The Fighter Pilot's Baby: A BWWM Military Pregnancy Romance (15 page)

*****

Alex drove to his
apartment without the radio. He needed time to think. Bianca was
definitely not fine with what happened, and yet she pretended it was
for the best. And she looked different, he just couldn’t figure
out why. Slamming his hand against the steering wheel, Alex cursed.
Where did they go wrong? Last night, and the worry and anxiety of
where Bianca was and who she was with returned. She made him lose his
trust in her, that’s what went wrong. How was he even sure she
wasn’t with someone else last night and that was why she broke
it off so easily. Alex shook his head, no, she looked devastated by
the breakup, with dark smudges under her chocolate brown eyes that
were red rimmed and puffy from continued crying. A woman who was
cheating didn’t cry when the man she cheated on broke up with
her. Bianca wasn’t like that and Alex knew it. So why was he so
quick to jump to that conclusion? Images of his first serious
relationship, fresh out of high school before he joined the Air
Force, popped into his head. Kate was also beautiful and appeared
innocent. But that wasn’t the truth. She cheated behind his
back for months while they dated and made a fool of Alex. That’s
why he jumped to conclusions. But Alex knew he was wrong, and Kate
wasn’t the rule but the exception. Bianca was nothing like her
and he fucked up last night. Sighing, Alex made a u-turn. He wasn’t
going to let Bianca slip through his fingers, especially not on
Christmas Eve.

*****

A soft knock sounded
on the door a half hour later as Bianca was stepping into the living
room. When Alex left all she wanted to do was hide in her room and
eat the clichéd ice cream and cookie dough. But she didn’t.
She got her ass off of the bed and took a shower and decided to bake
cookies with the damn dough instead. Then she would drop them off to
someone who really wanted them. It was Christmas Eve after all and
what was Christmas without cookies. Before the fight, Bianca and Alex
had planned on cooking a nice dinner and the next day exchanging
gifts and visiting their prospective families together to make the
relationship ‘official’. But now Bianca would have to go
to her mom’s broken and pregnant and alone. The idea made her
cringe because her mom, the serial monogamist, would instantly try to
hook her up with someone else all while berating her for getting
‘knocked up’ without a ring. Shaking her head at the
absurdity and deciding to stay home and eat all of the cookies by
herself, Bianca started toward the door. She peeped through the
peephole and gasped; Alex came back.

Bianca
swung
the door
open and stood there staring at him, the cold crisp air wrapping
around her like an icy blanket and causing her to shiver. “Come
in,”
she
mumbled, running her hands over her cold arms where goose bumps had
formed.

Alex nodded,
stepping and closing the door tightly. “I shouldn’t have
left before. Bianca, we need to talk.”

“Alex, I’m
not sure what you want to talk about. We covered it all last night.
You aren’t happy and I’m holding you back. Why would you
come back here? I’m having a hard enough time as it is,”
Bianca said, regretting the last sentence the moment it left her
mouth. Her words came out harsher than she intended but she had to
let him know how she felt, he said his piece and it was time to say
hers.

Alex’s head
snapped up, and he looked her in the eye, his gaze so intense that
she had to look away. “Look at me, Bianca. I didn’t want
to end us, you did.”

“If you wanted
to be with me, Alex, then why did you say such awful things to me the
last time we spoke?” Bianca began to sob, her hormones taking
over. She cursed her stupid hormones and looked at her feet.

Without warning,
Alex was in front of her, his arms gathering her to his chest. As
much as she wanted to fight him, she didn’t, because if she was
being honest, it felt so damn good to be held by him.

“I didn’t
mean it. I know it’s hard to believe but I was so lonely in the
Air Force. When I found you I knew I didn’t want to go back. I
ran away from something that wasn’t even close to what we have
and I almost gave us up because I was comparing you to her. Truth be
told, she couldn’t hold a candle to you, Bianca. You’re
it for me. I love you,” Alex said, his mouth pressed against
her hair.

Bianca tried not to
seem surprised at his declaration. She wanted to tell him she loved
him for weeks but was too afraid that after losing the baby the words
would seem forced or weak. Almost losing him was enough for her. She
had to say the words or she would never forgive herself.

“I love you
too, Alex.” At this point tears were falling from her eyes,
“And I never wanted to break up, I just thought it was what you
wanted so I pretended I was okay with it.”

Alex didn’t
speak again; he just bent over her and slammed his mouth into hers.
Bianca reciprocated, pushing her tongue at the seam of his lips.
Damn, it felt so good to be in his arms again. Before she could think
about what would happen next, Alex swept her into his arms and
hurried up the stairs. He placed her on the bed and began to strip
and Bianca did the same. Within seconds they were both naked and Alex
was settled over top of her, his hard erection pressing at her
entrance. Bianca opened her legs wider, and lifted her hips, giving
him the go ahead to proceed. Alex plunged into her and she cried out
with pleasure, missing his body with hers, even if it had only been a
few days. Their lovemaking was slow and torturous but also gentle. It
was a making up, and coming back together as well as a profession of
their love for one another. When they were through, and Bianca was
spent, she rested her head on his chest; all thoughts of lonely
Christmases and baking cookies forgotten.

*****

The next morning,
Bianca was awakened by a kiss to her lips, a sweet peck that made her
feel like a princess in a fairy tale. Alex was back and it was
Christmas. Her eyes flew opened when she remembered the gift she got
him two days ago that sat wrapped and waiting under her Christmas
tree. Sitting up quickly she turned to Alex.

“Merry
Christmas! I have a gift for you downstairs.” Bianca said
cheerfully, hopping up from the bed.

“Really?”
Alex
asked,
stretching his long limbs out on the bed lazily.

“Yes!”
She exclaimed pulling his hand as if to make him get up. “What
do you think I was doing that night I was out so late?”

Alex
cocked an eyebrow at her and grinned sheepishly. “Well now I
feel like an ass,”
he
said a look of chagrin passing over his face.

Bianca waved his
statement off. “It was a misunderstanding that blew up. I’m
over it if you are?” She asked hopefully.

Alex nodded, kissing
her hand. He sat up and pulled on a pair of sweats and a t-shirt and
Bianca did the same. They walked down the steps hand in hand and
stopped at the tree. Bianca stooped, picking up a small box wrapped
in Christmas paper and handed it to Alex.

“Here you go.
Hurry and open it!” She said excitedly.

*****

Alex smirked at her
excitement and began to unwrap the paper slowly, knowing it was
killing her. Inside the paper was a small white non descript box. Now
curious, Alex ripped it open. What lay inside made his heart stop. A
tiny sterling silver rattle was nestled on a bed of white tissue
paper.

“What’s
this?” He asked with confusion.

“Just read the
inscription,” Bianca urged, angling her head towards the
rattle.

Merry
Christmas, Daddy.

Alex’s head
snapped up so fast he almost got whiplash. Daddy? Did that mean...

“I’m
pregnant, Alex!” Bianca exclaimed, jumping into his arms.

Shock kept Alex from
responding even as he held her tightly.

“Aren’t
you happy?” She asked, pulling away from him with a frown.

What was he doing?
“Of course I am. I was just shocked that’s all. When did
you find out? How far along are you?” He asked, the idea
finally sinking in.

They were going to
have a baby. They were finally going to have a baby!

“That
afternoon,” Bianca said and she didn’t have to elaborate.

He felt like the
biggest asshole on the planet. Here he thought she was cheating on
him and she was at the doctor’s and getting him gifts.

“Why didn’t
you tell me? I would have gone with you.” Alex said, taking her
hand in his and pressing a kiss to her palm.

“I wanted to
be sure, after last time…” And suddenly he understood.

*****

Bianca waited
patiently for his reaction, besides the immediate shock. Alex stood
and knelt before her, wrapping his arms around her and bringing her
in for a sweet kiss.

“I’m so
sorry, baby. I feel like such an asshole. Here I am accusing you of
cheating and you were at the doctor and buying me Christmas gifts to
surprise me. And you were probably so nervous. I wish you had told
me.” He said, resting his hand on her lower abdomen.

Bianca sighed, the
feeling of contentment washing over her like nothing else she’d
ever felt before. “I wanted to. I almost did several times, but
I had to make sure that the baby was okay first. You understand,
right?”

Alex
nodded. “ I have a gift for you too,”
he
said, standing and reaching into the pocket of his sweats.

He pulled out a tiny
box and Bianca’s heart stopped. Was that what she thought it
was?

Alex knelt back down
and Bianca’s heart began to pound. “Bianca, from the
moment I saw you, I knew you were special, someone that I shouldn’t
let go. Being the idiot I am I almost did. But I’m not doing
that again. I love you, and I want to spend every waking moment I
have left with you and only you. Will you marry me?” He opened
the box and the light from the Christmas tree caught the diamond,
making it shine like it was lit itself.

Bianca nodded
vigorously, too choked up on the lump in her throat to speak.

“Is that a
yes?” Alex asked with a bit of anxiety in his voice.

Bianca nodded again,
“Yes, Alex. I’ll marry you.” She said, tears
welling in her eyes.

Alex stood, a wide
smile spreading across his face. He slipped the ring on her finger
and gathered her in his arms. He kissed her passionately and held her
close. After several minutes he let go and just stood back and looked
at her.

“When did you
get this?” Bianca asked, staring down at the ring with awe. It
was beautiful.

“I’ve
had it for about a month but I wanted to make sure you were ready. I
had planned on proposing on Christmas Eve but after our fight
everything got turned around. I’m glad I was able to do it
today though, after what you just told me I couldn’t think of a
better time.”

Bianca smiled
broadly, “Me too. I love you, Alex.”

“I
love you too, Bianca,”
he
answered, pulling her in for another kiss. “I also got a new
job,”
he
added with a smirk

“What? When?”
Bianca asked with surprise.

“Several weeks
ago, I just finished my training to become the pilot for helicopters
and planes that were sent out with paramedics, similar to Flight for
Life.”

“That’s
so awesome, babe!” Bianca exclaimed, hugging him again.
Everything was falling into place.

They spent the rest
of the day at home, just being with each other and making plans for
the future. Bianca couldn’t remember a time when she felt more
comfortable or peaceful. That night as she went to sleep she placed a
hand on her stomach and laid her head on Alex’s chest. Finally
she had everything she wanted and she was never going to let it go.

Epilogue

Bianca and Alex
linked arms as the sun set on the airfield in front of them. Several
fighter pilots were walking away from the crowd, sniffs and snorts of
the remaining people echoing around them. Bianca wiped away her own
tears as they glided down her cheek and looked up at Alex. He looked
so proud. Catching her eye, Alex leaned down and pressed a kiss to
her forehead.

“He’ll
be alright, baby,” he whispered in her ear.

Bianca nodded,
wiping her remaining tears. In the distance she watched as their son
turned just before he reached the plane. His short dark hair cropped
close to his head and his inevitably blue eyes shining in the waning
sun that highlighted the bronze of his skin. She locked eyes with him
and smiled as he blew her a kiss and saluted his father. Alex saluted
back and cleared his throat trying to hide that he was getting choked
up as well. After all of the years and all of the memories, Bianca
still couldn’t let go of the fact that her baby was leaving her
for good. Sighing she turned to Alex before another round of tears
began to fall.

“Let’s
go, I can’t bear to watch him board the plane,” She said
her throat tightening.

Alex nodded,
grabbing her elbow. Despite what she said, Bianca turned around just
as he boarded, one more tear falling. Alex stopped and wiped it away.

“We did well,
Bianca. He’s leaving now but he’ll be back.”

Bianca nodded and
gripped Alex’s arm again. They walked slowly back to the car,
arm in arm, Bianca leaning her head on his shoulder. Love was a crazy
thing, and when you weren’t looking, you found the one who
completed your soul and gave you something even greater to love
together.

The end.

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