Ryan's Love (5 page)

I flush and put my head down at what
she said; and she leads me over to the table and sits me down.
After she puts my plate down in front of me she goes and sits down
next to her husband.

“
So
Miss Ryan, how are you doing today,
”
Mr. Callahan asks?

“
I
’
m good,
”
I mumble as I take a bite of potato
salad.

“
Are
you sure? Your usually so smiley at the office,
”
Patrick says from
across the table.

I peek
up and say,
“
Yes,
I
’
m fine. Thank you. Just a little tired;
that
’
s
all.
”

I
could see him grinning from ear to ear, looking right at my breast.
That makes me feel uncomfortable, because I
’
ve never thought
of him in a sexual way. I shrunk into myself and away from the
table.

“
Patrick leave the girl alone. Don
’
t you see she
doesn
’
t want you hawk-eyeing her,
”
Ryan says glaring at
his brother.

I
didn
’
t even notice that he was sitting right next to me. I
turn his way and face him. He is staring down at me, and his eyes
look heavy and dark. It sends chills down my
spine.

Patrick was saying something in response to what Ryan said,
but when he answered saying whatever. He didn
’
t even look
over at him.

“
You
look amazing in that dress.
”

“
Thank
you,
”
I say quietly.

He
smiles and leans down into me and says,
“
Oh don
’
t be shy. You
weren
’
t so shy earlier.
”

Then his puts his hand on my thigh,
slowly drawing my dress up until his fingers are touching my bare
leg.

I had to stifle a gasp when his long
thick fingers grabbed my thigh.

“
What
are you doing,
”
I
almost moan.

He
grins triumphantly and walks his fingers farther up my thigh. I
feel so weak right now. But I really don
’
t care because
his hand feels so good.

“
I
couldn
’
t help but think about how damn silky these thighs
must feel, when I saw you walk into the room. I had to touch
them,
”
he says dragging his hand up my thigh in circular motions;
getting dangerously close to my wetness.

“
Oh
and baby, when I saw how plump your breast looked in this dress, I
had to keep myself from running over there to you and sucking one
of them between my lips,
”
he says and skims his finger over the
top of my wet panties.

“
Ryan,
”
I moan, forgetting where we were.

“
If
you follow me, I will show you exactly what I was talking
about,
”
he says in my ear.

He nibbles on my earlobe then sits
back in his seat, waiting on me to respond.

When I
didn
’
t say a word and just sat there with my mouth open, he
got up out of his seat and without turning around says,
“
Are you
coming?
”

“
Who,
”
everyone else at the table said at the same
time.

Ryan
turns around and looks straight at me and says,
“
I
’
m talking to
Sunshine.
”

Then
he walks out of the room. There a few oohs and what the heck is
going on
’
s; but I knew what he meant. I want to go to him,
but I just didn
’
t want everyone to
know what
’
s going on. His hands feel so damn good that I
just can
’
t seem to care too much. So I get up out of my
chair and go the way he went. On my way out the room, I see Patrick
grinning with a knowing look. Mr. and Mrs. Callahan both smiling at
each other, and Killian looking around not knowing what the hell
was going on with food stuffed in his mouth.

As I
round the corner I run right into Ryan
’
s hard
chest.

“
I
thought I was going to have to come back in there and get
you,
”
his deep voice says.

I jump
and brace myself by putting a hand on his chest. He feels so hard
underneath me. I let my hands feel their way around his chest and
arms. When I start to go lower, he stops me and says,
“
Lets go in
here.
”

Then he grabs my hand and leads he
into the room that I got dressed in and locks the door.

“
Now
where were we,
”
he says as he slowly popped each button of his shirt
open.

Placing my hand on his chest when he
was done. But I snatched my hand back like it had been burned when
I felt how warm he was.

“
Don
’
t tell me that your getting shy all of the
sudden,
”
he says stalking towards me; and I slowly walk backwards at
his advance.

The back of my knees bump into the
bed, and I fall back onto it. My right breast fell out of my dress
as I hit the bed.

“
Damn,
”
Ryan groans and climbs on the bed with me, kneeling over
top of me.

His legs straddling mine.

“
Would you be mad if I tasted you,
”
he says, but
didn
’
t wait for a reply.

He just leaned down and licked my
exposed nipple.

“
Oooh,
”
I
cry.

“
Um,
”
he grunts and he continues on and licks and sucks my nipple
until it perks up in his mouth.

“
I
don
’
t think I
’
d ever get enough of
this sweet chocolate pearl.
”

His hand caresses its way up my
thighs, grabbing a hold of my bottom.

He rocks back on his hands, and
looks at me with wide eyes.

“
Do
you have on thongs,
”
he asks in a husky voice.

Oh shoot. I instantly flush up and
curl up, covering my breast with my hands.

“
Yes,
thats all I could find in that cabinet,
”
I say pointing in the
closet.

“
Is
that right,
”
he says rubbing on my booty.

“
Can
I see them,
”
he asks?

I nod my head yes, and he pats my
butt. I lift up and he pulls my dress up and over my head. My hands
immediately cover my breasts again.

“
Ryan, Please I don
’
t think I should be
doing this,
”
I say, suddenly feeling so self-conscience as the cool air
hit my skin.

I
’
m laying here in nothing but a thong up under a man I
barely even know. What is wrong with me?

“
I
have to go. I can
’
t...I
shouldn
’
t,
”
I say and get up off the bed and grab for my
dress.

He takes a hold of my hand and stops
my retreat.

“
Don
’
t go. You look so amazing. I
’
ve never
seen a woman as beautiful as you,
”
he says pulling me back to
him.

He quickly takes my breast into his
mouth again.

My
head snaps back and I let out a low cry. How could this feel so
good? I dig my hands into his hair, holding his face to my chest.
He slides his hand to my other breast and rolls my nipple in his
fingers. He positions himself between my thighs. They relax and
open for him. He pushes himself onto my center. My eyes go wide at
the thickness of him on me. I suddenly get worried. He is too big.
I shouldn
’
t be doing this. He doesn
’
t even love
me.

“
Your
so big,
”
I
gasp.

He looks at me and is about to reply
when we are interrupted by a knocking on the door.

Knock Knock Knock

“
Sorry to bother you guys, but Ryan I need to talk to
you,
”
someone says through the door.

“
Killian, go
away,
”
Ryan says as he continues to play with my
nipples.

“
Ryan, I
don
’
t think you understand. Rachel is here with her
mother.
”

“
Oh
shit. You have to get up and get out of here,
”
he says jumping up from
on top of me and hurriedly starts putting his clothes back
on.

I
’
m still shocked at all that is transpiring, so
I
‘
m
still laying down on the bed with my mouth hanging open. When he
finishes and sees me still laying in the same spot, he shouts at
me.

“
Get up,
now!
”

I jump up and in a flash I threw my
dress back on and run into the bathroom and lock the door; tears
streaming down my face. How could I be so stupid. I was about to
let this man take my virginity. Oh how stupid I am. I knew this
would happen. I knew a sexy man like him would have a girlfriend,
and he would never take a woman like me seriously. I sit down on
the toilet and cry for what seemed like hours. When I was spent and
I cried all the tears I could cry, I got up off the toilet and
looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like a sad sad puppy. My
hair was all over the place. My eyes were red and my face was tear
streaked. I looked like a fool.

I
quickly throw some water on my face, gathered up my hair into a
messy bun. Cute, but it didn
’
t really matter. I
took a couple deep breaths to steady myself, grab my bag then walk
out the bedroom; heading straight for my car. I
don
’
t look around because I don
’
t want to see
Ryan and I don
’
t want him to see me.
I really don
’
t want to see anyone
else either. I just want to get out of here. I feel too stupid to
face anyone. As I am carefully making my way to the door and
opening it, I hear a group of people laughing. Even though I
didn
’
t want to I turn to the voices, I did. When I did I
saw Ryan and his whole family standing with and talking to two
ladies. One was young and breathtakingly beautiful. She looked like
a movie star or something. She had on a red summer type dress that
came to her knees. Her hair was as blond as the sun on a bright
summer morning. She was simply magnificent. The other woman that
was there had to be her mother. She looked just like her only a
little older.

Oh how stupid I was. I would never
be enough for a man like him.

The
young woman laugh and placed her hand on Ryan
’
s arm. I
stiffen. I want to run over there and pull her off of my
Ryan.

Wait? My Ryan. Get ahold of
yourself. That man just yelled at you and tossed you to the side to
get to this woman. He is not your Ryan. He obviously is her Ryan;
and he was only using me for sex.

That will never happen again, I try
and convince myself as I step through the door only to be halted by
none other than Mrs. Callahan.

“
Ryan
Sweetheart, where are you going. I want you to meet
someone,
”
she says coming over to my side.

Oh no. I
can
’
t.
I can
’
t do this. I don
’
t want to see Ryan
and his girlfriend all hugged up with each other. I know I
couldn
’
t look at either of them without crying like a big
baby.