of the way in silence. Melanie wanted to quiz him about Simon but a part of her was unsure she would want to hear his answers.

“You think I am a horrible person don’t you” Melanie said when she could finally take the silence no longer.

“I would never think that” James said glancing quickly over towards Melanie. “I just feel a little sorry for Simon. But you have to choose who makes you happy and if that someone is Sam then you are doing the right thing”.

“Thanks James” she said. She couldn’t bring herself to tell him what she was planning to do. She knew if she said it out loud she would change her mind. He pulled the car over to the curb outside the building that Melanie thought was Sam apartment.

“I will wait here until you make sure you have the right building” James said. Melanie leaned over and kissed James on the cheek. “Thank you”.

She jumped out of the car and ran up to the doorway of the apartment block. She glanced up at the names next to the buzzer for the intercom. She spotted Sam’s name and was about pressed the buzzer when a couple who had obviously been out for a night out punched in their code and opened the door.   

Melanie stepped through the door too but then turned back to James and gave him the thumbs up. She turned back and followed the couple into the elevator. Sam’s name was beside the apartment number 4e so she pressed the button for the fourth floor.

As they rode up in the lift, the couple cuddled in the corner oblivious to Melanie sharing their journey with them. When they got out on the second floor Melanie
sighed
a breath of relief. She
need
to get her head around why she was here. How was she going to tell Sam?

When she climbed out the lift she quickly looked around at the numbers on the doors. She spotted 4a next to the lift. She breathed a sigh of relief once again she was at least on the right floor. She followed the door alphabetically until she was standing outside Sam’s door.

Suddenly this seemed like a bad idea. Why had she come here? Then a sudden need to see Sam quickly swept through her like a tsunami. And before she had time to think she was banging on the door.

About a minute later the door flies open and Sam appears at the door wear just his pyjama bottoms and looking still half asleep.

“Melanie” he said surprised flashed across his face. Melanie didn’t reply. She just stood and took in his beautiful face. God she loved him so much.

Without saying a word she threw herself around his broad shoulders and pulled him to her. Without any hesitation he wrapped his strong arms around her and closed his mouth over hers, pulling her backwards into the apartment then with his foot he closed the door behind them.

He pressed Melanie against the door as their kiss became deeper and more urgent. Pushing his hands inside her jacket, he slipped it over her shoulders and she let it fall to the floor. Grabbing the hem of her top he quickly pulled it over her head. Then he lower his mouth back to hers, brushing light kisses across her lips down to her neck and across her chest. Sliding one of his hands up from her waist his long fingers gently brush across her nipple making it erect and strain against the delicate lace of her bra making Melanie moan softly. He repeats this movement a couple more times before both his hands reach around to her back and open her bra then he slid it down her arms and it hit the floor where her jacket and top are.

Bending down he traced his tongue lightly over her now very erect nipples and finally then he took one in his mouth sucking hard and then biting it gently. This made Melanie cry out loudly and sent a longing pain to between her legs.

He lifted her up in to his arms and she wrapped her legs around his beautiful body. Slowly he carried her to his bedroom.
Kissing her tenderly as he moved.
When he reached his room he lowered her on to the bed still wrapped in his arms. His lips found hers again as his tongue invaded her mouth stroking hers slowly.

Sliding his legs in-between hers she could feel his arousal grinding against her through her jeans. She reached up and gripped his hair pulling him closer to her. A deep groan came from his mouth as he hands slid down and found the buttons on her jeans. Instead of opening them one by one, he just yanked the waistband hard until all the buttons popped open at once. 

Standing up off the bed, he quickly removed her runners before he grabbed the end of her jeans and slowly pulled them down her legs. Then he reached back to her panties and slipped them down her legs as well. Then he dropped his own pyjama bottoms and finally climbed back up the bed kissing Melanie as he moved with deliberate slowness. Paused briefly as his kissed up along the inner of her tight before he lightly ran his tongue up over her public hair as his fingers slowly found their way up the inside of her legs and then suddenly he sank his two fingers inside her.

“OH GOD” she screamed as pure desire runs through her veins, her back arching off the bed as her body tries to absorb the immense pleasure. When his lips finally met hers, he removed his finger and pushes his legs back between hers. She could feel his erection pressing against her and she has never wanted anything more.

“Jesus Melanie” Sam groaned against her neck and his slowly pushed into her. “God I love you so much”.

He began to move in long, slow strokes as he enjoyed the feel of her body beneath him. God he adored this woman. She was exquisite. Her skin was perfect. She smelled divine. He could spend the rest of his life just kissing every inch of her beautiful body.

His thought about the one flaw on her perfect body.
The scar.
Not that it took from her in the slightest. She was still without doubt the most stunning creature he had ever seen. But it was the story behind the scar that intrigued him. When he last asked her about it she completely lost the plot at him so he wasn’t going to make that mistake again. No, when she is ready she will tell him the story. In the mean time he is just thankful to have her back in his arms.

“Sam
please
” she moaned breathlessly. Gripping at his firm backside and pulling him into her deeper. She was building quickly. And she could feel him building too. Three more sharp thrusts and she cried out almost incoherent as she free falled back to earth. Her cry is enough for Sam as he slams into her one more time and before he collapsed on tops of her having found his own release.

They remained like that for a long time. How long Melanie isn’t sure because she thought she might have black out for a few minutes.

Finally Sam moved slowly as he withdrew from her gently, but still she winced at the movement inside her as she was still hyper sensitive from her orgasm.

“Holy Crap” Sam exclaims as he flopped onto his back and quickly gathered Melanie in his arms pulling her closer to him. “You can wake me in the middle of the night for that anytime”.

Melanie giggled and pressed herself closer to Sam.

“So you couldn’t keep away from me” he joked as he kissed her softly on the head. Melanie didn’t reply. Sam looked down at her and the expression on her face instantly made him panic and he sat up in the bed abruptly “Melanie what’s wrong?”

Melanie quickly climbed out of the bed and pulled her jeans on. She couldn’t bring herself to look at him.

“Melanie you are scaring me” Sam said jumping up from the bed and grabbing her arms and turning her to him. “Look at me”.

Reluctantly her eyes met his and her heart almost broke in two.

“Melanie talk to me” he begged.

“I can’t do this” she said her voice barely a whisper. “Simon came by Lucy’s this evening and he is a mess. I am going to break his heart and he doesn’t deserve it”.

“What about us” Sam demanded. “What about me Melanie. Please you can’t do this to me again”.

“Sam I promised Simon I would spend the rest of my life with him” She cried. “I should have never let this go so far. Please, please just let me go”.

She couldn’t believe she was actually saying these words. She could literally feel her heart shatter in her chest.

“So what was this then” he snapped. “
A goodbye fuck
”.

“Sam
don’t
” she sobbed and hot salty tears streamed down her face. His harsh words were like a dagger in her chest.

“Tell me why Melanie” he begged and much to Melanie’s horror he began to cry too. “Melanie please
don’t
do this. You belong with me. You love me”.

“Sam
please
” she sobbed harder.

“I can’t live without you Melanie” he begged his voice almost a sob.” I can’t live without these lips” he said as he kissed her softly on the mouth. He dropped his hands from her upper arms to her hands. “I can’t live without these hands”. Then he pressed his hand over her heart. “I can’t live without this heart. It belongs to me. Melanie please, I love you, I am begging you, don’t leave me again”.

Melanie stared into his beautiful face and the ache in her heart was so strong she could barely breathe. His eyes locked with hers and the sadness in them was unbearable to take. She couldn’t do this.

Melanie wrapped her arms around him tightly and pressed herself to him.  Who was she kidding? She could never leave him, he was her Sam. She knew the right thing to do was to stay with Simon.  She was going to hurt him and make so many people angry. Why couldn’t she be stronger? Why did she have to love Sam so much?

“I am so scared” she whispered against his neck.

“So am I
baby
” he replied pulling her closer to him. “I am scared you are going to walk out that door and I am going to lose you. Please Melanie”.

“I can’t leave you Sam” she cried.
“Even though that is the right thing to do.
But I just can’t live without you. I knew even coming here that I just wasn’t strong enough to walk away”.

“Oh thank Christ” he said hugging her tighter. “Melanie please
don’t
ever do that to me again”.

“I am sorry Sam” she said as he scooped her up in his arms and carried her back to his bed.

“What am I going to do about Simon” Melanie asked as the lay there wrapped in each other arms. “I really don’t think I could bear to tell him and see him fall to pieces. I never thought I would be somebody that had an affair”

Sam suddenly leans up on his elbow and looks are Melanie with a frustrated look on his face.