Authors: Cathy Kelly
face was flushed from rushing around, beads of moisture
on her upper lip and tendrils of brown hair hanging
damply around her face.
Her expression was that tense, nervous one Olivia hadn’t
seen for many years. She was not looking her best, but then
nobody would beside the cool and poised Vida.
At the sight of her father and his fiancee embracing,
Evie went white. Olivia’s heart went out to her friend.
Poor Evie was taking it very badly. She looked confused
and lonely. Quickly dumping her glass on the kitchen
table, Olivia relieved Evie of her burden of dishes before
kissing her hello.
‘Your dress is so pretty,’ she said loudly. ‘I love black
velvet.’
‘Do you think it’s nice?’ asked Evie gratefully, turning
big sad eyes to her friend. ‘It was the only thing I brought
with me …’ She stopped, suddenly remembering where
she was. ‘You’ve met everyone,’ she said in a strained voice.
‘And you’ve heard the news?’
‘Yes,’ said Stephen. ‘Wonderful, isn’t it? When’s the
happy day? It’s not going to be a shotgun wedding, eh?’ He
poked Andrew in the ribs and guffawed at his own joke.
Olivia froze with horror at his comment, as did Rosie
and Evie. But Vida, who was obviously made of sterner
stuff, merely smiled graciously, still holding tightly to
Andrew’s arm.
‘February,’ she said. ‘We’re having a small reception at
Kilkea Castle. We hope you and Olivia will be able to
come, with your darling Sasha, of course, I’ve heard so
much about her. She sounds a little doll. Maybe she’d he a
flower girl? And we’d love to have you as a bridesmaid,
Rosie,’ she added-Vida’s assured expression faltered briefly
as she turned to Evie, who was looking bootfaced. ‘I did
hope you’d be one too …’ she began.
But before Vida could finish the sentence, Evie snapped
at her: ‘I doubt if I’ll be able to make the wedding. Not
that it’ll matter to you, Dad, since you didn’t consider me
important enough to discuss it with in the first place!’
She turned on her heel and ran from the room, rushing
upstairs as hot, angry tears flooded down her face.
‘I’ll go after her,’ Olivia said, and hurried past a pale
faced Andrew Eraser.
Upstairs, Evie sat on her single bed and wept.
‘Can I come in?’ asked Olivia, tapping gently at the
door.
‘Yes,’ sobbed Evie.
‘You poor thing,’ Olivia said, hugging her. ‘I know your
dad should have told you ages ago, but he was probably
nervous of saying he was going out with Vida …’
That’s what I can’t understand!’ Evie cried. ‘He did it all
without telling me. I feel so left out … how could he? It’s like he was never really close to me. All those years I
thought we were so close to each other and I was wrong.
She changes everything.’
Evie wiped away tears with her hands. “I was going to
tidy out his airing cupboard and sort out the kitchen
and … I can’t now.’ She started crying harder than ever.
They didn’t talk for a while. Olivia just sat holding one
of Evie’s hands until her sobs subsided. Finally, she
scrubbed her face dry with a tissue.
‘Sorry,’ she said. ‘I shouldn’t have run off like that, it’s
just…’ She grimaced. ‘I really hate that woman! Did you ever meet someone and loathe them on sight? That’s what I feel for her. She’s so smug and perfect. What’ll she be like
when she’s part of our family?’
‘She’s hardly a wicked stepmother,’ Olivia pointed out.
‘I know,’ Evie said wretchedly. ‘Part of me knows I’m
being silly about this - I’m certainly old enough to know
better. But it’s so upsetting, it’s rocked me utterly. I can’t
explain … I loved my mother so much, you see,’ she
added. ‘How could he want anyone else?’
‘But you were widowed and you wanted someone else,’
Rosie interrupted, appearing at the door. She sat down on
the bed beside her mother and slung one slender arm
around Evie’s shoulders.
‘Mum, you loved Dad but you’ve moved on, even if it is
on to Simon,’ she added in a disparaging voice.
Evie caught Olivia’s eye and the two friends looked at
each other for a second.
‘That’s different,’ Olivia said gently.
‘Why?’ demanded Rosie.
Oh, God, thought Olivia, what have I said? ‘Er …
because you never knew your dad, that’s why. It’s different
when you’ve lost someone you remember.’
‘Mmm.’ Rosie didn’t look convinced.
‘Would you mind one of your parents getting remarried
if one of them died?’ she asked Olivia bluntly.
Olivia, who wouldn’t have been surprised or have cared
less if either parent married a Martian tomorrow, pretended
to think about it. ‘of course I would,’ she lied. ‘It’s
hard to explain. Anyway,’ she got off the bed abruptly, ‘we
should go back down, Evie. There’s nothing to be gained
by sitting up here. The rest of the guests will wonder
what’s going on.’ She meant that Stephen would wonder
what was going on.
‘They’re OK,’ Rosie said. ‘They’re all in raptures about
their new hunky male watercolour teacher, talking their
dentures off with excitement. I just landed in a couple of
bottles of wine and left them to it.’
‘What about Stephen?’ asked Olivia anxiously. ‘Is he all
right?’ He hated being left on his own at this sort of party.
It was a different kettle of fish when they were at his
friends’ parties. The talk then would be all about business
and Olivia often felt totally out of things, but she never
minded really. Stephen had to network to get on. Olivia
had to expect a certain amount of the conversations to go
over her head, he would always say.
“I prefer beauty to brains any day.’ he’d murmur in the
car on the way home, when Olivia was subdued and happy
to be leaving.
‘I’d better go down to Stephen,’ she said now, envisioning
him stuck in conversation with one of the inebriated
painting ladies. He’d hate that.
She gave Evie’s arm a squeeze. ‘Stick on a bit of
make-up and you’ll be fine.’
‘Don’t worry, Mum, nobody downstairs will notice
you’ve been crying, they’re all too sozzled,’ Rosie added.
‘You’d never think those little old ladies could put away
that much booze.’
Evie nodded. ‘I’ll be down in a few minutes,’ she said,
through a bunged-up nose.
Rosie and Olivia left together, Olivia hurrying down the
stairs, distracted by the thought of Stephen being bored.
She’d suggest going home, that was it. He hadn’t been too
keen to go to the party in the first place and offering to go
home early would placate him. They’d only been there
three-quarters of an hour, but Evie would understand.
She rushed into the kitchen but it was empty. Then she
heard Stephen’s distinctive laugh coming from the dining
room. Peeping round the door, she found him sitting with Vida, a bottle of red wine on the table between them along with a tray of sausage rolls. Vida’s elegant head was thrown
back as she too laughed uproariously.
‘Oh, Stephen, that’s a marvellous story!’ she said.
He had an audience, Olivia thought with relief.
‘Hello, darling,’ she said, going round to sit beside him. ‘I
wasn’t sure if you wanted to go home yet? I know you’re
tired after your flight. Stephen only flew home from
Frankfurt this afternoon,’ she told Vida.
‘Nonsense,’ he said briskly. ‘It’d be crazy to go home
when we’re having such fun. Vida’s been telling me about
the time she lived in Germany. There’s this gorgeous hotel
in Kronberg that sounds fabulous and she says I’ve got to
go there next time.’
‘It’s only ten or eleven miles outside Frankfurt and it’s so
beautiful if you get a chance to visit it,’ Vida added. ‘The
gardens are exquisite.’
Olivia felt her own twinge of jealousy. Here was this
gorgeous and well-travelled woman keeping her husband
amused with stories of her jet-set existence when Olivia’s
own travelling experience was limited to that of a boring
working mother. And her conversation never kept Stephen
amused for longer than it took to remove his clothes and
get into bed with her.
‘Do you ever travel with Stephen on his business trips?’
Vida asked pleasantly.
Stephen put his arm around his wife and answered for
her.
‘Olivia’s a bit of a home body,’ he said, squeezing her
waist. ‘She prefers to stay at home looking after Sasha.
You’ll have to meet Sasha, she’s beautiful,’ he added
proudly. ‘We’d love her to be a flower girl.’
Olivia smiled weakly, instantly thinking that Evie would
see this as a betrayal and wondering desperately how she’d
explain to her friend that it had been Stephen’s idea.
‘I hope you’ll feel Sasha can be a flower girl,’ Vida said,
turning to Olivia. “I know that Evie’s your friend and I
don’t want to create trouble between you. I do so want her
to accept me but I can understand how difficult it’ll be.’
‘Oh, Evie will come round,’ Stephen said dismissively.
‘She’s being immature. She’s had Andrew wrapped around
her little finger for too long and she needs to grow up.’
Olivia shot him a furious glance. How could he say such
a thing about her best friend? It was so disloyal. Vida gave
Stephen a long slow look, as if she was thinking the same
thing. She missed nothing, Olivia reflected.
Vida filled a fresh glass of wine for Olivia, who’d left her
original one in the kitchen. Tell me about your job,’ she
said warmly. ‘Andrew says you’re a superb cook and that
you’re wasted teaching youngsters who have no interest in
food.’
Laughing at the idea of being wasted doing anything, Olivia opened her mouth to speak but Stephen got there before her again.
‘She is a wonderful cook,’ he said warmly.
Olivia glowed with pleasure.
Although I hate her teaching those delinquent children.
What’s the point when they all come from homes where
they just eat chips and burgers?’ he continued dismissively.
‘Olivia’s always had this fetish about working but she
doesn’t need to. It was different when we first got married
because we didn’t have Sasha. But now,’ he shrugged, ‘we
can manage perfectly well. She just likes being a career
girl. Wants “to make her contribution” as she puts it.’ He
made it sound as if Olivia was earning a paltry ten pounds
a week which wouldn’t have kept them in loo roll.
She wanted to hit him. How dare he discuss her like this
with a total stranger? How dare he insult her students?
There might be a few juvenile delinquents in her classes
but every school was like that. Burgers and chips indeed.
Stephen was such a snob. And how dare he relegate her
work to some whim of a pampered woman who could give
up work if she wanted to but amused herself by pretending
it was necessary?
Vida laughed infectiously, as if Stephen was teasing
Olivia and she had got the joke, an old and affectionate
joke between a perfectly-in-tune married couple. It’s
hardly unusual in this day and age for a woman to want a
career, is it?’ she said softly.
‘Exactly,’ Olivia said defiantly. She wrenched her chair
away from the table until she was out of Stephen’s reach,
facing him and Vida.
‘It’s a question of childcare,’ Stephen protested in a
more conciliatory tone, as if he sensed they were ganging
up on him.
‘Really?’ Vida didn’t look at either of them but toyed
with the bangle on her wrist. ‘I have worked all my life and
I feel it’s been marvellous for both myself and my son,
Max. I firmly believe he benefited from my working
because I wanted a job. I would have made a dreadful
full-time mother if I’d resented being at home all the time
when I wanted to work. A woman needs to be able to
choose a career if she wants one and not be made to feel
guilty. Women have enough to fee! guilty about.’
‘Oh,’ said Stephen, obviously astonished that a woman
like Vida had ever done anything more taxing than lift a
bejewelled hand to attract the attention of a passing waiter.
‘Just because women can bear children doesn’t mean
they’re unable to harbour the same sort of career ambitions
as a man,’ she said, this time giving him the benefit of
her crystal-sharp grey gaze. ‘Surely there are women
executives in your company who have children?’
‘Well, yes. That’s different.’
‘How is it different?’ asked Olivia, unable to take his
attitude any more.
‘It’s what you’re used to,’ Stephen argued, still talking to
Vida. “I want my daughter to have what I had.’
His daughter! thought Olivia-What about our daughter?
‘My mother never worked outside the home,’ he
explained pompously.
‘Goodness!’ laughed Vida throatily. ‘If we all confined
ourselves to doing what our parents did, we’d be in trouble,
wouldn’t we? My mother was a washerwoman in Hell’s
Kitchen, married to the most notorious drunkard in New
York who beat her every day of their married life when he