Kya & Xavier: It's Always Been You (Life As We Know It Book 1) (13 page)

Xavier Lee

I turned the volume up on my
headphones so loud that I could feel the vibrations in my head. I just really
needed an escape. The team was hype because of the win we had just secured but
all I wanted to do was go to sleep. Christmas break was almost over and I still
hadn't heard from Kya. Based on the updates I was that I was getting from Ethan
through Toni she still had no interest in dealing with me at all. All over some
lies and bullshit. I swear if I knew then what I know now I never would have
dealt with Tori like that. The more I thought about it the more pissed I got. I
closed my eyes and leaned my head back on the seat, two more hours and then
I'll be back in my room.

Trey said something and fell down
into the empty seat next to me but I couldn't hear him because my music was too
loud so I pulled my headphones back around my neck. He repeated himself.

“Aye man you straight?”

“I’m good.” I said hoping to avoid a
conversation. Based on how shitty I was playing and my overall attitude I was
pretty sure everybody knew I had something going on but I refused to talk to
any of them about it. My problem, my business.

“You sure bruh. You were off your
game tonight?”

“Just one of those nights.” I said.

“Alright you know I got you.”

Trey stood up probably sensing that I
wasn't in the mood for a conversation and joined the rest of the team in the
back of the bus so I pulled my headphones back over my ears and got lost in the
music.

I kept checking my phone as if
expecting to get a call or message from Kya even though I knew better but
something in me kept hoping. When I finally did get a text message and realized
that I was from Tori I immediately got pissed all over again and wanted to
throw my phone as hard as I could. I couldn’t believe that this girl was crazy
enough to keep this lie going. She kept blowing up my phone calling and sending
text talking about how sorry she was for telling Ky, and begging me to talk to
her so that we could make plans for “our baby.” She had to be insane if she
thought that I wanted anything to do with her or her imaginary pregnancy.
Especially after the reaction that I received the second that word got out that
she was pregnant. People around campus starting breaking their necks to get to
me to tell me how she was the biggest hoe on campus and for me to get a
paternity test. I messed up with this one and I knew it.

What was I supposed to expect from a
girl that initiated oral sex with me at a party the first night we met and
after a few drinks let me smash in the car on the way to her dorm. I laughed
when I thought about how pissed she got that I would never let her stay
overnight with me. Keeping her out of my dorm was probably about one of the
smartest things I did do when it came to her. She was the type of girl that
would have waited for me to fall asleep and then had pictures all over Instagram
of her in my bed. Whatever sympathy I had for stringing her along was dead the
moment she fronted Kya pretending to be pregnant by me. I had made a lot of
stupid decisions in my life but Tori had to be the worst. I swear if I could do
it all over again I would have never messed with her at all. Saying Karma is a
bitch is doesn’t do this situation justice.

By the time we made it back to school
and I was alone in my room I shut down. I was totally drained. I hated
traveling for games when we didn’t stay overnight but I was glad to be back in
my dorm. I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone except the one person who was
currently refusing to talk to me. Ky hadn’t said a word to me since the night I
left her dorm room after Tori stated this insanity. No calls, no text basically
shut me off completely.

This was really starting to piss me
off but I couldn’t blame her. Once again I had her stuck in the middle of my
bad decisions and Tori was the worst of every bad decision that I had ever
made. She was definitely lying about this pregnancy thing, she had to be. There
was no way she could be, but Kya wouldn’t talk to me long enough for me to
prove that to her.

It was late and all I wanted to do
was crash but I needed to shower first so I turned on the water and got it as
hot as it could go and then let the bathroom fill with steam before I stepped
in. The water was so hot that it almost burned but it felt good. I closed my
eyes and stood under the water hoping that it would take some of the stress
away. My life was spinning out of control and the only person that I could
blame was myself.

I had been laying in my bed staring
at the ceiling for what seemed like hours when I heard someone knock on my door.

“Aye what’s up?”

“What up E?”

“Look you’re my peoples and I respect
your space but right now I think you need to talk.”

“I’m good.”

Ethan sat down in my computer chair
and leaned back. “You are far from good. You’re not talking to anybody, you’re
playing like shit, you damn near made James cry to tonight in the locker room
and bruh that was funny as hell but you’re killing the team vibe so let’s
talk.” I thought about the way I laid into James for getting on my nerves
before the game tonight and laughed. I hadn’t really meant to break him down so
bad but hell he asked for. He was always talking shit and tonight just wasn’t
the night.

I laughed. “Hell he’s too damn sensitive.
I don’t have time for that.”

“You’re right but seriously bruh what’s
good?”

I shook my head. “I basically screwed
myself.”

“Tori?”

“Yep, I can’t even believe this
shit.”

“So what’s the deal with that? You
sure it’s not yours?”

“Hell yeah, can’t be. Last time I
actually hit that was at the Kappa party so there’s no way.”

“Yeah that’s been a minute and you
sure you haven’t since then?”

“Let’s just say the servicing has
been one sided since that party.”

“So what are you gonna do, just wait
it out?”

“That’s all I can do.”

“What about Ky?”

“That’s dead, she won’t talk to me at
all.”

“She’s coming to my New Year’s Eve
party.”

“Word, you talk to her?”

“Nah but Toni asked her to come and
Ky promised Toni that she would.”

“That’ll change the second she finds
out I’m gonna be there.”

“She knows and she still said she’d
come.”

“I guess that’s start.”

“You just need to talk. I know this
is messed up but if you’re sure it’s not yours then it will eventually work its
self out. She can’t be made about a lie.”

I laughed. “You don’t know Ky.”

“Well if nothing else you’ve got the
party. She’ll be there, you’ll be there hell you never know just go all in.”

“I don’t think there’s anything I can
say or do to change her mind right now.”

“You never know bruh. She’s just hurt
right now but when you love somebody the way she loves you it doesn’t go away,
hell you know that.”

“She’s damn sure doing a good job of
pretending then.”

Ethan laughed. “Nah trust me, just
give it time and stop fucking with James before you make him quit the damn
team.”

“I got you.”

“I’m about to crash so I’ll get up
with you tomorrow and remember it’s not over till it’s over.”

“Preciate it.”

Let the countdown begin. Ethan’s New
Year’s Eve party was giving me the opportunity to be around Ky now all I had to
do was figure out how to make her talk to me and maybe I could fix this mess.

Chapter 9

Kya Renee

“So do you want to talk about it?” My
mom asked and then walked into my room an sat down on the foot of my bed, I had
been home for winter break for almost two weeks and had been hiding out in my
room most of the time. I knew that it was a matter of time before my mother
finally broke down and said something. I’m sure she was praying for it to be about
Xavier so that she could get her ‘I told you so’ over with.

“Talk about what?” I asked briefly, looked
up from my phone and then back at it. I had been listening to music while on
and off Instagram and Twitter most of the day.

“Whatever has had you moping around
here for the past two weeks, your father and I both have noticed it.”

“I haven’t been moping.” I said
without looking at her.

“You, sweetheart, are a terrible liar
and yes you have. You’ve been home for two weeks and aside from a few visits
from Toni and you taking gifts to Leigh the only thing that you’ve done is lay
right here in this bed and play on that phone all day.”

“Its winter break. The operative word
being break. So that’s exactly what I’m doing. Taking a break.”

“Well call it what you want but it
looks to me like your hiding out.”

“Why would I be hiding?”

“I don’t know hun, that’s why I’m
asking” My mother said coyly.

“I’m fine. I promise.” I locked my
phone and then dropped it in my lap.

“Okay but if you change your mind
then I’m here.”
Don’t hold your breath!

“Mom, I’m good.”
And smart enough to keep this as far away from you as I possibly can.

She stood, smiled at me before she
left my room and pulled my door closed behind her. I was extremely relieved
because I had made it two weeks without having to talk about Xavier, even after
she discovered an unopened present from him that his sister Leigh had given me
when I stopped by to see her purposely after I knew that he had gone back to
school for his game.

The unopened present that I was
hiding in my drawer because I just couldn’t bring myself to open it. It was
pointless anyway because no gift could make the situation go away and I just
didn’t see the point in torturing myself. I picked up my phone again and
restarted the song I was listening to before I began scrolling through
Instagram pictures but my mind was all over the place again.
Dang it
, I had to think about him and
that darn present. I dropped my phone on my lap, leaned over towards my night
stand, stretched my body until I could reach the draw and then pulled it open.

 
I lifted the small silver credit card sized
box and held it in my hands. It was perfectly wrapped with shiny silver
wrapping paper and satin ribbon that formed a perfectly proportion bow on the top
that fell off the sides. I knew that he most definitely didn’t wrap it because
I had received too many of his poorly wrapped gifts in the years past. I tried
to imagine what it could be but I was still torn about opening it because I
didn’t want to feel anything for him so I reached over and dropped it back in
the draw and closed it again.
Not tonight.
I picked up my phone and decided to call Toni. I needed a distraction and I
figured that she could keep my mind off of Xavier.

“Aye boo, what’s good?” Toni said
cheerfully when she answered.

“What’s up with you?” I asked.

“Bored out of my mind. I’m so ready
for New Year’s Eve, so we can get turnt.”

“Is there ever a time when you’re not
thinking about a party?”

“Girl we are young and dumb so
partying is our one and only priority.” Toni said and laughed which made me
laugh. “So you’re still coming to Ethan’s New Year’s Eve party right?” I
thought about the party that Ethan was throwing for his teammates and friends.
He and Toni had guilted me into being there but the down side was that Xavier
would be there also.

“Yes, Toni, I’m coming.”

“Good because you can’t bail on me. I
can’t be alone with Ethan’s parents without a support system.”

“Are you nervous about meeting your
in laws?” I asked teasing Toni.

“His mom’s white boo, I don’t know
what to do with that.”

“You’re dumb.” I said and laughed.
“They are just parents, all you need to do is prove to them that you care about
their son and all is well.”

“Girl I know but, you never know so I
need you there Ky. You better not bail on me.”

“I said I’ll be there, girl chill.”

“And don’t worry about Zay. I’m sure
he’s too afraid to say anything to you anyway but if he tries I got you
covered. I’ll go all ninja on him.”

We both busted out laughing. “I just can’t
with you but it’s good to know you got my back.”

“Girl you know how I roll. I need to
use these ninja skills on somebody. Sooooo, did you open it yet?” Toni asked.

“Nope.”

“Have you talked to him?”

“Nope and I don’t plan to.”

“Has he called or anything?”

“Nope, and I’m sure he won’t.”

“He’s been asking about you.”

“I don’t know why.”

“Well based on what Ethan says, he’s
sticking with the ‘it’s not his’ thing and he hasn’t seen or talk to Tori since
she came by our dorm. Ethan thinks she’s lying. Apparently she was with some
other guy so he thinks it could be his and not Zay’s.”

“I doesn’t matter.” I said “If it’s
not her it will be someone else. It’s just time for us to move on.”

“Do you really want that though?”

“What I want is to be happy and it
doesn’t seem like that ever happens when I’m with him.”

“Well then happy you shall be, if
it’s the last thing I do.”

“That makes me nervous.”

“Trust me girl. I got you.” Toni said.

“I miss you crazy.”

“You will see me in two days and we
are going to bring in the New Year right.”

“That makes me even more nervous.” I
said and then laughed.

“And you should be boo.”

“You are too much but I’ll see you
Friday.”

“Yes you will.”

“By girl.”

“Bye”

I felt a little better but was not
looking forward to seeing Xavier on Friday. I was bound and determined to avoid
him at all cost.