Sacred Surrender (12 page)

As Madison sat at the kitchen table, Rowan served up the rest of the food for her.  Along with the steak he made baked potatoes, corn on the cob and the salad.  An hour and two glasses of wine later, Madison helped him clean up the dishes.  As they finished rinsing up the last of them, she wiped her hands on the green dish towel that lay on the counter, then folded it neatly as if it were going to be placed back into the drawer. 

“Thanks for dinner.  I hate to eat and run, but I should get back home.  Work bright and early, you know,” she said, disappointment lacing her voice. 

She didn’t want to overstay her welcome, but, damn, she could spend hours upon hours with him.  She’d felt so comfortable talking to him and wanted to continue, but she really did have an early morning ahead of her and it was her first week at work.  She didn’t want to make a bad impression by being late. 

“That’s okay, I understand.  Let me walk you home.”  

Rowan enjoyed their time tonight and didn’t want it to end, but completely understood her need to get some rest.  He shut the door behind him, as he and Madison made their way out to his front porch.  He grabbed her hand while they took the steps down, heading back to her place.  The electricity that burned between them was evident as his palm pressed against hers.  When they reached the top step at her home, Rowan pulled her into his arms and pressed his lips to hers.  Instead of tensing up like she had before, he felt her relaxing into him.  He wasn’t sure if the two glasses of wine she’d downed had anything to do with it or if she simply felt more relaxed and comfortable around him now.  Rowan ran his tongue along the seam of her lips enjoying the taste of wine that still lingered there.  He’d planned on just a simple kiss goodnight, but when he felt her press against him, he couldn’t pull himself away from her.  His hands began to move of their own accord; one resting on her hip pulling her closer into his rock hard erection as the other cupped the back of her head, his fingers tangling into her dark ringlets.  He pulled away slightly pressing gentle kisses from her mouth, until his lips reached her ear. 

“I can’t seem to keep my lips off you,” he whispered into her ear. 

“I’m glad.  I like your lips on me.”  

Madison actually said what she was thinking for the first time and didn’t feel shy about it.  She needed Rowan to keep going.  She needed to keep feeling all the sensations flowing through her body at this moment.  She wanted all the inhibitions she felt her whole life to disappear; to let her body take over and her mind to shut down. 

Rowan opened the door and followed Madison in closing it behind them.  He wasn’t sure how far this would go between them, but he wasn’t ready to walk away yet.  She tasted too good on his lips and her body felt right pressed against his. When she confessed she liked his lips on her, he knew the night would not end with that one kiss. 

Chapter 10

Madison heard the door shut behind her and the clicking of the lock.  Her heart sped up like the engine on a motor boat at the thought of what was about to happen.  She knew this would be the night that she’d finally lose her virginity.  The night she was going to experience what so many others already had.  She was scared and excited and nervous all at the same time.  Turning to see Rowan standing in her entryway with the sexiest grin on his face, she wanted nothing more than to throw herself at him.  She hoped he would take the lead because she really didn’t have a damn clue where to go from the kiss.  Making his way to her, she felt him running his fingers down her right arm.  Surely, he could feel the goose bumps that were evident under her blouse. 

Without a word, Rowan brought his fingers up to the buttons on her shirt, as he kept his gazed fixed on hers.  He began to undo the remaining buttons, then slipping it from her shoulders; he tossed it to the floor.  Rowan leaned down, placing kisses on her exposed neck as he pulled the black tank top from the waist of her jeans. 

Madison was uncertain what to do with her own hands.  Should she be touching him or just allow him to have his way?  She wanted both.  She wanted to rip his clothes off, yet enjoy the feel of his fingertips caressing her skin.  Her body rippled with the nervousness of the moment, as Rowan pulled the tank up over her head.  She stood there in just her jeans and turquoise bra.

Rowan ran a finger from her throat to the valley between her breasts while his gaze stayed locked with hers.  His fingers traced back up to the strap of her bra while he leaned in and pressed his lips to hers once more.  His fingers lingered as if waiting for her to give him an inclination to continue. 

“Tell me if you want me to stop.  Just say the word and we quit at any point,” he spoke into her mouth. 

“Rowan?”  She said on a shaky voice.  She had no intentions of allowing him to stop, but she only felt it right he understood what he was getting himself into. 

Rowan felt disappointment well up within him at the questioning sound of his name.  He’d pushed too far again.  They’d had such a wonderful dinner and now he was going too fast again.  Damn it!  When would he learn?  He couldn’t help himself, though.  He didn’t want her to tell him to stop, he would but it would take all his self-control.  Rowan had never wanted anything or anyone more than he wanted Madison in this moment.  He couldn’t get enough of her. 

“We can stop, Madison.  I won’t lie, I’ll be disappointed because I want you so badly, but I’m okay with stopping, if that’s what you want.  I’ll never try force you to do something you don’t want to.” 

“It’s not.  I mean, yes, I want this, Rowan.  I want you to continue, but there’s just something you should know before we go any farther.” 

How was Madison going to tell him?  How was she going to tell him that he was about to have sex with a twenty-three year old virgin?  Would he even want her after he found out?  Men like Rowan were experienced and wanted to be with someone who was experienced as well.  She realized, as the questions ran through her mind that her fear was not in giving herself to him, but that he wouldn’t want her once he found out what she didn’t have to offer. 

“You can tell me anything, Madison.  Anything,” he said, stroking her cheek with his knuckles. 

“If after I tell you, you decide you don’t want to be with me, I will completely understand.”  Madison waited for him to say something, but he stood as a stone statue daring her to deter him from his mission.  She let out a sigh.  “Well, you should just know that I’ve never been intimate with a man before.  As in, I’m still a virgin.” 

Madison’s heart beat a little faster as a slow, sexy grin lit up not just his face but his eyes.  Keeping those blue eyes locked to hers he slowly reached behind her releasing the clasps of her bra, allowing it to fall to the floor below next to the material that had already made its resting place there.  Relief flooded Madison as he dipped his head to her breasts, his tongue circling her hardened nipples, one after the other.  Heat surged through her body as the tingling in her breasts grew stronger when Rowan took one into his mouth, while his finger and thumb pinched the other.  Sucking, licking, and teasing her until she didn’t think she could take it any longer.  Her head fell back as a moan slipped past her lips. She felt him smile against her skin, as his hand traveled the length of her body, his fingers pressing between her thighs through the denim she wore.  Her hips began to rock back and forth, her pussy grinding against his hand.  She needed to feel his skin against hers.  She wanted to feel his erection pressed against her wet hot core.  As he continued to play her body like a well tuned instrument, she grabbed his hair with both hands and held on for dear life. 

Rowan gave her nipple one last flick of his tongue then brought his mouth to hers for a deep bruising kiss. He had no intentions of walking away from Madison, especially after the confession of her virginity.  He’d not only be the first one to bring her to orgasm, but the first one for her to give herself completely to and that excited him more than anything ever had in his life.  He was glad another man hadn’t touched her luscious body.  She would experience all the pleasures her body could for the first time and he’d be the one to show her what wonders awaited her. 

“I want you more than you know, Madison.  More than I could ever imagine, especially knowing that you are surrendering to me something so sacred to you.” 

“Make love to me,” she said on a ragged breath. 

Rowan reached around to his back pocket for his wallet so that he could retrieve the condom there before they got any further.  He’d accept her virginity, but he’d be safe in doing so.  He leaned his forehead to hers.  Damn it to hell, he left his wallet back at his house. 

“Listen to me and hear what I am saying to you, I have every intention of making love to you tonight.  As a matter of fact, I plan on ravishing you until you beg me to stop; just as soon as I get back.” 

“Get back?”  She asked confused.  Why would he be leaving when they were just getting things going? 

“I left my wallet on my dresser, which means I don’t have a condom, so I need to go get one.  I will gladly make love to you, but safely.  Give me just a second and I’ll be right back.  I promise I won’t be long,” he released her, unlocked the door and stepped outside. 

“Several,” she said as she watched him clear the three steps leading to her walkway. 

Turning around, he asked with confusion in his voice, “What’s that?”

Heat burning her cheeks, “Get several, if that’s okay.” 

“Hell yeah, it’s more than okay.” 

Chapter 11

Madison hurried back inside, picked up the clothing that lay on the floor and tossed it on the couch.  She smiled at the thought of Rowan dashing next door to get condoms.  Was it natural for a man to put so much thought into making sure he had protection?  She thought it was probably because he was a doctor or maybe just the type of man he was.  She kicked off her sandals, placing them by the front door and made her way down the hall to her bedroom.  Her first time needed to be as perfect as it could be.  She knew there’d be some pain, but if she set the mood just right, maybe it would take that away somewhat. Lighting candles, she realized she was walking around in only her jeans and it felt liberating.  As she lit the last candle, she felt heat make its way to her pussy.  The heat had nothing to do with the candles, but because she felt Rowan in the room.  Her body instantly reacted when he was around, even if she didn’t hear him or see him.  Turning around, she saw him leaning against the door frame of her bedroom, his shirt now missing and a come fuck me grin on his face.  Her body tingled with anticipation. 

Holding up the condom box, “When you said several, I wasn’t sure how many you meant, so I just brought the entire box.” 

Suddenly, the nerves that had been weighing on Madison since Rowan had left evacuated her body and she let out a laugh.  Yes, she wanted to use every last condom in that box tonight.  She made her way to the edge of the bed as Rowan sauntered further into the room.  

“We’ll take this slow,” he said as he casually advanced deeper into the room. 

“Thank you,” she said on a whisper. 

Rowan sat himself in the small recliner in the corner of her bedroom, “Undress for me, Madison.” 

“What?” 

“Undress for me.  Slowly, please.”  

His breaths were shallow at the prospect of watching her undress.  He’d always been the one taking clothes off his lovers, but something deep inside him desired to watch her undress.  He wanted this first experience with her to be like no other he’d had before. 

Madison took a deep breath, kept her eyes on Rowan, and slowly undid the snap of her jeans, taking her time sliding the zipper down.  The woman in her was thrilled watching Rowan’s reaction to her movements, even though she was uncertain of what she was doing.  His eyes widened while his chest rose and fell as she slowly, methodically slid the waistband from her hips, bending to pull them completely off.  Something inside her took over, as she stood next to her bed in only a turquoise thong.