Forever Black (14 page)

“I
will have nothing but the best room for my beautiful wife. Isn’t my wife
beautiful?” Connor asked the bellhop with a wide grin.

“Yes
sir, she’s very beautiful.” I glared at Connor and then smiled at the bellhop.

“Darling
husband, make sure you tip this nice young man well.”

He
pulled out a wad of money from his pocket and started thumbing through the
bills. I walked over to him and grabbed a hundred-dollar bill and handed it to
the bellhop. “Do you have a wife or girlfriend?” I asked.

“Yes
I do, thank you ma’am.”

“Go
buy her something beautiful, perhaps a nice necklace.” Connor looked at me and
clenched his jaw.

“Thank
you ma’am, sir, thank you,” he said excitedly as he walked out shutting the
door behind him.

“Really,
a hundred-dollar tip?”

“Well,
it’s what you tipped the cab driver.”

“Cab
driver, what are you talking about?”

“The
night I brought you home, I had to pay the driver, and I didn’t have enough
money, so I went in your wallet and gave him a hundred; that was before you
told you were going to fuck me really hard.”

His
jaw dropped, “I said that to you?”

I
smiled, “Yeah, but you were drunk, so I forgave.”

He
started walking towards me, “A hundred dollars” he kept saying as he was
smiling with a playful look in his eyes.

“Connor,
relax, it’s only money, and you said yourself you have plenty of it.”

He
was heading straight for me. I screamed and ran behind a chair; he started to
chase me around the suite saying over and over, “A hundred dollars.”

He
caught me as I ran into the bedroom and he threw me on the bed. He straddled me
and pinned my arms over my head. We were both out of breath as he looked down
at me staring into my eyes. I stopped fighting him and held his gaze; my heart
was racing, and my skin was on fire. My body ached for him, and my lips begged
him to kiss me. He held my wrists and lowered his head till his lips lightly
brushed against mine. He looked at me again and let go of my wrists. He softly
stroked my cheek with the back of his hand and stared into my eyes as I moved
my hands through his hair. He swallowed hard as I could hear the rapid beating
of his heart; he felt the same way as I did. He stared at me as if he was
searching my soul; then his lips touched mine as we kissed, and he fell into me
as our tongues met for the first time. This was our first kiss, and it was
filled with such passion and emotion. He was gentle and not forceful. He took
his time exploring my mouth in such a way that made me feel loved. He abruptly broke
our kiss and pulled back, getting off me and sitting on the edge of the bed.

“I’m
sorry Elle, I can’t.”

He
can’t? He basically rapes my mouth and now he sits there and says he can’t? A
wave of hurt and rejection overtook my body.

“Why
not Connor, because I’m not one of your whores?” The words flew out of my mouth
before I could stop them.

He
got up and wouldn’t look at me. “You’re not a whore, and I just can’t Elle.”

I
sat up and pleaded with him. “Please just tell me what’s wrong and why you
don’t want me?”

“I
do want you Ellery that’s the problem; I want you too fucking much.”

“How
is that a problem?” I yelled.

He
turned and looked at me with rage in his eyes. “You don’t want to know the real
me. I’m not a good person; I use women for sex. I can’t have real relationships;
I don’t want to.”

“We
don’t have to have a relationship; we can just be friends with benefit.”

Yep,
there it was, the thing I hated the most I just yelled to the man I was falling
in love with. He stood there and ran his hands through his hair. I stepped
closer to him, “Connor, please, I need you.” A single tear fell from my eye.

“Don’t
Elle, don’t do this to me, to us; I can’t sleep with you.”

Anger
and rage grew inside me. He wouldn’t give me a straight answer or explanation,
so I did what I do best.

“Fuck
you Connor Black, just fuck you.” I turned and walked out of the room, grabbed
my purse and headed towards the door. Connor followed after me.

“Don’t
you dare walk out that door Ellery,” he yelled.

I
put my hand on the knob and held it there for a second as I took in a deep
breath. I started to open the door when Connor came up from behind me and
slammed it shut. He turned me around and pushed me against the door.

“I
fuck women for the pleasure that’s it, there’s no emotion for me when I fuck
them; there never has been.” More tears fell from my cheeks.

“I
seduce them, use them, fuck them and leave them. Is that what you want? Is that
how you want me to treat you?” he screamed at me. “You are different Ellery,
and you scare me. You make me feel things I never have before. You’re all I
think about day and night. I feel empty inside when you’re not around. Don’t
you understand? It isn’t supposed to be this way, and if I sleep with you this
will all be ruined.”

“What
happened to you to make you this way?” I whispered.

He
looked away from me as he still had my body pinned against the door.

“I
had a girlfriend when I was eighteen. She started to become obsessive and
wanted to spend every waking minute with me. It became too much to try to keep
her happy and I felt like I was suffocating, so I broke up with her.” He paused
and looked up at me as his eyes started to fill with tears.

“She
committed suicide 2 days later. She left a note explaining if she couldn’t have
me then she didn’t want to live and told everyone to blame me for her suicide.”
He took my wrists and turned them up.

“You
see, this is why I feel sad when I see these on you. It’s a reminder of what I
did, and how I killed her.” I gasped at his words as I broke his grip and
cupped his face in my hands.

“You
did nothing wrong, it wasn’t your fault she killed herself. It was her weakness
and inability to cope; you cannot blame yourself.”

“I
swore after that I would never fall in love or get emotionally involved with another
woman, but with you it’s too late, I’m already emotionally attached and I’m
doing everything I can to stop myself, but I can’t.” He turned away, his
breathing rapid.

I
went to him and wrapped my arms around his waist. “I’m emotionally attached,
and everything inside me said to stay away, but I see a side of you I don’t
think you let other people see; a sweet and tender caring man who would give
his world for someone he cares about.”

He
turned around and looked at me. Before I knew it, his lips were on mine,
kissing me passionately and warmly. Our tongues danced with each other as he
picked me up and carried me to the bedroom. My heart was racing with his, and
my body was aching for his touch. He sat me gently on the bed as he lifted up
my shirt and gently took it off. He tore the shirt off his back and unbuttoned
his pants, never taking his eyes off me. I stood up and took off my jeans and
threw them on the floor. I laid down on the bed in just my bra and panties as
he examined my half-naked body.

“You
are so fucking beautiful,” he whispered as he ran his hand up and down my
stomach. He climbed on top of me as I wrapped my arms around his neck. His lips
met mine for a brief second until his tongue started to explore my neck. I
moaned and tilted my head back to give him full access. I arched my back as he
took down my bra straps and exposed my breasts. He groaned as he lightly sucked
each nipple and ran his tongue in circles down my stomach. I pressed my hips
against him and felt his erection, which made me ache for him even more.

I
took my hand and pushed it down the front of his pants as he moaned. He lightly
traced the edge of my panties as his fingers made their way to the spot that
needed him the most. He circled his fingers around before gently inserting them
inside me. “You’re so wet Ellery, god I want you,” he moaned as he brought his
lips to mine. He moved his fingers inside me and then in a delicate in and out
motion.

“I
promise I’ll be gentle with you, but if I get too rough promise me you’ll stop
me.”

I
shook my head as I helped him off with his jeans and boxers. He took himself
and gently inserted himself in me, looking into my eyes with each small thrust,
slow and steady. Once he made his way fully inside me, his thrusting became
faster. I screamed from the excitement. He was so hard, and he filled me with
so much pleasure, something I never experienced before. My hands traveled to
his backside as he moved in and out of me, steadying his movement. He brought
his mouth to my breasts; sucking and lightly biting each nipple. This is what I
needed. It’s what I wanted from the moment I saw him standing in his kitchen. My
hands moved up and down his back as I began to swell; he felt it to as his
moans became louder and his thrusts more forceful. He took my leg and wrapped
it around his waist, making penetration more deep and intense.

“Come
for me Ellery; come baby,” he whispered in my ear. I started to scream as the
pleasure was so intense and I was ready to explode. One more thrust and that
was it, I screamed Connors name as my body shook in pleasure and he took me to
a place I’ve never been before.

“Christ
Ellery, you feel so good.”

His
moans grew as he yelled my name while filling me with his come. He looked at me
panting as I stroked his face with my hand and pulled him down into me. He
wrapped his hands around my head and buried himself in my neck. Our rapid
heartbeats started to slow as did our breathing. I was done for; there was no
going back now, and I was scared I was headed for heartache and trouble.

He
sat up and gently pulled out of me falling onto his side and looking at me. I
laid on my side facing him as he softly pushed my hair away from my face.

“You’re
amazing,” he smiled.

I
blushed, “No, you’re amazing; I have never felt anything like that before.”

He
kissed me on the nose, “Can I be honest with you?” Oh god I thought, what did I
do wrong.

“Of
course, you can. You can tell me anything.”

He
traced the outline of my jaw with his finger as he ran them softly across my lips,
“You said you never felt anything like that before. I haven’t either. It was
like I was having sex for the first time.”

I
took his hand and kissed it, “That’s because we made love Connor. It wasn’t
just the act of sex; it was sex with feeling and emotion.” He pulled me closer
and brushed his lips against mine so softly, I could have come right then and
there. Needless to say, that started round two!

I
awoke the next morning snuggled in Connor’s arms. He was holding me tight as my
head rested on his chest. I opened my eyes, and for the first time in my life,
I felt peace and serenity. He made me feel whole and safe like I’ve never felt
before. We made love three times last night, and it was the most beautiful
experience I’ve ever had, nothing like with Kyle. I felt passion and love with
Connor; it was like we couldn’t get enough of each other.

We
finally had our moment, and now I faced a new problem. I have a secret that
could destroy this man who finally gave himself to me.

“Morning
baby,” Connor said as he kissed me on the head.

I
looked up at him and smiled, “Good morning, did you sleep well?”

“I
slept great, how about you? He asked.

 I
lightly ran my finger around his muscular chest, “Yes I did; someone wore me
out.” He smiled as I moved up closer to his face, covering my mouth with my
hand, “I have morning breath.”

He
laughed, and before I knew it I was lying flat on my back with him on top of
me.

“I
don’t care, it doesn’t bother me one bit.”

I
looked over at the clock. “Look at the time; we need to get out of here, or
we’ll never make it to the funeral on time.”

Connor
slid off me, got out of bed and held his hand out, “Looks like we’ll have to shower
together to save time.” I bit my bottom lip as I took his hand and we walked to
the bathroom.

I
would have preferred the water a little hotter, but with what we were doing I
was getting hot enough. He pinned my arms against the shower wall and took me
from behind, kissing my neck as he moved in and out of me. He let go of my arms
as he cupped each breast in his hands, rubbing and feeling them as deep groans
came from the back of his throat. He moved flawlessly and had me ready to come
the minute he touched me.

“Are
you ready Elle?” he panted.

I
moaned with each deep thrust. “Yes, come with me Connor,” I begged. The words
were enough for him as his sexy moans grew louder. He pushed himself harder
into me, and I felt his warmth fill my insides. He held me tight as we both
sank to the shower floor and sat there in pure bliss.

Once
we were able to get ourselves out of the shower, we dressed, and I sat on the
bed for a moment as I was starting to feel a little weak and tired.