That's a Promise (30 page)

Blake sucked my tongue into his mouth, making me moan for him again. I needed more of him. I needed to feel him inside of me. Filling me up so that I could finally feel whole again. “More…” I whispered to him, and he positioned himself in front of me, while I wrapped my legs around him. His tip hit my pussy, and I could feel myself trying to pull him in further. He grabbed my cheeks again, and kissed me while he pushed himself inside.

I gasped, and threw my head back in pleasure. He gripped my hips firmly in his hands and kept a steady rhythm with his hips. The feel of his big cock filling me, then leaving me, only to come back into me was so electrifying and thoroughly missed, that I lost all sense of being. I didn’t care that we were in his office. I didn’t care that he was fucking me on a desk. I didn’t care that the people in the hall could probably hear my cries of ecstasy. All I cared about was the man that I loved, and the way that only he was able to make me feel.

I felt another orgasm building inside of me. A sheen of sweat covered both of our bodies, making him look even sexier. His grip on my waist gripped harder, as he brought his other hand to grab some of my hair to tilt back my neck. He licked my neck, and I gripped his shoulders loving the ride he was taking me on. He sucked on my neck a little, and I was brought back to the precipice.

“I’m going to come,” I breathed out, grabbing his bare back. Blake moaned, and brought me even closer to him. He moved me up and down on him, and I noticed that he was reaching his orgasm at the same time I was. My nails dug into his back and I let out a loud scream as I came around him, legs gripping around him and toes curling. His movements were erratic and I heard him groan as he released himself into me. My insides clenched around him wanting to milk out every last drop of him.

We were both breathing heavily as we both came down from the high of our sexual peak. Our arms were wrapped around each other, and we basked in post-coital bliss. After a few minutes, Blake unwrapped himself from me, and went to the bathroom that was in the office. He came out with a wash cloth, and came to me. When he started to clean me himself, I was a little shocked and embarrassed, but it felt so intimate so I didn’t stop him. He placed chaste kisses along my thigh, and then on my lips when he was finished.

We dressed, and he told me he was going to tell one of the other workers to close up for him, so he could spend the rest of the day with me. To say I was red in the face when I passed the workers as we left his office, would be an understatement. I couldn’t bring myself to look at them, and Blake thought it was the funniest thing in the freaking world.

We ran to my favorite bookstore, and I agonized over which of three books to buy. Blake put all three on the counter and paid for them without acknowledging my protests. We laughed and talked all day. Getting to know each other once again. We went to Lantern to eat dinner, and were happily surprised to see a band performing for the night. We danced and held each other close, finally happy to be right where we belonged.

We were seated at the table eating our dinner, when I decided to ask about Alice and the bruises that he was always coming back with. It was an issue I really couldn’t get past, so I needed to ask about it. I turned towards him, and made sure my focus was completely on him. He turned towards me as well, and I could tell from his expression that he knew I was going to start asking questions.

“So, I know you don’t want to talk about everything that happened. I can accept that. What I can’t, is how much you changed after that day at your mom’s house,” I looked away, and let myself think about how I was going to say the rest of my sentence. I swallowed, and decided that I needed to know. “Alice told me you cheated on her and that’s why things ended between the two of you. I guess, I just want to know if you and Alice still were hooking up and all while we were together.”

I felt his body tense, and then relax when he took my chin in his hand and made me look at him. He leaned in and kissed the side of my mouth before letting go. I kept my eyes on him. He sighed and then took a deep breath.

“Jo, I never cheated on Alice in high school. She took a liking to my older brother, and was hooking up with him behind my back. I didn’t really care ‘cause all we had was a little fling, so I said we should just stay friends. I haven’t been with her like that since high school. We are strictly friends.” He leaned in and kissed my lips softly. “I wouldn’t do that to you, love. I’ve had a taste of Josie, and everything else is too bland to compare.”

Blake gave me a smirk before running his nose into my hair and breathing me in. It was sweet, and romantic for him to say that to me. He may have me bewitched, but I wasn’t quite finished yet.

“What about the bruises? And why were you always with Alice? I wanted to be there for you, and you acted like she was the only one who could help you.” I was still smarting over that. I wanted to be the one that he could turn to. He pulled back and tucked some of my hair behind my ear.

“Alice’s dad owns an underground gym where people like me can go and get some fighting in. It’s right next to their house, and I went there to let off some steam. I could beat the shit out of guys to get out some of my anger, I guess. I don’t really know how to explain it, but it helped. Or at least I thought it did. I still lost you, so I don’t really think that’d be considered helping.”

I didn’t really know if it helped or not. It made sense. I could completely understand needing an outlet to help focus better. I also understood the need to get out anger and hurt through exercise or in his case, fighting.

“I get it Blake,” I said and leaned into his chest. “I just wish you would have let me help. You could have gone to some of my classes with me.”

“I could have, but then I would have had to kick your butt, and I didn’t want to hurt your feelings,” he joked. “I really am sorry, Jo. I didn’t feel like I deserved you, so I tried to stay away.”

“You’re the only person I want, Blake,” I admitted.

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When night came, Blake stayed with me in my bed, and talked to me late into the night.

“I loved those books,” I said turning into him. “I waited anxiously every week for a new one to pop up. It gave me so much to look forward to, and some of them really helped whenever I was having a shitty week.”

He stroked my hair and kissed the top of my head. “That’s what I was hoping for. I love you so much. I don’t want to lose you again. We’ll get through whatever shit happens from now on.” He grabbed my chin and made me look at him. He kissed me once, and then pulled back to look at me intently.

“That’s a fucking promise, Josie.”

Chapter 28

April 2 years earlier

“I got into a gallery to show some of my photography!” Seth barged into our apartment and announced loudly to me.

It was just me and Brooke in the living room, but you would have thought there was a full blown party raging from how loud he announced his news.

“Holy shit! Seth! That’s awesome,” I shrieked, jumping off of the couch to run to him. He picked me up and spun me around. This was huge for him. It could mean a lot of things for his career, after graduation next month. He put me down after a few turns, and I couldn’t help myself from doing a little happy dance for him.

“Where? When? What are you going to show?” I asked in between happy dancing. Seth’s smile lit up his whole face.

We both had fallen back into our roles as friends easily, and didn’t talk about what had happened before school started ever again. At first, he had kept his distance, but it seemed like our self-defense classes always helped us get back onto good terms. I guess forcing us to be close together and relate on a common issue was beneficial to our friendship. When he found out Blake and I had gotten back together, I didn’t hear from him for a week, but he came back around eventually, never explaining his distance.

I didn’t think he disliked Blake, but I could tell that they weren’t going to be the best of friends either. Seth and Brandon seemed to hit it off really well though. Brooke and Brandon had become inseparable in the last few months. They were officially a couple, and they made it known everywhere. The kitchen. The living room. The bathroom. The balcony. I even caught them going at it in my bedroom once. They said they were looking for a book and got distracted. I just rolled my eyes and kicked them out.

“Well, it’s right before graduation. Like, the weekend before. My professor got me a chance to show for one night at Artspace. He said there could be potential offers for more work if I do it. People are going to see my work, Pussy Cat!” he exclaimed, picking me up again. When he put me down, he wrapped me in a big hug and placed excited kisses all over my face. I laughed at his silly behavior, but stopped when I turned and saw someone I didn’t hear come in.

Apparently in the excitement, I didn’t hear Blake and Brandon walk into the apartment, and therefore didn’t think to stop Seth from kissing me like that in front of them. Blake’s face was stormy, but I didn’t understand why. He knew Seth was my best friend, and he had no reason to be upset. Except maybe if he knew about the two of us, but there was no way he did.

“Hey baby,” I said and walked out of Seth’s hold on me and over to him. Blake kept his eyes hard and dangerous on Seth until I wrapped my small body around his. “Seth was just telling us that he got a spot in a gallery showing in a couple weeks.”

I had hoped my explanation of our behavior would help the situation, but everyone could feel the tension in the air. Seth’s mood did a one-eighty, looking pissed and hurt. It was some kind of telepathic war going on between them. I was in the middle. I turned Blake as hard as I could so that he would focus on me.

“What’s wrong?” I whispered. He looked down on me and his eyes softened at my worried expression. He seemed to shake off any anger that he may have had.

“Nothing, love. That’s great news.” He wrapped a possessive arm around me, and looked back at Seth. “Congrats, man.” Seth gave him a curt nod, and then got run over by Brandon giving him a tackle-like man hug.

“Yeah, dude! That’s sweet. Can’t wait to see that. You should show some of those sexy pictures you take of those hot women. I’d buy one of them,” he said with a laugh. The laugh died in his throat when Brooke came up to him and wacked him across the head.

We went the rest of the night without any more awkward male hormonal eye fighting, and had a good time celebrating Seth’s new journey. Brooke and I decided we could put a hold on our studies for one night, and drank with everyone else.

We had our own little party inside of the apartment. I drank way too much, and had to pee for like the fourth time in that hour. I went to the bathroom, the room spinning as soon as I closed the door. A trip to the bathroom seemed to always reveal how drunk I actually was. When I walked out, I ran into Seth.

“Hey yoooouuuu…. Rockstar,” I slurred to him. He laughed and held me steady.

“Watch it Pussy Cat, you look like you might black out any second.”

“I’ve got walls to help support me. No need to worry,” I said, raising my chin as if I had made a perfectly valid argument. I started to walk away, but he grabbed my elbow and pulled me back. I felt sick. That was not the right movement. I braced myself against him, using his shoulders to balance, then looked up at him. He was smiling down at me, and let me use him to help me keep my balance.

“I’ll walk you back out there,” he said. “I need to ask you something first.”

“Okayyyy… go ahead, ask away.”

“I was hoping I could use those pictures we took together last summer, in the showcase,” he said. I had not expected him to say that, but my mind was too foggy to fully comprehend his question. I tilted my head and just stared at him.

“I’ve edited them, and no one will be able to tell it’s you. They may be able to tell it’s me from the tattoos, but they definitely won’t know it’s you,” he said trying to convince me. I thought about it for a few seconds and decided in my drunken state that it shouldn’t be that big of a deal for him to show them at the gallery. If no one would know, then what was the big deal?

“Okay,” I said with a shrug. “As long as no one knows it’s me.” He helped me back into the living room, where Blake took over the duty of taking care of wasted Josie. I fell asleep with a smile thinking about how great of a night it had been with the people I loved most in the world.

*             *             *

I was coming up on closing the chapter of my college career, and I was feeling nervous and excited. I had been able to secure a job with the school that I did my student teaching for, and I was excited about having such a great opportunity right out of college. I started looking into getting my Master’s degree, so I could quickly move forward with following my new dreams of being a school guidance counselor. Seth, Brooke, and I all finished our finals for the year, and felt a huge wave of relief knowing that we were finished with school.

It was the weekend of Seth’s gallery showing, and we were all anxious to see what he had chosen to put in the showcase. He kept pretty mum about what he would be showing, so I didn’t know if he was going to show off his exhibitionist side, or his naturalistic side.

I dressed in a black baby doll dress with black heels, and smoky eye makeup. I was feeling really good about myself. Blake came up behind me, always looking handsome in black slacks and black dress shirt. He looked incredible in anything, but he looked downright delicious in that moment. He wrapped his arms around me as I finished playing with my hair in the mirror.

“You look unbelievable, Jo,” he said, and nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck. I put my head to the side so I could enjoy the feeling of his lips grazing my skin. He pressed himself into my back, and I instantly believed that he thought I looked good that night, because I felt how hard he was for me.

“Mmmm…” I moaned, and grinded against his hard on. “You look fairly handsome too, if I do say so myself.”  He laughed into my neck, continuing to make motions with his tongue against my skin. I moaned again. His tongue did amazing things to my body. I turned around and pressed up against him. I knew we didn’t have much time before we had to leave, but I was going to pleasure him before we did.