Fallen Desire (19 page)

“Well, shoot let’s not just stand out here.  Why don’t you
guys come on in for some coffee?”  She opens the door gesturing us in.

We follow her into her house and there seems to be a plant living and blooming in every corner.  It’s as if everything around her is alive and filled with energy.  We walk straight through the entryway and into an open living room that has a bright red couch in the corner with two matching ottomans.  The colors on the walls vary and don’t seem to have much of a theme yet still flow well with the room.  There seems to be a running theme of red, blue, yellow and green throughout the hallway and living room, keeping the rooms matching.  We sit down on her red couch, and I feel so alive and almost powerful, it’s unexplainable what’s coming over me.

“Ethan, I knew you would come back and I knew you would bring her.  I’ve been waiting for so long and now that you’re here I have to say that I can sense you’ve changed.  I always told you that she would change you, and I know how it was hard to understand back then but I hope you feel it now.” 

“I do.  I’ve explained to Lindsay how I controlled my evil desires.  I’m not completely healed of the evil within me but her energy helps me to stay stable.  We’re here for your help and well, Lindsay is here for your help.  We need your assistance with helping Lindsay find her inner power so she can help me and all the rest.” 

“Yes Ethan.  This is what I’ve been waiting for.  Lindsay, I’m more than positive I can help you in your venture, but I will need your full dedication and focus – and I need you to be open to the ideas and plans I have for you.” 

Just hearing him talk about these powers I’m supposed to have makes me cringe with defeat.  He has all this faith in me and there is nothing about me that is out of the ordinary.  All I can do is go along with this notion that I’m the key to saving all those demons and preventing war on Earth. 

“Of course, as I’ve expressed to Ethan, I’ll do anything to help him and the other demons that are out there.  I’m open to anything and I definitely want to understand more about who I am.” 

She beams at the two of us, “This is good to hear.  Let me go get some coffee and cookies, then we can get started.”  I watch as she turns toward the kitchen with a smile.  Her short curly red hair bounces as she walks in the other direction. 

“I can’t explain how this house makes me feel Ethan.  It’s the most amazing feeling.  It’s like I’m more alive here than I’ve ever been.  Energy is flowing through me and I feel more stable and in control.  I can feel it running through my veins, tingling in every inch of my skin.  Do you feel it too?”  It can’t just be me. 

“I do feel it, Lindsay, but not like you,” Ethan says. “This type of energy is made for you.  It’s what you were created for.  It’s a part of you.  You’ll be able to create energy and heal not only demons from the evil that consumes them but you’ll have the power to bring life to people and the earth around you.  She’ll teach you to center yourself and you’ll learn your abilities and learn to control the elements around you.” 

I’m intrigued by his enthusiasm, “Wow.  I didn’t realize it was this extensive, even though I’m a little scared, there’s something about this place that makes me feel like everything’s going to be okay.” 

“It’s the energy of the elements that are calming you and reassuring you.  It’s what your soul is attracted to and your soul can feel the power that they give you.  Your body feels a sense of familiarity with the magic.  It’s inside you; we just have to bring it out.”  It all feels so real now that I’m here and feeling these emotions I’ve never experienced before.  I can’t even begin to imagine what
Avarie is going to be having me do.  I wonder if we will be performing séances to the Moon God or worshiping some higher being and asking for powers.  Just as my mind begins to wander, Avarie walks back in the room. 

“Well, I hope while I was preparing the coffee you had time to really take in the feeling of the elements that surround you, Lindsay.”  She’s carrying a tray with three cups of coffee and a plate of chocolate chip cookies, her face lit up with a warming smile.  Her appearance is youthful, but her spirit I can tell, is old and wise. 

“I definitely feel something, but I don’t know what it is.  I don’t even know if I’m aware of what these elements are.  All I know is that being in this house I get a sense of life and power – a sense of energy flowing into me.” 

She looks at me like I just answered a particularly difficult question, “Well dear, that’s exactly what it is.  If you’re anything like what I read about then these elements empower you to the point that you have total control of everything around you but these are things you’ll learn as we go.  Today I just want to try some exercises with you that will help you center yourself and open your mind to the true sight that you possess.” 

I take a sip of the coffee and a bite of a cookie and the sweetness fills my body.  “Um, okay.  Here?” 

She stands, “Actually if you will follow me down the hallway here I have a room that I like to use to center myself and perform rituals.” 

I leave the coffee on the table and as I follow her down the hallway I continue to see artifacts of the sun and the moon and many colors surround them including red, yellow, green and blue.  Each item is facing a different direction.  Not all well decorated if you ask me, but still pretty I guess.  We stop at a door that’s been painted green, entirely one shade of green.  Almost the same shade as Avarie’s eyes.  It seems odd for the fact that the other doors are all painted white. 

“Okay.  Before we can go in here we need to say a quick cleansing spell.  This room is pure and no evil has entered so Ethan I’m going to have to ask for you to stay out here.  No offense to you, I hope you understand.”

“I understand.  I’ll wait in the living room if you don’t mind.”  I get a glimpse of sadness and regret from the expression on Ethan’s face when Avarie basically refers to him as evil.  I want to speak up and give her a piece of my mind!  Ethan is the farthest thing from evil.  But instead I stay quiet, and Ethan kisses me on the cheek and turns back to the living room. 

“Lindsay, I need you to repeat after me.  I’ll say it once and then we’ll repeat it together in order to cleanse our energy of any potential evil or impurity.”  I close my eyes as she places her palm on my forehead and she begins to recite what seems to be some sort of poem. 

“
As I place my palm upon her skin, let my energy flow within.  Allow the light to reach her soul, enabling her to grow.  I call upon the spirit world to guide me in this righteous path.  Open up her mind to the wonders that you provide and let her true self shine.  Rid her of all impurities, lend us the power to be clean of any evil that hides within and release it.  And open up the door of life to bring us all our abilities.  So mote it be!”

I want you to clear your mind and only allow good energy to flow within you.  Now Lindsay, please repeat what I say.”  I open my eyes and already feel lighter.

“I call upon the elements.  Give me the energy to feed my soul, from earth, wind, water and fire I will grow.  Guide me to my destiny and allow my soul to be set free.  Open my mind to all the possibilities and empower me with my deepest energy that will give me the guidance that I need.  In the path that has been set in front of me.”

I repeat exactly what she says, and it is as if I can feel the energy of all the elements flow through me as I speak.  It’s a sensation like no other.  My body shivers at the newfound energy flowing within and I have a sense of satisfaction, like I’ve been waiting for this moment forever.  Without saying anything, Avarie turns to the door behind her and opens it.  Walking into the room, it is like nothing I’ve ever seen before.  It feels as if we’re in another world.  The room is embedded with trees and plants from corner to corner, and appears to be never-ending.  Flowers bloom all around us and in the center is the largest water fall I’ve ever seen.  I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a tropical forest. 

“Is this real?” I say.  “I’ve never seen anything like it?”  I can’t tell if I’m dreaming or just gone crazy from all the stress and I’ve started imagining things.  That or she drugged me with that coffee. 

“It’s as real as you want it to be, Lindsay.  You see, this room is very special.  Each person who walks in sees something different.  You’ll see what resembles you best.  Some individuals only see an empty room, and that is because their souls are empty.  Others will only see evil.  Please tell me, Lindsay, what is it that you see?”

“Everything around us is so alive and vibrant.  It’s colorful and filled with plants and trees and flowers.  There’s running water and a waterfall as large as I could ever imagine.  It’s extremely stunning, and the most beautiful environment I’ve ever been in.  We’re surrounded by the earth, and life is everywhere.” 

She nods in approval, “Interesting, it’s a representation of you, Lindsay.  You are life and pure living energy.  It’s symbolizing what you’re meant for as well.  Purity is what you will be destined to give.  I want you to open yourself to me while we’re in here.  We need to clear your mind of anything that may be holding you back from your true capabilities.  You will need to embrace your powers and the destiny that has been set in front of you.”

“I’ll do anything to help Ethan.  It’s all that matters right now.”  I still have no clue how I’m even supposed to help him, but if he says I’m the only one who can save him then I’ll do whatever it takes.  I’m sure the
how
will come as I go.  I want nothing more than to help him and hopefully help others like him to find the goodness that they hold within.  To free Ethan is all that I can hope for.  I love him so much and know that he’s suffering.  If I can just find a way to set him free of the evil inside so he can finally be at peace. 

“Yes, Lindsay.  I can see that you love him.  But before you will be able to help him, we have to open your mind so that you’re able to see the world and the people around you for what they are.  Now why don’t you concentrate on a quiet and peaceful place in here and take us there.” 

As I close my eyes, I think of Ethan, his beautiful face, and irresistible touch that sparks a light within me, and I open my eyes, and we’re standing behind the water fall in the middle of the room.  The water is flowing in front of us, and the earth is above and around us.  The sound is peaceful and I don’t think I would ever want to leave this moment if it weren’t for Ethan waiting out there for me.  I sit down on the nearest rock that looks comfortable enough and just take in the smell of the fresh water and the earth. 

“Wow, this is beautiful.  You seem to be in touch with your peaceful side, which may make it easier for the spirits to enter into you.” 

“You can see it, too?” I ask. 

She never seems to stop smiling, “Yes, I can now that you have brought me into your world.”  I don’t know why, but the thought of leaving Ethan a whole lot longer is starting to get to me. 

“What do you mean by spirits?  I thought you were going to help me learn my abilities.”  I want to learn more about my purpose here, but Ethan is really all I want and I don’t know how long this is going to take. 

“Lindsay, I need you to concentrate on opening yourself up and imagine energy and the spirits flowing in your body.  You need to clear your mind for this to work and give me your full concentration.  Don’t take your eyes off of me but at the same time try to relax your body and give into whatever feelings you get.”

Deep breaths, I can do this
, “Okay.  I’m sure that won’t be too hard.”  Sitting on the stone, I allow my body to relax and look Avarie in the eyes as she places a hand on each side of my head – but doesn’t touch me – and begins to speak this incredible chant:

“From the ground that grows beneath, open up her spirit from within and bring out the secrets that lie in her deepest strength.  Bring her the true sight.  Spirits of Earth, Water, Fire and Wind, please come to her so that she may fight all the demons that call upon her, give her your strength and she will find her way.  Spirit flow within and allow her to see the truth behind all meaning and bring to her what she seeks.  Let her see, hear and feel all things truthful for the power of true sight belongs within the redeemer.”

Her hair is glowing red and moving like the flame of a fire all around her as she speaks to the spirits.  My eyes are locked on hers, and I can’t seem to budge from my place here on this stone.  I can feel and see the energy that she’s calling upon.  It is flowing from her hands through my body.  It is bright lights of multiple colors of red, blue, green and yellow moving between like a heavy mist.  Avarie’s eyes, illuminated with emerald green, stare down at me.  The sight of her is literally stunning.  The energy encircling us is empowering and beautiful.  Colors intertwining with each other and moving between the both of us and as soon as she speaks the last words everything goes black, and it feels like I’ve fallen in an empty abyss. 

I’m standing in an empty space with nothing but darkness surrounding me until I see him.  Ethan!  He’s standing in front of me but is too far for me to reach.  His appearance is breathtaking.  His hair is lying perfectly and his porcelain skin is remarkable.  I want so much to walk toward him and touch him
but something tells me this isn’t the Ethan I know.  Even though he looks the same and his appearance alone pulls me to him, I can see something different in his eyes.  They are as black as the emptiness that surrounds us.  It isn’t the Ethan I know inside of the body that stands in front of me.  This must be the evil part of him, because when I look into these eyes all I see is evil and darkness.  There is nothing good about this man standing in front of me, and as I begin to look at him more, I realize I don’t know this person at all.  I reach my hand out to touch him and right before my fingers can touch his arm he’s gone.  “Lindsay!”  I hear his voice and realize I must have been dreaming.  I’m in Avarie’s house when I open my eyes to find myself lying on her red couch in the living room.  Ethan is over me, but there’s something different about him.  He has this glow surrounding him.  It is a dark red mucky color with black specks and white all around the edges.  It causes my stomach to wrench with a pain deep in my gut.  Something’s wrong, but I don’t know what it is.  Avarie has a glow of bright emerald green with violet lining the green surrounding her.  Now I’m really starting to lean toward the possibility of drugs in the coffee.