Shattered (Shattered #1) (7 page)

Anger and embarrassment coursed through me, “Do you mind?” I pulled the
curtain closed blocking her out.

“Oh come on Leah. I’ve seen you naked,” she giggled. “Make sure you
shave the girly bits before you meet up with him.”

I stood there momentarily stunned. How did she know I’d planned to meet
up with him?

“What are you talking about?” I shouted as I reached to turn the water
off.

“I know that there is no way he could have kissed you today, and you not
do something about it. You’re going to meet him somewhere tonight, I just know
it,” she shrugged as she disappeared through the door and left me standing
there in a total daze.

Was I that transparent? As I stepped out of the shower, and began
toweling off, I only hoped that Nick would show up. I had used my secret
weapon, I’d called him Nicky. I know it was cruel, but that always got me what
I wanted back when we were kids. Now all I needed to do was remind him of what
we had.

ooooooooo

As I turned off the road, and parked in the dirt lot, I glanced around.
Not much had changed since the last time I was here. Heat flooded my face as I
thought about this spot. Nick had found it one night when we were driving
around. It was secluded and off the beaten path. No one ever came out here, and
it made for the perfect make-out spot. Our first time had been about twenty
five feet from where I was standing in the back of his truck.

As I watched the sun descend over the trees, I couldn’t help but
remember. I was so naive and in love. To think that back then I thought we’d be
together forever…what a joke.

“Are you sure about
this?” Nick panted as he fought for control. “I don’t want to do anything
you’re not ready for.”

I nodded against his
neck as I began to place soft kisses along his jaw. “I’m ready,” my voice
trembled. We had snuck out and driven to meet each other here in the woods.
This spot held so many memories. It was where we had our first kiss, where we
said I love you, and now where we’d share our most intimate moment.

“I don’t want to hurt
you,” he sighed as I ran my hands down his back.

We were in an awkward
position. Me with my skirt pressed up around my waist, him with his jeans
around one ankle. Both our shirts were tossed somewhere nearby, and Nick was
currently tugging at my panties.

“You won’t…just go
slow,” I whispered as I craned my neck to seal my lips over his.

As the kiss deepened I
felt him relax and begin to kiss me back. Both of us shifted slightly as he
moved to slide my panties down my legs. When the cool night air hit me for the
first time, a shiver ran down my spine. It was really happening. Finally, after
all the times we’d almost done it…it was finally happening.

“Don’t stop,” I begged
him as he trailed his hand back up my inner thigh.

“Never,” he mumbled
against my lips as he began to slide a finger along my wetness.

“Oh fuck baby…you’re so
wet,” he groaned as he added a second finger.

My hips thrust forward
on their own accord as my head lolled to the side. Indescribable pleasure shot
through me. Nick’s mouth made sweeping motions down my body as he trailed
kisses from my neck down to my breasts.

“Nick,” I moaned as he
sucked a taught nipple into his mouth.

“I know baby…I don’t
want this to hurt. You’re not ready yet.”

“What?” I lifted my head
thinking he was calling a stop to this.

“Relax,” he ran his palm
down my side, past my ribs, and gripped my hip.

I wasn’t sure what he
was doing at first, but as soon as I felt his mouth on me, I flew apart. My
hips rolled toward the sky as he chuckled creating a vibration down there. His
tongue was taking long so laps at me as his hands held me in place. As my first
orgasm began to subside, he began moving back up my body, kissing every inch
along the way. When he met my mouth again, I almost pulled away. Something
about what he’d done sent a twinge of uneasiness through my head. Before I knew
what was happening, he closed his mouth over mine and plunged his tongue in. I
groaned in pleasure, more turned on than I’d ever been.

Before the kiss could go
too far, Nick pulled away, and rocked back on his heels. Embarrassment flooded
my features as I thought I must have done something wrong. Here I was with my
boyfriend who had loads more experience than me, and he was pulling away. Panic
set in, and I propped myself up on my elbows.

“What’s wrong,” I
gasped.

“Need this,” he held up
a foil packet.

I had completely
forgotten about protection in my lustful haze. I reached for it, “Can I do it?”

Nick swallowed and
handed it to me, “Just do it quick ok?”

“Does it hurt?” I looked
at him confused.

“No,” he snickered.
“Waiting hurts.”

“Oh,” I blushed as I
tore the packet with my teeth. “Like this?” I grinned as I began rolling it
down his shaft.

Nick’s head dropped back
as his eyes rolled closed, “Leah,” he moaned.

“Hmmm?” I moaned. I knew
exactly what he was feeling. I was feeling it too at the moment. I reached up
and grabbed his shoulders pulling him down on top of me, “Make love to me.”

Nick grinned and leaned
in to kiss me again. I curled my hips toward him as an impatient groan bubbled
up. Needing no more encouragement, Nick rocked his hips forward into me.

“Shit you’re tight,” he
ground out as he stilled. “Relax baby.”

“Nick?” I ran a hand
down his back and clutched his ass in an iron grip. “I love you!”

“I’m sorry,” he panted
as he gave a quick thrust forward. White hot pain shot through me causing me to
flinch as a tear trickled down the side of my face. “I’m sorry,” he uttered
again.

As he stilled, the pain
subsided and pleasure made its’ way to the forefront. “It’s ok. Move…please,” I
begged. When Nick noticed that they pain had abated, he began to move slowly at
first.

“Oh baby, you are so
sexy,” he groaned as he began to move faster. “I love you so much.”

“I love you too,” I
panted as I felt a change in him. He was moving with a purpose now. His muscles
began to tense as he reached between us and used his thumb to rub small circles
on my clit. “Nick,” I shrieked. This was unlike anything I’d ever felt before.
I was experiencing this feeling of complete bliss, and something so
indescribable I didn’t have words.

Nick’s hand drifted to
my hip as he lifted my rear off the bed of the truck and created an even better
angle. A few thrusts at this deeper penetration was all it took to send him
over the edge.

“Leah,” he roared as his
climax wracked his body. He slumped down on me as he mumbled in my ear. “Please
don’t ever leave me. You’ve totally wrecked me for anyone else. I think I might
die without you.”

“I won’t,” I whispered.
“You and me…forever.”

“Forever…yeah right,” I grumbled as I watched the sun disappear for the
night. I stood there leaning against my car waiting. Waiting for Nick to show.
Hoping he’d show…praying I wasn’t too late.

Chapter 7

Leah

I stood leaning against the side of my car as the sun dipped lower on
the horizon. It was now almost seven o’clock, and still no sign of Nick. I
silently wondered if he would stand me up just to get back at me for some of
the pain I’d caused him over the years. I didn’t think so, but after some of
the things Avery had told me I wouldn’t put it past him. Avery and I had stayed
up into the wee hours of the morning the night before, and she’d divulged some
of the things she’d done for Nick over the years. Guilt and sadness permeated
my conscious as I sat there and listened to her stories. I knew Nick had loved
me, but I hadn’t realized at the time how deep it really was. I mean…wouldn’t
he have come with me if he really loved me that much?

As I glanced down at my watch one last time and saw that it was now
after seven, I heaved my body away from the car and moved to climb in. I
assumed that Nick was blowing me off, and anger began to boil inside me. I made
up my mind right then that I was going to give him a piece of my mind the next
day when I went to work. How dare he kiss me like that and then not even give
me the courtesy of a conversation.

Before I could start the car, I looked up, and saw headlights
approaching in the distance. Releasing a deep breath, I pushed the door back
open, and moved back to my previous position. As I stood there, I could hear
the loud rumble of the truck’s engine. It came to a stop right in front of
where I was parked, the lights blinked off, and then the engine cut. Nick shook
his head silently to himself before he climbed out.

As he made his way around the front of the truck, I stood there drinking
him in. He was wearing a worn pair of jeans that were frayed in just the right
spots, a black t-shirt that was so snug it showed every ripple and dip of his
chest and abs, but the real kicker…a Nike baseball cap that I hadn’t seen since
the last time we were together was sitting on top of his head. His sandy hair
was sticking out from the edges, and curling around his ears and nape. He had
the cap pulled low on his forehead covering his eyes in the shadow that the
bill created. An impassive look was plastered on his face as I watched him
stand there and stare at me.

“Nice hat,” I shrugged as I pointed at it.

He nodded at me as he stepped forward. His eyes scanned my face with a
look of sadness in them at first, but he quickly hid it. “What do you want
Leah?”

I swallowed at his direct and unaffected approach, “I just want to
talk.”

“Un huh,” he nodded again. “About what?”

“Us,” I mumbled as I twisted my hands in front of me. He was not going
to make this easy that much was obvious.

“There is no US,” he rolled his eyes at me and held his hands out to the
side. “You made sure of that when you ran out of here five years ago without
looking back once.”

“I’m sorry,” tears began to well in my eyes. “I’m sorry…I don’t know
what else to say to you.”

“Would you do it again…if you had the choice? Would you leave all of
this,” he spread his arms in front of him, “for another chance at gold?”

“If I knew it would turn out like this? Probably not,” I sighed.

He shook his head at me like he just couldn’t fathom anything I was
saying. “So…if you didn’t get hurt…would you have ever come back?”

“I don’t know,” I answered honestly. “I mean…I’m sure at some point… my
family’s here and…” I trailed off.

“See…that right there,” he pointed at me “That is why there is no us.
I’m like this thing to you. I’m not a person, I’m just someone you used to see
while you were biding your time to get away from here.”

“That’s not true. I loved you Nick,” I began to cry. At this point I was
so torqued up that I had begun pacing in front of him. “I still do,” I ground
out between my teeth. “I still do.”

“Yeah…well…” he stopped himself before he could say anything else.

My head jerked in his direction and I glared at him, “You can’t tell me
that you’re happy here. That you wouldn’t leave the first chance you got.”

“No, I can’t, but I can tell you that I would have never made that
decision without talking to you first. It would have been a joint decision
Leah. It wouldn’t have been taken lightly either.”

“You think I didn’t agonize over this for days?” I tossed my arms in the
air. “I was only given five days to decide. This decision was life altering. It
was my one shot at Olympic gold. Those chances don’t come around more than
once.”

“You sound like your parents,” he groaned. “I think you wanted out of
here so bad, that you jumped on the first chance you had. You didn’t care about
what it took to do it, or who you stepped on along the way. You saw me as
something that was holding you back,” he turned and began walking back to the
door of his truck.

“That’s not true and you know it!” I shouted at his back. “If you really
loved me back then, you would have understood what that offer really was. You
would have supported me!”

He stopped mid-stride and stiffened before shaking his head, “You have
no idea what I did for you. None what so ever.”

I crept up behind him and placed my hand on his shoulder lightly before
whispering, “Tell me.”

He spun so fast, I had to step back to keep from getting knocked down.
“I had several scouts come to see me before I graduated. UNC, Clemson,
Virginia…” he threw his hands out to the side. “We’d only been together for a
little over a year. I thought what we had was special,” he spit the words out as
if they left a bad taste in his mouth. “I turned them down…all of them…for
YOU!” he glared at me. “I wanted to stay here and be with you,” he pointed a
finger at me as he stepped closer. “I took a job I hated, and stuck around here
to keep building something that I thought you wanted too. I knew I’d never be
NFL material, but I could have gotten a free education.” At this point he was
so close to me I could feel his warm breath feather across my face. “I musta
been a damn fool to give all that up.”