Save Me From Me (17 page)

“Have you ever been skinny dipping before, Holden?” I ask as I start to slowly undress.

“No, this will be a first,” he says as he pulls his shirt over his head, his eyes never leaving my body. “Have you?”

“Yeah, I used to go a lot when I was younger.” I slowly drag my skirt down my legs. “But besides the fact that I was usually the only girl, I was also the only one who was fully developed.” I let my eyes travel up and down Holden’s now naked body before letting them rest at the area below his waistline for a little longer than I should.

Dirty thoughts flood my mind. Mainly thoughts of how good I bet he feels. “But my, oh my, how the times have changed,” I say before biting my lip to keep from saying anything else.

“Yes, they have, Hot Shot.” He rakes his gaze over me standing there in my panties and bra. “Meet ya in the water.” He winks before taking off towards the dock.

I watch him as he goes, taking in every movement of each muscle, mainly that one called the gluteus maximus. Day-um, does Holden have a fine behind. I just want to squeeze it. And smack it. And grip it as he’s pushing himself into me.

Dirty thoughts, again.

The sound of the water splashing as he jumps in turns me into a bundle of nerves and excitement. I kick my panties off and toss my bra the same direction as I run to the dock. Without even stopping once, I make it to the end, and gracefully do a cannon ball. The water is cold and sends chills throughout my body as I resurface.

“Impressive.” I hear from behind me.

“Well, yeah, you know. I’m not one to brag,” I say as I swim towards him.

“It’s not bad to brag about things you are good at,” he says as he pulls me to his body. “You just have to make sure you can back it up.” He starts trailing kisses from my ear down my neck. I feel his hardness pressed against my stomach as I wrap my legs around him.

“What are you good at, Holden?” I ask.

“Didn’t I show you earlier?” He smiles against my lips. “Do you need a recap? A refresher course?” he asks as he lets one finger glide up between my legs from behind.

I quiver against him. Not from the coolness of the water, but from the warmth he ignites within my body. As much as I want him to touch me again, I suppress the urge. It’s my turn to brag.

“No instant playback needed. I think it’s my turn to demonstrate my qualifications.” I take my hand and slide it down his chest. It’s nice and firm, and I know as soon as I start to feel the hair of his bunny trail that I’m about to hit the jackpot. I let my fingers sway back and forth along the tip of his dick. As I do this, I drop kisses along his jawline. The slight stubble feels rough, but I enjoy the friction. With each kiss, I let my hand slide down his hardness even more. Once my mouth makes its way back to his lips, my hand fully grasps his dick. He sucks in a breath as I start to slowly move it up and down, paying special attention to the head. I change up my rhythm and speed for a while. Gripping and gliding, my fingers dance along it in different intervals at different tempos. I want to find out what he likes best.

Slightly pushing me back, he breaks away from the kiss as he grabs my breast with one hand while keeping the other tightly around my waist. “I’ve been dying to feel these,” he says as he gropes it and lightly pinches my nipple. I let out a moan in response. “I’ve been dying to put my mouth on them.” He kisses and teases as he licks around my nipple before finally sucking it between his lips. I can’t help my body’s natural reaction to grind against him in response. He kisses his way back up, sliding his hand through my hair, pulling my head closer to his. “The things you do to me should be a crime,” he whispers in my ear.

As I speed up my pace, I use my thumb to pay special attention to the tip of his dick with each trip to the top. I let it glide around the top in a circular motion before stroking my hand back down. I let my thumb mimic what my tongue would be doing… What it’s been dying to do since the first time I laid eyes on this man.

“Come for me, Holden,” I say as his breathing becomes inconsistent and his body tenses with each motion. “I want you to come for me. Then I want you to carry me up to the bank and lay me down. I want to feel you inside me. I need for you to feel how bad I want you.” I wrap my arm around his neck and bring our heads ear to ear. I want to be as close to him as possible when he lets go. I want to feel every bit of it.

His body starts to shudder, and he breathes in quick, hot pants against my neck. He moans out in pleasure as he finds his release. My hand doesn’t stop until I feel the last pump leave his body. He wraps both arms tightly around me as he places his forehead against mine.

“That was amazing. Thank you.”

“My pleasure,” I say, placing a kiss on his lips. Instantly, the fire ignites between us, and he grips me under the ass as we make our way to the bank of the lake.

“I’ll show you your pleasure, baby.”

“Mmm,” I moan. “I can’t wait.” The anticipation of what it feels like to be with Holden Reynolds is killing me. It’s a slow, sweet, torturous kind of death. I’m hoping that this is going to be slow and sweet, mixed with a bit of long and hard.

He slowly lays me down near where we threw our clothes, and grabs a condom from his jeans. His body ontop of mine causes me to shiver from the contact.

“Are you cold, baby?” he asks against my lips.

“No, I’m antsy.” I wiggle my body beneath him.

He laughs. “I’m antsy too, but I want this to be perfect. I’ve waited too long for it not to be.” His admission is sweet and makes my heart flutter along with other areas.

I place my hand on his cheek, and let my thumb slide back and forth along his face. “Don’t you get it? It’ll be perfect no matter what, as long as it’s you and me.”

“I just needed to hear that you felt the same,” he says as he lowers himself even more onto me. I feel him between my legs and want him in me bad. I spread my legs apart, and let them fall open to the side.

I’m putting the bait out for him to take. He’s just gotta bite it.

“Holden, I don’t know what I need, or what the future may hold. But I know what I want right now. I want you. I want to feel you in me. I want to feel your body against mine. I’ve wanted to know what it feels like since the first time I saw you. I want to know what it’d feel like to have you that way for the rest of my life. I want to know how good it could be with you if things were different. Just for tonight, make me feel those things, please.”

“You don’t have to ask me twice, Darlin’. I’ve been wanting to show you for so long.” He bends down kissing my neck and nipping his way back up from my collarbone to my ear. “Let me save you.”

“You can’t save me from me, Holden,” I say as I lock my hands in his hair, pulling his lips to mine.

“I don’t want to save you from you. I get you. I get why you do the things that you do. I want you just the way you are. I want to save you from this place. I want to show you what you are capable of, that you deserve so much better than living your life for everyone else. More than anything, I want you to live for you. I want you to go after the dreams that you think no longer have a purpose. I want you to put yourself first even if that means not choosing me in the process.”

“Never doubt my feelings for you, Holden. No matter what happens, you will always hold a special place in my heart, but I’m not one for making promises that I’m not sure I can keep. And right now, I just want you, so no more talking unless it’s coming out in the form of a moan.”

He grinds his hips, causing his dick to slide up between me instead of inside me. The tip rubs my clit and has me bucking up against him. Taking that as a good sign, he repeats this a few times. The whole time he’s doing this, his hands are twisted up in my hair, and he’s just watching me. Him watching me is so damn sexy. His eyes aren’t just lust filled. There’s so much more there. I know he cares, and I know that he will do everything in his power to make this memorable.

I feel the tip at my entrance as he bends down to kiss me but stops before reaching my lips. “You’re so beautiful, Dani. Inside and out.” Skipping the soft and slow kind of kiss, this one is hot and heavy. I want to grab onto him and guide him in because it’s starting to feel like time is slowly ticking by. It’s either that, or wrap my legs around him and push him in that way. Either way, I need him in me, and I need him now.

“I want you in me, Holden. I have to have you in me. Like now.”

He slowly starts to ease his way in when, out of nowhere, a spotlight flashes on us.

“What are you kids doing out here?” I hear yelled from the distance. Holden rolls off of me stealth-mode style, and we quickly grab our clothes and start running.

“Sorry,” I yell between laughs. Total mood killer.

Since the fire that burned between us was completely extinguished when we got caught, we throw our clothes on, but I decide against loading her up and taking her home. Instead, I hop up on the hood of my truck and stick my hand out for her to join me.

“What are we doing?” she asks as she places her hand in mine.

“Look at the sky.” She looks up. “This is the perfect open spot to see all of it. It’s amazing.”

“I wish I had my camera. I’d love to capture a picture of the Big Dipper.” She laughs. “But I seriously doubt it’d be visible with my camera. It’d be more like white specs of connect the blurred dots.” She leans back, lying next to me on the hood.

“You should follow that dream of yours,” I say, holding our laced fingers up and enjoying the way they look together.

“That’s what my dad use to tell me, too. I think that’s why he always strongly encouraged my picture taking fascination. He knew it was more than just a hobby.”

“Sounds like he was a smart man.”

“He was,” she gushes. “He died way to soon. I’ll always feel guilty for staying away.”

“What do you mean by staying away?”

“As I’ve mentioned, after graduation, I took off. I was hell bent on making something different out of myself than most of the people here in this town. Gage and I were going to take off to attend Texas A&M together until his dad found out he had Prostate cancer. He put his dreams on hold to take over his dad’s mechanic shop business instead. He wanted me to stay, maybe even go to OU, anywhere that was at least in the same freaking state. The truth was I needed out of this state but needed to still be close enough to visit—which I rarely did and when I did come into town, I only saw my family. I dodged Gage like crazy. Not sure if it was because I was scared I’d fall back into what we had and end up moving back, or if I felt guilty for hurting him. Who knows?” She shrugs. “But none of it mattered anyways. Leaving this town, going to college, getting a pimp accounting job, having my own place, and nice car—none of it mattered. I lost it all when my dad died.”

I bring her hand to my lips and lightly kiss it. “I’m sorry about all that, Dani. I know all about running, too.”

She turns her head against my shoulder so that she’s now looking at me. “What were you running from, Holden?”

I let out a chuckle. “Well, I was strongly encouraged to take off,” I say, deciding to open up to her just like she did with me. I feel comfortable with her, and I know she’d never judge me. Plus, I’ve kept all this in for so long. My body’s starting to feel a bit lighter as I let some of this bullshit out. “I had this best friend, Jesika. I was so in love with that girl. It was silly, but she never knew. I kept it pretty hidden. Dumb on my part. Long story short, I lost her to my cousin. He knew how I felt about her, but went for her anyways. He ended up feeling threatened by me, I think, and told me it’d be best for everyone if I took off. So, I did. After graduation I left and joined the Navy.”

“Wow, Holden. I would have never guessed. I guess we are more alike than I thought.”

I tighten my arm around her and she lays her leg on top of mine as we look up to the stars. I start pointing out what constellations and planets I can see and Dani joins in.

“You see that bright star way up there? The one that’s extra bright?” I ask her, and she tells me yes. “I’m naming that one Dani Jo, because just how it brings extra light to the night sky, you do the same to my life.” Saying that might be admitting more than I should already, but I can’t help what I feel for this girl. This strong-willed, no-shit taking, smart, beautiful, loyal woman has one of the biggest hearts I’ve ever seen. She hides her most valuable traits from the world, so I feel very lucky that she shares them so willingly with me.

Her phone rings, making me wonder who the hell would be calling her this late at night. She bolts upright, and I can’t help but follow as I listen to her attempt to calm down whoever is on the other end.

“Adyn, you have to slow down, Hunny. I can’t understand what you’re saying.” She pauses as she intently listens. “We’ll be there in ten minutes. Stay put.”

I slide down the hood and hop off. Dani swings her legs off to the side, and I place my hands on her waist, lifting her off. I open the door for her and quickly make my way to my side, starting the truck before I even know what’s going on.