Losing Control (15 page)

When I woke up she was in bed next to me. I could barely believe it. She stirred in her sleep when I climbed on top of her and tried to kiss her face. She opened her eyes. “Morning,” she said with a smile.

“Morning,” I said, and kissed her.

She kissed back and we started making out. I pulled her dress over her head and lowered her bra, pinched a nipple and she moaned. My morning erection got worse. I slid a hand inside her lace panties. She moaned even harder. I kissed the skin along her neck, lowered my mouth to her breasts and kissed every inch of skin, used my tongue on those perked up nipples and she shivered under me. “Want to make it more interesting?” I whispered.

“How?”

“Wait here,” I said and got up, barely able to walk owing to the erection and I managed to get to the dresser drawer and found a couple of silk scarves. I brought them back to the bed and used them to tie her to the bed. She started laughing. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”

“You’ll find out soon enough,” I said and lowered myself to her thighs; put myself in the right position to eat her out. She quivered, tried to move when my tongue slid into her, and when I reached her clit she was bucking but the scarves limited her movement.

I had dreamed about this.

Jacked off to images just like this one ever since I’d set eyes on her. And now she was here, she was mine. Or if she wasn’t she would be.

I was in heaven and never wanted to come down.

The things Thorne’s tongue was doing to me, there was no way I could explain it. Suffice it to say that it made me forget everything. When he finally took his head out from between my thighs, I was craving more. He took off his shorts and I could do nothing but watch because I was tied to the bed and for some reason that tiny addition was making everything sexier. It made me feel at his mercy and…helpless. I had no choice but to trust him. His cock was hard when he started to search for a condom on the nightstand and slid it on. And when he finally thrust inside me, the feeling was better than anything I had ever felt before…

“We should probably have the talk,” I said, untying the second scarf and setting her free.

For now.

She looked at me from the bed. “What talk?”

I pressed a button on the wall so the blinds came off the large window and let in sunlight. She looked even more beautiful now than she had when I woke her up. “Now that we’ve moved on to a more intimate part of the relationship,” I said, fearing what might come after I had said what I wanted to say. “I should probably tell you that I’m a bit of a dominant in bed.”

“Dominant?”

“Ever heard about bondage? Or DS relationships?”

“A little.”

“Okay then,” I said. “Look, simply put although I enjoy regular, vanilla stuff once in a while, I really have to be dominant in bed in order to get any fun out of it.”

I couldn’t tell if that was dejection or her face or confusion. “Oh.”

“Elena,” I said. “I’m not into anything weird, I mean, I can do hardcore stuff if the submissive wants, but what I basically want is an extension of what we did just now.”

“Oh.”

“So…I need to know Elena. Did you…enjoy it?”

I hated that I couldn’t tell what she was thinking. “Well,” she said, after a while. “Yeah.”

“I’ll need a little more than that.”

She was thinking. Probably trying to figure out if it was too late to run. I didn’t blame her if that’s what she wanted but it would be extremely depressing. “Well?” I urged.

“Thorne,” she said, looking up at me. “Pretty sure this was the best sex of my life.”

I could barely believe my ears. “You’re saying…you had fun?”

“Yes.”

“And you don’t mind…continuing with this?”

“Maybe you can explain some of this stuff to me,” she said. “But yeah.”

“Elena,” I said. “I think I might faint with happiness.”

She laughed. “Okay look,” she said, and a flush crept over her cheeks. “This is not something I’m used to, but I can’t say that I didn’t enjoy it. I like trying new things.”

I leaned in and kissed her. “Well then,” I said. “How about you go with on a bit of a vacation?”

“Vacation?”

“I have another property,” I said. “A house. Its close by but no one knows about it, no one except for my immediate family. We could take a week off, see how it goes.”

“Thorne,” she said. “Don’t you think it’s a bit too soon for that?”

I sat on the bed, facing her. “Elena,” I said. “I haven’t wanted anyone the way I want you. I’ve never really dated, so to speak, ever since that last break up all those years ago. I know when I see something special and you’re special. If you’ll let me show you how much better this can get, I’m sure you’ll find yourself craving me like a junkie craves drugs.”

“A bit full of ourselves, aren’t we?”

“Why the hell shouldn’t I be?”

She was still smiling so that had to be a good thing. “Let me get back to you on that,” she said.

“Take your time,” I said and stood. “Now. Where would you like to go for breakfast?”

“I take it the date went well,” Penny said from the couch the minute I entered the apartment. She was in her PJs and watching The Notebook again, with a huge bowl of popcorn on her lap. There was a filled wine glass on the end table.

I took off my coat and went to sit next to her on the couch. “How can you tell?” I asked, dipping into her popcorn.

“The fact that it’s almost six in the evening on Sunday,” she said. “When you left on Friday.”

I could barely believe it myself. “The weekend became longer than we expected.”

“So you two hit it off, huh?”

“Penny,” I said. “He’s sweet! And caring! And so,
so
good in bed!”

Penny laughed. “Good to know you finally lost your post breakup virginity.”

That made me laugh too.

Everything we did over the weekend kept playing itself over and over again in my head. I didn’t want to jinx it but everything was just perfect. I couldn’t help but feel a little afraid. Usually when things were this perfect there was something truly awful lurking around the corner. But I didn’t care. Right now, it felt like the best thing in the world, and I was okay with feeling that way. I couldn’t be afraid that every man would be Nick, because that simply wasn’t true. I think it was testimony enough that despite detesting men in general, Penny didn’t seem to mind my seeing Thorne. She must have liked him if she approved of him. I was going to take that as a good sign.

I had been thinking about the week-long invite, the ‘vacation’ as Thorne called it. It didn’t seem like such a bad idea anymore, though when he had told me I had freaked out just a bit. Now I knew it might be actually be a good thing. It might help bring me out of the shell that I’ve been trying to secure myself in ever since the breakup with Nick. I couldn’t let Nick run my life anymore. He had already done enough damage; he wasn’t going to dictate who I went out with or who I decided to have a relationship with. I refused to give an ex that sort of power.

Maybe this time, for once, it would all work out.

The door to my office opened and Elena stepped in. We hadn’t told anyone about our thing, Elena wanted to wait and I wanted her to feel comfortable and not be forced into something. We had been going out a whole month and keeping that secret wasn’t always easy but we were managing it so far.

“Hey,” she said, coming over to my table to sit across from me. “Not done yet?”

“No,” I said. “I need a few more hours.”

“Thorne,” Elena said. “It’s eight in the evening. Everyone else is already gone, it Friday.”

I felt like someone just broke the trance I was in. I checked the time on my wrist watch and she was right. It was past eight. “So everyone’s gone?”

“Yes.”

“Why are you still here?”

“I thought I’d ask you what you’re doing tonight,” Elena said. “But I can see that you’ve planned to cheat on me with work.”

I lifted the pen and got up, walked over to her side. I trailed the non-ink side of the pen over her bare shoulder. “Well,” I said. “Maybe if everyone’s already gone we can fuck here?”

She looked embarrassed at the suggestion but her chest started to heave. I knew she was getting excited just as she was getting uncomfortable. “I should go,” she said and tried to get past me but I caught on to her hand. “I think you should stay,” I whispered in her ear.

She looked like she was swayed for just a second before she pushed me away. “No,” she said.

I grinned. “Are you saying that for your benefit or mine?” I asked.

She blushed. “You need to quit that,” she said, unable to stop a smile from forming. “Penny’s been bugging me for weeks now to go with her. If you’re busy then I’ll hang out with Penny and her friends for one night. We can do something tomorrow if you’re free.”

“I’m free,” I said and leaned against the desk, watched her movements. This was what I was going to be missing tonight. But if I didn’t get the work done today, I’d be distracted all weekend and I couldn’t have that. It was better to get over with it now.

“Okay then,” she said, hiding a smirk. “I’ll be off.”

“I’ll call you,” I said.

When she was at the door, she turned. “Have a good night,” she said with that lovely smile of hers and I was just about ready to leave everything behind.

“You too, Elena.”

My phone started vibrating on the desk.

I picked it up. “Hello?”

“Thorne?” I could hear Cyndi crying on the other end.

I dropped work and my attention was towards her. Cyndi wasn’t the crying type. Most of the time her headstrong attitude made people forget that she enjoyed being a submissive in bed. “Cyndi? Is everything okay?”

“I need to see you, Thorne.”

“I’m kind of stuck with something.”

“Thorne, it’s my father.”

I knew I couldn’t ignore that. “Give me half an hour,” I said. “I’ll be right over.”

“Okay.”