Smolder (7 page)

“I’m
not joking here, princess. I can’t hold out much longer…I am dying to feel my
dick deep inside you and I am giving you one last out.”

“I
don’t want an out, Jude. I love you and I want this.”

To
show him that I was serious and I was fully aware of what was about to happen,
I sat back up and took his hard length in my hands. I lifted myself up and
positioned him at the entrance of my pussy.

Locking
my eyes with his, I said, “I’m going to ride you so hard you won’t want to fuck
anyone but me for the rest of your life, Jude Miller,” and his eyes widened as
I slowly started to slide down his cock.

We
both gasped and my eyes rolled in the back of my head as I slid down and took
him in inch by inch. He stretched me to the point of pain but it felt so
fucking good. I was so wet from him going down on me that it was easier for him
to fill me without it being too much to take.

Jude’s
fists gripped my blankets as he struggled to keep his wits about him. Seeing
him barely hanging on made me want to make this just as special for him as he
wanted it to be for me so I lifted myself up just slightly, sliding him back
out until his dick was almost out of me. I was dripping wet from feeling him
inside only halfway but the wait for him to be fully inside me was killing both
of us. I bit my lip and in one swift movement, I slammed down on his dick until
he was all the way in. Jude cried out in pleasure and he instinctively sat up
and gripped my hips, his eyes meeting mine.

“Holy
fuck, Sadie,” he growled. “Are you all right?”

A
tear escaped my eye and I nodded. “I’m fucking amazing,” I whispered as I
started to move and grind around on his cock. It burned just like it did when I
lost my virginity but this burn was delicious and so much more pleasurable. I
pulled my legs up and wrapped them around his waist and I felt him even deeper,
making him hit something deep inside me. My eyes rolled back again as he thrust
hard once and I felt a powerful wave of sensation and then a gush of liquid
rolling down his dick.

“Oh
shit!” I screamed, not sure what happened.

Jude
kissed my neck and said, smiling, “Well God damn. I’ve not had that happen
before after just one thrust.”

“W-what
was that?” I asked. “I’ve never felt anything like that.”

“You’ve
never squirted before?” he asked me.

“
That’s
what that was?” I asked, suddenly feeling relieved.

“You’ve
obviously never been with a man that knows how to do it right,” he said
confidently and slightly cocky, rolling his hips and starting to move my body
against his. Our skin was suddenly slicker and wetter and that made it feel
that much more amazing.

“You’re
right about that. We’ve barely started and this is already the best sex I’ve
ever had,” I moaned. As he moved his thick, strong cock in and out of me I
said, “God, I’ve wanted you to fuck me like this for so long.”

Suddenly,
Jude slowed down his rhythm until he was almost at a standstill. His gray eyes
melted into mine and he said, “Sadie, please tell me you know that we’re not
just fucking here.”

Breathing
heavily and wanting nothing more than for him to move, I nodded and panted, “I
know that.”

“Do
you really? I know you are in love with me and I know that I have some really
intense feelings for you too. What those are yet I don’t know, but you have to
know that this isn’t just ‘fucking’. It kind of bothers me when you say that.”

I
ran my hands along the back of his neck and rested my forehead against his.

“Jude,
believe me, what we are doing here is so much more than just fucking to me too.
I am so deeply in love with you and being with you like this is what I have
wanted forever. I keep saying that so you won’t get freaked out by what this
feels like to me.”

“What
would you call what we are doing?” he asked. “This is more than just sex. It
almost feels like we’re-”

“Making
love?” I blurted out before I could stop myself.

Jude
swallowed hard and wrapped his arms tightly around my body.

“As
scary as that sounds, yes. This feels like we’re making love.”

Warmth
spread through my whole body and I fought back tears of joy.

“Then
make love to me, Jude,” I whispered against his lips before I leaned in and
kissed him, thrusting my tongue inside his mouth.

Neither
one of us spoke another word as he started to move again, his strong length
making my body shake and shiver with ecstasy. We both moaned and panted as we
slowly and passionately made love to each other.

Time
stood still as we moved in perfect unison. My body was building higher and
higher and I was teetering so close the edge of insanity that I was almost
ready to pass out from the feeling.

“Jude,”
I whispered, “I’m close. I’m going to come, I can’t hold on.”

“Me
either,
fuck
,” he growled, kissing my neck and keeping up his pace.

He
thrust in and out of me a few more times before my orgasm hit me full force
without warning. Jude never stopped moving inside me, making my release so much
more intense. I felt him thickening inside me, his body telling me he was close
to falling over the edge.

“Come
with me. I want you to lose yourself in me, Jude,” I pleaded.

He
thrust one more time before he gritted his teeth and growled loudly, his body
stilling inside me as his release rocked him hard. I watched his face as he
emptied himself inside my body and I choked back more tears. Jude looked like
he might faint from pleasure and that made my heart soar.

“Oh
God, Sadie,” he cried out, riding out the last of his orgasm. I felt so elated
hearing him crying out my name as he came. When he was spent, he held onto me
and took me with him as he collapsed back on my bed, exhausted from making love
to me. I slowly slid off of him and snuggled into his side.

“That
was amazing,” I said, stifling a yawn.

Grabbing
the spare blanket off the end of the bed, he covered us up and asked, “You
tired?”

I
grinned and rested my chin on his shoulder.

“All
of that
love making
took it out of me, what can I say?”

Jude
laughed and kissed my forehead.

“Well,
I’m exhausted. I’ve never had sex that felt like that.”

“So,
it was good I take it?” I asked.

“Oh
Sadie,” he said, “that was
incredible
. Seriously…the best I’ve ever
had.”

My
eyes widened in disbelief.

“I
was your best sex
ever
? You’re just saying that,” I teased, hoping
beyond hope that he was being honest.

Jude
traced the curve of my cheek with his hand.

“No
I’m not. I have never lied to you, princess, and I’m not about to start now.
You are so fucking perfect.”

My
heart leapt and I kissed him deeply before snuggling into his side.

“Well
that’s a total lie, Jude, but you are so sweet to say that.”

“It’s
the truth, princess.” Jude traced a pattern on my back with his fingers and I
was just about to fall asleep when I heard him sigh from where deep.

I
lifted my heavily lidded eyes and asked, “Something on your mind, big guy?”

“It’s
nothing, baby. Let’s get some sleep,” he said, kissing my hair.

I
leaned up and looked at his eyes.

“Jude,
don’t lie to me. What’s wrong? It’s not me, is it?” I asked, suddenly insecure.

“Oh
no, trust me, it’s not you. I’m just…” he said, stopping for a moment.

I
rubbed his chest with my hand comfortingly and waited for him to continue.

“Tonight
was amazing, Sadie, and I don’t know what’s going to come of it. I was just
thinking that I hope I don’t make you run away. Deep down I’m a pretty fucked
up guy and you’re too important to me.”

I
leaned up on my elbow and placed a hand on his cheek. I forced him to turn his
head toward mine.

“Jude,
you could never make me run away. I didn’t have the best childhood, in case you
forgot. Hell, my mother used to bring guys home from the bar almost every night
and she’d fuck them when I was in the next room. Some of them would smack me
around after they’d beat the shit out of her. A few tried to do some even worse
things,” I said, anger starting to flare in me.

He
ran his fingers through my hair and his ever-changing eyes changed from a light
gray to almost black as I looked into them.

“Sadie…”
he whispered sadly.

I
shook my head and smiled at him.

“It’s
okay. I don’t want you to feel sorry for me because I am not sorry for anything
I went through. Everything that happened has made me the bad ass I am today,” I
said and he huffed out a laugh.  “Granted, no child should ever grow up the way
most of us did but if I can take anything positive from it I learned to fight
back and protect myself against anything. Because of what my mom did and let
others do to me and Beau, I know how not to raise my child if I ever have one.”

Jude
guided my lips to his and he kissed me deeply. I felt tingly all over as his
tongue danced with mine. He broke the kiss and left me breathless as he said,
“You are just about the most awesome person I know. I wish I was as positive as
you are. I am still carrying around a lot of anger toward my mom and what I
went through as a kid. It pales in comparison to what you and Beau had to deal
with, but I just haven’t been able to get past it.”

“So
why don’t you tell me about it?” I asked, running my finger across his bottom
lip.

He
shook his head and smiled at me.

“Oh
no, I’m not ruining tonight by talking about my fucking bitch mom,” he
answered.

“Hey
now, I just told you I was beaten and almost molested by bar flies my mom
brought home for a quick fuck. Tell me, Jude. Let me in,” I said.

Jude
pulled my body close to his and he rolled on top of me. I shivered as I felt
his dick, which was already hard again, pulsing with need against my stomach.

“I
have a better idea. Why don’t I spend the rest of the night inside you and
making you scream?” he asked, staring into my eyes.

I
wanted him to tell me about the demons he was still carrying around in his head
but clearly he wasn’t ready to let me in like I desperately wanted. However, I
was willing to wait him out and let him come to me with what was weighing on
him. If I couldn’t have his heart yet, I would most definitely settle for his
body.

I
answered him with a kiss and his strong hands immediately roamed down and found
my nipples again. I moaned loudly and broke away from his lips just long enough
to reach into my nightstand and pull out as many condoms as I could grab. I
tossed them onto the bed and Jude chuckled.

“You
plan on keeping me busy tonight, huh?”

“I
plan on keeping you busy like this every night, Jude,” I said before pulling
his lips back to mine.

Jude

I
woke the next morning feeling completely relaxed and more rested than I had
felt in what seemed like forever. When the scent of jasmine hit my nose before
I opened my eyes, I relaxed even more. The events of last night (and early this
morning) came rushing back to me as I felt Sadie’s beautiful body against mine.
She was lying with her back to me and her perfect ass resting right at my dick.
I opened my eyes and looked at her, still asleep in my arms, and my heart
started beating faster.

I
watched her sleeping peacefully and I felt something warm radiating in my
chest. I’d had sex with probably hundreds and hundreds of girls in my time but
I’d never woken up with one of them. I never let it happen and I silently
thanked myself for it. I felt in that moment that the first time I woke up with
a girl in my arms, it was meant to be Sadie Cavanaugh.

She
was not just beautiful, she was exquisite. Her eyelashes brushed against her cheeks
as she slept and I could see her eyelids fluttering while she dreamt. I
silently wondered if she was dreaming about me. Her lips were slightly pursed
and she had a lock of hair that was lying carelessly on her cheek. I reached up
and moved the hair from her face and tucked it behind her ear and when I did,
her eyes fluttered open.

I
smiled at her as she blinked a few times, letting her eyes get adjusted to the
light. She turned her head and when her gaze met mine my breath hitched. Her beautiful
brown eyes were almost a caramel color as they caught the light of the morning
sun.

Smiling
at me, she said, “Good morning, big guy.”

“Good
morning, beautiful,” I replied as she turned her body to face mine and I
wrapped my arms around her tiny frame. “How did you sleep?”

Sadie
smiled even wider and she answered, “Like a baby. What about you? Did you sleep
okay?”

“Better
than I have in a long time,” I said honestly.

“That’s
because you woke up with me,” she said confidently and I laughed.

“You’re
probably right.”

“Shit,
I know I am.”

I
laughed even harder and kissed her lips. My cock twitched against her hip.

“So,
are you hungry?” I asked, trying to distract my dick, which was getting harder
by the second. Sadie and I eventually needed to leave the bed at some point.

“For
you,” she said, wrapping her arm around my neck.

I
groaned and said, “We have all the time in the world for that, beautiful. Right
now we both need to eat. I can feel your stomach growling.”

Sadie
stuck her lip out in a pout and I had to shift my hips to try and make my fast
growing hard on stay down. I wanted to suck that bottom lip into my mouth and
feast on her kisses.

“Well,
as much as I hate to admit it you’re probably right. I haven’t eaten since
yesterday before we got into the pool.”

My
eyes widened as I thought back and realized she was right. I’d ordered some
pizzas after we came inside and after what happened between us yesterday we
both never got around to eating any of it.

“Shit,
that’s right. Well, we really need to go eat something now. You’re already tiny
enough. I’m not going to let you starve. Come on, get up,” I said, lightly
smacking her ass. “I’m taking you out for breakfast.”

She
giggled and asked, “What time is it anyway?”

I
looked at the clock on her wall and saw that is was almost noon. I reluctantly
got out of bed and turned to see her lying gloriously naked on the bed.

“Okay,
make that lunch. Come on, get dressed.”

“You’re
a demanding mother fucker, aren’t you?” she said and I laughed.

I
cocked my head to the side and lunged at her. She squealed as I pulled her from
the bed and tossed her over my shoulder.

“Jude!
Put me down!” she screamed as I carried her into her bathroom. I turned on the
shower and she said, “You know, I’m perfectly capable of taking a shower on my
own!”

“I
know, baby, but I make showers so much more fun,” I said, and I turned my head
to nibble her ass cheek.

She
gasped and moaned. “Oh fuck!”

I
set her on her feet and she wasted no time pulling my mouth to hers and forcing
her tongue inside. Soon the shower was hot enough and she pulled me inside with
her. I pressed her against the wall and lifted her so her hot little pussy was
right where I wanted it…at the head of my dick.

“Jude,”
she moaned, “I’m so wet, I’m ready. Fuck me, please.”

I
was just about slide in but I halted. I didn’t have any protection.

“I
don’t have a condom, Sadie,” I replied.

She
leaned her head back against the wall and muttered, “Shit.”

“What
do you want me to do?” I asked.

“I
want you right now, Jude. Just pull out before you go. It’ll be hot to feel you
come on my skin,” she said.

I
let out a primal growl and started to slide into her, gasping at the feel of my
cock bare inside her. This girl was a freak and I didn’t think I would ever get
tired of hearing her say just what I wanted to hear.

“Fuck,
you’re so damn tight,” I said through gritted teeth.

“Oh
God!” she screamed as I slowly moved in and out of her.

Her
fingers dug into my shoulders as her hips met my thrusts over and over. I
reached between us and pressed my thumb on her clit and she gasped loudly.

“You
like that baby? You want me to make you come?”

“Yes,”
she whimpered. “Make me come, Jude.”

I
pressed harder and rolled my thumb across her clit until I felt her inner walls
tighten around my dick. Before long she screamed out loudly and I felt hot
wetness rolling down my cock as she came hard.

Her
body was still shaking as my dick started to thicken and my balls got tighter.
I was so close to coming too and I needed to pull out right then. Sadie and I
had just started something good and the last thing either of us needed right
now was an unplanned pregnancy to complicate things even further.

I
kept driving into her and just before I was about to explode, I pulled out of
Sadie and the first hot spurt of my come shot out and landed on her stomach.

She
moaned at the feel of me letting go and whispered in my ear, “I love feeling
you come on me, Jude. It’s so fucking hot.”

As
soon as my release was drained from me, I kissed her lips and said, “You’re a
freaky little thing, aren’t you?”

Smiling
sexily, Sadie said, “Only for you, big guy. Okay, now that you’ve happily
distracted me, let’s get this shower over with so we can go eat. After last
night, this morning, and just now, I have a major appetite.”

I
grinned at her as she reached up and got her bath puff and some soap and
lathered it up. We both took turns washing each other and I was getting more
and more tingly with each touch. Sadie was quickly showing me what I’d been
missing by just sleeping with women and tossing them out. She was showing me
intimacy and how amazing real romance felt and I knew if I thought about it too
much I would let myself freak out.

A
little while later, we finally made it out of the shower and got dressed. I had
trouble keeping my dick soft when I saw Sadie dressed in tiny cut off shorts, a
black tank top with a pink skull on it, and high heeled sandals that made her
killer legs look even longer than they were. She had her long snowy hair pulled
up into a messy bun on the top of her head and had her hair out of her face
made it easier to see her huge brown eyes. I tried not to over think my worries
about Beau and the rest of the guys when they found out about us when I looked
into those damned eyes.

We
had just entered the restaurant and were being seated when the first true test
of our relationship confronted us. I heard squeals and screams as a small group
of girls, obviously Bad Blooded Rebel fans, came over to our table. Sadie
rolled her eyes before narrowing them at the women as she took her seat in our
booth.

“Oh
my God, it’s Jude Miller!” one of them screamed as they came over to me. One
wrapped herself around my arm and clung to me before I was able to sit down.
“You are so fucking hot. You’re my favorite member of Bad Blooded Rebel!”

I
glanced at Sadie who was quietly seething at the women and I knew I would have
to put the brakes on this fast if I wanted to avoid literal bloodshed.

“Thanks
ladies, it was nice meeting you but if you’ll excuse me, I was about to have
lunch with my girl here,” I said, winking at Sadie. She blushed but kept her
face in a scowl.

“Well,
from the stories I hear she must not mind sharing,” one of them said.

I
could feel the anger raging through Sadie and before I could say anything, the
girl continued.

“Come
on, let’s go to the bathroom. I’m sure she could live without you for five
minutes. Unless she wants to join us.”

Sadie
stood so fast that I barely had time to block her from attacking the girl.

“Why
don’t you go back to your fucking table before I rip every nasty hair out of
that skanky head of yours, bitch,” she spat. “Keep your fucking claws off of
Jude.”

The
girl narrowed her eyes at Sadie and said, “Calm down, precious. I was talking
to him, not you. He can think for himself. Don’t be so possessive, I’ll send
him back to you in one piece.”

I
tried to keep Sadie back but she had the strength of a Mack truck as she pushed
my arm out of the way and grabbed a chunk of the girls’ hair.

Pulling
the girl to her, she growled, “I wasn’t fucking playing, bitch. This is the
last time I’m telling you. Leave Jude the fuck alone or you will leave here in
an ambulance, got it?”

Sadie
shoved the girl and they all scurried back to their table. She sat back down
and instead of sitting across from her I scooted into the seat beside her. I
put my arm around her and pulled her close to me.

Kissing
the top of her head, I said, “Okay, first thing...thanks for getting rid of
those girls. Second, the minute we get out of here I am tearing those clothes
off you and fucking the hell out of you because seeing you get all jealous over
me just now just gave me an instant boner. That was fucking hot.”

I
felt Sadie start to relax and she turned her face to mine.

“I
couldn’t help it. I can’t fucking stand it when girls come up to you like that.
I know you are a famous rocker and I should be used to this shit by now, but
I’m not. I don’t know if I can ever get used to this.”

“I
wish I could make it stop, Sadie, but I can’t. Girls are going to approach me
sometimes but just remember you’re the one I’m going home with,” I said,
nibbling her ear.

She
giggled and sighed.

“So,
can I assume that last night was the start of something, I don’t know,
exclusive with us?” she asked.

I
know that Sadie wanted me to say that I wanted her to be my girlfriend and us
be a real couple but I just couldn’t bring myself to promise anything yet.
Before I made a real commitment to her, I wanted to talk to Beau first. I
didn’t know what would happen if he freaked out on me for wanting to date his
sister and I hated to admit that I was worried.

“How
about this? Until we figure this thing out we promise not to sleep with anyone
else but each other?”

Sadie
huffed out a laugh.

“Um,
I think that’s an easy promise to make considering last night was the first
time either of us had sex in over two years,” she said.

“Come
on, I’m serious,” I said, trailing my fingers up and down the curve of her
neck. I could feel goose bumps forming on her skin and it made me feel good to
know that something so simple could get a reaction from her.

“Jude,
you know I don’t want anyone in my bed unless it’s you. I promise not to sleep
with anyone else, okay?” she said as she looked into my eyes.

“And
I promise to only make the bed rock if you’re in it, baby,” I said to her and
she giggled.

She
leaned in and kissed my lips softly before I asked softly, “So, what are you
hungry for?”

Sadie
picked up the menu and scanned it with her eyes.

“Hmm,
it all looks so good. I’m starving…I want everything,” she said and I smiled at
her.

One
thing I always liked about her was her appetite. She ate like a full grown man
and I loved that she wasn’t shy about it. One thing I hated about girls was
when they would pick at their food or just order salads because they were
afraid of being heavy. Sadie was a sexy girl all around, but I had to admit
seeing her with a little thickness to her would be the only thing to make her
even sexier.

“I
don’t know how you’d fit all of it into that little body of yours,” I said,
picking up my menu.