Authors: Xanthe Walter
stunning blonde dom in tow who had to be at least
thirty years her junior.
"She doesn't say much, but she fucks like an
alley cat!" Estelle announced cheerily. Matt was
glad his mom was no longer in earshot to hear that
news.
A waiter approached them, with a single
glass of champagne on his tray. He offered it to
Rick, who took it… and then frowned. "What's
this…?"
There was a magazine on the tray underneath
the champagne glass, and Rick gave a bellow of
amusement as he picked it up.
Matt glanced over his shoulder to see the
headline,
Sizzling Subs of Summer
, above a
picture of Rick, himself and the twins, toasting
marshmallows over a barbecue. Rick's tight denim
shorts looked ridiculous on someone his size, even
if they did show off his long legs and firm ass to
perfection, and the denim collar with red plaid
bow tie feature was ludicrously cheesy.
"Daniel!" Rick roared, and Daniel waved
from where he was leaning casually against a wall
nearby, watching.
"It just came out, so I thought I'd bring along a
copy for you to enjoy," Daniel said, coming over, a
shit-eating grin plastered on his face.
Take a look at
Collar Crime's
sexy summer
sizzlers as you've never seen them before,
the
magazine promised.
"
Sexy summer sizzlers
?" Rick groaned.
"Oh yeah!" Daniel laughed. "I'm a hot tub
hottie and now you're a sexy summer sizzler - I'm
going to have some fun with this. Nice shorts by
the way." He pointed at the photo.
"Oh, this is war!" Rick proclaimed, and the
entire cast laughed and gathered around to look at
the magazine.
They moved into the ballroom a few minutes
later to sit at their table. Matt took his place beside
Rick, his stomach churning nervously, and began
counting the flowers in the vase at the center of the
table.
Their waiter arrived and began placing plates
in front of them. He missed Matt out completely
and moved onto Rick, placing a larger sized plate
in front of him.
"What…?" Matt looked at his dom, open-
mouthed, and Rick grinned at him.
"I called ahead and requested it - I wanted to
surprise you."
"We're sharing a plate?" Matt looked at the
waiter and then back at Rick.
"I think it's time, don't you?" Rick asked.
"Yes!" Matt leaned over and kissed him,
grinning idiotically. "Oh shit - we're sharing a
plate!"
"That is so romantic," the twins cooed.
"I've never been crazy about that sharing a
plate shit. I don't like anyone fucking with my
food," Estelle commented.
"You two are moving fast. Next thing we
know you'll be announcing you've life-bonded,"
Karl said.
Matt exchanged a glance with Rick. "We
might," he said softly. "We found out we could
recently, and we're looking into it."
His mom stared at him, open-mouthed. "Don't
be ridiculous, Matt! You've only been collared a
few weeks. This whole thing with Richard is
probably a flash in the pan. You're just a silly
young sub with a head full of stupid romantic
notions - sharing a plate, life-bonding…" She
shook her head disapprovingly.
"You wouldn't mind if I was talking about
life-bonding with Sebastian Rule," Matt shot back
at her. "You're only saying that because it's Rick."
She put her napkin down sharply and got up.
"Excuse me; I need the bathroom," she said tightly.
Matt watched her go, his heart sinking. This
was turning into a very mixed evening.
"Life-bonding is a huge step," Daniel
murmured.
"That's why we're taking our time." Rick
rested his hand on Matt's thigh where he was
restlessly jiggling it under the table. His touch
calmed Matt instantly, and he shot his dom a
grateful smile.
"Have you felt the kaeira?" Daniel asked.
"Yes, we have," Matt replied. They'd
experienced the exchange of energy known as
'kaeira' several times since that night, and their
lovemaking had taken on a whole new dimension
as a result.
"I felt it with Suzanna," Daniel said wistfully.
"We talked about undergoing the ritual and
becoming fully life-bonded; we were just waiting
for the kids to grow up. Before we got that far, she
was diagnosed with cancer. I begged her to go
through the ritual with me anyway - I thought it
would at least delay her death if we shared the
illness, and I was happy to die with her, but she
refused."
It was the most personal thing Daniel had
ever said to them, and he flushed. "Sorry - I'm just
so pleased for you. I know how amazing it is to
feel the kaeira. So many people never experience
it, and I was so lucky to know it with Suzanna. I
envy you, starting out on your journey together, but
it couldn't happen to a nicer couple."
Karl murmured something and got up and left
the room. Matt watched him for a moment, and then
got up and followed his cast mate out onto the
terrace.
"Hey. You okay?" he asked softly, putting his
hand on Karl's shoulder.
"You heard him - he and his wife were about
to fucking life-bond! And she's been dead for
years, but he still wears her damn collar." Karl ran
a hand through his hair, laughing bitterly. "I don't
stand a fucking chance, do I, Matt? How the hell
do I compete with a ghost? Oh, don't look at me
like that; you know I'm crazy about him."
"Yes, I do." Matt rested his arms on the
balustrade. "Have you tried just asking him out on
a date?"
"He's the legendary Daniel Mayfield! He was
the star of the biggest action movie franchise of all
time. He's been voted the sexiest sub on the planet
more times than even you can count!" Karl said
despairingly. "You don't just ask him out!"
"Why not?" Matt shrugged. "I mean, maybe
that's why he always wears his wife's collar -
nobody ever asks him out because, like you said,
he's the legendary Daniel Mayfield."
"I can't. I'm just some insignificant Brit dom
who washed up on his shore and fell totally,
stupidly in love with him. I don't have anything to
offer him. Hell, I don't even know if our dynamics
fit together because I wouldn't dare put my hand
around his wrist to try and find out!"
"I don't suppose many doms would dare do
that," Matt said thoughtfully. "I mean, he plays
Chief Christie on
Collar Crime
, and he played
Tom Duke in the
Insubordination
movies. Most
doms would be scared off by that."
"But he's not like that," Karl said fiercely.
"He's a really shy, quiet person. He's not growly
like the chief or tough as nails like Duke, despite
those bulging biceps. He's the complete opposite!"
"You see that but most doms wouldn't."
"You don't suppose he's monosexual, do
you?" Karl asked suddenly. "I mean, maybe there's
no chance for me with him anyway. Maybe he'd
only look at a female dom."
"I doubt that's it." Matt patted Karl's shoulder.
"I think it's exactly how it seems - a sub who was
very much in love with his dom and devastated
when she died."
"And she was - what - about twenty years
older than him? And I'm ten years younger. Maybe
he only goes for older doms. Maybe it's totally
hopeless." Karl gazed at his hands despondently. "I
don't kid myself that I'm a catch for him, anyway;
I'm nothing beside him."
"That's such crap! You're a good person,
Karl; Rick told me what you did for us." Karl
glanced at him, one eyebrow raised. "The short
straw thing?" Matt grinned. "And apparently a ton
of little pep talks to point Rick in the right
direction."
"He needed to hear it from another dom. All
the subs in this cast endlessly indulge him and
stroke his ego; he needed to hear the truth."
"Well, I'm grateful. And uh…" Matt flushed.
"Not just about that, but about what you did
recently too, when Rick asked for your advice."
"Did that work out okay for you?" Karl asked
quietly.
"Yes. More than okay. It sort of took us to a
whole new level. So thank you," Matt said
sincerely.
"I've always been like this." Karl sighed.
"Great at figuring out other people's lives and
totally crap with my own. Right." He straightened
up. "Time to go back in there and put my game face
on again."
Matt watched him go. He thought Karl and
Daniel would make a good couple, and he
resolved to do his best to help make it happen.
Karl had helped bring him and Rick together after
all, so Matt owed him.
He heard a sniff and saw his mom standing at
the far end of the terrace, her shoulders shaking.
He sighed and went over to her.
"Hey, Mom. I'm sorry; I shouldn't have
snapped at you."
"I'm fine." She dabbed her face with her
handkerchief and turned away. He knew she'd die
rather than let anyone see her in a weak moment,
even him.
"Why can't you just be happy for me?" he
asked. "Rule was a bastard, but Rick makes me
happy. Can't you see that?"
"He's not right for you! Sebastian was
perfect."
"No, Sebastian just looked perfect. Rick
might not tick any of the right boxes, but he's the
right dom for me. Love is like that; it's
complicated, and messy, and it doesn't fit neatly
into the right box. Sometimes you have to let go
and stop trying to be in control of it all the time."
Matt gave a wry grin. "I know that's not easy for
people like you and me, but it's a lesson I learned
the hard way."
"I don't understand!"
"I know." Matt put his arm around her. "But
there's something you do have to understand: I love
Rick, Mom, and he's here to stay. I know he's not
what you wanted for me, but he's what I want for
myself."
"But life-bonding?" she wailed. "You do
realize that if he dies, you'll die too!"
"And vice versa."
"But he rides around on that dangerous Harley
- going too fast!"
"And I could die falling down the stairs,"
Matt pointed out. "Life is risky, Mom. You can't
keep building up walls and barriers to keep
yourself safe."
"You think that's how I brought you up, don't
you? I know you blame me for that counting thing
you do."
"Rick's helped me with that - I don't do it so
much anymore; and while I'm not exactly a thrill-
seeker, I've learned that taking some risks isn't so
bad," Matt told her firmly.
"But life-bonding…" She looked completely
baffled.
"It's not just about dying! If either of us is hurt
the other one can share their pain, and any injuries
heal twice as fast. People with long-term
disabilities can survive far longer with a life-bond
than without. So if I got MS or something, then I'd
share it with Rick, and the symptoms would only
be half as bad for each of us."
"But you can never change your mind!" she
blurted. "Once you've life-bonded with him then
you're stuck with him forever."
Matt rolled his eyes. "So that's it. You're
hoping that one day I'll wake up, come to my
senses, and go and find myself a mom-approved
dom?" He shook his head. "It's not going to
happen, Mom. Besides, you can only life-bond
with a person if you're very compatible - the ritual
doesn't work otherwise. You can't get tied forever
to some person who you end up hating; it doesn't
work like that."
"Well, I guess I can't really understand it
because I've never been in love, Matt," she said, in
a small voice. "The only person I ever loved is
you, and now Richard has come along and your
life is moving on, away from me, and I'm losing
you all the time. There now, listen to me - I really
am a very selfish person."
"And hard on yourself - and everyone else -